World AIDS Day: Chatting with the Spirits

I am a Long Term AIDS Survivor and these are my thoughts at World AIDS Day 2025, 30 years after my Accelerated Individual Discovery of Self:

Sooner or later the people of the world will wake up to the fact that spirit is what we are, not matter. We are blind to this because in modern society our consciousness is in general operating within a limited frequency range, held in place by collective beliefs and, arguably, mass mind control via the media and other institutions, such as religion and academia. But possibly the collectively held limiting beliefs are the complete cause of the delusion, no dark players required. We’re all in this together.

Sooner or later we will all get that life is a manifestation of consciousness, not consciousness a manifestation of physical life. Why do I predict this? Because that is what happened to me.

Educated in the 1970s, I believe my generation was basically forced to make a choice between religion and reason, faith and science. We were not told about the rich British history of mysticism, paganism, magical paths and spiritual teachers, we were only taught about Christianity and science. No wonder most of us became atheists. I closed my mind to the big questions of life, and got on with enjoying it. I believed life was a meaningless, random event so why would I obey rules put on me that went against my nature? I came out at 21, dropped out of the career trajectory after university, went to London to learn about love and life itself.

At 25 I was told I was HIV+ and had probably 7 years left to live. I took this in my stride, resolving to keep living and loving to the maximum of my ability. Five years later, as my health deteriorated, I suddenly wanted to know why we are alive in the first place — and was death real? I picked up books on meditation, witchcraft and the tao — and surrendered my mind to the possibility of a Higher Self as the trials of AIDS set in; my body was getting sick but my spirit and mind came alive as never before. I dropped atheistic beliefs and opened to possibility — immediately the light came in. The revelation was immense. The realisation was instant. This is a sample of what I wrote as my perspective on life lifted to places I’d not known existed.

Chatting With The Spirits

Spirits meet in the ether, the dimension of their own

They do not need to be in bodies, to know themselves at home.

Our rational brains, our imperfect forms

trap our spirits in problems, set up false norms,

but the memory lives within us, we know what it’s like

to live in eternity, to love and not fight.

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There is space for us all, enough light to go round

we can all know the secret, we’re not stuck to the ground.

I take hold of my life, choose its direction

I leave behind me, thoughts of pain and dejection.

As I move through the world may I offer the feeling of love

that exists in us all, not just in a heaven above.

We are Creation, we are Water and Earth

We are Fire and Air, from the moment of birth.

When our bodies grow old, or sick with despair

their spirits must leave, return to the air.

They leave behind substance, take up their true form

they dance in higher dimensions, back to their norm.

It will happen to all of us, everyone is the same –

We are all made of star stuff, and life on earth is our game.

Game played by spirits, fulfilling an ultimate plan,

we are all in the game, plant, animal and human.

When we return to the cosmos, all will become clear

but if we look into our minds, we’ll find the truth here.

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Nothing exists without everything else:

So never see only objects.

Feel how everything fits together

and keep all beings as subjects.

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Open out those memories

When it’s time to spring clean

no skeletons in closets

let them all be seen.

Know you’ve been here before

and may not come again

as we find liberation

we’ll know now and then.

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Know that we were of One Spirit

many centuries before the madness

we had knowledge and power

but not understanding.

Now we complete the journey

on which living death was essential

we slowly awake to immortality

and realise our potential.

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I CAME TO SEE HIV AS A CALLING TO KNOW OUR SOULS

TO FACE MORTALITY

AND BREAK THROUGH THE ILLUSIONS, CONFUSION AND LIES OF OUR TIME

REGARDING THE NATURE OF SELF AND SPIRIT.

HIV IS A CALL TO TURN INWARDS

TO FACE THE SELF

FIND ITS MOTIVATIONS, BLISS, DEEPEST DESIRES AND BRING THEM FORTH.

HIV IS A WAKE UP CALL — for individuals but also for humanity –

TO SEE WE NEED NOURISHING IN SOUL

AS WELL AS BODY.

WE CAN BE OPEN TO THE POSSIBILITY THAT THERE IS NO DEATH

ONLY A SHIFT IN PERSPECTIVE

OVERCOME FEAR AND FACE THE SHADOW

EMBRACE THE LIGHT AND GROW

HEALING IS VITAL

“Let he who would be free from the bonds of darkness first divine the material from the immaterial, the fire from the earth. For know ye that as earth descends to earth so also fire ascends to fire and becomes one with fire. He who knows the fire within himself shall ascend into the eternal fire and dwell in it eternally. Fire, the inner fire, is the most potent of all force, for it overcometh all things and penetrates into all things of the earth….

“Man is a fire burning bright through the night, never is quenched through the veil of darkness, never is quenched by the veil of night. ….. Man is a star bound to a body, until he is freed through his strife…only by struggling and toiling to the utmost shall the star within thee bloom out in new life. He who knows the commencement of all things shall free his star from the realms of night.”

EMERALD TABLET 4, THOTH (A’an communications translation)