Presenting my first book to the world… available now as ebook, print version coming… my awakening to the spiritual realms began while sick with AIDS in the 1990s… Here is a collection of my poetry and prose to make you think about the role gay/queer people play in the human story, plus inspiration from queer ancestors, prophets and teachers.
Preview glimpse into the contents…..
HIV was the catalyst that led to my interest in spirituality: the threat of death led me to search for meaning in life. Given a positive diagnosis in 1990, by ’95 I was becoming symptomatic and was considered a PWA (Person With AIDS). I left my job, got my debts written off by telling the bank I was leaving the world, and turned my mind to the big question – why, I asked for the first time in my life, did I exist in the first place? I had held a firmly rational, materialist, atheistic view since the age of 12, but now, at 30, an understandably urgent need for spiritual answers arose in me. I plunged into a study of the worlds’ religions, into pagan magic and new age teachings, soon sensing a mystical core common to all. I began to open my mind and heart to the possibility of something more, to the possibility of a purpose behind our apparently random existence here on planet earth, to the idea of a beneficent divine presence giving rise to that existence.
All life’s crises hold an opportunity
nothing is ever only dark or light
HIV can awaken our spiritual sight.
Gays don’t like religion, thank goddess for that
we prefer to think for ourselves
and that’s where it’s at
we come out because we touch the truth inside
and that’s where we find our love and our pride
if we learn to listen to the soul, as we did as a child
all the answers we seek are there….
Calling to the Witch in every Queer
To the Priestess in every Lesbian
To the Shaman in every Gay barman
The Divine Mother in every Bear
The Abbot in every Faggot
The Deity in every Dyke
The Radical in every Faerie
It’s time for the QUEER PEOPLES OF PLANET EARTH TO COME HOME
,,,and the time must come
after all the parties
all the drugs
after the dying years
and a decade of decadence
the time comes, can only come
when the gay phoenix rises
after centuries of death
across the planet
the rainbow serpent
unicorn lion and bear
the return of the shamans
We’ve been hidden for so long in every race on earth
waiting for the globe to shrink so we can find each other
pathological said the shrinks
sinners said the church
we have to fight for equality
and in ourselves we have to search
for the answers to why we we’re here
for the secrets of being Queer.
This is the calling of the twenty first century queer: to learn to unite the sexual and the spiritual, and find the balancing, healing, role we play in the human family…. to remember, recover and renew our QUEER SPIRIT
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Wow! Congratulation, Shokti!!! Can’t wait to read it. You’re such an inspiration!!!