This passage from Two Flutes Playing by Andrew Ramer is central to and reflective of my personal experience and understanding of AIDS. I’d like to suggest, however, that you read COVID-19 wherever it says AIDS below and see the parallel, hear the lessons.
AIDS (and COVID-19) is a planetary experiment, an experiment in consciousness. All human beings are involved in it, in and out of bodies. All human beings are involved in this experiment, some directly and others less directly. Those at the front line are actively working in their own ways to further planetary transformation. Some will do it through their work, others will do it through the work they inspire in others. But no one is immune, no one is not a part of this experiment. It is an experiment in love and in compassion. It is an experiment in shifting consciousness. Many out of bodies support you in your research. Together, we can all evolve in consciousness.
The gay community in this land is participating directly in this experiment for a combination of reasons. On a body consciousness level, self-internalized rage and shame have weakened certain individuals’ immune systems to the point where microscopic entities have attacked them. But those same individuals, paradoxically, have responded to something deeper in themselves, to an ancient tribal knowledge that goes back to the beginning of this era of human history.
Gay people have specific functions that grow out of our vibratory essence. The vibratory essence of male and female are not the same. The vibratory essence of those who are drawn to their own gender in love are not the same as those who are drawn to the other gender. Gay people are healers and creators, using our energy to serve humanity. We do not have to list the great gay artists. We may have to remind you that shamans in many places were gay. But few if any will remember that for much of the Ice Ages, gay people often served as tribal midwives. Not midwives for those being born, but midwives for those who were dying. Some of the fear of gay people to this day is the lingering whiff of death and transformation unconsciously detected.
Death is a shift in focus. When you are dreaming, you are already a little bit dead—you are conscious without a body. Death is a shift in focus, as birth is. One takes you into physicality, the other leads you out. But to be human, fully human, is to know both. As it is equally a part of being human to have male and female lives, straight and gay lives.
All those whose intrinsic capacity for love turns toward members of their own gender are consciousness scouts. They explore the terrain of what it means to be a woman or a man, or both. But they also have other skills as a people, as a sub-tribe, that need to be remembered and honored, by themselves and by the world.
AIDS (and COVID-19) is a planetary experiment designed to see whether or not human beings can shift their consciousness from a divisive mode to an all-embracing one. Every human being on the planet is a participant. Not just the individuals who “have” AIDS. We in subtle bodies are as much participants as you in physical form. This experiment is our chance to change human life upon this world. It’s Phase One Intensified of the last chance. If you love your body, if you love the body of the being you call Earth, then there can be only one outcome—Transformation.
AIDS (and COVID-19) is a planetary experiment. It is an experiment in love and compassion. It is an experiment to see whether the mass of human beings can change their consciousness levels to a point of love and understanding that embraces all human beings. Those who play host to this experiment may be female or male, black, brown, red, yellow or white, rich or poor—but they all have one thing in common—which may not be readily apparent on the outside—they feel that they do not belong here. As if that could be true of anyone who is born here. But they feel it. And in surrendering their bodies to what is often a fatal illness, they offer themselves up to this experiment, and must be applauded