I am Shokti, Awakener and Explorer of Spirit and Consciousness since 1995, when I experienced a complete dissolution of everything I believed about life, of who I thought I was and why we exist when the ravages of AIDS brought me to the threshold between the worlds..  Yet rather than killing me, AIDS was to be my awakener, to be my Accelerated Individual Discovery of Self.

In 1995 I entered into a five year inner journey, a cocoon called AIDS in which I would transform from gay caterpillar, innocently and ignorantly chewing away at life, into rainbow butterfly ready to fly.  Spirit guides were with me all the way, communicating through signs, wonders and voices.  I dived into a study of the world’s mystical, spiritual, religious and magical paths, applying the skill-set that a degree in History at Cambridge University had given me and set about entering into multi-dimensional reality.

At 30 years old I realised how I had been ‘educated’ at school to ‘believe in’ science – aged 12 I had decided I was an atheist, and the Christianity that had added sparkle to my childhood was gone.  While reading for my history degree I was horrified by how much of human history is one long war between various belief systems for supremacy, this had affirmed my atheism and alignment with the modern world’s sense of secular superiority.  What I see now is that science had trained me to stop thinking for myself, instead to simply buy into what the modern priests were telling the world is true, and that historians have also long been reflecting and serving the patriarchy too.

My Books

Aids Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening (ebook)
AIDS Shaman 3: Dimensional Shift
Aids Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening
AIDS Shaman 3: Dimensional Shift (ebook)
AIDS Shaman 2: Through the Veils
AIDS Shaman 2: Through The Veils (ebook)


A crucial aspect of Aquarian energy, which is acknowledged but generally underplayed by astrologers, and largely lost to the many of the people it most affects, is revealed in the mythology behind the sign.

The mythology of Aquarius is the story of Zeus, king of the gods, falling for shepherd boy Ganymede, transforming himself into an eagle to swoop down and whisk the boy to the heavens where he became cup-bearer to the gods. When the goddess Hera became jealous Ganymede was forced to move on, but Zeus placed him in the sky forever as the water bearer constellation Aquarius. Planet Earth is currently on the zodiacal cusp transitioning from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius. The rise of human rights, gender equality, digital technology and gay liberation are all signs of this shift beginning in the second half of the 20th century.

Aquarius is the sign of group consciousness. The urge to gather, dance and liberate the ecstatic spirit in the body never went away despite the religious suppression of pagan rites, and in fact it found a new way to burst forth in the 20th century through rock and dance music – raves in the 1990s were for many participants the most religious experiences of their lives. The arriving age of Aquarius is both an age of individual spirituality and collective experience that takes us into ecstatic loving communion, which liberate the soul energy within us. The controlling powers of the past are crumbling, but as yet little has appeared to take their place. We have to find our own light at this time on planet earth, but then be sure to shine it on and with others, for together we ascend, together we make the nightmare end, together we step through the astrological portals into the New (Still Dawning) Age.

This applies to everybody on the planet, but especially to LGBT – Queer people, because we are the ones whose roots, whose spirit, whose history and nature have been the most denied and suppressed. We need spirituality in our lives desperately, or we risk our spirit being consumed by the consumer culture, being moulded into copies of heterosexuals, when in fact our job here is to wake them up to the fact they too are in reality so much more than they think are.

The 5th Dimensional Aquarian Awakening is coming to the planet – watch this space – follow this blog – for more.



In the ancient wisdom tradition astrology, Saturn was long considered to be the ruling planet of Aquarius, but the discovery of Uranus in 1781 led to this unusual planet being assigned the role. Uranus is unique as the only planet in our solar system that rotates on its horizontal axis. He literally rolls through theContinue reading “URANUS”

Conversation with God

In the year 2000 I was emerging from five years in a transformational cocoon called AIDS, wondering how to integrate the cosmic experiences I had been having with being part of the world and joining the living again. The series of Conversations with God books by Neale Donald Walsch were a vital source of insightContinue reading “Conversation with God”

Twenty Twenty OneNess

I’ve long dreamed of a holy Yuletide – a world at Peace and Oneness widely felt, since I discovered Sacred Presence for myself: long dreamed of humanity in deep appreciation of our part in the Divine Mystery and the miracle of Creation. . In 2020 we stopped, Christmas was cancelled for the first time sinceContinue reading “Twenty Twenty OneNess”

YULE 2020

Yule trees shine on silent streets, Within ourselves this year we have to find The Holy Presence of the Yuletide. For some that presence is found in a virgin birth, For others it’s found through Saturnalian mirth – It’s really about the return of the Sun/Son, The Divine Child, the Light of the Soul, TheContinue reading “YULE 2020”


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“We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race. The Self is entering into relation with the Body. For, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not a toy and a chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manefestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities…”

–Edward Carpenter

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Queer Spirit
Shokti Blog
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Queer Spirit Youtube

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Shokti Lovestar
London, UK