It will be sensational

when we realise that life is vibrational,

that germs and viruses were all in the mind!

There’s a deeper reality to which we’ve been blind.

In the search for a material source

humanity got veered off course

into a belief system that separates, divides

that denies that existence is divine.

Science is our modern mythology

but science can not explain

what makes you you and me me.

When we reach the cosmic level of awareness

and realise the whole world is inside us,

that these bodies are focal points of consciousness and love

and our souls connect both below and above

to layers of being that we can explore

by turning inside ourselves and opening the door

to the multidimensional reality,

then we will sense the frequencies that cause

health or disease, make life better or worse,

then we will measure the vibrations and see

it’s through our own minds and hearts

that we become healthy, abundant and free.

Tell the Children

Tell the children there’s another story –

let them know they are born for glory

because although the times seem dark,

there are other ways:

instead of conflict, corruption and greed –

that infected the world and sowed the seeds

of its own destruction –

there’s the Way of Love and Compassion

the Way of Knowledge and Wisdom

the Way of Service and

the Way of Self Discovery.

Find the Awakened Ones, throughout the ages,

the mystics, crones, poets and sages

who walked the path and risked the wrath

of authorities ecclesiastical and secular.

Gnostics and Heretics, Shamans and Witches

the heritage of the ages is hidden, but with us.

There’s always been a second story

to the one told in the history books,

there’s always been those who found the glory

of human birth and undertook

to leave a trace for the future race

to find their way back to interconnection,

who discovered liberation through introspection.

In the modern world we are supposed to do what we’re told:

get the qualifications, the job, the mortgage –

it’s no longer important we increase the population

so sexuality’s been allowed out of the closet

no longer considered to be only for reproduction,

recreational sex is all the rage,

some are fucking and buggering to their heart’s content,

escaping the fact the world’s to hell bent.

Tell the children it doesn’t have to be like this

that inside them lie doors to heavenly bliss:

love is the doorway that reveals life’s mystery,

sex as an act of worship can show us how good that is.

Meeting the world from the heart of compassion

is the call in this age of confusion.

Meeting each other as equal manifestations

of the holy spirit in all beings

is the way to escape the world’s state of delusion.

Tell the children life is designed to be fun

and the time of healing the earth has just begun.

Darkness ruled the world for a time

but in the end LOVE IS ALL and ALL SHALL BE FINE.

Tell the children that they are the next Love Generation –

they are born with skills to heal humanity’s separation

and they will find they have allies in every generation:

This awakening been going on for some time.

But now the stars are becoming aligned:

The old world struggles and dies

the new world is born on the inside.

Time for Love

‘What is time?
Is it eternity
In heaven
Or just a hope for peace on earth?’

Billy Porter sings out from the heart, as a liberated queer elder who has “been there, done that, worn that dress” to the young people of today to let their hearts open and their soul’s joyful spirit emerge.

In his song ‘Time’ he shares this deep truth…

‘Time for change
Its time to care
It’s not too late
Don’t despair
Reach inside your heart

To find the joy and love
To share with all mankind
For all we know

All we have
Is time’

Since the 1960s the Generations of Love have been waking up to the spiritual reality of life on this planet. But during the past 5 decades the reactionary conservative forces in society have been fighting hard to hold onto the old structures of control, competition and capitalist greed. A science based, materialist, patriarchal culture has maintained dominance over the spiritual aspect of human nature – the urge for peace, for harmony, for love.

During those decades each generation has brought a new wave of awakeners to the divine power of love and the deeper energies moving through human consciousness. I was partially awoken during the early days of house music, when lsd and the inspirational lyrics of those inspired songs led me to open up my mystical inner vision. Then the prospect of dying with AIDS motivated me to search for answers and understanding of those visions, and of the reason for being alive in the first place. Now as the future of life on earth starts to look uncertain, it’s high time the awakeners to love took centre stage in the world’s affairs.

We are alive in the 21st century to create a heart -centred civilisation. The entire 20th century has been a battle on this planet: the forces of love and compassion versus the forces of hate and fear.

The KLF sang “What Time Is Love?” on the early 90s dance floors, now Billy Porter sings “Gotta let these children know what time it is” in his new song:

Video to Children now available:

‘Some people criticize the way you live
But don’t you apologize, or dare submit
Baby, the children’s where the future is
See a change starts today, better wipe those tears away.

I lived a whole lotta life, I ain’t new to this
Lotta lows, lotta highs, I stay true to this
Take my hand, join the ride
You know you’ll have it figured out in time (Yeah)

See, I know times are hard (You’ll get through it, baby)
I mean it from the heart
You’re not losing the fight
Love will make it alright
‘Cause I’ve been there, done that
Worn that dress, so you know mama knows it best, I
Gotta let these children know what time it is
Gotta let these children know what time it is.’

Billy Porter is a RAINBOW MESSENGER, bringing joy, colour, love and HOPE to the world. It’s what queer people do.

Police State UK

Is there a police state coming?

The powers that be are scared:

the walls they built are crumbling

as the people become more aware

of the corruption and greed

and the urgent need

to change the way we are living;

become more aware

of inequality and impending doom

the end of life as we know it

could be coming soon.

The government is cracking down:

take out your ID and your vaccine pass

if you want to go out on the town;

a new war on drugs is promised

and the healing weed remains forbidden;

the government giving itself the right

to lock up protesters it doesn’t like;

it turns away desperate migrants

and treats the population as worker ants,

surveilled by technological eyes:

we are no longer free.

The powers that be are scared

and totally unprepared

to navigate the way ahead

as the system shakes and people wake up,

so they are choosing to clamp down on us instead.

The alternative would be a way of liberty,

freeing the chains that prevent creativity,

a focus on art as well as science

to liberate the soul inside us.

The alternative would be to listen to the wisdom

of the crones and the sages,

of the mystics of all ages

and hasten the end of the Piscean dreamtime –

celebrate the awakening that has long been happening,

helping human hearts to open and human minds to heal;

celebrate the awakening that has long been happening

hidden from the view of the mainstream world.

Human minds have been controlled by academia and media,

science became the new faith:

we have trusted our leaders and worked for the cause

but now the world has to change, take a new course:

LIBERTY! NOT MORE CHAINS! Humanity set free

from its religious cages and its soul death by reason,

a return of the Goddess, an end to the mess

of a world in a turmoil and run by greed,

instead we could attend to our real human needs

for love, compassion, community and peace:

the controls of a fear based leadership MUST CEASE.

But they won’t cease yet.

Control will tighten

Times can get tough

Until enough are enlightened

and living from love.

A revolution will come

in human understanding,

our leaders need to listen and learn

and let the Divine in.

Visionary Love

At the close of the 1970s, a decade into the journey of Gay Liberation, some queers were probing deep into the roots of gay nature, seeking to uncover forgotten truths about who we are and the roles we fulfil in the human family. Dissatisfied with the conventional, assimilationist direction of the liberation movement, these queers pushed for a spiritual vision that could encompass the fullness, the magnificence, the spirit of queerness. This vision took solid form as the now global Radical Faerie movement, which stands as an example of queers gathering together in non-commercial spaces to build and explore heart-centred, love and compassion focussed community living that embraces caring for the earth, reaching for the stars and communes with the invisible realms of ancestors and spirit.

The vision also appears in some books written in the 1970s – that brief, glorious gay decade when, for those brave enough to face the virulent homophobia of the time and come out, gay men could party without fear of a deadly sexually transmitted disease. These books form a canon of queer sacred texts, that are very different from those produced by religions! Witchcraft and the Gay Counter Culture by Arthur Evans, The Faggots and Their Friends Between Revolutions by Larry Kramer, Men Loving Men: A Gay Sex and Consciousness Book and Visionary Love by Mitch Walker could be said to be our four gospels.

In Visionary Love Gay shamanism is called “work in the mode of death, work with the dying, death of oneself.” Written in the 1970s as the HIV pandemic was brewing in the gay male community, this prescient vision was not really part of the conversation of the 1980s, when fighting for survival became the priority. HIV/AIDS kept the gay community focussed on the exterior struggle, but many of us who lived with AIDS and survived did so because we also took on the inner battle to liberate the Self. My own transformational journey took me over the Rainbow Bridge to a place of vision that completely changed my understanding of life. I died to my false sense of self, and my body survived, so that I might tell the tale. We are not who they say we are. It’s time we all knew it.

“Delightful communal Self realisation is the instantly real resurrection. Sorcerous faggot fighter is a menace to society, is a dangerous flaming phoenix, a glowingly rounded rebirth function, an extra-ordinary healing tool, a Rainbow-bridging eros-tool.”

Mitch felt motivated to write Visionary Love because:

“We gay men are at a key time in the evolution of our gay consciousness. We’ve been struggling to reach a great vision buried in us, which we first sensed only in the vaguest ways. … In the modern Gay Liberation Movement, the history of men’s struggles has been the history of groping towards our vision, sensing it in the values of androgyny, in revolution, in free sexuality. It has led us to Stonewall, to genderfuck, to the birth of a new gay culture.

“But during the past few years, it appeared that our movement ran out of steam; many militant groups faded, as did the brassy colourful rebels and our flagrant joyous celebrations. The seemed to be replaced by a new movement, the vocal gay Normals: fighting in the courts, the churches, the mental health professions, gaining advocate after advocate, victory after victory. It was as if the Homophile Movement for Equal Rights, taking new freedom from our radical flowering, thrust towards its goal of mainstream assimilation leading the mass of gays with them and deflowering our movement, the movement toward our vision.

“The Homophile Movement is a dead thing: dead to the gay vision, anti-magickal, counter-revolutionary. Its spokespeople and theorists shun the roots (the radical, source of nurturance and understanding) in favour of surface values: the social norm, success, integration, acceptance, assimilation. Its shallow reality suffocates the vision in us, co-opting gay people and vitiating the creativity and potential of the Gay Movement.”

Four decades later, in the West at least, gay people have achieved a degree of acceptance and equality that the activists probably never imagined, even marriage is open to us now in many countries. Our situation globally is far from great however, and religiously inspired homophobia continues to darken queer lives. In 11 countries the death penalty for gay sex is still in place. It seems the question of who we are, what we are, why we are as we are, is still not settled. Instead of bewailing assimilation, perhaps we can appreciate that from this stronger base of societal acceptance that it is now time, as a global queer community, to address the roots of our nature and the roots of religious homophobia.

These writers all saw gayness itself as a path to self-knowledge, and queer people as nature people, who, like all indigenous folk, “see life as essentially Spirit-full and essentially good“, and whose destiny is to fulfil the dream of mystics throughout time as we break down the barriers that separate people and “remember we were really SPIRIT all along… then we will assume our responsibilities and complete our tasks in the kosmic scheme of things.”

Visionary Love by Mitch Walker (1980)

I know there exists a gayness, something separate from, and alien to straight modes of being. I know that this gayness excites incredulity, opposition, fear, anger and violence. But I also know that gayness inspires strength, love and profound visions in those who are of it. I can feel these vision in my heart.

I look into my heart and hear messages from beyond, beyond that phoney who-I-thought-I-was, beyond straight society, beyond western culture, beyond time and space. I see an ancient, ancient wise being in my Self, I see new forms of evolving conscious beings, new forms of society, culture, reality. I feel the strong presence of a great wheel turning, the wheel of death/rebirth.

I see visions that the life-source is changing, so that whatever is not of this Changing but is old and prior to it will be cut off, will run out of life and drop into extinction. I see gayness as very much a part of, caused by, leading into and through this Changing. I see gayness as a door, a source, a spirit, a lover, a teacher, or rather as sourcing, enspiriting, loving, teaching. It spirits me away somewhere magickal, strange, profound. I meet teaching wierdness, opening/expanding/dropping me into lights. I feel ecstasy, wonder, delight. I feel SPIRIT.

The sense of gayness as a Spirit path is growing….We discover anarcho-sissydom, life-loving faggotry and more.

Our straight socio-cultural enculturations have blinded us. We must turn to the freer world of our imagination, fantasy, dreams, myths…. Let us build fairy mythologies – gay ways of thinking and doing – to realise and protect our loving soulful brotherhood, to reclaim our Selves, recreate our culture, regain our heritage, remember our fates as beings of Spirit, wisdom, power compassion, truthfulness, light.

This book is myth-building in action… Herein lie fairy tales for reference, example and support in combatting that straight dark maze of manly engulfment… I’m building thoughts of paths to places/lives which do not exist in any straight world, which are simply nowhere. I suppose we could cal this gay theology, philosophy, psychology, politics, physics. But my desire is not to recreate straight academia, but turn you on. My desire is life, not death, freedom, not slavery, for all of us, equally.

I hope we will grow, flow, coagulate, build these loving healing supportive friendships, networks, matricies, homes, communities and non-institutions so vital for our survival. Let’s make living crystal balls, magickal doorways, transformational half-way houses, transmutational fairy cyclotrons. Let’s cross the abyss on silvery wings to new worlds/lost hoes and re/e/emerge with the Great Spirit of all. Let’s have mass migrations.

As we depart from straight realms our thoughts, languages, lifestyles, environments will all change. Periods of confusion and disorientation are inevitable. But keep in mind that, as a gay person, the trip from straight to gay is a healing journey, a journey to wholeness, to health… The prison walls of straight space, straight time will crumble. There are multitudes of dimensions, realities and beings in existence, and much may seem unbelievably or even terribly fantastic at first.

We will change, we will transmute ourselves. Like Native Americans and most all nature peoples we will come to see life as essentially Spirit-full and essentially good. The sun, moon and earth feed us, and we will learn that we are each sun, moon, earth and all else. Then we will be entering our fate to become and be gay. SPIRIT – the intelligent power shaping and sustaining matter, space, time- will bless us, and we’ll remember we were really SPIRIT all along, and then we will assume our responsibilities and complete our tasks in the kosmic scheme of things.

May we be open.

May we be with Harmony and Inspiration.

May we dance and sing our questings, our sorrows and happiness, and taste ecstatic Joy.

May we be healed, and become Whole.

May we be Truth, Compassion and infinite SPIRIT.

A new age, a complete change in all current forms of society, a complete change in what it means to be human…. We gay people have been put in an important place on humanity’s path towards this goal. Edward Carpenter, the great gay visionary, was one of the first to notice this publicly when he wrote in 1919 that gay people “point to a further degree of evolution than usually attained, and a higher order of consciousness.” (Intermediate Types Among Primitive Folk)

Being a crazy faggot is part of our radio-reception equipment for the signals across the Bridge. Our norole emptiness provides the tuner to receive the spirits. That’s why we’re called fairies, faerie being the name of the spirit-land in Celtic mythology.

All faggots are feminists, and militant ones at that. To cultivate your woman-energy, your feminism, is to increase your ability to see and walk through the great portal. In fact it’s essential.

“The commitment to ending male dominance as the fundamental psychological, political and cultural reality of earth-lived life is the fundamental revolutionary commitment.” Andrea Dworkin. The commitment of a gay man to ending male dominance within himself is a great and magickal Nightjourney of shamanistic trial and transmutation, a complete and thorough self-alteration, a great and living Round in growing, glowing consciousness, a double-helixed, evolutional Self dancing.

If cocks aren’t used as blunderbusses, they can become fine-tuning knobs on your spiritual tv set.

…have you ever been in love, had any lovers? Every lover contains a spirit. This spirit-being can be a potentially great ally for each of us in our quest. He can become your soul-guide, leading you into yourself.

Imagine that Visionary Love is first seeing, then recognising, and finally joining a vital, mythic, on-going struggle for the universe of free being, for the universe of your true gay being, for worldwide justice for all beings on all levels, a deeply revolutionary com/passionate karmic work with pattern and purpose involving evolution, consciousness, creatures of false and true self, of straightman’s societies and anarcho-communual Spirit utopias, forms of living zombie death and magickal spiralling kozmic ecstasy, reality-forms of a multi-level, multi-sexual political melodrama.


At this time and place we have access to much wise knowledge. Sometimes we have to dig for it, sometimes it comes right at us, unbidden. This knowledge is available to aid you on your path. Much of it relates to spirit energies, to enhancing rapport in their realms. … All kinds of fairy tales cultural myths, religious objects such as statues and paintings, are highly symbolic. All spiritual and religious holidays, rituals, dances and orgies are methods to summon the energies. If you see them in this light, they can help you on your way.

This is a time of great transition, and there is much stress…. There is a great Event happening, something vast, right now as I write these words. You won’t read about it in the newspapers, although it’s present in almost every story. It is not political, economic, social or military, yet affects all these aspects of life.

This event is originating at a much deeper level… It includes and permeates our entire planet. It shakes me to our depths. It frightens me. Everyone and everything with eyes, ears and other senses can see, hear, feel and even taste it. It’s Here. It’s coming.

I see her coming. Awe fills me. She carries a scythe, with which she reaps worlds. She is a vast Being. She serves the Great Spirit, which is Herself, and so she strides between the stars towards our planet Earth. She has heard and seen and responded.


The Rainbow Bridge connects Here (so-called material or mundane reality) with There (the meta reality). There is the hub/source of all realities, all wisdom/energy, also called LOKA, the kosmic starpoint. All things ‘spiritual’ originate There. The heart of gayness exists There. The gift of gayness lies in an increasing ability to see and enter on the Rainbow Bridge. I’ve called the heart and gift of gayness ROIKA. But due to anti-gayness gay men have been defused from ROIKA. Thus they can’t pick up messages coming from There. … Anti-gayness is the technique western society developed to keep gay men from actualising our ROIKA. When gay men actualise ROIKA they become a powerful threat to western society.

To realise ROIKA is to transform ourselves.

Crossing the rainbow bridge is tricky and needs caution

Gayness is the power/potential to cross the Rainbow Bridge, through the Androgyne Door called YAN. Those who do this transform themselves totally, become wise and powerful sorcerers helping others do the same. This is ROIKA, the faggot warrior’s path.

Imagine yourself in a womb-matrix, in a warm, protective, nurturant, free space, a place of renewal, of perfect healing, of soft, calm, quiet, floating, peace. And now imagine yourself as that matrix in which you float. Be gentle. Be strong. Be graceful. Be compassionate. Be she who birthed us all, to whom we all return, infinite warmth, infinite safety, infinite caring, infinite acceptance, infinite love. Be peace. Be silence. Be healing. Be all things, and be healing. Bless all he beings who exist, and send them your love. This is the way of Infinite Warmth, who judges not. She is unending unstoppable healing, gentle as water, yet she wears down mountains of pain, suffering and confusion. Peace, peace to all.


“Fairies everywhere must begin to stand tall and beautiful in the sun. Fairies must begin to throw off the filthy green frog-skin of Hetero-imitation and discover the lovely Gay-Conscious notMAN shining underneath. Fairies must begin creating their new world…” Harry Hay

Let me tell you a story:

About types of beings generically called Fairies, about their characteristic consciousness, their strange awareness, called faerie. Faerie is a see-ing through polarity. In straight consciousness Bi-Polar Thought is king: male and female are opposites, win-or-lose is the game, reality and dream are separate, immutable and contradictory. But there are Fairies, who look on in gentle mocking laughter at such childishness, for they know that everyone is now ‘female’, now ‘male’, that no one ever wins when anybody loses, that reality and dream flip into each other at the flick of a glittering wand.

Fairies see polarities dancing, changing everywhere, constantly. So they know that any pole frozen by itself blocks the flow, becomes a dead weight, an illusion hiding true understanding. So they come to realise that every ‘objective’ thing is but a shadow.

Knowing this, the Fairies can’t take themselves too seriously, either, seeing as they are also an illusion. This creates a marvellous lightness! Fairies are truly blessed, truly free modes of being, for they can laugh at themselves in their deepest places, can transcend their ignorance from moment to moment, gliding out of each limit and restriction even as it manifests, emerging from hir own form like a butterfly or a moth.

This wonderful paradoxical freedom from form, this lightness, enable Fairies to fly. It grants them much deep wisdom.

Once someone came and told me this:

There is an essence, essence of an eternal, hidden, dark, shining, eerie secret: the simultaneous and continuous creation and annihilation of Form, which is the heartbeat of material existence, which is that beingness, that essential is-ness of all that exists there – trees, people, planets, space, time, matter, energy – all is which is Changing, an infinite Pattern, a total-living weave of beams and streams, eddies, swirls, bursts and flows of is-into-not-is, and not-is-into-is, out of and into an unnameable nothingness-One; that all shapes, forms, are bendings and corners of this flowing-is, this power/nothing, the true behind the false behind the true behind the false in a living, pulsing spiral of All-That-Is.

“And those blessed with faerie can gaze into this essence as it were a crystal ball, and it opens their gaze through swirling shapes and colors deeper and deeper until it becomes unfoldingness itself, and they can see through the earth and out to the stars and beyond, and melt into their gaze and become the point in their Eye and flow into the Crystal itself, passing to its Center, and so become themselves There which then too is Here and All and anything, and thereby they are One from the inside with the bendings and corners of realities, and so they are not yet static things but riders of lightbeams, weightless dancers along the edge – indeed they are the Dancing itself, purposeful, masterless, nothing-points of will; they are the flow, the wind, There at the Source.”

Many Fairies are agents of planet Earth. Their faerie-being gives them telepathic union with nature’s heart, such that they flow with her completely, loving her as they do themselves. In return she gives them her wisdom, her being-ness of and deeply loving respect for the joyful fulfilment of each living creature. Thereby these Fairies become living repositories of all nature, they become planet Earth itself.

In this way Fairies can become other planets as well, other times as well.

Almost all human cultures had myths and stories about faerie lands and astral (star-channelling) planes.

We have been deceived! Caught in a mythological tyranny, in a web of falseself perversions, in a maze of deceptional violence, in a world of twisted words, cut off at the roots by shadows, trapped within spells of the word-masters. We have forgotten. We became thought-slaves.

Visionary Love starts here, in the bowels of falseself bondage.. a book of uppity queer metathought-liberation, of sissy-frying world-slipping survival tactics, of epic reincarnational trueself recovery ploys, of strategic evolutional consciousness flowering fairy tale. We manifest a mutation in consciousness, for which we have been persecuted and exploited. It’s time to stop this stupidity. It’s time to enter our maturity. It’s time.

Darkness grows in falseself lands. This is not a coincidence. Those of us who live there live in a time-bomb, in a monstrously climaxing karmic behemoth, live in a violent dinosaurian genetic fate. Tyrannosaur Rex is a thrashing in ecstatic S&M pain, is the ultra-victim in a self-induced snuff movie involving the entire Earth, enacting his last act and ringing down the curtain on World 4.

Gay shamanism is work in such times, work in the mode of death, work with the dying, death of oneself. Delightful communal Self realisation is the instantly real resurrection. Sorcerous faggot fighter is a menace to society, is a dangerous flaming phoenix, a glowingly rounded rebirth function, an extra-ordinary healing tool, a Rainbow-bridging eros-tool. Gay realisation is sorely needed life-light now. Concentrated eros, focussed will, activated anger, celebrated magick, shared love, are tactics to guard and guide our questing, to trans-form vision, trans-port worlds trans-vest Self.

To be taken by loving Fairies is truly Self-transporting, truly not describable, true Self return, dis-adoptioning, un-orphanising, and real-istically dis-covering, non/sensically re-membering aerotically re-entering faerie family homes. Peace, equanimity, wholeness. Homosexual – gay – faggot – fairy – gone.

Build loving rings of Spirit, astral fairy brothers. Reclaim our heritage! Reunite our Selves.

Circles of light!

Centers of fire!

Spiralling wind!

Rainbow egg!

Let us create, conspire, organise and plot, spread, evolve, manifest our fates. Let us sing our songs, dance the Dance. Let us be/come Fairies!

Heretofore hidden Rainbow Lovers reach out to their seedling brothers and caress them into maturity, into their ageless soulful Rings. Self uncovers itSelf.

Gay spirit is profoundest love and knowing. A magnificent liberation is possible now for those who remember their true nature as reality-channeling as faerie Selves.

Think of Fairy as a symbol, representing or triggering experience of joyful freedom from the myth of One Highest, liberation of be-ings and conscious forms from the bondage of oneself, opening up to the kosmopolitan nature of Self-universe, to the multivarious unitary truth of the matter.

“Fairies must begin creating their new world through fashioning for themselves supportive Families of Conscious Choice, co-joined in the vision of LOVE (which is the granting to any and all others that total space wherein each may grow and soar to his own freely-selected full potential). Let us gather to find new ways to cherish one another, to reach towards spiritually-sustaining and emotionally-supportive Gay Family Collectives, within which we can explore, in the loving security of shared consensus, the bottomless depths and diversities of the newly-revealed subject-SUBJECT inheritances of the Gay Vision.” HARRY HAY

You run and tell that ol’ patriarch

we’re no longer blind to his ways

You run and tell him we’ve stolen all the keys

To the prison he has made.

There’s a gay spirit singing in our hearts

leading us through these troubled times

There’s a gay spirit moving round this land

Calling us to a time of open love.

Charlie Murphy.

End Times

These really are

the End Times.

Not because humanity

is going to be largely

wiped out, though

that may indeed be so…

These are the real

End Times

when the illusion finally cracks.

So desperately the architects

hold on to

the crumbling artifice of facts:

Science became the new belief system

Reason thought it had won over Love

but it couldn’t see, in its hubris

that humanity really is

supported by forces

from below and above.

Every shaman has known this

since the dawn of time

and every mystic who discovered it

always told those who would listen

that all manner of things would be fine.

We’re not what we believe

ourselves to be:

Dreams and delusions

underpin our society:

There’s a much deeper truth

that can no longer be constrained

humanity is not only one species,

we’re one mind, one spirit, one love

it’s time for us to wake up and live it

it’s through the heart we become it.

This won’t be such a huge shock

for those who live from love

but it will be a knock


for consciousness is what we are, blissful, eternal and free:

we simply need to understand that I am You and You are Me.

We might think that we’ve been deceived

by people in power who surely knew,

who suppressed the truth

and saw the rest of us as a resource to use.

Were we told what to believe

or was everyone deceived?

Have we all been lost in this dream together?

These are the End Times

the end of the delusion

when separation ends

and unity descends

upon the species like

angels from heaven.

A seismic SHOCK to the system:

the tears will flow

but the fighting will cease

and so will belief

in conflicting faiths

as the Source comes home

to its rightful place

as Who We Are:

One Species One Mind One Spirit One Love:

The shift is not so far

away at last

after the vast, dark, hideous journey

that was actually all of our own choosing

suddenly life will not seem so confusing…

at least for those who can make the leap…

We are living in a dream

and nothing is what it seems

but it seems we chose it

now we have to close it,

start dreaming another dream together

one that reconnects us all

and will last forever.

The End Times are here

there’s not much longer to pretend

that you are the personality you play:

you are something much more

ancient than that.

Sodomites in the Temple

There were SODOMITES in the temples

so the so-called Holy Bible says

but the sodomites were the real Holy Ones,

which is maybe why some straight Christians hate gays.

They were known as the Qedesh, the Anointed –

People went to see them to make offerings to the Gods,

seeking answers through divination or to receive a blessing

body to body, soul to soul

a visit to the temple helped people remember being part of the Whole

connected to the gods and spirits,

the guardians of our days on earth –

the Anointed Ones embodied the sacred

through the maleness and femaleness in their bodies,

but the Christians called the Qedesha ‘whores‘,

womanish-men‘, ‘ritual shrine prostitutes‘,

who indulged in all the ‘abominations of the heathens

that were very common back then

in the worship of the Goddess,

whose temples had stood for millennia

across the ancient world.

Gayness is a vibration

that communicates through love

Queerness is a frequency

connecting the worlds below to the worlds above.

Queer souls were often honoured

in pre-Christian times and in all parts of the globe

for the spirit they embodied

which set them out for special roles.

Third-gendered or homosexual,

inverts, intermediates or Uranians

Ganymedes or Gays, Queers or Queens:

We have always been around

whatever we are named

and we have always sought out pride in who we are

despite the imposed fear and shame.

Despite the dark religious times, in the monasteries we continued our service to the God

as had happened since ancient days;

in the universities we taught

continuing the Greek’s philosophers’ ways;

in the theatres we brought spirit to the people

as Dionysus had done for the ancients –

we manifested gaiety, laughter, we sought and celebrated pleasure

in which we found the keys to the soul’s true sacred treasure.

We filled royal courts and army ranks,

molly houses and brothels

and despite the laws, the sermons, the torture, the hangings, the burnings

and the exiles, fines, stocks, prisons and psychiatric wards,

Queer Love never went away –

for there will come a time

when queer love will change the way humans pray.

Queers are the people of Aquarius

Ganymede is our God, Love is our Goddess.

We are born to awaken to cosmic consciousness

once we are ready to transcend the little self

and become again the bearers and sharers

of the secrets of the soul’s divine wealth.

But in a world that’s blind to its cosmic destiny

it’s easy to get hooked on shortcuts to ecstasy

and damage our mental health.

The world wants to keep us obsessed with the exterior play

but we should remember there is also another way –

that of the mystic, the seeker, the fool

who trusts in the cosmos and sees life as a school

in which in order to grow, we have to question the rules.

Being queer was long seen as a sin

for which severe punishments were inflicted,

then was pathologised by science and medicine

the ‘homosexual’ was invented.

But Love is what drives our queer hearts

and sex is just sex in the end

except when it’s fuelled by love

then it’s here to help us transcend

our sense of isolation and fear:

there’s more than sexuality to being queer.

The One divides into the Many in order to experience the Many as the One.

Heterosexual attraction manifests the delight the Many experience in its variety.

Homosexual love witnesses to the One’s desire to return to Itself and
to experience the multiplicity of the Many
as a reflection of the Self of the One.”
Toby Johnson


The simple truth is, that there has lived on the earth, “appearing at intervals,” for thousands of years among ordinary men, the first faint beginnings of another race; walking the earth and breathing the air with us, but at the same time walking another earth and breathing another air of which we know little or nothing, but which is, all the same, our spiritual life, as its absence would be our spiritual death. This new race is in act of being born from us, and in the near future it will occupy and possess the earth.” Richard Bucke, Cosmic Consciousness, published 1905.

Richard Maurice Bucke was born March 18, 1837, in Methwold, a village on the edge of the Norfolk fens, and lived most of his life in Canada. is In his book ‘Cosmic Consciousness: A Study in the Evolution of the Human Mind’ he described three stages in the development of consciousness: the ‘simple consciousness’ of animals, the ‘self-consciousness’ of the vast majority of humans (the development of reason, self awareness, imagination, etc.), and, achieved by some only, ‘cosmic consciousness’; a mystical state of being beyond ‘self consciousness’ that is the awaiting, next stage of human development.

In his work, the high praise that Bucke gives to Walt Whitman’s book ‘Leaves of Grass’ (describing how it helped open his mind to the cosmic visionary experience) and his mention of “personal intercourse” with Edward Carpenter, which “assisted greatly in the broadening and clearing up of his speculations, in the extension and co-ordination of his thought” (he writes of himself in the 3rd person in the book), informs me that Bucke was a lover of men. Whitman and Carpenter were two of the key gay male voices that were daring to speak up about the nature of love between men at a time when heterosexual anthropologists and psychologists were analysing and pathologising it, continuing the religiously inspired tradition of homophobia despite claiming to be arbiters of ‘reason’ and ‘science’.

A few gay writers of the 19th century dared to speak up with awareness of the ages old pagan associations of same sex lovers and gender fluid people with priestcraft, shamanism and the divine realms, a view that had competed with the Abrahamic religion’s denial of us for 2000 years. In his classic 1902 study of mysticism, ‘Varieties of Religious Experience,’ William James has a high view of ‘Whitmanism’, seeing it as part of “the everlasting and triumphant mystical tradition” on the same level as Hinduism, Neoplatonism, Sufism and Christian mysticism, paths that can lead us to “both become one with the Absolute and … become aware of our oneness.”

The modern movement of LGBT+ Liberation was born in a secular age when few people took seriously, or even took notice of, this spiritual association, but since the 1970s there have been gay writers and some groups reclaiming and exploring it. An ongoing process of decolonising gay history from its western viewpoint is revealing that not only was same sex love and gender fluidity accepted as entirely natural in societies across the world, from tribal groups in Africa and the Americas to the very sophisticated cultures of China and Japan, but that the association with the spiritual life of the community was ingrained everywhere also. As we in the west start to grapple with this ancient inheritance we will have an easier ride if we can dismantle the hypocritical mind-control and damage of Christian beliefs that still affect our society and learn from the mystics of every culture, who all point to a spiritual reality that is free of dogma and fixed definitions, where even deities are optional, to which entry is obtained through a personal union with one’s inner divine source.

English writer John Addington Symonds wrote that “…it is of the highest importance to obtain a correct conception of the steps whereby the Christian nations, separating themselves from ancient paganism, introduced a new and stringent morality into their opinion on this topic, and enforced their ethical views by legal prohibitions of a very formidable kind.” (A Problem in Modern Ethics, published 1896). ‘Ancient paganism’ only became legal to practise in Britain again from the 1950s, the decade before sex between men was partially decriminalised. This mirrors the enactment of the laws prohibiting both witchcraft and sex between men during the reign of Henry VIII, in years 1533 (Buggery Act) and 1542 (Witchcraft). Here we see the beginning of the separation of a very long standing link between gay men and magical practices.

In the ancient cultures of Europe and the Middle East, to put it simply, masculine gay men tended to go into the military and more feminine men were drawn to religious service in temples, where they performed rituals, divination and sacred sex work. For hundreds of years priests of the Goddess were particularly known for their gender fluidity. During the Middle Ages the Inquisition pursued gay men on the assumption they were heretics or pagans – the word Bugger is derived from the Bulgarian Bogomil heretics, as German Ketzer as a slang word for queer comes from the Cathars. At first the English Buggery Act was mainly used to attack and rob the wealth of the Roman Catholic monasteries, which had become safe havens for queer men (because, despite the official homophobia of the Church, it continued to be to spiritual service that many queer people have always been drawn), but from the 18th century became a lethal tool in an increasingly homophobic society, with the last English execution for sodomy – of James Pratt (age 30) and John Smith (age 40) – taking place in 1835. In France due to the Enlightenment philosophies behind the Napoleonic Revolution there was an end to legal sanctions against gay sex in parts of Europe from the 1790s, and it was perhaps in reaction to that development that the attitude in England, also in Germany and the USA, hardened.

After the battering of world wars, global depression and years of austerity, the politically motivated queer activists of the 1960s were no longer making an association of same sex love and gender fluidity with the sacred realms. And those queers who did feel a spiritual calling but sought its expression within established religious settings were not likely to dive into exploration of our queer pagan past, in fact they even bought into the Christian denigration of it.

Yet some did feel called to open doorways into that hidden spiritual history.

Arthur Evans brought men together in a ‘Fairy Circle’ in San Francisco in the 1970s to explore the queerness of the pagan age and produced a visionary work named ‘Witchcraft and the Gay Counter Culture’ in which he aspired to a time of “re-establishing women’s mysteries and men’s mysteries as the highest expression of collective Gay culture and sexuality. We look forward to regaining our ancient historical roles as medicine people, healers, prophets, shamans and sorcerers. We look forward to an endless and fathomless process of coming out – as gay people, as animals, as humans, as mysterious and powerful spirits that move through the life cycle of the cosmos….. Like butterflies we are emerging from the shells of our past restricted existence. We are re-discovering the ancient magic that was once the birth right of all human beings.”

Harry Hay, who was actively exploring the spirituality of his queer sexuality from a young age, was inspired by Native American tribal attitudes in his approach. He founded the first group campaigning for gay rights in the USA, the Mattachine Society in the 1950s and in the 60s pursued his vision in a ‘Circle of Loving Companions’. Hay was one of the men calling the first ever gathering of what is now a global phenomenon, the Radical Faeries. Centred in nature sanctuaries (the Rad Fae have permanent community spaces in America, Europe and Australia, and have also held gatherings in Thailand and South Africa), but also appearing in gay city scenes such as Portland, New York, London and Berlin, Radical Faeries are reclaiming and exploring the ancient connections between queerness and the spiritual, plus building strong heart centred community built on Harry Hay’s principle of subject:SUBJECT consciousness, an entirely mystical perspective that embraces the unity of the human spirit. Thousands of queers, mostly but not exclusively male-bodied, are now involved with faerie activities, attracted by the sensitive, compassionate approach to community creation.

As well as these more recent visionaries, the spiritual perspective on queer sexuality held by late Victorian gay men such as Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, Walt Whitman, Edward Carpenter, John Addington Symonds and Richard Bucke can also inform us today as we work out just what the essentially innate spirituality of same sex love and gender fluidity means for us in the 21st century global civilisation.

The mystical experience, testified to by visionaries from every culture, removes the sense of separation from God and the rest of Creation, and these men who loved men were having it.

Oscar Wilde was also open to this sense of spirit:

I am conscious.. that behind all this artistic beauty.. there is some spirit hidden of which the painted forms and shapes are but modes of manifestation, and it is with this spirit that I desire to become in harmony…. We have forgotten that water can cleanse, and fire purify, and the earth is Mother to us all… I feel sure that in elemental forces there is purification, and I want to go back to them and live in their presence…”

Richard Bucke praises Walt Whitman in his book as the “best, most perfect, example the world has so far had of the Cosmic Sense, first because he is the man in whom the new faculty has been, probably, most perfectly developed, and especially because he is, par excellence, the man who in modern times has written distinctly and at large from the point of view of Cosmic Consciousness, and who also has referred to its facts and phenomena more plainly and fully than any other writer either ancient or modern.”

Bucke cites as evidence of Whitman’s soul awakening these lines, quoted from the 1855 edition of Leaves of Grass:

I believe in you my soul, . . . the other I am must not abase itself to you, And you must not be abased to the other. Loaf with me on the grass, . . . loose the stop from your throat, Not words, not music or rhyme I want, . . . not custom or lecture, not even the best, Only the lull I like, the hum of your valved voice. I mind how we lay in June, such a transparent summer morning; You settled your head athwart my hips and gently turned over upon me, And parted the shirt from my bosom-bone, and plunged your tongue to my bare-stript heart. And reached till you felt my beard, and reached till you held my feet. Swiftly arose and spread around me the peace and joy and knowledge that pass all the art and argument of the earth; And I know that the hand of God is the elder hand of my own, And I know that the spirit of God is the eldest brother of my own, And that all the men ever born are also my brothers, . . . and the women my sisters and lovers, And that a kelson of creation is love.”

He summarised Whitman’s spiritual philosophy as an a appreciation “that the commonplace is the grandest of all things; that the exceptional in any line is no finer, better or more beautiful than the usual, and that what is really wanting is not that we should possess something we have not at present, but that our eyes should be opened to see and our hearts to feel what we all have.”

Love between men was central to Whitman’s consciousness and vision:

Come, I will make the continent indissoluble,

I will make the most splendid race the sun ever shone upon,

I will make divine magnetic lands,

With the love of comrades,

With the life-long love of comrades.”

Edward Carpenter was also an acolyte of Whitman, and travelled to the USA to meet him. Bucke tells us that Carpenter’s own cosmic vision came in 1881 and was encapsulated in his book of poetry ‘Toward Democracy’:

The sun shines, as of old; the stars look down from heaven; the
moon, crescent, sails in the twilight; on bushy tops in the warm
nights, naked, with mad dance and song, the earth-children address
themselves to love;

Civilisation sinks and swims, but the old facts remain – the sun
smiles, knowing well its strength….

Tears and lamentations are no more. Life and death lie stretched
below me. I breathe the sweet aether blowing of the breath of God.

Deep as the universe is my life – and I know it; nothing can
dislodge the knowledge of it; nothing can destroy, nothing can
harm me.

Joy, joy arises – I arise. The sun darts overpowering piercing
rays of joy through me, the night radiates it from me.

I take wings through the night and pass through all the wildernesses
of the worlds, and the old dark holds of tears and death –
and return with laughter, laughter, laughter:

Sailing through the starlit spaces on outspread wings, we two –
0 laughter! laughter! Laughter!

Freedom! the deep breath! the word heard centuries and
centuries beforehand; the soul singing low and passionate to itself:
Joy! Joy!

Not as in a dream. The earth remains and daily life remains, and
the scrubbing of doorsteps, and the house and the care of the
house remains; but Joy fills it, fills the house full and swells to
the sky and reaches the stars: all Joy!

0 freed soul! soul that has completed its relation to the body!
0 soaring, happy beyond words, into other realms passing,
salutations to you, freed, redeemed soul!

If I am not level with the lowest I am nothing; and if I did not
know for a certainty that the craziest sot in the village is my equal,
and were not proud to have him walk with me as my friend, I
would not write another word – for in this is my strength.

Bucke writes that Carpenter: “As a direct result of the oncoming of the Cosmic Sense he practically resigned his social rank and became a laborer; that is to say, he procured a few acres of land not many miles from Dronfield, in Derbyshire, built upon it a small house and lived there with the family of a working man as one of themselves.” He also became partnered with George Merrill in 1891, their relationship lasting until Carpenter’s death in 1928.

Of all the gay visionaries of the 19th century Carpenter’s vision of gay love was perhaps the most developed and ambitious. He made studies of the spiritual roles played by what he termed ‘Intermediate Types’ in various cultures historically and formed a view that they would be crucial in helping society shift from a deadly money-focussed culture to a love-centred one that would overcome ages old prejudice about the body and sexuality. His way of describing human evolution into ‘cosmic consciousness’ was in terms of the divine coming fully into embodiment.

We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race. the Self is entering into relation with the Body. for, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not a toy and a chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manifestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities….this transformation, whilst the greatest and most wonderful, is also of course the most difficult in Man’s evolution, for him to effect. it may roughly be said that the whole of the civilisation-period in Man’s history is the preparation for it.”

He also made a connection between people who embody masculine and feminine in themselves and the cosmic evolution:

This interaction in fact between the masculine and the feminine, this mutual illumination of logic and meditation, may not only raise and increase the power of each of these faculties, but it may give the mind a new quality, and a new power of perception corresponding to the blending of subject and object in consciousness. It may possibly lead to the development of that third order of perception which has been called the cosmic consciousness and which may also be termed divination.” Intermediate types among primitive folks , 1913

Carpenter often used the the term Uranian for queer people, taken from German campaigner Karl Ulrichs, who dared to speak up for equality for gay men in the German parliament as early as the 1860s. These men were making an association with the culture of ancient Greece, where for 1000 years men who loved men were deeply involved at all levels of society from politics, the military to art and religion, when many gods (such as Zeus, Apollo, Dionysus) had queer associations, and where love between men was hailed for its enlightening, spiritual qualities while love for women was considered something functional and down to earth. Pindar, a poet of the early Classical Greek Age rated second only to Sappho, who wrote many poems celebrating homoerotic desire, was attuned to cosmic consciousness, and shows us the Victorians were part of an ages old mystical tradition:

Lyric poet Pindar, (518-438 BCE):

“Creatures of a day! What is anyone?

What is anyone not? A dream of a shadow

Is our mortal being. But when there comes to men

A gleam of splendour given of heaven,

Then rests on them a light of glory

And blessed are their days.”

This history was of course largely forgotten, but survived in the monasteries of medieval Europe (where at the end of the 12th century for example the ‘Debate between Ganymede and Helen’ imitated Greek writing from Plutarch and Lucian that compared heterosexual and homosexual love. Helen accuses Ganymede’s love of being sterile, but he retorts that pleasure is enough. She thinks affection between the sexes is natural, but he says: “Opposites always disagree; the right way is like with like.” In another such dialogue between Ganymede and Hebe, Ganymede declares that the Gods do not judge gay sex, and that homosexual oral and anal sex have become popular in Heaven. These manuscripts were copied and widely distributed in monastic communities.)The Renaissance in Italy was a time when gay love burst forth again, inspired by the writing of ancient Greece, and fierce attempts to suppress it. There were gay artists and even gay popes. Benvenuto Cellini was called a sodomitaccio (big sodomite) by a rival sculptor in a public spat in 1545 – his quick-witted response was to declare “yet would to God that I understood so noble an art as you allude to: they say that Jove used it with Ganymede in paradise, and here upon this earth is is practised by some of the greatest emperors and kings.” (quoted in Homosexuality and Civilisation by Louis Crompton). The Elizabethan era in England also saw a flowering of queerness – in the 1590s gay playwright Christopher Marlowe was even able to write a drama about the medieval gay king Edward II. Shakespeare’s sonnets contain love paeans to a young man, in the poetic tradition of ‘Greek love’ that has persistently appeared throughout the ages. Interestingly, Richard Bucke went to great lengths in Cosmic Consciousness to argue that the ‘boy’ referred to was in fact the cosmic consciousness itself.


What is your substance, whereof are you made, That millions of strange shadows on you tend? Since every one hath, every one, one shade, And you, but one, can every shadow lend.

Describe Adonis, and the counterfeit Is poorly imitated after you;

On Helen’s cheek all art of beauty set, And you in Grecian tires are painted new:

Speak of the spring, and poison of the year; The one doth shadow of your beauty show,

The other as your bounty doth appear; And you in every blessed shape we know.

In all external grace you have some part, But you like none, none you, for constant heart.

What has been called ‘Greek love’ also survived in the Arabic Muslim culture, including the period of Arabic rule in Spain. For a thousand years homoerotic love poetry was written by Muslims – from Persia and Afghanistan to the Ottoman Turks, north Africa to Iberia, where in a tolerant medieval atmosphere (in sharp contrast to that under Christian rulers both pre- and post the Arab occupation) such poems were also penned by Jewish writers.

Oscar Wilde got the picture, writing in 1898: “to have altered my life would have been to have admitted that Uranian love is ignoble. I hold it to be noble – more noble than any other forms”.

John Addington Symonds knew that there was a battle underway with the “new school of anthropologists and psychological physicians” who “study sexual inversion partly on the lines of historical evolution, and partly from the point of view of disease. Mixing up atavism and heredity with nervous malady in the individual, they wish to substitute medical treatment for punishment, lifelong sequestration in asylums for terms of imprisonment differing in duration according to the offence.”

He wrote that: “Up to the present time the Urning has not been considered as a sport of nature in her attempt to differentiate the sexes. Ulrichs is the only European who has maintained this view in a long series of polemical and imperfectly scientific works. Yet facts brought daily beneath the notice of openeyed observers prove that Ulrichs is justified in his main contention. Society lies under the spell of ancient terrorism and coagulated errors. Science is either wilfully hypocritical or radically misinformed. Walt Whitman, in America, regards what he calls “manly love” as destined to be a leading virtue of democratic nations, and the source of a new chivalry.”

Symonds was a gay man who had his own glimpse of what Bucke termed ‘cosmic consciousness’, while under chloroform: “I seemed at first in a state of utter blankness; then came flashes of intense light, alternating with blankness and with a keen vision of what was going on in the room round me, but no sensation of touch. I thought that I was near death, when suddenly my soul became aware of God, who was manifestly dealing with me, handling me, so to speak, in an intense personal present reality. I felt Him streaming in like light upon me and heard Him saying in no language, but as hands touch hands and communicate sensations: ‘I led thee; I guided thee; you will never sin and weep and wail in madness any more; for now you have seen Me.’ My whole consciousness seemed brought into one point of absolute conviction; the independence of my mind from my body was proved by the phenomena of this acute sensibility to spiritual facts, this utter deadness of the senses. Life and death seemed mere names… I cannot describe the ecstasy I felt.”

Bucke’s own experience of cosmic consciousness led him to believe that an evolutionary leap for humanity was coming that would be so big it would seem we had given birth to a new species:

” Along with the consciousness of the cosmos there occurs an intellectual enlightenment or illumination which alone would place the individual on a new plane of existence–would make him almost a member of a new species. To this is added a state of moral exaltation, an indescribable feeling of elevation, elation, and joyousness, and a quickening of the moral sense, which is fully as striking and more important both to the individual and to the race than is the enhanced intellectual power. With these come, what may be called a sense of immortality, a consciousness of eternal life, not a conviction that he shall have this, but the consciousness that he has it already.”

He described what this would look like, envisaging a complete merging of the material and spiritual planes with no priestly intermediaries:

The human soul will be revolutionized. Religion will absolutely dominate the race. It will not depend on tradition. It will not be believed and disbelieved. It will not be a part of life, belonging to certain hours, times, occasions. It will not be in sacred books nor in the mouths of priests. It will not dwell in churches and meetings and forms and days. Its life will not be in prayers, hymns nor discourses. It will not depend on special revelations, on the words of gods who came down to teach, nor on any bible or bibles. It will have no mission to save men from their sins or to secure them entrance to heaven. It will not teach a future immortality nor future glories, for immortality and all glory will exist in the here and now. The evidence of immortality will live in every heart as sight in every eye. Doubt of God and of eternal life will be as impossible as is now doubt of existence; the evidence of each will be the same. Religion will govern every minute of every day of all life. Churches, priests, forms, creeds, prayers, all agents, all intermediaries between the individual man and God will be permanently replaced by direct unmistakable intercourse. Sin will no longer exist nor will salvation be desired. Men will not worry about death or a future, about the kingdom of heaven, about what may come with and after the cessation of the life of the present body. Each soul will feel and know itself to be immortal, will feel and know that the entire universe with all its good and with all its beauty is for it and belongs to it forever. The world peopled by men possessing cosmic consciousness will be as far removed from the world of today as this is from the world as it was before the advent of self consciousness.”

Bucke describes his awakening to cosmic consciousness thus:

“At the age of thirty he fell in with “Leaves of Grass,” and at once saw that it contained, in greater measure than any book so far found, what he had so long been looking for. He read the “Leaves” eagerly, even passionately, but for several years derived little from them. At last light broke and there was revealed to him (as far perhaps as such things can be revealed) at least some of the meanings. Then occurred that to which the foregoing is preface. It was in the early spring, at the beginning of his thirty-sixth year. He and two friends had spent the evening reading Wordsworth, Shelley, Keats, Browning, and especially Whitman. They parted at midnight, and he had a long drive in a hansom (it was in an English city). His mind, deeply under the influence of the ideas, images and emotions called up by the reading and talk of the evening, was calm and peaceful. He was in a state of quiet, almost passive enjoyment. All at once, without warning of any kind, he found himself wrapped around as it were by a flame-colored cloud. For an instant he thought of fire, some sudden conflagration in the great city; the next, he knew that the light was within himself. Directly afterwards came upon him a sense of exultation, of immense joyousness accompanied or immediately followed by an intellectual illumination quite impossible to describe. Into his brain streamed one momentary lightning-flash of the Brahmic Splendor which has ever since lightened his life; upon his heart fell one drop of Brahmic Bliss, leaving thenceforward for always an aftertaste of heaven. Among other things he did not come to believe, he saw and knew that the Cosmos is not dead matter but a living Presence, that the soul of man is immortal, that the universe is so built and ordered that without any peradventure all things work together for the good of each and all, that the foundation principle of the world is what we call love and that the happiness of every one is in the long run absolutely certain. He claims that he learned more within the few seconds during which the illumination lasted than in previous months or even years of study, and that he learned much that no study could ever have taught. The illumination itself continued not more than a few moments, but its effects proved ineffaceable; it was impossible for him ever to forget what he at that time saw and knew; neither did he, or could he, ever doubt the truth of what was then presented to his mind.”

He stated that:

With illumination the fear of death which haunts so many men and women at times all their lives falls off like an old cloak–not, however, as a result of reasoning–it simply vanishes… The same may be said of the sense of sin. It is not that the person escapes from sin; but he no longer sees that there is any sin in the world from which to escape.”

Medieval Christian mystics said the same thing after their own illuminations. Entire counter-cultures to the Catholic Church were built on the belief in the possibility of entering a holy union with God, while alive, after which sin became irrelevant. The Church suppressed such teachings and destroyed the heretical groups who followed them, as it did same sex love, especially virulently from the 14th century onwards.

Bucke sites examples of great men in history whom he considered to have reached the state of cosmic consciousness, from the Buddha, Jesus and Mohammed to William Blake, Whitman and Carpenter, plus a number of men and women he thought had reached a ‘twilight stage’ of partial illumination. These included some whom he listed only by their initials, and short biographical details might incline us to think at least some of the people mentioned were queer. Clues come in references to liking solitude, being at home with trees, fellowship with animals, ardent spiritual devotion.

Quoted examples of their cosmic illuminations include:

“The first real mental illumination I remember to have experienced was when I saw that the universe exists in each of its individual atoms–that is, the universe is the result of a few simple processes infinitely repeated. When a drop of water has been mathematically measured, every principle will have been used which would be called for in the measurement of the heavens. All life on the globe is sustained by digestion and assimilation; when by voluntary and traumatic action these stop death follows. The history of an individual mind is the history of the race. Know one thing in its properties and relations and you will know all things. All crystallography is in one grain of sand, all animal life in one insect, all vegetable in a single bud. I was then about forty… My next was when I saw there was no boundary line between vegetable and animal life, and hence no beginning nor end to either…

“What I then saw dimly, or as ‘through a glass darkly,’ now shines all about me with a brightness exceeding that of the sun. In its light I see that love and justice cannot be limited by what, in the poverty of our ignorance, we call time and space. Hence all the thinking and all the teaching that has been done in the world, founded in our ideas of time and space, are blown away like chaff, or are consumed like ‘wood, hay and stubble.’” H.B.

“I went into the yard to the pump, and just as I got there it came–a shock, a flood of light, and along with, or immediately following, the shock and the subjective glow–like a great internal blaze–came the feeling of absolute harmony with the power that made all things and is in all things. All striving stopped–there was nothing to strive for–I was at peace.” W.H.W.

“Recognizing my own inner consciousness, the psyche, so clearly, death did not seem to me to affect the personality. In dissolution there was no bridgeless chasm, no unfathomable gulf of separation; the spirit did not immediately become inaccessible, leaping at a bound to an immeasurable distance.

“To me everything is supernatural. It is impossible to wrest the mind down to the same laws that rule pieces of timber.

“When I consider that I dwell this moment in the eternal Now that has ever been and will be, that I am in the midst of immortal things this moment, that there probably are souls as infinitely superior to mine as mine to a piece of timber–what, then, is a “miracle”?

“I feel on the margin of a life unknown, very near, almost touching it–on the verge of powers which, if I could grasp, would give me an immense breadth of existence. Sometimes a very ecstasy of exquisite enjoyment of the entire universe filled me. I want more ideas of soul-life. I am certain that there are more yet to be found. A great life–an entire civilization–lies just outside the pale of common thought.” Richard Jeffries

“In the month of February, 1890, just following my thirty-seventh birthday, Rev. J. E. L., of Canada, came to assist me in a series of special meetings in my church. My affection for him gained during his stay. He had been gone three days when, thinking of him far through the night–the gray of the morning was already in the heavens–the conviction came to me that in him I had met an incarnation of Christ. I stood a moment transfixed with the thought. Was that which I had held as a theory to be realized as a fact? My friend was forgotten in the vision of Christ, who had come to me, not from without, but through the gates which open inwardly. I knew him, was conscious of him in my own spirit, soul and body. Then with that unfolding consciousness there came a suffusion, as of a delicate cloud or haze, which searched the entire body, was more invasive than light, more penetrating than heat, more inreaching than electricity. It was as if I had been plunged into a bath of fluid more subtle and permeating than ether. Against the inflow and outflow of that enswathing essence the body was not as resistant as the air to a bird’s wing or a morning mist to the sunbeam. The rapture, the exaltation, the divinity of that moment passes knowledge. Then swiftly came the awe of the mysterious [p. 331] presence that filled me, and the consciousness of the whole creation, universe, went thrilling through me, not as a thought, a sensation, an emotion, but as the vital breath of God. This grew until I found myself rising and expanding into the Infinite, being diffused and lost therein, and the mind and body reeled.” M.C.L.

“As to my illumination: I was going to New York City one morning in January, 1897, on a train, to do some hospital work. I was reading Carpenter. It was a beautiful winter morning. I think I was near the Bay Bridge, or on it, when the Thought came. There was no particular sensation, except that something beautiful and great seemed to have happened me, which I could only describe in terms of light. Yet it was purely mental. But everything looked different to me. I went about the city that day calm, but glad and uplifted. The thing I remember most was a wonder how soon the sensation, or impression, would leave me. I was latently sceptical, and thought it a temporary inspiration, like that of a poem. But days, weeks, months, passed, and I found the shoot which had broken ground that winter morning was ever growing, strengthening and changing all the scenery of my life.” J William Lloyd

“The glory of this truth, the grandeur of this character, the supreme nobility, patience, wisdom and love of this life, thrilled me with ecstasy and awe [p. 353] unspeakable–filled me, possessed me. He lives, not in some distant heaven on a great white throne, but here and now; is not coming, but is here with us, loving, helping, living, cheering and inspiring the race to which he belongs, as wholly and as truly as the race belongs to him. Now, indeed, it is plain, that being lifted up he shall lift all men with him–has lifted, is lifting and must ever continue to lift out of the very essence of his transcendent humanity. Immortality is no longer an hypothesis of the theologian, a figment of the imagination, a dream of the poet.

“”This is the truth given age upon age to all men in all lands, and persistently misunderstood–the truth at last to be seen of all men in its fullness and purity. Man is to know himself, and with full command of his conditions and unlimited time for action, is not only to soar toward, but absolutely attain to heights of being and of beauty hitherto undreamed of, and bringing fairly within his realization a heaven on earth.” Paul Tyner

One of the women in Bucke’s list is quoted saying:

“In my experience the “subjective light” was not something seen–a sensation as distinct from an emotion–it was emotion itself–ecstasy. It was the gladness and rapture of love, so intensified that it became an ocean of living, palpitating light, the brightness of which outshone[**] the brightness of the sun. Its glow, warmth and tenderness filling the universe. That infinite ocean was the eternal love, the soul of nature and all one endless smile!

“The consciousness of completeness and permanence in myself is one with that of the completeness and permanence of nature. This feeling is quite distinct from any that I had before illumination and has sprung from that. I often ponder on it and wonder what has happened–what change can have taken place in me to so poise and individualize me. My feeling is as if I were as distinct and separate from all other beings and things as is the moon in space and at the same time indissolubly one with all nature. Out of this experience was born an unfaltering trust. Deep in the soul, below pain, below all the distraction of life, is a silence vast and grand–an infinite ocean of calm, which nothing can disturb; Nature’s own exceeding peace, which “passes understanding.” That which we seek with passionate longing, here and there, upward and outward, we find at last within ourselves. The kingdom within! The indwelling God! are words whose sublime meaning we never shall fathom.” C.M.C.

Bucke points out the:

…incompatibility between the socalled religions–in other words, the churches–and Cosmic Consciousness. The man who enters or is to enter the latter either never belonged to a church, as Walt Whitman, or leaves the church before illumination, as C. M. C. did, or immediately upon illumination… Churches are inevitable and doubtless indispensable on the plane of self consciousness, but are probably (in any shape) impossible on the Cosmic Conscious plane.”

Precursors in western thought to Bucke include early 18th century German philosophers Friedrich Schleiermacher, who described a three stage map of animal, sensual and higher consciousness, the part of us “that is capable of transcending animal instincts” – the “point of contact with God” – and George Hegel‘s concept of Geist, or Spirit. Since Bucke there have been at least two prominent prophets of cosmic consciousness in the 20th century – Teilhard de Chardin, who saw all life evolving to an ‘Omega Point’ of unification and Indian mystic Sri Aurobindo.

Born in 1872, Aurobindo was in his early life a fighter for liberation from the British Empire, but while in jail accused of plotting a bomb attack that killed two British women in 1908 he had spiritual experiences that changed his life. On his return to India he settled in Pondicherry and devoted his life to work for a greater freedom, for all humanity. He lived until 1950 and is probably the 20th century’s greatest mystic, producing epic works that detail his vision of the ‘supramental evolution’ as we grow into the ‘Supermind’.

“Man is shut up at present in his surface individual consciousness and knows the world only through his outward mind and senses and by interpreting their contacts with the world. By Yoga there can open in him a consciousness which becomes one with that of the world; he becomes directly aware of a universal Being, universal states, universal Force and Power, universal Mind, Life, Matter and lives in conscious relations with these things. He is then said to have cosmic consciousness”,

Only the illimitable Permanent
Is here. A Peace stupendous, featureless, still.
Replaces all, – what once was I, in It
A silent unnamed emptiness content
Either to fade in the Unknowable
Or thrill with the luminous seas of the Infinite.

(From Aurobindo’s poem Nirvana)

The vast universal suffering feel as thine:
Thou must bear the sorrow that thou claimst to heal;
The day-bringer must walk in darkest night.
He who would save the world must share its pain.
If he knows not grief, how shall he find grief’s cure?
If far he walks above mortality’s head,
How shall the mortal reach that too high path?
If one of theirs they see scale heaven’s peaks,
Men then can hope to learn that titan climb.
God must be born on earth and be as man
That man being human may grow even as God.

From Savitri

He, like Bucke, saw the arrival via evolution of a new kind of human:

I saw them cross the twilight of an age
The sun-eyed children of a marvelous dawn…
The massive barrier-breakers of the world..
The architects of immortality…
Bodies made beautiful by the Spirit’s light,
Carrying the magic word, the mystic fire,
Carrying the Dionysian cup of joy..

From Savitri

The reference to Dionysus takes us all the way back to mythologies and queerness – for Dionysus was one of the many queer deities of the ancient world. Embodying male and femaleness, he was celebrated for introducing ecstatic intoxication to humanity, which in ancient times was considered a blissful state of union with the spiritual realms, Dionysus was a hugely popular deity for many centuries across the ancient world. Even the Hebrews at the time of Jesus had coins with portraits of Dionysus on them.

As humanity struggles to come to terms with and face the challenges of the 21st century we can learn from the mystics of the ages and especially of recent times who brought that mystic vision out of the monasteries and into the hands of each and every human. On the internet today we can find no limit to the number of people discovering and declaring their discovery of, or belief in the reality of, cosmic consciousness. From a few lone voices the seed was spread. Note please that many of the voices of the cosmic vision are those of same sex lovers.

Edward Carpenter believed the Uranians would lead the conscious revolution, and teach the world about the true power of love to awaken the soul, but in order to do that we Uranians have to get conscious ourselves. Many gay people steer away from spiritual pursuits because of the legacy of religious hatred still manifesting in the world today, but probably do not know that the reason religion turned against us in the first place was because we were the ones who served in the pagan temples, because we naturally embodied the liberty of spirit through our very beings. In the temples of Asherah, mentioned in the Book of Kings in the Hebrew Bible, we were known as the Holy Ones – the Qedesha – which became ‘sodomites’ in the King James translation.

There is an integral link between genderfluidity, homosexuality and the sacred. In the late 19th century some men were experiencing this for themselves and daring to write about it, but they were competing with the harsh categorizations of anthropology and psychology. Only in the 1960s did law reform come in the UK, and it was only removed from the list of recognised psychological illnesses in the 1970s. Suddenly in the 1980s our fresh new community was struck by the biggest spiritual crisis ever – AIDS. All our recent gains seemed under threat. We had to fight for our survival on the basic level, and the deeper search for meaningful community and for the roots of our nature was not undertaken by many. But AIDS also woke some of us to a bigger spiritual reality. It is due to the spiritual search and mystical awakening to cosmic consciousness that I underwent in the mid 1990s that I have been researching and exploring the link between my sexuality and my spirit ever since.

My explorations have taken me into witchy Queer Pagan fires, cosy Edward Carpenter Community retreats and to Radical Faerie sanctuaries. In all these places I find people well aware of the gap between the world’s concept of us and the multidimensional reality of our queer, world-connecting nature. We are walkers between the worlds, which is why we are known for our love of substance use and ecstatic states. Like shamans and gay priests of old, we open gates to spiritual bliss through our bodies. This is why our parties are so good. We transcend mental barriers of shame and guilt, imposed notions of sin, of right and wrong, and so access more of the true divinity in human nature, our forgotten Oneness with all Creation.


“Heterosexual attraction manifests the delight
the Many experience in its variety.
Heterosexual union propagates the Many,
from Two making many more.

“Homosexual attraction manifests the delight
the One experiences in its Oneness.
Homosexual love witnesses to the One’s desire to return to Itself and
to experience the multiplicity of the Many
as a reflection of the Self of the One.”

Quote from Toby Johnson, author of Gay Spirituality, Gay Perspective and other works.

Selie Suffolk

I was born in what was once a faerie-filled land –

home to giants, dragons, druids and witches,

where Romans marched and Angles worshipped Thor –

the land of Suffolk contains ancient doors

to the Otherworld, the land of myth and powers divine

and those doors will once more open, at the appointed time.

As new houses are built on Suffolk’s pastures

ancestral remains are disturbed,

millennia old settlements and funeral sites

release their spirits amongst us.

The people here once followed the ways of the Sun and the Moon

they venerated rivers and trees, their ancestors and the Earth,

as they mined for flint then tin then copper and iron

they learnt mastery of earth and fire

but humanity still has to learn mastery of the air

– the element of mind –

in order to reach a higher

state of evolution.

A higher state is really a return

back to Source connection, to the Otherworld,

with an understanding

that we’ve been lost in a dream,

and with a vision

of where we can go from here.

10000 years this land has been loved

by people benefiting from its bounty

which is why in the Middle Ages

Suffolk was known as the Holy County.

Selie Suffolk suffered the pain of

Protestants closing monastic communities,

Catholics burning Protestants

and Protestants burning Witches.

Suffolk became an industrialised farmland

feeding the growing hungry capital.


The land fell asleep, as did the people

Selie became Silly

old ways discarded

the sacred rejected

the magical ways forgotten –

but only for a time,

nothing is lost forever –

the holy spirit of Suffolk

and the land everywhere

waits for humanity to get it together

to become more kind and more aware.

Then the faeries will return

the dragons, druids and witches

they never really went far away

they just got buried within us.

World AIDS Day 2021

Life on planet Earth is changing fast. Humanity and our planet are facing a crisis of apocalyptic proportions. As an AIDS survivor I know what that can feel like at times -as the encroaching dis-ease worsens and we scurry around for anything that might help, we may even find ourselves getting very angry at this horrifying road humans seem hell bent on pursuing. This could get very nasty and very scary – but it can also be a turning point in our civilisation, where we face the big questions of life head on.

AIDS triggered me to pursue the spiritual search – so intense was my longing for answers in the face of death that even in my darkest hours I became attuned to the love-presence of the divine within me – I went on to recover and to re-enter life as a transformed being, who now seeks to assist the growth of spiritual intelligence, compassion and liberation in the world. Like many who have a Near Death Experience (a slow motion one in my case, lasting a couple of years), I returned to life with a sense of purpose that previously had been absent.

AIDS brought me an Accelerated Individual Discovery of Self – looking at the crises rocking the world today it seems to me we are all being pushed to the edge of destruction, a place where we might finally face ourselves and heal our separation from the planet, from spirit and each other. We may be, one way or another, heading for an Accelerated Collective Discovery of Consciousness (ACDC) – the underlying unity of life will eventually demand to be known and will push us kicking and screaming to that point –







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Diagnosed HIV+ in 1990, aged 25, by 1995 I was preparing myself to die – and opening myself to a spiritual reality i had, since the age of 12, not believed in. A complete transformation of my being began, and since recovering from AIDS I have been exploring ritual magic and conscious community that connects both to the earth and to spirit with other queers in the global Radical Faerie community and as an organiser of Queer Spirit Festival in the UK.

HIV was for me a trigger to a deep awakening in my soul. AIDS was for me a ‘classical’ shamanic awakening – stripping away everything i believed, all my dreams and fears – until the raw, conscious, multidimensional soul was released. It is my belief that many gay men, lesbians and trans people are shaman souls, and that HIV is still today a call from the soul to question our assumptions about life and face, accept, our mortality – and find our home in eternity.

Carpenter’s Wisdom: Oneness

English philosopher, poet and mystic Edward Carpenter (1844-1929) had an enlightening ‘cosmic consciousness’ experience in 1881, aged 37. He wrote a book of poetry to capture the experience and it was published two years later as Towards Democracy, offering his vision of a socialist democratic society enlightened by cosmic consciousness.

I conceive a millennium on earth – a millennium not of riches,
nor of mechanical facilities, nor of intellectual facilities, nor
absolutely of immunity from disease, nor absolutely of immunity
from pain; but a time when men and women all over the earth
shall ascend and enter into relation with their bodies – shall attain
freedom and joy;

And the men and women of that time looking back with something
like envy to the life of to-day, that they too might have
borne a part in its travail and throes of birth.

I saw a Vision

I saw a vision of Earth’s multitudes going up and down over the
Earth – and I saw the great earth itself wheeling and careering
onward through space.

And behold! here and there to one among the multitude a
change came;

And to whomsoever it came continued onward apparently as
before, yet as from the larva springs the perfect image,

So (as it appeared to me) from that mortal form a new being,
long long long in preparation, glided silently up unobserved into
the breathless pure height of the sky.

So Thin a Veil

So thin a veil divides
Us from such joy, past words.
Walking in daily life the business of the hour, each detail seen to;
Yet carried, rapt away, on what sweet floods of other Being:
Swift streams of music flowing, light far back through all
Creation shining,
Loved faces looking-
Ah! from the true, the mortal self
So thin a veil divides!

If I am not level with the lowest I am nothing; and if I did not
know for a certainty that the craziest sot in the village is my equal,
and were not proud to have him walk with me as my friend, I
would not write another word – for in this is my strength.

The sun shines, as of old; the stars look down from heaven; the
moon, crescent, sails in the twilight; on bushy tops in the warm
nights, naked, with mad dance and song, the earth-children address
themselves to love;

Civilisation sinks and swims, but the old facts remain – the sun
smiles, knowing well its strength.

The little red stars appear once more on the hazel boughs,
shining among the catkins; over waste lands the pewit tumbles
and cries as at the first day; men with horses go out on the land
– they shout and chide and strive – and return again glad at
evening; the old earth breathes deep and rhythmically, night and
day, summer and winter, giving and concealing herself.

I arise out of the dewy night and shake my wings.

Tears and lamentations are no more. Life and death lie stretched
below me. I breathe the sweet aether blowing of the breath of God.

Deep as the universe is my life – and I know it; nothing can
dislodge the knowledge of it; nothing can destroy, nothing can
harm me.

Joy, joy arises – I arise. The sun darts overpowering piercing
rays of joy through me, the night radiates it from me.

I take wings through the night and pass through all the wildernesses
of the worlds, and the old dark holds of tears and death –
and return with laughter, laughter, laughter:

Sailing through the starlit spaces on outspread wings, we two –
0 laughter! laughter! Laughter!

Freedom! the deep breath! the word heard centuries and
centuries beforehand; the soul singing low and passionate to itself:
Joy! Joy!

Not as in a dream. The earth remains and daily life remains, and
the scrubbing of doorsteps, and the house and the care of the
house remains; but Joy fills it, fills the house full and swells to
the sky and reaches the stars: all Joy!

0 freed soul! soul that has completed its relation to the body!
0 soaring, happy beyond words, into other realms passing,
salutations to you, freed, redeemed soul!

Carpenter’s Wisdom: Transgender

English philosopher, poet and mystic Edward Carpenter (1844-1929) was the first gay pioneer to make a deep study of the role of what he termed ‘intermediate types’ in various traditional societies around the world and in ancient European history, as part of reclaiming the noble spirit of the ‘Uranians’: third-gendered people, in which he included transgendered and same-sex-love oriented individuals, from the fierce ravages of Christian prejudice.

O Child of Uranus

0 child of Uranus, wanderer down all times,
Darkling, from farthest ages of the Earth the same
Strange tender figure, full of grace and pity,
Yet outcast and misunderstood of men-

Thy Woman-soul within a Man’s form dwelling,
[Was Adam perchance like this, ere Eve from his side was
So gentle, gracious, dignified, complete,
With man’s strength to perform, and pride to suffer without sign,
And feminine sensitiveness to the last fibre of being;
Strange twice-born, having entrance to both worlds-
Loved, loved by either sex,
And free of all their lore!

I see thee where down all of Time thou comest;
And women break their alabaster caskets, kiss and anoint thy
feet, and bless the womb that bare thee,
While in thy bosom with thee, lip to lip,
Thy younger comrade lies.

Lord of the love which rules this changing world,
Passing all partial loves, this one complete – the Mother love
and sex emotion blended-
I see thee where for centuries thou hast walked,
Lonely, the world of men
Saving, redeeming, drawing all to thee,
Yet outcast, slandered, pointed of the mob,
Misjudged and crucified.

Dear Son of heaven – long suffering wanderer through the
wilderness of civilisation-
The day draws nigh when from these mists of ages
Thy form in glory clad shall reappear.

(From Towards Democracy, published 1883)

This interaction in fact between the masculine and the feminine, this mutual illumination of logic and meditation, may not only raise and increase the power of each of these faculties, but it may give the mind a new quality, and a new power of perception corresponding to the blending of subject and object in consciousness. It may possibly lead to the development of that third order of perception which has been called the cosmic consciousness and which may also be termed divination.”

(From Intermediate types among primitive folks , 1913)

Carpenter’s Wisdom: Love

English philosopher, poet and mystic Edward Carpenter (1844-1929) had an enlightening ‘cosmic consciousness’ experience in 1881, aged 37. “As a direct result of the oncoming of the Cosmic Sense he practically resigned his social rank and became a laborer; that is to say, he procured a few acres of land not many miles from Dronfield, in Derbyshire, built upon it a small house and lived there with the family of a working man as one of themselves. Dressing in the common corduroy of the country side, he took up his spade and worked steadily with the others. It seemed to him that the manners and habits of the rich were less noble than those of the poor; that the soul and life of the rich were less noble.” (These words written by someone who knew him – Richard Maurice Bucke in his 1905 study of spiritual awakening, Cosmic Consciousness).

Carpenter met the man who would become his partner for the rest of his life, George Merrill, in 1891. Carpenter’s deep belief and understanding of love is clear from his poetry which contains advice on love and relationship that would benefit the whole world, and which could influence the growth of the modern gay community in very positive ways were this incredible ancestor more widely known and honoured.

Here are four wisdom filled love poems from Carpenter’s mystical masterpiece ‘Towards Democracy’, written in 1881.

The Lake of Beauty

Let your mind be quiet, realising the beauty of the world, and
the immense, the boundless treasures that it holds in store.

All that you have within you, all that your heart desires, all
that your Nature so specially fits you for – that or the counterpart
of it waits embedded in the great Whole, for you. It will surely
come to you.

Yet equally surely not one moment before its appointed time
will it come. All your crying and fever and reaching out of hands
will make no difference.

Therefore do not begin that game at all.

Do not recklessly spin the waters of your mind in this direction
and in that, lest you become like a spring lost and dissipated
in the desert.

But draw them together into a little compass, and hold them
still, so still;

And let them become clear, so clear – so limpid, so mirror-like;

At last the mountains and the sky shall glass themselves in
peaceful beauty,

And the antelope shall descend to drink, and to gaze at his
reflected image, and the lion to quench his thirst,

And Love himself shall come and bend over, and catch his own
likeness in you.

To Thine Own Self be True

Not by running out of yourself after it comes the love which
lasts a thousand years.

If to gain another’s love you are untrue to yourself then are
you also untrue to the person whose love you would gain.

Him or her whom you seek will you never find that way – and
what pleasure you have with them will haply only end in pain.

Remain steadfast, knowing that each prisoner has to endure in
patience till the season of his liberation; when the love comes
which is for you it will turn the lock easily and loose your chains –

Being no longer whirled about nor tormented by winds of
uncertainty, but part of the organic growth of God himself in
Time –

Another column in the temple of immensity,

Two voices added to the eternal choir.

All Night Long

All night long in love, in the darkness, passing through your lips,
my love –

Breathing the same breath, being folded in the same sleep,
losing sense of Me and Thee,

Into empyreal regions, beloved of the gods, united, we ascend

Then in the morning on the high hill-side in the sun, looking
down upon the spires of the larches and Scotch firs,

Mortal, we tread again the earthy floor.

0 Earth, the floor of heaven –

0 Sun, shining aloft in the sky so pure –

0 children of the sun, ye flowers and streams, and little mortals
walking the earth for a time –

And we too gazing for a time, for a time, for a time, into each
other’s eyes.

When a Thousand Years Have Passed

Think not that the love thou enterest into to-day is for a few
months or years:

The little seed set now must lie quiet before it will germinate
and many alternations of sunshine and shower descend upon it
before it become even a small plant.

When a thousand years have passed, come thou again. And
behold! a mighty tree that no storms can shake.

Love does not end with this life or any number of lives; the
form that thou seekest lies hidden under wrapping after wrapping;

Nevertheless it shall at length appear – more wondrous far than
aught thou hast imagined.

Therefore leave time: do not like a child pull thy flower up by
the roots to see if it is growing;

Even though thou be old and near the grave there is plenty of

Bring the Spirit Home




but the MIND is a CHILD.


The gift and task the Spirit gave to Humanity

to evolve the mind and illuminate the flesh

involves confusion and the chance of insanity

the risk of a great big mess.


For the mind is the child in us

it believes itself to be alone

we need to know and understand this gift

to bring the Spirit HOME.


AIDS was my Accelerated

Individual Discovery of Self

I faced my mortality

and found my ancient soul wealth.

In the transition to the Age of Aquarius

we need to grasp a bigger perspective

to nurture our mental health.


The Divine Self is on its journey

– We are all THAT –

Humanity WILL find its unity, ONENESS,

through choice or through crisis:

we each make that choice

we each have a voice

that adds to the confusion or the illumination –

we need to learn to use the mind as a tool of CREATION.


Every thought, every belief feeds into our subconscious

the body feels the vibrations and sends an emotional reaction

There are forces in the world that do not want us to think clearly –

the same forces that do not want us to act queerly –

Confusion suits the powers that be

But in our own minds and hearts we can become FREE.


We need an


The AWAKENING long foretold

The REMEMBRANCE of humanity’s place in the WHOLE

Our role to unite the worlds below and above

Through the light of the liberated mind and the POWER OF LOVE.


Trans and the Sacred

I met my inner feminine at the age of 30, at the same time as I was becoming sick with AIDS and waking up to the spiritual dimensions underlying life’s exterior dramas. Embracing the feminine aspect of my soul was part of the journey I have taken into mysticism as a way of perceiving the experience of life on earth. I never desired an exterior, bodily, gender transformation, instead saw the potential of the inner marriage of the genders within myself to bring me to greater understanding, wisdom and freedom. I sought from then on to develop both female and male aspects of my personal unique incarnation of the spiritual, non-binary Self that manifests in all beings.

When I met the Radical Faeries of Europe on the Dutch island of Terschelling in 2001 I walked into a scenario where gay men delighted to don feminine attire and sing Goddess chants. I knew I had found my tribe, come home after the 5 year long transformation that HIV led me into, preparing me for this new, magical, life. Through my own inner femaleness I had met the Divine Feminine and stepped into my soul purpose as a priest of the Goddess, of the Moon, of the Divine Mother. This is how I see the Radical Faeries – as a tribe of Goddess people, who communicate with Her and with ancestors, animals and elementals. We are that natural shamanic queer spirit that connects worlds and heals communities… that talks to the spirits of the weather… emerging from the undergrowth of western so-called civilisation, emerging in a culture that tried to explain away who we are in terms of gender and sexuality, that slaughtered so many of our kind over so many centuries that even WE forgot who we are.

In a post-colonial world, the historical experience in non western cultures of what the modern world calls trans, non-binary, gay and lesbian people is revealing to gay people in the west so much about who we really are, and the journey of emancipation and acceptance in society has gone far enough for us to get together and discover the magical, spiritual qualities in our souls for ourselves. And if we dive far enough back into the roots of western society we find queer shamanic souls playing the same sacred roles in pre-literate cultures and in the temples of the ancient civilisations, many myths from which show intimate, fundamental links between transgender people, same sex oriented love and the sacred.

In The Spirit Of Intimacy (published 2000), priestess of the Dagara Tribe of West Africa Sobonfu Some wrote:

The words gay and lesbian do not exist in the village, but there is the word gatekeeper. Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between the worlds – the world of the village and the world of spirit.

What they do, they don’t like to communicate to anyone. It is their right to keep it to themselves. Everybody in the village respects that because without gatekeepers, there is no access to other worlds. Most people in the West define themselves and others by sexual orientation. This way of looking at gatekeepers will kill the spirit of the gatekeeper. Gatekeepers in the village are able to do their job simply because of strong spiritual connection, and also their ability to direct their sexual energy not to other people but to spirit.

The gatekeepers stand on the threshold of the gender line. They are mediators between the two genders. They make sure there is peace and balance between women and men. If the two genders are in conflict and the whole village is caught in it, the gatekeepers are the ones to bring peace. Gatekeepers do not take sides. They simply act as “the sword of truth and integrity.

Gays and lesbians in the West are often very spiritual, but they have been taken away from their connection with spirit. My feeling is that without that outlet or that role in the culture, they have to find other ways of defining themselves. This could be one of the reasons why they would want to get married or make themselves look as though they do not have a unique purpose.”

In classic binary terms:

Feminine power channels through emotion and spirit

Masculine power through body and mind.

Every living being requires both aspects to function.

Men have neglected their inner feminine

Women have been denied access to their inner masculine

and those who embody both male and femaleness in their bodies,

who once held holy roles in every corner of the earth,

have been long denied their right to be who they are

and in the West are still the most attacked and hated of all queer people.

BUT WHO INVENTED THE BINARY SYSTEM? The scientific minded West.

Other cultures, and older western ones, had more holistic views of human nature:

Gender is a spectrum. All forms of love are sacred.

Separation is an illusion. All life is One.

“Transsexuality comes to us with all the power of a divine force who will not be denied. If we recognize it and accept it as a true vision of the self from the deepest part of the psyche, if we carry the Goddess with us …..then we may find it opens us to a life of spirituality and joy. If we try to deny or belittle it, or explain it away, it can destroy us.” Rachel Pollack, Archetypal Transsexuality, 1995

I’m a History graduate and more fascinated by it than ever these days. History – we must remember – has been seen thru a straight Christocentric gaze until recently. When straights defined Homosexuality they had no idea about who queer people really are. Edward Carpenter and others tried to tell them. John Addington Symonds is one of my favourites, he proposed getting to the root of religious homophobia, ie our role in pagan times, something the modern gay rights movement, born in a secular age, hasn’t addressed. Nor can gay Christians address it. Only we who live it can show the world who we are.

Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.” Raven Kaldera


See this amazing video from Alok Vaid-Menon on trans awareness:

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Check out also the Youtube channel of Ashton Colby for “videos that dive deeper into narratives of gender transition that say it is so much more than physical changes!”

Female Mystics of Albion

The British Isles have given birth to female mystical voices for at least 1400 years… here are some i have come to love and respect so far… starting with THREE from the seventh century AD through to Doreen Valiente and Kate Bush in the 20th.  Their stories and voices deserve to be heard, their messages are clear, profound and simple.  They are the missing voices of ecstatic love modern culture badly needs.

For the woman is the crown of man, and the final manifestation of humanity.
She is the nearest to the throne of God, when she shall be revealed.
But the creation of woman is not yet complete: but it shall be complete in the time which is at hand.”
(Anna Kingsford)


Daughter of an Irish king, Melangell escaped the wedding plans her father had for her, taking refuge in Powys, central Wales, seeing no man for 15 years.  The legend says that Brochwel Yscythrog, Prince of Powys, was hare hunting and came across her shining in a state of radiant devotion in a thicket, the hares hiding under her dress and his dogs unable to approach, wailing at a distance.  He listened to her story and gave her that piece of land to open an abbey where she lived to an old age, offering healing and wisdom.  Melgangell is the patron saint of hares.

ST WINIFRED  7th century

Daughter of a Welsh chieftain, when Winifred decided to become a nun her suitor, Caradoc, was so upset he decapitated her.  Legend says her head rolled down a hill and where it landed a healing spring appeared.  The fortunate magical intervention of her maternal uncle Saint Bueno restored head to body and her to life, and also called down the intervention of heaven against Caradoc, who fell dead on the spot, with the ground opening to swallow him.  Winifred became a nun, then abbess for some years until called by God to seek a new resting place, setting off on a pilgrimage that included a visit to Rome.  In 1138 her relics were taken to Shrewsbury to be part of an elaborate shrine which was a major pilgrimage centre until destroyed during the reign of Henry VIII.


Described as ‘a ray of light in the dark ages’, Hilda was the daughter of the nephew of King Edwin of Northumbria.  Her father was murdered by poison and she was brought up in Edwin’s court.  The whole court underwent a mass baptism into Christianity at Easter 627.  HIlda founded and led a mixed gender monastic community in Whitby (then called Streanaeshalch – Whitby was the name the invading Danes would later give the place), at which the Venerable Bede tells us all virtues were practised, especially love, virtue and peace.  Men and women lived separately but worshipped together at the abbey.  Hilda was known as Mother, and her wisdom was sought out by both commoners and kings.  The nuns at Whitby reported seeing visions at the time of Hilda’s death.  The Danes destroyed all trace of the abbey when they invaded and monastic community would only be reestablished in Whitby after the Norman Conquest.


An Anchoress and head of a community of nuns, as a young girl Christina took a vow of chastity and dedicated her life to the church.  When her noble family forced her to marry she resisted consummating the deal and went on the run becoming an Anchoress, living in a tiny closet barricaded in by a tree trunk, spending her time in prayer and also offering spiritual guidance to those who came seeking it.  When her husband annulled the marriage she was able to come out into the world – a priory was founded for her in Markyate, which survived until the dissolution of the monasteries under Henry VIII.  Christina was known for her ecstatic visions of the presence of God.

MARGERY KEMPE c. 1373-1478

Born King’s Lynn (then called Bishop’s Lynn), daughter of merchant, mayor and MP John Brunham, married John Kemp and had at least 14 children.  Marjery, like other medieval Catholic mystics, sought a greater intimacy with Christ…. She did not join a religious order, but lived her mysticism in the world, being prone to public displays of wailing, sobbing and writhing.  She dictated her mystical visions into what is considered the first autobiography – The Book Of Margery Kempe, including the stories of the ‘temptations to lechery’ she underwent, of her trial for heresy.  The book highlights the growing tension between institutional religion and public dissent.  Marjery is known to have visited the anchoress Julian of Norwich, who affirmed the validity of Margery’s visions and revelations.


Serious illness around the age of 30 brought the lady Juliana joyfilled visions of Christ  which led her to dedicate her life as an Anchoress, living in a small hut near Norwich.  She wrote the first book in English known to have been written by a woman: ‘Revelations of Divine Love’ in which she describes seeing God holding a tiny thing in his hand, like a small brown nut, which seemed so fragile and insignificant that she wondered why it did not crumble before her eyes. She understood that the thing was the entire created universe, which is as nothing compared to its Creator, and she was told, “God made it, God loves it, God keeps it.”  She was troubled by the plight of souls who never got to hear the gospel, but was assured by spirit “that all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.” “Glad and merry and sweet is the blessed and lovely demeanour of our Lord towards our souls, for he saw us always living in love-longing, and he wants our souls to be gladly disposed toward him . . . by his grace he lifts up and will draw our outer disposition to our inward, and will make us all at unity with him.”

“I knew by the common teaching of Holy Church and by my own feeling that the blame for our sins clings to us continually while we are on this earth…How amazing it was then to see our Lord God showing us no more blame than if we were as clean and whole as the angels in heaven!… in spite of all our feelings of sorrow or well-being, God wants us to understand and know by faith that we are more truly in heaven than on earth.

MOTHER SHIPTON c.1488-1561

Soothsayer and prophetess, said to be born in a cave in Knaresborough to a very young mother who refused to name the father.  After two years living in the cave the Abbot of Beverley took pity and found a family to bring up the child, with mother going to a nunnery.  Ursula had severe physical deformities and spent a lot of time alone, making healing potions and developing her skills of prophecy, for which she became very well known.  Her prophecies appear to cover the internet, air travel, underwater vessels, and cinema/tv, but she saw a lot of violence and suffering too:

Around the world men’s thoughts will fly, quick as the twinkling of an eye.

When pictures seem alive with movements free, when boats like fishes swim beneath the sea. When men like birds shall scour the sky. Then half the world, deep drenched in blood shall die.

References to a dragon’s tail in the night sky (a nuclear weapon?), natural disasters that have the survivors running to the hills, make a for a frightening read, but she sees hope in the end (coming from the galaxy?):

And before the race is built anew, a silver serpent comes to view and spew out men of like unknown to mingle with the earth now grown cold from its heat and these men can enlighten the minds of future man to intermingle and show them how to live and love and thus endow. the children with the second sight. a natural thing so that they might grow graceful, humble and when they do the golden age will start anew.


“There is but one God, one Jesus Christ; all else is dispute over trifles.” Our virgin Queen was a mystic, preferring her private practice of communion with God over lectures and sermons.  It was her policy to rise above the division between Catholics and Protestants over whether the wafer eaten during Mass was literally (Catholic) or symbolically (Protestant) the body of Christ.  This, incredibly, is the central issue of Transubstantiation that led to so much war and destruction in Europe.  The new Book of Common Prayer in 1559 attempted to appease as many of her subjects as possible with the phrasing,

“The Body of our Lord Jesus Christ which was given for thee, preserve thy body and soul unto everlasting life; Take and eat this in remembrance that Christ died for thee, and feed on him in thy heart by faith with thanksgiving.”

Her moderate and tolerant attitude of course angered the extremists on both sides – the Catholics who were looking for a reason to stage a revolution, and the extreme Protestants who wished to establish a more puritanical regime.  But she had observed the horrors of the religious wars in Europe and her policy led to a more tolerant society with less religious tension.

Her reign was also saw a surging interest in all things metaphysical.  This was the Renaissance period, the time of new thinking, of the fusion of astrology, kabbalah, alchemy, of Nostradamus, John Dee, Francis Bacon, with new visions of the coming Golden Age forming left, right and centre.

In 1555 alchemist and magician John Dee was imprisoned for heresy, but four years later he cast the horoscope that was used to choose the date of Elizabeth’s coronation.  In the following years Dee developed a deep mystical practice with Edward Kelly, a medium who connected with spirit guides using a crystal ball.  They channelled works from the angelic realms, eg the Enochian alphabet and the Heptarchia Mystica.  Via the angel Uriel they foretold the death of the Queen of the Scots and the coming of the Spanish Armada.  Fear of their activities (which were suspected of having homoerotic elements) led to a mob burning down Dee’s library at Mortlake in 1583.  The men took their work to Krakow and Prague for some years, then in 1595 Dee became warden of Manchester College.  Kelly died the same year, but Dee lived on until 1608, a respected citizen in a golden age for mysticism in Britain.


English campaigner for women’s rights and vegetarianism, Anna Kingsford became the president of the London Theosophical Lodge in 1883.  She received insights in trance states and sleep, which were recorded and published posthumously by her friend Edward Maitland in the book Clothed With the Sun, a reference to Revelation. Anna is perhaps the spiritual mother of feminism and her vision is profound:

“For the woman is the crown of man, and the final manifestation of humanity.
She is the nearest to the throne of God, when she shall be revealed.
But the creation of woman is not yet complete: but it shall be complete in the time which is at hand.
All things are thine, O Mother of God: all things are thine, O Thou who risest from the sea; and Thou shalt have dominion over all the worlds.”

ANNIE BESANT 1847-1933

Theosophist, socialist, campaigner for women’s rights, Annie left her boring anglican vicar husband and set out to change the world, at first joining the secular society and nearly going to jail for advocating birth control.  In the 1890s she became a Theosophist, joining this philosophical movement created by Helena Blavatsky in 1875, and went to live in India.  She brought the young Krishnamurti to the world’s attention, believing him to be the next World Teacher sent by God, a claim he completely distanced himself from in 1929.“In a deep metaphysical sense, all that is conditioned is illusory. All phenomena are literally ‘appearances,’ the outer masks in which the One Reality shows itself forth in our changing universe. The more ‘material’ and solid the appearance, the further is it from reality, and therefore the more illusory it is.”“Sun-worship and pure forms of nature-worship were, in their day, noble religions, highly allegorical but full of profound truth and knowledge.”

EVELYN UNDERHILL 1875-1941 Born in Wolverhampton, Evelyn was a poet, novelist, pacifist and mystic, who wrote the classic study Mysticism (1911).  Early 20th century England saw an excitement about the advance of science and understanding that went hand in hand with the exploration of psychic phenomena and spirit.  Evelyn found Anglican Protestant religion too rigid in this environment and sought to meet life directly through the heart, to live life as a sacred journey.  She viewed the world’s mystics as the spiritual pioneers of humanity and her studies of greats such as Neoplatonist Plotinus and 14th century Flemish writer Ruysbroeck led her to draw a 5 stage map of the mystic path.  Stage 1 = Awakening of Self. 2=  Purgation of Self (as illusions are stripped away).  3 = Illumination.  4 = Dark Night of the Soul (the trial period, when the light once gained seems gone).  5 = Unitive Life (when love has conquered the darkness, a state bursting over with creative energies.)  For Evelyn, the true mystic is active in the world bringing this divine creative energy forward, not a reclusive dreaming lover of God, is in a passionate engagement with life, not studying with detachment. “In mysticism that love of truth which we saw as the beginning of all philosophy leaves the merely intellectual sphere, and takes on the assured aspect of a personal passion. Where the philosopher guesses and argues, the mystic lives and looks; and speaks, consequently, the disconcerting language of first-hand experience, not the neat dialectic of the schools. Hence whilst the Absolute of the metaphysicians remains a diagram —impersonal and unattainable—the Absolute of the mystics is lovable, attainable, alive.” “The business and method of mysticism is love.”“The individual is reminded that in him, no less than in the Archetypal Universe, real life must be born if real life is to be lived.”

ALICE BAILEY 1880 – 1949

The first writer to make major use of the term ‘New Age’, Alice was born in Manchester and spent most of her life in the USA.  She wrote many books on Theosophical subjects, saying that they were channelled from a Tibetan master source, Djwal Kuhl, in which she downplayed traditional devotional, inward gazing, spiritual practice in favour of service to humankind.  She predicted  that “the day is dawning when all religions will be regarded as emanating from one great spiritual source” and believed in a hierarchy of Master souls guiding our evolution.  Her books are classics of modern esoteric mysticism, they include ‘Initiation, Human and Solar’, ‘A Treatise on Cosmic Fire’ and ‘Discipleship in the New Age’.  She gave the world the much used and loved Great Invocation:

“From the point of Light within the Mind of God
Let light stream forth into the minds of men.
Let Light descend on Earth.

From the point of Love within the Heart of God
Let love stream forth into the hearts of men.
May Christ* return to Earth.

From the centre where the Will of God is known
Let purpose guide the little wills of men –
The purpose which the Masters know and serve.

From the centre which we call the race of men
Let the Plan of Love and Light work out
And may it seal the door where evil dwells.

Let Light and Love and Power restore the Plan on Earth.”

*Many religions believe in a World Teacher, a “Coming One”, knowing him under such names as the Lord Maitreya, the Imam Mahdi, the Kalki Avatar and the Bodhisattva. These terms are sometimes used in versions of the Great Invocation for people of specific faiths.

DION FORTUNE  1890-1946 Occultist, artist, psychologist and mystic, Dion was huge influence in the revival of the mystic arts in Britain.  She was born Mary Violet Firth in Llandudno, north Wales, joined the Theosophical movement and the Order of the Golden Dawn but was frustrated by their efforts so set up the Community (then Society) of the Inner Light, which still operates.  The Cosmic Doctrine is one of her famous written works.  During the second world war she insisted on remaining in blitz London, organising meditation groups to resist the attackers from the spiritual plane.

 ELSA GIDLOW 1898-1986 Born in Hull, Yorkshire, Elsa went on to live in Canada and the USA.  Her writing circle in 1918 created the first gay magazine in North America… Les Mouches Fantastiques.  From 1954 she lived in California. naming her ranch Druid Heights.  Among her companions there was philisopher Alan Watts, with whom she found the Society for Comparative Philiosophy, and her friends included Maya Angelou, James Broughton, Allen Ginsberg, Neil Young and Ram Dass.   She wrote poetry for 70 years, drawing on her own ecstatic experience of sexual passion with her lesbian lovers, and was a pioneer of sexual-spiritual freedom. Woman, so gentle in my armsLoving, you have opened to meFierce, my own dark heartAnd found therein and to me reflectedMy source of light…..Here on this bed, holding youSo human in your need (and knowing mine)Miraculous, the human veil is rent.Lover-beloved, WomanSmall and strong in my armsI know in youThe Goddesss, Mystery, fecund EmptinessFrom which all fullness comesAnd universes flower.””What if we smashed the mirrorsAnd saw our true face?What if we left the Sacred Books to the wormsAnd found our True Mind?What if we burned the wooden Buddhas?Gave the stone Buddhas back to the mountains?Dispersed the gurus with a great laughAnd discovered the path we had always been on?”

KATHLEEN RAINE 1908-2003  

"Kathleen Raine, who died aged 95, was a poet who believed in the sacred nature of all life, all true art and wisdom, and her own calling. She knew as a small child that poetry was her vocation.

"William Blake was her master, and she shared his belief that "one power alone makes a poet - imagination, the divine vision". As WB Yeats, her other great exemplar, put it, "poetry and religion are the same thing". To this vision she committed not only her poetry and erudition, but her whole life. She stood as a witness to spiritual values in a society that rejected them. 

"When asked how she wished people to remember her, Kathleen Raine said she would rather they didn't. Or that Blake's words be said of her: "That in time of trouble, I kept the divine vision". Better to be a sprat in that "true ocean", she believed, than a big fish in a literary rock pool."     Janet Watts Guardian 2003
There are but two alternatives. The first alternative is that of secular materialism – appealing to the authority of a science whose only reality is the measurable – “nothing is sacred” – and no bounds set to destructive exploitation. The second alternative – embraced in every tradition of wisdom – holds that man and nature alike are a manifestation of immeasurable spirit. If that is so, we are custodians of a world in which, in William Blake’s words, “everything that lives is holy” and our sacred trust.’  Kathleen Raine.

‘None is lost, not one, All are there, all That were or will be, none That is can cease. Dust, angels, particles, Number or song, We are they, and there The soul is gone. For through our sleep the bright River flows on.

Scent of the leaf, Scent of the lily, Scent of the may.

Whence and whither The memory-stirring Untellable, infinite Scent of the leaf? Everywhere nowhere Pole of the world

Immutable, stable, There the spindle Leaps in its circuit.

There sits the goddess Mother of number Duration and multitude. Setting her seal Upon all that grows. Scent of the rose.’


“Vera Stanley Alder was a successful portrait painter who began to explore into the meaning of life and researched into what is known as ‘The Ancient Wisdom.’ This she defined as ‘the vast body of information dealing with the meaning and purpose of man himself and the constitution and evolution of the whole universe.’ She saw her task as one of simplifying and summarising this information in order for it to be more accessible.” ( In her 1979 memoir she warns the spiritual quester ‘only through the resonance of his own integrity can he follow the golden thread of Truth to its ultimate fulfilment – and this is a hard but glorious pilgrimage.’

“This century has seen world war for the first time. It has seen a world civilisation threatened with self-destruction, not only through war but through the exploitation of all the kingdoms in nature. It has also seen the beginnings of international alignment and collaboration.

Let us avoid being misled by the apparent irresponsibility of the crowd with its absorption in crime films, dog racing and gambling, and its immorality and apathy! This side of human nature has always existed.

“What then is missing? An ideology which would produce full harmony, co-operation and growth in alignment with the laws and economy of nature!

“The age-old metaphysical conceptions of the Divine Plan for mankind shows us the story of the human spirit learning through a long series of incarnations upon earth all those lessons which will finally give him sovereignty over all the forces of growth, and knowledge as to how to work in with the pattern of creation – as a Group.

“World Unity is the goal towards which evolution is moving. When we can see the pattern of life as a whole, and understand how the spirit of give-and-take and of sharing is as necessary in the greater World-Body as it is between the cells of our own bodies, then we will unfailingly give our help in the right direction, and not be led into being anti-this or anti-that, or into harbouring destructive criticism against others – or even against ourselves. World progress depends gupon the time which it takes for you and me and all of us to realise our responsibility and do our bit towards bringing it about.”

OLIVIA ROBERTSON 1917-2013 Born in London, Olivia was co-founder and archpriestess of the Fellowship of Isis, which she ran from her Huntington Castle in Co. Colway, Ireland.  Immersed in psychic work from an early age, a series of visions beginning in her late 20s convinced her of the femininity of God – she said telling others about this was like “trying to explain colour to someone born blind or a symphony to someone who’s deaf”.  Visions of Egyptian Goddess Isis and Irish Dana “made me realise that patriarchy had taken over religion, once the domain of matriarchs… and patriarchy had led to wars, greed and exploitation of the earth.”   The Fellowship’s castle became a centre of Goddess worship and received many visitors: “Some religions preach poverty, obedience and chastity,” Olivia explained. “We believe in love and beauty and have no truck whatsoever with asceticism…The point about the Fellowship of Isis is that we don’t interfere with anybody’s religion, they have all got something to offer…. The only thing we don’t like is people being boiled alive or burned or having their heads chopped off, that type of thing.”  As high priestess of Isis Olivia travelled to temples around the world and in 1993 she walked alongside Chicago’s Roman Catholic Cardinal in the opening procession of the World Parliament of Religions as representative of neopagan faiths.


Doreen has been called the ‘Mother of modern Witchcraft’ because of the work whe did to develop Wiccan practice and to spread knowledge of it.  With Gerald Gardner she was key in the revival of paganism following the removal of the 400 year old ban on the craft in the 1950s.  Her work, the Charge of the Goddess, is very influential in magical circles, and deserves to be known by all:

“For I am the Soul of Nature, who giveth life to the universe; from me all things proceed, and unto me must all things return; and before my face, beloved of gods and mortals, thine inmost divine self shall be unfolded in the rapture of infinite joy.

“Let my worship be within the heart that rejoiceth, for behold: all acts of love and pleasure are my rituals. And therefore let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion, honour and humility, mirth and reverence within you.

“And thou who thinkest to seek for me, know thy seeking and yearning shall avail thee not, unless thou know this mystery: that if that which thou seekest thou findest not within thee, thou wilt never find it without thee.”  (From the Charge of the Goddess)

“The initiates of the ancient pagan Mysteries were taught to say ‘I am the child of earth and Starry Heaven and there is no part of me that is not of the Gods”. If we in our own day believe this, then we will not only see it as true of ourselves, but of other people also.” (Speech at Croydon Hall, 1997)


Born in South Africa and raised in Edinburgh, art historian Wendy leads a life of prayer in a Carmelite monastery in Norfolk.  She has written many spiritual works and is well known for her research into the expression of the sacred in art throughout the ages

“If we confuse ‘the sacred’ and ‘the solemn’, we are only allowing God to come to us from one direction.”

“This is the real power of joy, to make us certain that, beneath all grief, the most fundamental of realities is joy itself.”

“God never sends suffering. Never. It is never “God’s will” that we should suffer. God would like us not to suffer. But since the world brings suffering, and since God refuses to use His almighty power and treat us as foolish children, He aligns Himself with us, goes into Auschwitz with us, is devastated by 9/11 with us, and draws us with Him through it all into fulfillment. This is a high price to pay for our human freedom, but it is worth it. To be mere automatons for whom God arranges the world to cause us no suffering would mean we never have a self. We could not make choices.”

“We were created to be fully human – a lifetime effort – and using our minds intelligently and reverently is essential to full humanhood.”

DIANA COOPER born 1940

Born in the Himalayas as the first bombs were hitting London, Diana’s mystical life began aged 42 when divorce brought her to rock bottom.  Crying out to the universe for help a tall angel appeared and her journey of bringing to the world awareness of the angelic realms and of ascension began.  She has written 24 books and runs her own school, which includes teachings for children.  She teaches that we are no in a 20 year transition period post 2012, with the new Golden Age due to begin in 2032.

KATE BUSH   born 1958

Kate’s work has all been magical, inspired and full of spirit.  Her 2014 concerts were called ‘Before the Dawn’.  She is a Mother Spirit of Albion.

“We raise our hats to the strange phenomena.
Soul-birds of a feather flock together.
We raise our hats to the hand a-moulding us.
Sure ’nuff, he has the answer,
He has the answer
He has the answer, be-duh-be-duh-be-duh-be-duh…
“Om mani padme,
Om mani padme,
Om mani padme hum”  (Strange Phenomena 1978)

The Ninth Wave B-side of the Hounds of Love album in 1985 tells the story of a young woman drowning at sea who goes on as a ghost to visit her lonely husband, then meet her future self in spirit and experience rebirth into a new human body,

“I am falling/ Like a stone/ Like a storm/ Being born again/ Into the sweet morning fog/I’ll kiss the ground/ I’ll tell my Mother/ I’ll tell my Father/ I’ll tell my loved one/ I’ll tell my Brothers/ How much I love them”.

In Lily (1993) she featured an invocation to the archangels and the voice of her psychic medium friend….

“Oh thou, who givest sustenance to the universe
From whom all things proceed
To whom all things return
Unveil to us the face of the true spiritual sun
Hidden by a disc of golden light
That we may know the truth
And do our whole duty
As we journey to thy sacred feet”

Her 2005 album Aeriel is a symphony of soothing mystical sounds, these lines from Nocturn….

“The stars are caught in our hair
The stars are on our fingers
A veil of diamond dust
Just reach up and touch it
The sky’s above our heads
The sea’s around our legs
In milky, silky water
We swim further and further
We dive down… We dive down

A diamond night, a diamond sea
And a diamond sky…

We dive deeper and deeper
We dive deeper and deeper
Could be we are here
Could be we are in a dream
It came up on the horizon
Rising and rising
In a sea of honey, a sky of honey
A sea of honey, a sky of honey

[The chorus:]
Look at the light, all the time it’s a changing
Look at the light, climbing up the aerial
Bright, white coming alive jumping off the aerial
All the time it’s a changing, like now…
All the time it’s a changing, like then again…
All the time it’s a changing
And all the dreamers are waking.”

12th Century Love Wisdom

12th century mystic Hadewijch of Antwerp is considered one of the creators of Dutch lyrical poetry. She is also one of the most enlightened mystics of the High Middle Ages. Her weaving together of love and reason reveals a wisdom not yet grasped by modern Western society, a template and understanding that could create a more holistic world.

Note that for Hadewijch Love is feminine. The Christian teaching that God Is Love hides the mystical understanding that the Presence of God-Love is the feminine aspect of the Divine, God as Mother – known in Sanskrit as Shakti… In Judaism as Shekhinah, Islam as Sakina (Rumi said that, “The eternal mystery of Allah’s uncreated Essence is the Divine Feminine.” , and hidden in Christianity as the Holy Spirit (presented in modern times as male or gender neutral, the word used in original biblical texts was feminine).

On Love :

However cheerless the season and little birds, The noble heart must not be sad, But ready to suffer for Love’s sake.

It must know and experience all: Sweetness and cruelty, Joy and pain, All that belongs to the service of Love…

The ways of Love are strange, As those who have followed them well know, For, unexpectedly, She withdraws Her consolation.

He whom Love touches Can enjoy no stability

And he will taste Many a nameless hour.

Sometimes burning and sometimes cold, Sometimes timid and sometimes bold, The whims of Love are manifold.

She reminds us all Of our great debt To Her lofty power Which draws us to Herself alone.

Sometimes gracious and sometimes cruel, Sometimes far and sometimes near He who grasps Her in faithful love Reaches jubilation.

Oh, how Love With one sole act Both strikes and embraces!

Sometimes humble, sometimes haughty, Sometimes hidden and sometimes revealed; To be finally overwhelmed by Love, Great adventures must be risked Before one can reach The place where is tasted The nature of Love.

Sometimes light, sometimes heavy, Sometimes somber and sometimes bright,

In freeing consolation, in stifling anguish, In taking and in giving,

Thus live the spirits Who wander here below, Along the paths of Love.

‘So that the soul should find her being in God, Hadewijch tells us to love Him with the love with which He loves Himself, in order to become one single being with Love, “one single spirit” (I Con 6:17), that is, “To become God with God”.

‘Union does not make the person disappear but, through divine action, instead of being dissimilar, God and the soul are equal in oneness… It is from God Himself that we receive our being, absorbed, but not destroyed, by divine light, as Hadewijch explains with a beautiful image: the soul can be compared to the moon which, receiving all its light from the sun, disappears from the sky at sunrise… The preparation for union involves a stripping of everything else. Hadewijch rarely uses the words naked (bloet) and intact (ongherijnleect) which, with Hadewijch II, are signs of a refusal of forms and images, but she employs much more often the word gheheel: whole, integral, referring rather to a reintegration of the powers—“the searching mind, the thirsting heart, the loving soul”—in the abyss of Love through the elimination of everything that is not Love. In spite of this negative ascetic phase, Hadewijch’s mysticism seems to us to be more a mysticism of plenitude than of void: “I have integrated all that was divided within me”… It consists of a widening of the soul to the dimensions of God. In Letter XXII, she refers to a hymn attributed to Hildebert of Lavardin who sings of the paradoxes of divine nature: “God is above everything without being raised up; below everything without being lowered, in everything without being circumscribed, outside everything and yet wholly comprised.” That is where proud souls are invited to enter and Hadewijch is only too anxious to accept. It is from a Trinitarian point of view that she comments on the plea contained in the Lord’s prayer: that His kingdom may come (within us). We ask the Father to let us participate in His “power and rich essence,” to make us love the Son with the Father and be the Son Himself.’

So we see that Hadewijch was not afraid of a bit of gender bending on the spiritual path. She was also a champion of diversity…

For Hadewijch God is “manifold in His unity and onefold in His multiplicity”.

Quoted from WOMEN MYSTICS IN Medieval Europe by Emilie Zum Brunn and Georgette Epiney-Burgard Translated from the French by Sheila Hughes (1989)


1500 years ago in the Byzantine Roman Empire the Emperor Justinian enacted a persecution against gay men that created a climate of fear which has echoed down the centuries to this very day. This pogrom of same sex lovers ended a millennium in which men who love men had been prominent in every aspect of community life, from politics and the military to philosophy, art and religion. Queer love, once hailed for its divine qualities, disappeared into the shadows.

The first attacks on queer people came as Christianity became established in the Roman Empire in the 4th century. Emperor Constantine granted toleration for Christianity in the Edict of Milan in 313, before the end of the century it was the official religion. Historian Eusebius praised Constantine for his suppression the effeminate pagan priests of the Goddess temples. Eusebius described a temple:

where men unworthy of the name forgot the dignity of their sex and propitiated the demon by the their effeminate conduct.”

The Emperor ordered the army sent in, “that this building with its contents should be utterly destroyed.” He went further, Eusebius recording that:

inasmuch as the Egyptians, especially those of Alexandria, had been accustomed to honour their river through a priesthood composed of effeminate men, a further law was passed commanding the extermination of the whole class as vicious, that no one might thenceforward be found tainted with the like impurity.”

The persecution stepped up under Constantine’s successors. Roman senator Firmicus Maternus wrote a polemic called ‘The Error of the Pagan Religions’ in 346 which firmly associated pagan cults with sexual immorality and especially homosexuality. He is particularly fired up about the effeminate priests or holy men, writing that those of a Carthaginian love goddess:

can minister to her only when they have feminised their faces, rubbed smooth their skin, and disgraced their manly sex by donning women’s regalia. In their very temples we see scandalous performances, accompanied by the moaning of the throng: men letting themselves be handled as women, and flaunting with boastful ostentatiousness this ignominy of their impure and unchaste bodies…. Next, being thus divorced from the masculine, they get intoxicated with the music of flutes and invoke the goddess with an unholy spirit so they an ostensibly predict the future to fools.”

A law passed in 342 orders ‘exquisite punishment’ for men who have sex with other men, and The Latin word used – nubit – translates as ‘marries’, but most historians agree the term was used in a wider sense. This prohibition was incorporated into the Theodosian Code of 438 and used by the Emperor Justinian in his virulent attack on gay men in the 520s.

The tide turned violently against paganism in the 380s when an imperial edict against sacrifices inspired what has been called ‘an orgy of destruction and spoliation’ when bands of monks and Christian fanatics destroyed temples and statues across the Empire. Thousands of years in which queers had served the holy life of the community came to an end, our ecstatic-erotic practices that opened the gateways to spiritual communion were wiped out.

More laws against gay sex followed. In 390 a law attacked “the poison of shameful effeminacy”, but focussed its attention on male brothels. In 438 this was expanded to call for all who engaged in gay sex to die “in avenging flames in the sight of the people.” The Code of Justinian, issued in 534, sealed the fate and set a legal climate regarding homosexuality that would influence Europe until the 18th century, and his violent actions in 528 against men who loved men established a climate of fear that would last longer. The Justinian Code expanded an old law from the time of Augustus against adultery to include the death penalty for ‘illicit sex with males’ (stuprum cum masculis).

Byzantine historian John Malalas (c 491-578) recorded the great persecution of men who loved men in the late 520s. Justinian issued laws that could be applied to past crimes, not simply ones that occurred after its creation. Note however that the Church did not support his actions, in fact the first victims were prominent men of the Church itself:

At that time, bishops of diverse provinces were prosecuted for the lustful act of sleeping with males. Among them were the bishops Isaiah of Rhodes, formerly the Nycteparchus of Constantinople, and Alexander of Diospolis in Thrace. After they were brought to Constantinople by an edict of the Emperor they were examined by the prefect of the city, stripped of their rank and punished. After he had suffered severe torture, Isaiah was sent into exile. Alexander, on the other hand, has his male organ cut off, and was place in a litter and exposed as a spectacle to the people. Shortly after, the emperor passed a law that the crime of sex with males should be punished by castration. And at that time many androkoitai (men who slept with men) were seized and their genitals were cut off. And a great fear ensued among those who suffered from the evil desire for males.” John Malalas

The Emperor’s court historian, Procopius, left us a ‘Secret History’ in which we read that Justinian:

…prohibited sodomy [paiderastein] by law, not examining closely into offences committed subsequently to the law but concerning himself only with those persons who long before had been caught by this malady. And the prosecution of these cases was carried out in reckless fashion, since the penalty was exacted without an accuser, for the word of a single man or boy, and even if it so happened, of a slave compelled against his will to give evidence against his owner, was considered definite proof. Those who were thus convicted had their privates removed and were paraded through the streets.”

Chronicler Theophanes, writing about 800 CE, said that:

Bishops Isaiah of Rhodes and Alexander of Diospolis in Thrace were deposed from office, as having been discovered to be lovers of boys, and were punished frightfully by the emperor, having their male organs cut off and being paraded through the streets….the emperor instituted harsh laws against the licentious and many were punished. And great fear and caution arose.”

Georgius Cedrenus, wrote in 1060 that : “Many citizens and senators and not a few of the high clergy were found guilty, were castrated and exposed naked in the forum and died miserably.”

1500 years ago the persecution of gay males, which began as attacks against the effeminate priests of the pagan religion expanded into a climate of fear for all men who had sex with men. This darkness intensified in the late Middle Ages and continues to blight the lives of all queer people around the world to this very day.

Sealing the deal, Justinian in 529 forbade non-Christians from teaching positions, and closed the ancient schools of Athens. Plato’s Academy, which had opened in 385 BCE, disappeared and a millennium of philosophical and religious qualities of same sex love disappeared from European discourse. The gay massacres and the clampdown on classical education brought the beginning of the medieval world.

SOURCE: Homosexuality and Civilisation, Louis Crompton 2006.

Free Spirits, Queer Souls

In Piscean oceans humanity has swum

unable to see the spiritual sun

above the water:

we’ve followed the Son

but forgotten the Daughter –

and life has become a feast of slaughter.

Victory became an exterior conquest

creating victims and enemies

and a drama that may never cease:

humanity lost track of the fact

that the true victories lie beneath

the surface, within ourselves

the only place true enemies are found.

All paths become One, the time of revelation has begun.

There are no End Times, that tale was spun

by men fearful of losing their place in the Sun,

by men who’d forgotten the Goddess unites all

with love, compassion, poetry and sex,

all elements of life are held in her loving breast.

The body stripped by religion of its holy raiment,

meant that people forgot what being gay meant!

The love of Ganymede and Zeus was seen as abuse,

Eros and Aphrodite were banished from the temple

of the Mother Church

and so began the search

of the same sex lovers to find each other,

so began the time of seeking for the ones who know

it’s not what you reap, it’s what you sow,

it’s not what you plant, it’s what you grow,

it’s not where you go, it’s what you do there,

it’s not whom you love, it’s how you love them.

In medieval times amongst the pagans, the heretics and free spirits

the queer spirit lovers could find themselves again

reflected in each other, remembering the way

that love in the body connects us to heaven –

whatever the preachers say.

In medieval times we were called Free Spirits, antinomian souls

who were burnt for believing that

women were equal to men

that pleasure is holy, not a sin

and that personal salvation directly through Christ

was a truly possible goal.

Inquisitions and Witch Hunters sought us out

unable to stand what we were about.

The end of authority, of rules and taboos

was not something acceptable in their views.

They had the power but we had the love

they lit the fires, but we listened

to the voices coming from above.

Beghards, Beguines and Bogomils,

Lollards, Cathars and Waldensians

killed for preaching that there is no sin for those

who have married with the Christ within,

for those who have recognised that God is the Source of All

surrendered their egos to follow God’s call.

We laughed at the idea of sexual taboos,

at the notion of bread and wine becoming Christ.

We hated the imagery of our Lord on the Cross

we refused to let the Church be our boss.

We were the ones hearing god full of kindness

reassuring us we were safe on this trip of life:

we even forgave our killers for their blindness

for we knew our souls would survive

their attacks against our love, our magic –

theirs were the lives that were truly tragic.

Without love, without pleasure

without liberty within

life becomes a forbidding trial

all joy ringfenced by sin.

Our faiths suppressed we moved to the next

stage of our manifestation:

Theatre called us, as it had Dionysus

through art and drama, the audience enthalled by us,

emotions were shared, wisdom was declared

and the world got a little bit lighter.

Still we were hunted, but our presence prevails

because you can’t destroy our spirit which avails

itself of gaiety even in gloom:

at courts and balls, in molly houses, bars and clubs

from the Renaissance to the time of AIDS

we’ve never stopped dancing even as we face our doom:

for we are the people of the moon

who know how to touch people’s hearts

with our stories and our arts

we know how to help hurting souls

with our healing crafts.

We’ve been put in the stocks

we’ve been hung, imprisoned

chemically castrated and made objects of derision,

but our spirit fights back, we never disappear

the eternal freedom loving spirit of queer.

The Aquarian Age is an Age of Light,

minds opened at last, the Goddess resurrected,

same sex love once more respected

as it was in ancient Celtic lands even more than in Greece –

that civilisation in which love of man for man

was raised to philosophical heights.

For the Celts passionate friendship was society’s glue

same sex love was seen as noble and true.

The Greeks saw man for man love as enlightening the mind and soul

but the Celts pursued another goal, all forms of love honoured, makes a people whole.

Pleasure is a Goddess – the Ancients knew

Pleasure dissolves the boundaries between Me and You.

Pleasure is a doorway to living deeply in the present

a vehicle for healing and revelation

a tool for our own personal salvation:

Pleasure is an Act of Creation.

Love connects all beings in a web of immortality

but love came under the yoke of religion and law:

ringfenced by morals, holy sexworkers named whores,

same-sex love was forbidden, named as immorality –

nature’s natural priests accused of depravity –

where love does not flow, spirit cannot go:

division and fear burst forth when love is met with NO.

Queer love connects the community

and opens the gates to eternity.

Queer Souls are Gatekeepers to the Aquarian Age.

Modern Day Sufis

In the early centuries of Islam, Christians and Zoroastrians in the community would run secret drinking dens, where muslim poets celebrated the love of Allah with colourful imagery of wine and beautiful young men. Hafiz, Abu Niwas, Rumi are among the poets who used intoxication and homoeroticism in their words to conjure the experience of heavenly embrace. Throughout history, acts of celebration, intoxication and revelry have served to feed human souls with the joy of connection, communion and intimacy, the antidote to the attitudes of religious madmen have always railed against such activity. Whenever the world rails and wails, the people in the Alehouse continue to laugh, love and dance.




When will the wailing cease?

we wonder as we raise our toast

and the world once more respond


Why are people stuck in judgement?

Why are people stuck in hate?





Love connects all beings in a web of immortality

but same-sex love was forbidden, named as immorality –

where love does not flow, spirit cannot go:

division and fear burst forth when love is met with NO.

Pleasure is a Goddess – the Ancients knew

Pleasure dissolves the boundaries between Me and You.


In the 4th century BCE Greek philosopher Aristotle recorded that the Celtic peoples (“and a few others”) “openly approve of male love”.

SIX CENTURIES LATER, around 200 CE, Greek orator and author Athenaeus recorded the same thing in a play called ‘Savants at Dinner’. He places a selection of noble guests at a symposium at which they quote more than 1200 ancient authors, name a thousand Greek plays and philosophise on many subjects. In Book XIII we read “Altogether, many persons prefer liaisons with males to those with females.” He states that those cities in which male love is “zealously pursued” are rules by good laws (the Greeks had a millennium old tradition of celebrating male lovers who overthrew tyrant rulers and established fair laws). Some of those tyrants “even went as far as to set fire to the wrestling-schools, regarding them as counter-walls to their own citadels.” He lists the Cretans, Chalcidians, Medes, Tuscans, citizens of Massalis (modern Marseilles in France) and the Celts as being enthusiastically approving of male-male liaisons.

Historians have told us that the Classical Greek civilisation approved of homosexual relationships – in certain circumstances only – and that under the Roman Empire gay sex, while common, became a power game in which the passive partner was looked down on. These stances are getting a gradual reinterpretation, but for sure we do have quotations from several Greco-Roman writers expressing their shock at, in comparison to their own cultures, just how queer the goings on in the Celtic North were.

Greek philosopher Posidonius, 1st century BC, traveled into Gaul to investigate the truth of the stories told about the Celtic tribes, and put it very simply: “The Gaulish men prefer to have sex with each other.”

Diodorus Sicilus wrote in the 1st century CE, –

“Although they have good-looking women, they pay very little attention to them, but are really crazy about having sex with men. They are accustomed to sleeping on the ground on animal skins and roll around naked with male bed-mates on both sides. Heedless of their own dignity, they abandon without qualm the bloom of their bodies to others. And the most incredible thing is that they do not find this shameful. When they proposition someone, they consider it dishonourable if he doesn’t accept the offer!”

Sextus Empiricus wrote that among the Germanic people sodomy was “not looked upon as shameful but as a customary thing.”

Bardaisan of Edessa wrote (2nd century CE) that “In the countries of the north — in the lands of the Germans and those of their neighbors, handsome [noble] young men assume the role of wives [women] towards other men, and they celebrate marriage feasts.”

Eusebius of Caesarea, wrote that “Among the Gauls, the young men marry each other (gamountai) with complete freedom. In doing this, they do not incur any reproach or blame, since this is done according to custom amongst them.” (4th century CE)

Aristotle had coined a Greek term – synousia – to describe the ‘passionate friendship’ between Celtic men. The word suggests erotic passion. While there was marriage, friendship seems to have been the basis of loving connections between males, a friendship that was not bound by moral judgements about the body and sexual expression.

For 1000 years Greek civilisation raised the vision of male love to the highest philosophical heights it has yet reached on this planet. Yet these were also the years of rising patriarchal power and homophobia. In contrast to the Greeks, not far away in Canaan the efforts of the Hebrew priests to distinguish their tribe from the others around them produced the prohibitions of male-male sexuality (and on cross-dressing) in the Torah that continue to devastatingly affect the lives of gay people in the world to this very day.

Even in Greece the debate was on. Aristophanes speaks in Plato’s Symposium:

Those who love men and rejoice to lie with, be embraced by men, are also the finest bys and young men, being naturally the most manly. The people who accuse them of shamelessness lie; they do this not from shamelessness but from courage, manliness and virility, embracing what is like them.”

Plato himself, while seeing divine potential in male love, was opposed to the physical expression of that love. Yet even in the first centuries of Christian domination, when many Church Fathers were furiously railing against gay sex and gay people, there were strong voices presenting a different view. Plutarch’s ‘Dialogue on Love’ in the 2nd century makes a strong argument for the approval of love for both males and females – the play reveals how revered gay love still was at this time, and seems to argue that love of women can be brought up to the same level. 150 years later the dialogue ‘Affairs of the Heart’, by the satirist Lucian, is much less excited about the love of women, called “the more awkward cause” in the debate about which love is the best, and reveals that, as the new religious attitudes spread, non-Christian Greeks were holding on to their ancient attitudes.

The Celtic and Germanic people of northern Europe left us no written records, but archaeology has now revealed a prosperous, skilled, artistic culture that spanned the millennia of the Bronze Age. We know of warrior women among the Celts, and of softer, gentle Bardic men as well as fierce and powerful Druids (of both genders). History tells us these ancestors had no issue with male-male love, it was at least as respected and normalised as male-female. The Greeks elevated male love to a heavenly ideal, then ringfenced how that should be expressed (though we shouldn’t assume everyone saw it the same way), and looked on conjugal love as inferior. Perhaps the northern Europeans were more advanced in the sense of accepting that all love is natural and should be allowed its expression.

I conclude with one more quotation then a proposition:

Greek philosopher Ptolemy recorded in the 2nd century that Celtic men:

are without passion towards women and do not care much about the enjoyment of love in the union… with Men, on the other hand, are more excessive and more likely to be jealous. Those influenced in this way do not regard their behavior as immoral and do not become really unmanly and soft because they are not influenced in the passive sense, rather they keep their souls manly, sociable, loyal, family-friendly and well-disposed. ” – Ptolemy, Apotelesmatika 2.3.14

Homophobia is unnatural. It was invented to control people’s minds and souls. Same Sex love is completely natural and was once accepted as such in the very lands that went on to develop a vile, murderous attitude to gay people, then spread this evil around the world. But they never managed to get rid of us, and after long dark centuries of persecution we are slowly finding our way again, and finding out who we are.

The ancient people of northern Europe approved of same sex relationships.

Every gay European deserves to know this history. Let’s make sure they find out.

Gays and the Weather

Why do some Christians blame natural weather disasters on gay people?

This article gives a history of this 1500 year old habit, intended to amuse as much as horrify.

I then demonstrate why they are actually correct in their assumption that we affect the weather, but not in their interpretation of how. Yes you just read that.


The first recorded laws regarding same-sex liaisons that made the association between gay sex and natural disasters were enacted by the Roman Christian Emperor of Byzantian Rome Justinian in 534 CE. This law claimed that Jewish people and people who had sex with others of the same gender were undermining the very foundations of Roman society. This view was to darken European minds for one and a half millennia – and the great irony is that in fact it was a long series of same sex loving emperors who had brought the Empire to the point of its greatest expansion and established the ‘Pax Romana’ across the Meditteranean world and as far north as Britain, which enabled the Empire to thrive for centuries.

Justinian’s law code blamed same sex relations for ‘famines, earthquakes and pestilence.’ The punishment for the crime was death. But Justinian was Emperor of the eastern half of the Empire, the Roman civilisation in the west had already collapsed. Yet it was in the west that the law would reappear with a vengeance nearly a millennium later, and in the east it had little effect on the commonality of same sex activities. During the first millennium the Church authorities focussed their efforts on prohibiting homosexuality among their own clergy and monastics. It was from the 14th century that efforts to control the sex life of the general population were undertaken, via the Inquisition and laws enacted by states. (The Council of London in 1102 wanted to issue an edict against sodomy but Archbishop Anselm halted it. He stated that “This sin has hitherto been so public that hardly anyone is embarrassed by it.”)

The reference to bad weather appears again in law codes issued in the region of Castile, Spain, in 1265 (the Siete Partidas) and by the kings of Medina del Campo in 1497. The latter rails against this ‘nefarious crime against the natural order‘, which it also calls ‘unworthy of naming, destroyer of the natural order, punished by divine justice; through which nobility is lost and the heart becomes cowardly… abhorrence in the eyes of God‘, who is angered so much ‘as to deliver unto humankind pestilence and other torments on earth.’ They just cannot help themselves: ‘from this sin is born shame and insult toward the people and lands that consent to it; and it is deserving of greater punishments that can be given…’

From ancient times and throughout the medieval and early modern the phenomenon of gay sex causing natural disasters was considered to have begun with the Great Flood. This association was written down in the Holy Roman Empire during the reign of Charlemagne at the Council of Paris in 829, at which a Canon was published that declared:

‘Among all the other sins which the human race fatally committed at the beginning of creation, it is believed that, provoked to wrath especially by this sin (as certain teachers have maintained), [God] said: “I repent making man on the earth”. Therefore on this account, he utterly destroyed by a cataclysm [the Flood] the whole human race except for eight souls.

This belief fuelled various periods of persecution such as in the Netherlands in the 1730s when the country was threatened by rising sea levels. Sodom’s Sin and Punishment by Leonard Beel ascribed divine wrath at sodomy as the cause of an earthquake in 1692, and the loss of the town of Stavoren to the sea in 1657. In Portugal in 1446 during the reign of Afonso V an ordinance prescribed burning for sodomy with the justification that because of it “God set the Flood upon the earth.”

Let’s jump to the late 20th/early 21st centuries. We all know that hysterical accusations about gay people’s very existence setting off natural weather disasters still carries right on, even today in our apparently rational, educated, science based civilisation.

In May 1978 anti-gay campaigner Anita Bryant blamed gay behaviour for a drought affecting California. Despite her calling us ‘human garbage’ the weather gods clearly saw it differently, because one day after Harvey Milk became the first openly gay man elected to the San Franscisco City Supervisor office, abundant rains arrived.

In 1998 televangelist Pat Robertson warned that flying rainbow flags on city lampposts during Disney Gay Day events would ‘bring about terrorist bombs… earthquakes, tornadoes, and possibly a meteor.’ He was already blaming-the-gays for the East African famines in the 1970s.

Hurricane Katrina, which killed 1300 people in 2005, was declared by religious leader Maurice Mills to be God’s revenge for Gay Pride. “The media failed to report that the hurricane occurred just two days prior to the annual homosexual event called the Southern Decadence festival, which the previous year had attracted an estimated 125,000 people,” said Mr Mills… “Surely this is a warning to nations where such wickedness is increasingly promoted and practised.” Reported in the Belfast Telegraph.

Other hurricane disasters also bearing our stamp apparently included Andrew in 1992, Bonnie 1998, Isaac and Sandy in 2012. Of course we got blamed for the Japanese tsunami of 2011 too. (‘Jacobs: Blame Gays for Tsunami’ The Advocate.)

‘Kill the Gays’ pastor Kevin Swanson said in 2017 that the natural disasters hitting the USA were God’s judgements for turning ‘homosexuals into heroes.’

Judaism is not immune to this tendency…

Right-wing rabbi Noson Leiter of Torah Jews for Decency described Hurricane Sandy as ‘divine justice’ for the 2011 legalization of marriage for same-sex couples in the state of New York. He also claimed that ‘the Great Flood in the time of Noah was … triggered by the recognition of same-gender marriages.’

This kind of thing does not affect only the American mind:

Church ministers at a Climate Change conference at the University of the South Pacific in 2010 argued that climate chaos was attributable to homosexuals, giving the academics something to ponder.

In the UK a town councillor of the UKIP party blamed 2013-14’s storms and floods on the legalisation of gay marriage, blaming David Cameron: ‘It is his fault that large swathes of the nation have been afflicted by storms and floods.’ An Australian Christian group at the same time was blaming gay marriage for bushfires.

In India, 2018, just days after the Supreme Court decriminalised homosexuality, a Tamil Nadu-based pastor in a court complex raised slogans against the landmark judgment, claiming that same-sex marriage would lead to natural calamities


The first book published about the ritual roles undertaken by same sex loving and genderfluid people in ancient and modern cultures which kept a connection to the past was by English philosopher Edward Carpenter. ‘Intermediate Types Among Primitive Peoples’ in 1914.

He identifies a historical channelling of masculine homosexual energies into the military, giving examples of the Dorian Greeks and Japanese Samurai, and of feminine gay people ‘into the precincts of the Temples and the services (often sexual) of Religion – which, of course in primitive days, meant not only the religious life in our sense, but the dedication to such things as Magic, learning, poetry, music, prophecy, and other occupations not generally favoured by the normal man, the hunter and the warrior. There are also some considerations which go to show that this class of Intermediate did actually tend to develop faculties like divination, clairvoyance, ecstasy, and so forth, which are generally and quite naturally associated with religion.’

Carpenter remarked how ‘widespread the connection has been among the primitive peoples and civilisations’ of homosexuality and religion. In his book he writes about the Inuit shamans, the Native American berdache, the same phenomenon in the Pacific Islands, and links them to the priests of Apollo in ancient Greece and the moon goddesses of the Middle East and Europe, the Qedesha holy priests of the Old Testament (called sodomites or, nowadays, male shrine prostitutes in English Bible translations), and the Buddhist Bonzes monks of China and Japan. He quotes 19th century explorer Richard Burton who reported that same sex erotic practices had ‘been adopted by the priestly castes from Mesopotamia to Peru.’

It took a while before more gay writing on this subject appeared, and it’s taking even longer for queer people to have much awareness of this huge part of our collective history. ‘Witchcraft and the Gay Counter Culture’ Arthur Evans is a historic and inspired paean to our past in which he aspires to ‘…to regaining our ancient historical roles as medicine people, healers, prophets, shamans and sorcerers. We look forward to an endless and fathomless process of coming out – as gay people, as animals, as humans, as mysterious and powerful spirits that move through the life cycle of the cosmos….. Like butterflies we are emerging from the shells of our past restricted existence. We are re-discovering the ancient magic that was once the birth right of all human beings.’

Judith Grahn in Another Mother Tongue (1984) wrote that ‘The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.’

Blossom of Bone by Randy P Connor (1993) is the most thorough study of this subject. The book sets out to reclaim ‘the ancient link between homoeroticism, gender-variance and the sacred’. In Hermaphrodeities (2002) Raven Kaldera plainly states ‘Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.Thomas Prower more recently took a world tour of this priestcraft aspect of queer history in 2018.




‘The words gay and lesbian do not exist in the village, but there is the word gatekeeper. Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between the worlds – the world of the village and the world of spirit.

‘Most people in the West define themselves and others by sexual orientation. This way of looking at gatekeepers will kill the spirit of the gatekeeper. Gatekeepers in the village are able to do their job simply because of strong spiritual connection, and also their ability to direct their sexual energy not to other people but to spirit.

‘…there are two different kinds of gatekeeper.

‘The first group has the ability to guard a limited number of gates to the other world, specifically,those that correspond to the Dagara cosmology – water, earth, fire, minerals, and nature – because they vibrate the energies of those gates.

‘The second group of gatekeepers… has the responsibility of overseeing all the gates. They are in contact not only with the elemental gates but also with many others.’

Sobonfu Some

These are the words of Sobonfu Some of the Dagara Tribe of west Africa, who have never lost their memory of the original, sacred roles of genderfluid people and homo-erotic love, recorded in her book The Spirit of Intimacy (2000).

Sobonfu tells us:

Gatekeepers hold keys to other dimensions. They maintain a certain alignment between the spirit world and the world of the village. Without them, the gates to the other world would be shut.

On the other side of these gates lies the spirit world or other dimensions. Gatekeepers are in constant communication with beings who live there, who have the ability to teach us how to deal with ritual’.

Turning back 3000 years to an early Zoroastrian text we perhaps find a turning point recorded at which same-sex love started to be viewed as suspicious because of its magical associations with nature’s spirits, and thus the beginning of the loss of this wisdom in the western world.

The Vendidad is an early Zoroastrian text, dating back to around 800 BCE, that records conversations between the prophet and God, Ahura Mazda. It compares queer people with faery beings – Daeva is also often translated as demons, but note that, unlike in the dualistic minded west, in India devas were never split into good and evil categories. The text goes….

“Ahura Mazda answered: ‘The man that lies with mankind as man lies with womankind, or as woman lies with mankind, is the man that is a Daeva; this one is the man that is a worshipper of the Daevas, that is a male paramour of the Daevas, that is a female paramour of the Daevas, that is a wife to the Daeva; this is the man that is as bad as a Daeva, that is in his whole being a Daeva; this is the man that is a Daeva before he dies, and becomes one of the unseen Daevas after death: so is he, whether he has lain with mankind as mankind, or as womankind.”

— Avesta, Vendidad, Fargard 8. Funerals and purification, unlawful sex, Section V (32) Unlawful lusts.

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When we look at the mythologies of the world there are of course many deities associated and involved with natural forces, and they are often queer. There are gods of thunder and rain, goddesses of the sun as well as gods, goddesses of the earth. Here i focus on just one past culture.

In ancient Greece the Sun’s fire was associated with the handsome Apollo, the most popular god of the culture. He was well known for his erotic dalliances with men, including the Macedonian Prince Hyakinthos. His relationship with Thracian singer Thamyris was said to be the first man on man relationship in history. Apollo also had a thing going with Hymen, the God of Marriage. Gay marriage is totally not a new thing.

The beautiful Hyakinthos met his death through a discus blown by an air god – Zephyrus of the west, one of the four seasonal Wind Gods. Zephyrus was depicted as a handsome, winged youth, and often appears in Greco-Roman mosaics carrying a basket of unripe fruit.

Aphrodite, the Goddess of Love, was born from the Ocean. She emerged from the sea-foam after the genitals of Uranus were castrated and thrown into the water. She became the Goddess of all things loving and sensual and appears in hermaphrodite version and as patron of same sex love (Aphrodite Urania) as well as procreative love (Dionea).

Poseidon, the God of the sea, was said in Greek poet Pindar’s First Olympian Ode to have shared ‘Aphrodite’s sweet gifts’ with Pelops, the king of Pisa. The king also got to visit Olympus and train to drive the divine chariot.

The Earth Goddess was known as Gaia. She was worshipped as part of the cult of Demeter and associated with Rhea, the Greek name for the oldest Mother Goddess who was known as Cybele in her most ancient shrines in Anatolia, and who became in 200 BC the Magna Mater of the Roman Empire. Cybele’s priests were the queer, loud and flamboyant Gallae, hated by Christians, but loved by the people because of the wild, frenzied celebratory rituals they brought to the whole Empire as they travelled around with the armies.


Some religious folk have been blaming-the-gays for natural weather disasters for 1500 years. They can not get over their obsession that we have something to do with balance and nature.

Before those accusations started, the cultures that they sprang from once associated same sex relationship with the gods, with nature, with the elemental forces of the climate, as have other traditional people around the planet.

Today some shamanic peoples remember things the west has long forgotten.

Sobonfu tells us gay people can talk to the spirit worlds, that some of us control the elemental gates.

The Greek myths tell us the elemental spirits were once considered themselves to be very queer indeed.

Sobonfu, and a global history most queer people have not paid attention to yet, tell us that what we limit to a sexual or gender ‘identity’ is in fact a spiritual force, a soul energy in the matrix of life, that is needed to bring balance in society and the world.

Perhaps queer people are response-able to create balance in the world. Souls that contain a balance of masculine and feminine spirit which opens up life experiences that are unavailable to those stuck in binary extremes. Those who have studied us with their rational, scientific minds, or judged us with their religious prejudice, have never been able to see this aspect of what we are in the world, because they do not have it in themselves.

Perhaps we are the ones who keep insular human minds connected to the Whole, through providing experiences that remind people of the mystery game of life and the magical reality we are deeply involved in. With our natural, ecstatic, spirit-lifting, life-balancing presence suppressed, life on earth has spun out of control.

It is absolutely not gay marriage or gay pride that creates climate chaos.








People believe their thoughts exist only inside their heads. They don’t – they transmit their chaos, their doubt, fear and negativity into nature’s energy fields. Energy follows thought. Empowered heart centred people emit strong good thoughts. The world needs a lot of them.










Someday, after mastering the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love, and then, for a second time in the history of the world, man will have discovered fire.” Teilhard de Chardin.


What we are is not a body

What we are is not a mind

What we are is pure awareness:

conscious potential with bliss built in.

Everyone is female and male on the inside.

The exterior is just a shell,

the inner world is where we experience reality

and the inner marriage of Shakti and Shiva –

is the key to a life lived well.

It’s not where you go, it’s what you do there…

the world is split between those

who have learnt that sharing connection, love and joy is the goal

and those who can’t see that yet, who remain in their heads, issues, problems;

between those who see diversity and celebration,

and those who can only see difference and strangeness:

The latter group are in the majority, but the former have a lot more fun.

Church and State spent 1000 years

perfecting the art of mind control,

then brought us up in the 20th century

to do what we were told.

We were told life has no meaning

we were told to go to work

we’re told to be afraid, destruction lurks at every turn:

it seems we have been played

and now our planet burns.

Our minds are as polluted

as the rivers, air, land and seas.

A world of disconnect and dysfunction

created by just one species.

Like the mushrooms, humans are linked

by subterranean mitochondria:

our Underworld is our collective subconscious

an Ocean of hopes and dreams,

and like the magic shroom we have the gift within us

to open the doors to other worlds

and see that life is so much more interconnected

than on the outside it often seems.

For, what we are is not a body

What we are is not a mind

What we are is pure awareness:

conscious potential with bliss built in.

Warriors of the New Age

Warriors of the New Age

here to turn the collective page

here to birth a new paradigm.

Finding Oneness within ourselves

and together in collective fire –

to bring humanity home is the goal to which we aspire.

The external world dominates modern lives

it’s only on the outside we are encouraged to thrive:

but the inner being is the source of real wealth

the inner search the way to true health.

As the moon waxes from new to full

and wanes back down to darkness

our souls expand, contract, fill up and release

the watery waves of emotion never cease.

Our minds are steering the way through the waves

but the body’s wisdom is greater:

the physical form has it’s own reality

listening to it can restore our sanity.

The mind creates, every thought has a vibration

that attracts or repels, intakes or expels;

the mind has no answers, those exist in the soul,

mind analyses, and should seek for the goal

of it’s own annihilation as we come to find

a much older Self within, deeper than the mind,

the place of Oneness with All That Is –

the entrance to Bliss and the end of this global,

damnable journey of duality and suffering.

Salvation through pain became a religious obsession

at the same time as the Bearers of Joy were struck down:

the ecstatic priests/priestesses of the pagan gods,

who kept Life connected to worlds above and below,

who celebrated the body as the holy vessel,

born to bear light, ecstasy, love and joy –

the Holy Ones became the Queer and Feared –

our sacred sexuality turned into the devil’s sin

as greedy males came up with a plan

to overrun the earth, make her a resource,

and to dominate the souls of every woman and man

by dividing the world into sacred and profane

religion took over with its dark, bloodthirsty game.

Life is a Unity, there is no exclusion

in the Divine Kingdom here on Earth.

All is interdependent, dancing in Oneness

the only species seeing it differently – is us.

Warriors of the New Age are turning the page

embodying a paradigm where the body is holy,

sexuality is divine, ecstatic behaviours release the soul,

bringing humanity home – quickly – is our goal.

We see no differences to fear, only diversity, joyous and queer

life in all its riches, life’s rebirth comes near.

Oneness embodied in group dynamic rapidly changes the game.

Rainbow Warrior Spirits are born everywhere –

each generation brings a new brood;

forerunners of a divine multitude,

preparing for the Aquarian Age –

balancing the heights of technology and science

with the reclaimed wisdom of crone and sage.

Meeting in circles where love is the gateway

to union, light and bliss.

With reverence, rhythm, playfulness and passion

we dance, we sing, we kiss.

Energy flowing in every direction –

the goddess is honoured like this.

Her shakti flows amongst us

and out into the world –

changing vibrations through acts of elation.

Oneness embodied in group dynamic rapidly changes the game.


excerpts from In The Temple of Father Earth and Mother Sky

In ‘Two Flutes Playing’ by Andrew Ramer

There was a time when the world was poised between the way things are now, and the way that they were then. The ice was gone. Towns and villages were being established. Men and women owned their differences and were still able to communicate with each other. The sacred places of the Mother still functioned, in groves and caves and on the tops of mountains….

the world was changing. The old ways were being forgotten. What made people different from each other was becoming more important than what connected them, and the need for connectors from any of the scouting tribes was becoming less and less honoured…

In those days, the ancient belief in God as Mother was being replaced by an awareness of God’s Father aspects, and women’s sacred powers were being questioned. So too, the old male sense of Earth was being replaced by a belief in female Earth, as a mother without limits. Men in all tribes were taking more and more power onto themselves, beginning to pillage the earth in the process. Now, we were a people known for our ability to contain both male and female energies in one body in a state of perfect balance. And as the distance between female and male continued to grow, it became more and more difficult for people to see us in our wholeness…

The chief of [our] elders at that time was a man named Kuniata. It was he who first dreamed about building a permanent temple and community in that place. In his dream he saw the first courtyard of the temple, and the walls, both inner and outer. It was he who marked out on the dirt the lines that became walls, the lines that became lodgings and healing rooms, the lines that became the inner shrine of the temple, where the men of our tribe gathered to pray, meditate, connect with each other, with the spirits of the ancestors of our tribe, and with the Oneness that connects us all.

They called it ‘Nas-mahay Tal-wah-hahn’ the Temple of Father Earth and Mother Sky. There, our priests were able to teach and share and preserve their ancient wisdom – for our tribe and for all the people. The memory of that first gay temple is still carried in the collective unconscious…. all the temples of our people that followed it were patterned by this first temple, in every part of the Western world, from Africa to Sweden, from Palestine to Spain…

We may think of these people as primitive, but their spiritual culture was as advanced as our material culture is today. They understood both the physical body and the subtle bodies. Through dreams they were able to connect across great distances with other elders of our tribe, just as we do by telephone. Their chosen work was to help the people remember love and loving in a time when humanity was beginning to explore physicality, power, separation and destruction….

In that time people still understood that healing energy and sexual energy are the same. So the raising of sexual energy was taught, the ways to use that energy to awaken healing and awareness in the physical body. Through different access patterns in the body, initiates could be opened up to other states of consciousness and other levels of inner wisdom. In sexual trance they travelled to other realms and met the earth ancestors of our tribe, the gay elders who became their teachers on other planes…

At moon festival and other sacred times, the men of our tribe who did not live in the temple came to be with the priests and novices who did. They came together there, to learn our ancient history, through stories, through music, through dance and through sacred touch. They came to bask in the power we had in our tribes, the power of love that the men and women loving tribes did not have, the power for every single member of our tribe to be the potential partner of every single other member. It was that power, that unity, that nurtured us, empowered us, made us holy and the reflection on Earth of the Greater Oneness that is the source of all that is and ever will be….

But the growing into strength of what we call the patriarchy began to intrude into the workings of that temple, and all the other temples that were built after it, both our temples and all the temples of women everywhere… the priests and leaders of the new gods were taking over people’s lives… in the West and in the East as well… the journey to wisdom through suffering became a global art form.

No longer did humanity move through the world in a sacred way. In turning our focus to the physical world, we as a species created a rift between our physical bodies and our energy bodies. Once, living in a body on the Earth was a source of sacredness. But disconnected from the spiritual energies that come to us through our subtle bodies, people no longer felt sacred all the time. Once, every relationship between two lovers, two men, two women, a woman and a man, was a source of sacredness, a channel to Divine energy. But in that time, humanity turned away from the doorway to sacredness that is love, and began to explore other realms of consciousness.

Over the centuries, as our focus on the physical world grew stronger, our collective ability to sense and move in the non-physical realms grew more restricted. Hoping to prevent a total separation between the two, the priests in our temples began to work in a new and more focussed way. Where they had once helped the people to keep their energies balanced, all that was left to them was to serve the people as conduits for Divine connection. So in rooms once used for all kinds of healing work, in temples all across the ancient world, men we now call sacred prostitutes began to appear…

For thousands and thousands of years, everyone had seen us a people, a people with specific gifts and powers. But in those days, for the first time in human history, others were starting to see our power as coming from our sexuality, and not as coming from our peoplehood and from our inner gifts. For the first time in history, they began to see our work as about sex, and not about consciousness scouting, healing and transformation…

As men and women drew apart, the universe itself was coming to be seen as divided between male and female – with nothing to connect them but the act of sex itself, on a personal and on a cosmic level. For the first time in history our tribe was divided. Those who found it easier to connect with their femaleness had no other role available except for that of serving in the temples; while those who found it easier to connect with their maleness were excluded, forced to join the tribe of all tribes, to marry and focus their love of other men into sexual connection only…

In that time, to echo in their bodies the mutilation that was happening to us as a people, and to echo in their bodies the unbalanced femaleness that was being imposed on them, our sacred priests began to be castrated, to dress in women’s garments, to offer in a fragmented way what little remained of our ancient powers…

… the word in the Bible that is translated as cultic prostitute is a word that means Holy One….

…We are the ones who still carry the knowledge that the body is holy, that sex is holy, that the only way we can heal the air, the water, the land, is by loving our own and each other’s bodes again, by loving the body of the planet we live on… by bringing love back to the places we live in – to our bodies and to the world.

In time, there were temples all around the Great Inner Sea, the Mediterranean, where men of our tribe, cut away from each other and from their own inner balance of genders, lived out the last of our powers, serving the Mother as sacred prostitutes. Alone, yet in holy service, we did what we remembered of our ancient work, in the best ways that we could. We were called Holy Ones. And yet, the holy power we had in those days was but a fragment of the powers we once had. For a thousand years, the last of our priests served in goddess temples. Then, the powers of the male gods and their priesthood grew. Villages became cities, and cities became nations with vast standing armies. Soon, the male gods would became a male God, and even the great temples we served in would be ‘cleansed’ of our presence. Prophets would rail against us. The people would come to hate and fear us. What little remained of our love and power would be branded as unnatural. The sacred groves of our temples would be cut down, our living altars, cut down. The goddesses we served would be debased, their priestesses forced into virginity, then excluded from sacred service all together.

As the patriarchal priesthood took over the world, there was no room for women, for men who were seen as women, no room for joy or pleasure or physical sacraments. But our energy is strong, too strong to be completely denied. And we who are born to draw in Earth and Sky for all the people, who chose to enter our tribe to express something of our inner balance in the world of form, took our ancient powers and transformed them once again. There had always been sacred dances, trance dances, sacred singers and choruses who helped to align and connect and heal the people. This had gone on in every tribe. But in the time when the old ways were being destroyed, when our scouting powers were gone, our shamanic powers gone, it was then that men of our tribe took one of our innate powers, our ancient flute player energies, and redefined them again.

No longer able to connect with each other, no longer able to serve in the temples to retune other men, we tapped into our ancient powers, and invented something new. In ancient Greece, in the service of a new god come from the East, where our people remembered more of our old power, a new god born from the body of his father, and connected to the earth as we had been, in the service of Dionysus, we invented something new out of our ancient powers. In the last of the groves, on the hillsides behind temples, there we created theatre. There, in a sacred way, in costumes and masks, we became goddesses and gods, heroes and heroines. We did this to preserve what is innate and true and holy in us in the best ways we could find. We did this for all the people, to align and connect and heal them. And we carried this gift to all of our people, so that they too, wherever they were, could make use of our sacred powers in the world again. For we are the people who can hold male and female equally in balance in our bodies. And we took that power, that balancing power, and we gave it back to all the people, in a new way. If we could not balance them as healers, if we could not balance them as lovers, we would balance them on stage. The earliest plays were not about ordinary men and women. They were about gods and heroes, because the actors were trained to channel the energies of those gods and heroes from the spirit realms. The last of our priests became writers, directors, stage master shamans, who taught other men of our tribe how to draw in those energies, and how to beam them out to the people who watched them, listened to them. This was as true in the East as in the West, that men of our tribe came together in this way to serve all the people.

This was in the time when women, except for the last of the priestesses and sacred prostitutes, were seen as nothing more than the possessions of their fathers and then husbands. So there were no female performers, and would not be for thousands of years. We, the men of our tribe, we carried that energy out into the world, in the only ways that the patriarchy would allow it. And so it was in that time, that the only way the men of our fragmented tribe could find each other, to do what remained of our sacred work, was in theatres, on stages. Our loving had to be kept secret. Our power had to be kept secret. Even on stage, who we were was a secret. And even in ancient Greece, often thought of as the home of homosexuality, we could only love each other in unequal relationships, where instead of being teacher-partners, one man became the other’s teacher. But still, we did our work, the work we were born to do. We built our theatres, we told the old stories in the best ways that we could, as female and male, with music and dancing, in honor of the god who was himself in balance. And if we were no longer powerful as a people, our work was.

Then as a species, we deepened further into our journey of exploration of physicality. We had no more room for joy, for pleasure. The male God demanded sacrifice and obedience. Even theatre was seen as debasing. Ancient stages were destroyed. The sacredness of our work, of what remained of our work, was once again denied. Our capacity to love was forbidden, considered evil. And this time, many of the men of our people, remembering their inner priesthood, but having forgotten any sense of our tribe, turned away from the ancient body sacraments all together, became celibate, joined new priesthoods—but still continued to teach and heal in the best ways they knew how. Here and there, someone remembered our ancient history, in stories, in fragments. Sometimes all that was remembered was that this god had loved a mortal man, in this or that place, a long, long time ago, be he Zeus or perhaps Jesus. But even those fragments were enough to feed us in the years of forgetting. For we took our last remaining power, we took our hunter energy, and we wandered out into the wilderness of the world, hunting for ourselves, hunting for each other. At times we went so far into the wilderness of plains and cities that we lost sight of who we were and why we were there.

Alone, each one of us thought himself to be the only one. For just as the world forgot, or tried to, that we exist, that we exist in a sacred way, with sacred powers meant to be used for all the people, we ourselves forgot who we are. All over the Western world, we were tortured and burned at the stake, with witches and others who struggled to live and to remember the old healing ways. This part of our history we know, have lived with. And when we met, if we met at all, the only thing left to us was sexual connection. Nameless, faceless, in fear, in shame, in bliss, we met each other, hungering for something of our ancient selves that sex alone could never satisfy, and never will. But some of our ancient wisdom remained in other places. When the people of Europe invaded the Americas, they found a proud and living tradition of men who remembered the balancing ways, men sometimes dressed in women’s garments, men who lived their lives in a sacred way, who were sexual with other men. This was too much for the European terror merchants, who transported their life-negating inquisitions to a world still new to them. And we live in the culture they brought with them. We are a part of that ‘civilization.’ And yet just beneath our asphalt streets, something of the old sacredness of the peoples of this continent remains for us to connect with. No, we did not go away. We could not. In a village, in a province, in a kingdom, in an empire, they could try to exterminate all of us—and in the next generation, their very own bodies would betray them—and give birth to us again, to us and to all the peoples of the scouting tribes. They could take away our history, destroy our sacred places, burn us, look on while disease took away our young men. But we are a part of this planet, woven into and out of its body. And, we will never go away.

The Path of the Moon

The ancients worshipped the sun and the moon –

they knew that life does sing two tunes:

the outer and the inner are two realities

but humanity now only worships the sun

as money, beauty, riches and fame –

status and power the name of the game.

The inner divine is left unknown,

the soul denied, forgotten –

our mental states pathologised,

human connection to spirit circumcised.

The inner search is our way home

it’s on the inside that the goddess is found

if we attune to both sun and the moon

our souls will surely bloom.

During this dark age of science and confusion

humanity has been led into a state of delusion

so cut off in our hearts from the Earth Mother

no longer speaking to animals as sisters and brothers:

the people of the Moon repressed, killed, denied

and the world now run by weavers of lies.

The path of the Moon illuminates the inner journey

that we are here to take in this life:

atoms, quarks and photons mean nothing here –

for the soul life comes down to daily choices

between love and fear

and, to the soul, life’s not linear, controllable and straight

it is cyclical, chaotic and queer.

The path of the Moon reveals there’s meaning in everything

for Creation is in a constant state of communication,

exchange of information and erotic interaction;

streaming frequencies connect like vibrations

whatever the physical locations.

The path of the Moon reveals there’s no end to this voyage we’re on,

through space and time and infinity beyond

and reveals the timelessness that also exists

that’s available everywhere and whose nature is bliss.

Humanity forgot the Goddess

Lost touch with the cycles of Nature

Forgot the sacred power of Queer

Fell into the trap of Fear.

The call to JOY is urgent

to awaken to the game of dark and light

humanity has to transform through love.

The Moon is calling us home.

An Ancient Reference to Gays as Faerie Spirits

There is an ancient religious text from Persia that directly associates men who love men with the magical underworld of demons and faery spirits – the Vendidad of the Zoroastrian faith. Written around the same time as the 5th book of the Jewish Torah, Deuteronomy, which forbids Israelites from cross-dressing, becoming temple sex-workers, or bringing the earnings of female or male sex-workers (the males were known as ‘dogs’) into Jewish temples, the Vendidad basically calls men who sleep with men ‘faeries’.

In Deuteronomy the Hebrews were attempting to clearly define themselves as different to the many other tribes around. The prohibition in Leviticus against men sleeping with men uses the word word ‘toevah’, which has been translated into English as ‘abomination’ but etymologically is related to foreign ritual practices, and very possibly related to the Persian term used in the Vendidad. In the Zoroastrian text men who have sex with men are named ‘daevas’, translated as demons and related to the ‘deva’ spirits of the Indian sub-continent. Devas however are simply magical beings in India, not associated specifically with evil, whereas the Persians over time came to regard them as supernatural entities to be avoided. The oldest Zoroastrian text, the Gathas, calls the daevas ‘gods that are to be rejected’. In the Avesta, they are divinities that promote chaos and disorder, and in later tradition they become personifications of every evil possible.

The Vendidad is an early Zoroastrian text, dating back to around 800 BCE, that records conversations between the prophet and God, Ahura Mazda. One goes….

“Ahura Mazda answered: ‘The man that lies with mankind as man lies with womankind, or as woman lies with mankind, is the man that is a Daeva; this one is the man that is a worshipper of the Daevas, that is a male paramour of the Daevas, that is a female paramour of the Daevas, that is a wife to the Daeva; this is the man that is as bad as a Daeva, that is in his whole being a Daeva; this is the man that is a Daeva before he dies, and becomes one of the unseen Daevas after death: so is he, whether he has lain with mankind as mankind, or as womankind.”

— Avesta, Vendidad, Fargard 8. Funerals and purification, unlawful sex, Section V (32) Unlawful lusts.

From nearly 3000 years ago we have this religious text directly associating gay sex with the underworld of magical spirit beings. At this period, and for another millennium until the rise of Christianity, across southern Europe and the Middle East gender fluidity and homosexual acts were strongly associated with worship of the Goddess. She was known in many forms and by many names, all served by women and gay/transgender priest/esses, and that service could include sexual acts that brought connection to the deity. In fact round the whole world gay/queer beings once served in sacred roles, as shamans, medicine men, priests and sacred sex workers… our power was taken away, as was that of women, by men seeking to dominate and rule over others, to conquer territory and accumulate wealth. This process has now reached its apogee, the world is on the brink of global disaster unless humanity changes the way it lives.

To achieve this women and queers need to be brought to the table as equals to men, and all forms of love respected and honoured.

To achieve this we all need to seek deep within ourselves to find our reconnection to the planet, to the spirit and go beyond ego to our true divine selves.

To achieve this the Gatekeepers are needed.

The journey of Gay Liberation, the gradual emergence and acceptance of LGBTQ+ people around the world, is still in its early stages. Queer people have more to discover about who we are….

SOBONFU SOME, priestess of the Dagara Tribe of western Africa – a tribe that remembers the magical role of what we call queers – said in her book ‘Spirit of Intimacy’:

The words gay and lesbian do not exist in the village, but there is the word gatekeeper. Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between the worlds – the world of the village and the world of spirit…

Gatekeepers in the village are able to do their job simply because of strong spiritual connection, and also their ability to direct their sexual energy not to other people but to spirit.

There are many gates that link a village to other worlds. The only people who have access to all these gates are the gatekeepers. I should mention here that there are two different kinds of gatekeeper.

The first group has the ability to guard a limited number of gates to the other world, specifically,those that correspond to the Dagara cosmology – water, earth, fire, minerals, and nature – because they vibrate the energies of those gates.

The second group of gatekeepers… has the responsibility of overseeing all the gates. They are in contact not only with the elemental gates but also with many others. They have one foot in all the other worlds and other foot here. This is why the vibration of their body is totally different from others. They also have access to other-dimensional entities such as Kontombile, small beings who are very magical and knowledgeable. They are known as leprechauns in the Irish tradition.

Gatekeepers hold keys to other dimensions. They maintain a certain alignment between the spirit world and the world of the village. Without them, the gates to the other world would be shut.

On the other side of these gates lies the spirit world or other dimensions. Gatekeepers are in constant communication with beings who live there, who have the ability to teach us how to deal with ritual. And gatekeepers have the capacity to take other people to those places.

Gays and lesbians in the West are often very spiritual, but they have been taken away from their connection with spirit. My feeling is that without that outlet or that role in the culture, they have to find other ways of defining themselves.”

FROM TWO FLUTES PLAYING, channelled by Andrew Ramer:

“It is time for the gay community to heal itself. It is time for the gay community to assume the place in the human community that it was created for. It is time to come together in loving communities, for gay men to explore their inner femaleness so that they can help men and women communicate. It is time for gay men to own their capacity for youthfulness and their ability to be wise elders, so that they can once again sit with a child and be an adult who remembers being a child, so that they can talk to parents who thought they needed to forget their inner child in order to have children of their own. And it is time for gay people to start using, for planetary transformation, the global network that already exists, spreading information, love, advice, support, money, food, clothing.

The gay community can heal. It will not heal from focussing on combatting disease alone. A healing must include a spiritual element. And this is what has often been withheld from gay people. The religious communities of this planet have for the most part excluded, or at best ignored, their gay members. But religions is not necessarily spirituality. And it is through a spiritual connection, not a religious one, that the human community of this planet will find its healing.

“What is spiritual, what is sacred, is being redefined. It is being redefined in a fluid way. Gay people, by their very nature, exist in a state of internal fluidity that will make us vital in this time of planetary challenge. As we enter the Age called Aquarius it is useful to remember that the constellation Aquarius represents the youth Ganymede, who Zeus took up to Mount Olympus to be cupbearer to the gods, and his own lover. Gay people have a share in this coming transformation. To the ancient Epyptians, the water carrier was the source of the Nile, pictured as a man with breasts. When Jesus was preparing for the Last Supper, it is recorded in Luke that he sent his disciples into the city to meet a man carrying a jar of water, in a culture where only women were supposed to carry water.”

To be gay is something that begins within ourselves. In begins in our hearts, in that place that is never separate from the living heart of Infinite Oneness. To be gay is something that begins with ourselves, that finds itself mirrored back, echoed back to us by the tribe of men who love men. This tribe, our people , is a scouting tribe, a Walks-Between people, bridge-making people, walking between men and women, between night and day, between matter and spirit, between the living and the dead.”

When purposeful, spiritual connection is forgotten, the depth of sexual connection often takes it place. Sex points one in the right direction, deep into the self, into the mystery. But sex alone is not the answer to the gay dilemma of the present, the sense of meaninglessness. A sense of spiritual participation in the community of the planet is the answer. For no one else will tell us our purpose. Its discovery must come from ourselves.”

Since 1979 gay men, and nowadays an increasingly queer medley of magical folk, have been meeting in Radical Faerie gatherings and sanctuaries, seeking to create community from the heart, in harmony with nature, and to reclaim and explore our innate spiritual magic. The term Faerie was chosen as a reference to our connection to nature and spirit, as well as being a positive reclamation of the term ‘fairy’, so often used as an abusive insult in western cultures – and therefore implying a folk memory in Europe too between gay men and nature’s magic. Radical refers to getting to the roots of who we are:

HARRY HAY 1912-2002, gay rights activist and Radical Faerie Duchess:

“We have been a SEPARATE PEOPLE…. Drifting together in a parallel existence, not always conscious of each other.. yet recognising one another by eyelock when we did meet… here and there as outcasts… Spirit people… in service to the Great Mother.. Shamans.. mimes and rhapsodes, poets and playwrights, healers and nurturers… VISIONARIES… REBELS”

Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.”


According to certain mythologies, humanity once lived in Paradise and since leaving it has been trying to return. This can be interpreted as referring to the natural state of feeling our interconnectedness with all existence, which humans lost once we began to develop our own individual self-awareness, as society became more complex, language developed and the incredible variety of human cultures emerged.

All religious, magical and spiritual rituals and practices are designed to help bring us back to union with All That Is.

The most ancient written sources on the planet record humanity’s efforts to restore connection with its divine source:

GILGAMESH (c. 3000 BCE) is an epic tale from Mesopotamia of love between two men which turns into the hero’s search for the meaning of life. Gilgamesh is a part-mortal, part-divine, king out of control – the people of the city of Uruk appealed to the Gods for help because the king was claiming the right to sleep with all of their sons and daughters. Enter Enkidu, a wild and free man so strong and attractive that Gilgamesh pairs up with him. When the Goddess Ishtar later demands Gilgamesh become her consort he declines: She sends the Bull of Heaven to attack him. With Enkidu’s help the bull is killed – but this leads to divine punishment, and Enkidu gets sick and dies. From that point on the inconsolable Gilgamesh goes searching for the meaning of life and immortality – and almost achieves his goal. He is given a plant with the power of rejuvenation but leaves it by the shore where it gets eaten by a snake, thus explaining why the snake can shed its skin!

The EGYPTIAN BOOK OF THE DEAD (Book of Emerging Forth into Light, is a more accurate title translation) is a collection of spells and prayers written over thousands of years designed to give mystical knowledge of the afterlife, find safe passage through it and harness the powers available there for one’s own use after death.

DISPUTE BETWEEN A MAN AND HIS BA (SOUL) dates from Egypt’s Middle Kingdom (2040-1782 BCE) and features someone struggling to come to terms with life’s struggles. The soul encourages him to pursue his spiritual practice in the hope of attaining the afterlife, but to enjoy the experience of being alive, and not rush to end it.

Ancient pagan faiths developed out of shamanistic cultures of the Stone and Bronze Ages and took union with spirit as granted, as our natural state of being. There was no need to philosophise about the meaning of life until we became aware that we had forgotten it, you simply went to the temple to make offerings to the deities that would help and empower you here on earth. As civilisations emerged and rulers sought to bring order to society and a sense of cohesion and belonging, they understood that the way to achieve this was to manipulate and control the spirituality of the masses, using tools such as fear, doubt and shame.

The 8th to 3rd centuries BCE, known as the ‘AXIAL AGE’, was a period when, as put by German philosopher Karl Jaspers (1883-1969) who birthed the term, “the spiritual foundations of humanity were laid simultaneously and independently in China, India, Persia, Judea, and Greece. And these are the foundations upon which humanity still subsists today”. During this period, cultures were established and settled enough for deep thinkers to emerge and the long journey back to reconnection with our natural state of union with all existence began to be written about. The widespread existence of tombs, sacred stones and other evidence from several millennia preceding the Axial Age show that rituals to affirm and strengthen belief in and experience of the holy state of union were a central feature of our ancestors’ lives – the earliest Greek philosophers looked to the Druids of western Europe and Shamans of Eurasia as their forbears, but from this Age the quest to unite everyone under structured and defined religious banners came to the fore, leading to the religious age.


In PERSIA, Zoroastrianism became the world’s first state religion, and remained so for over a thousand years until the rise of Islam in the 7th century CE. Its roots go back to the 2nd millennium BCE, but Zoroaster is generally reckoned to have lived in the 7th or 6th century BCE. With a monotheistic take on God, a clear duality between good and evil, messianic and apocalyptic themes and emphasis on judgement after death, Zoroastrianism had a profound effect on subsequent religious cultures.

ANCIENT GREECE birthed an exploration of philosophy. Greece was where the relationship between philosophy, the heavens and love between men was deeply explored, providing models that influenced Arabic and later European Renaissance cultures. The Greeks worshipped a vast number of gods and goddesses, yet also appreciated that all deities were divine powers ultimately coming from the same source, be that seen as Mother (as it was in the vast majority of ancient cultures) or Father (as among the ancient Celtic peoples, who saw Dis Pater, a Plutonic underworld figure, as the Source of all, and by the Hebrews who were the first to make efforts to eradicate the worship of the Goddess, and Her gay/queer priests the Qedesha).

Some of the earliest Greek philosophers wrote lines that can speak to us clear and loud today.

Lyric poet Pindar, (518-438 BCE):

“Creatures of a day! What is anyone?

What is anyone not? A dream of a shadow

Is our mortal being. But when there comes to men

A gleam of splendour given of heaven,

Then rests on them a light of glory

And blessed are their days.”

“Pindar makes all men akin to gods if they realize their full potential: their innate gifts are divinely bestowed, and even then success still depends on the gods’ active favour.” Wikipedia.


In INDIA, Hinduism also teaches that the potential in humans is nothing less than divine. “Atman (the individual soul) is Brahman (the god soul)”. During the Axial Age a synthesis of many ‘Vedic’ teachings developed over the millennia formed the roots of Hinduism in the form of the Upanishads. During these centuries Jainism and Buddhism were both born – the Buddha’s teachings focus on transcendence of the individual ego to attain Nirvana, a state of reunion with the Source which ends the cycle of death and rebirth. Buddhism spread throughout Asia, and continues to grow globally today, a truly world religion. Jainism and Hinduism also teach that ‘moksha’ (liberation) is the goal of life, though for most people the recommendation is to create good karma in order to achieve a good rebirth which will bring liberation closer.

In JUDEA, Judaism also took a more regulated and formalised structure during these centuries, revitalised by prophets such as Isaiah and forced to reorganise during the time of Exile from the homeland. The Torah took shape and influences from Zoroastrian thought took hold. It is from this point that Judaism drops its associations with Goddess Asherah, once seen as wife of Allah, and monotheism takes a firm hold. The universe starts to be seen in absolute terms of right and wrong, and an elaborate depiction of the afterlife gradually develops, filled with judgement and punishment, while previously the ‘land of Sheol’ was just a place of dust where souls went for a brief period of time before rebirth.

In CHINA the period of the Zhou dynasty (11th to 4th centuries BCE, the longest lasting Chinese dynasty) brought the birth of the spiritual philosophies Confucianism and Taoism. Confucianism does not separate the spiritual from the earthly, instead seeks to find the sacred in the normality of everyday life. Taoism teaches how to attune to the Tao, the Way of Heaven, and both paths affirm that humans are capable of attuning themselves to the ‘Law of Heaven’ by being compassionate and doing good deeds.



























“… human consciousness is a monitoring system with almost the sole function of calling attention to unusual changes and disturbances in the environment. It has, therefore, an extremely superficial, restricted, and, shall we say, one-sidedly anxious apprehension of all that is going on in the organism-environment field. In particular, it is ignorant of the unbelievable harmoniousness and perfection of our constant and basic psychophysiological functions, and of their exquisitely complex ties and balances with the outside universe. It is possible, then, that any method of turning the senses back upon themselves will restore awareness of this ignored aspect of life, for consciousness is thereby led back to its own organic roots. The extreme subtlety and beauty of these processes thereupon invade consciousness like a vision from heaven.”
—Alan Watts, The Two Hands of God, ‘Dismemberment Remembered’

Alcibiades: A 17th Century Gay Novel

Alcibiades The Schoolboy is a book from the 1630s praising homosexuality and providing us with evidence that a self-aware gay identity existed long before the 19th century, when such a self-conscious identity is generally supposed to have been formed. Originally in Italian, the novel was finally translated and published into English in the year 2000.

Writer D.H. Mader says that Alcibiades is “the first clear expression of a homosexual identity and subculture in the modern West; and it is significant as a reminder of the cultural importance and heritage of age-structured homosexual relationships in European culture.” Love between men and youths has in fact been a feature of many cultures around the world, and was held in very high esteem in the philosophies of ancient Greece, which left Europe with a cultural legacy that men who loved men would draw on throughout the dark, homophobic Christian ages.

The earliest editions bore the attribution “D.P.A.,” which the reader was clearly supposed to expand into “di Pietro Aretino.” Pietro Aretino (1492-1556) was the bad boy of Renaissance culture… A true Renaissance man, he was a painter, art critic, poet, playwright, religious biographer, epistler, gossip monger, political satirist and pornographer… He rose to fame in the mid-1520’s with a series of lewd sonnets … Not just his pornographic works, but all the fruit of his pen proved wildly successful commercially, making Aretino the best-selling author of his day, and for a long period afterward.”

However, Mader points out – “To create the impression that a text came from his hand – particularly an erotic text – was merely smart advertising.” Written, or at least published, a century after Aretino’s death, there is debate about the actual author, with the most likely candidate being Antonio Rocco (1586-1652), a priest and philosophy teacher in Venice, who was denounced for his religious views and sexual behaviour and is recorded as arguing “that tool was made by Nature for us to have from it our pleasures and delights.”

Antonio Rocco

Alcibiades the Schoolboy is presented as a conversation between the pupil and his teacher, echoing debates from ancient Greek texts and similar offerings from the medieval Christian monasteries. The story rises to a sexual climax following a detailed discussion of the joys of sexual relations between men. At first hesitant, Alcibiades ends up hot, horny and eager to please his master.

The teacher, Philotemus, is not holding back: having pointed out many examples of male bonding amongst animal species, he advises that:

To acquire more virtue, to rid themselves of sorrow, it is necessary, too, that men will mount the one upon the other, and it is they who are made in the image of God, it is they who must truly make the most of themselves and be fully self-sufficient.”

However, this is not always easy…

…if a man cannot find the love of a boy to complement his imperfect existence, a stream to extinguish his ardours, he will lose his liberty, his mind, his activity; he will become the most miserable, the most wretched of creatures.”

Give up your love for boys, then,” replied Alcibiades, “And in an instant you will have put an end to your torments.”

It is not within our power, my dear Alcibiades, to decide to love or not to love someone who has captured our heart, who attracts us with an incomprehensible force, whose very soul we endlessly gaze upon. A divine appearance, provoking dreams of the infinite joys of possession, inflames love, ignites desire. And if it cannot become intoxicated at the spring of such a coveted pleasure, if it cannot bathe in it, dive in it, it will burn until it becomes reduced to ashes. And if a coveted liquor invites the lips to bathe in its sweetness, what matter, provided that we drink, whether the drinking-vessel is round or square? When we want to extinguish the flame, can we? When we could, should we? He who wants to do it cannot, and he who can do it does not wish to.”

The novel is also a polemic against the religious disapproval of same sex relations, stating bluntly…

…it is boys who carry the sceptre of love; women stand only in the second rank of authority, as those to whom power is delegated. So those who believe that this sovereign desire is an affront to the gods, and that they who taste of it consign themselves to dreadful punishments, are as far divorced from truth and justice as is the man who punishes a slave for following the orders of his master. If you subscribe to this belief, you could equally well believe, like the common people, that, at night, the sun hides himself in a hole in the moon.

Those who, in their own interests, have believed it convenient to forbid this form of love, know very well that their proscription is, to those of wisdom, contrary to all reason, so they have sought to attribute their pathetic law to the dictates of God. In the same way do deceitful men use the Oath to cover their lies and to introduce their false dogmas, mingling the sacred and the profane.

Nothing is more capable of perverting our reasoning than the threat of dreadful torments awaiting us. All men have a natural respect of God at the bottom of their heart, because the eternal soul, a man’s very essence, communicating through all aspects of Creation, penetrating his spirit and his substance, awakens in them the deepest sentiments of awe and reverence. This is why, everywhere, God is more or less the object of worship – and of fear – among men. It is on this basis, then, that our rulers frame their delightful laws. In attributing to the will of God what is nothing more than their own self-serving whims, they give them credence and ensure that they are promptly observed. This causes us to reject with horror any act which would violate them. And they have made us take in their beliefs with our milk, our souls have been imbued with them in our cradle, they are part of us.”

Alcibiades asks why passive sexual partners are held in low esteem by the populace and called ‘bum-boys’. The master says:

The name of bum-boy,” replied the master, “Should neither be given to nor taken by boys who, out of pure affection and courtesy, give themselves graciously to good and honest men who have merited their favour. One does not inflict such epithets upon Love, who comes so kindly to heal suffering hearts. Thus, it right that persons of wisdom have replaced these odious terms with the names of gods and goddesses, for such is the true rank of those who heal human miseries, the comforters of souls that are feeble and afflicted. In other times, many great princes have raised altars and temples to these deities, consecrated by priests, and have offered to them sacrifices and incense; the histories of Greece and Rome are full of the records of such devotions. By contrast, ‘bum-boy’ refers to a mercenary lad who wants nothing but money, who does not give himself but sells himself, who makes love into something base and commercial.

Between a loving and courteous boy and a ‘bum-boy’ there is the same difference as exists between a venerable priest and a low Simonite. They are both attired as priests, they both administer the same sacraments, but we see in the ministry of one the sterling worth of his character, his joy in ministering to the spiritual needs of his flock, in his fulfilling of the divine laws; the other does only what is useful to him, what is in his interest, what brings him profit.”

Alcibiades and Socrates in Socratic Love by Edouard-Henri Avril, 1906

The master makes a plea for moderation and respect for a boy’s innocence and purity. He attacks men who abuse younger guys, but he also makes clear how holy he considers the sexual connection between men can be:

When you play with a boy, one is deprived neither of the sweetness of a kiss, nor the pleasure of breathing the breath that fills the amorous mouths. With a boy, too, union is complete and the intoxication of love is shared, so long as the beloved takes up a position which allows him to turn his face easily towards that of his lover, while the gherkin is either planted in his garden or quivering gently between his hands, according to the caprice of the delightful imp. And even if that position is in any degree uncomfortable – far from harming pleasure, it sharpens it, the wrigglings – like those of a young eel – stimulate it, sharpen and spice the sensual appetite. To feel this pixie twist, rise, gasp, twitch and quiver in your hands, frolic against you in a thousand ways – does not this delight beckon you, urge you to further attack, multiply the blows born of your burning ardour?”

Listen well,” replied Philotimes, “The human brain, which is both the abode of the human spirit and the place from which intelligence derives, is, by its nature, excessively damp and cold; if nothing warms it, it will remain sluggish and obtuse, incapable of comprehension, full of foul humours. So one can understand how fluids that are sweet, warm and temperate will serve powerfully to purify it. And nothing fulfils this purpose better than the sperm of a man who is wise and spiritual; this substance has miraculous virtues in this regard. Infused through the little gate of the garden, thanks to its natural warmth, it carries living and subtle spirits to all the farthest regions of the brain – spirits which carry with them the qualities of the giver. A boy who wishes to be the equal of his master has no other way than this. I admit that to be fucked by any man, given that his fluid is warm and temperate, can make the brain of a boy develop wonderfully, but to bear the true fruits, let him be fucked by a man who is noble and distinguished.”

The magic cast, the argument won….

the loving boy smiled delightedly and, wishing to show his great willingness, he disposed himself to satisfy his master, who was by now panting with desire.

I give myself to your wishes,” said Alcibiades, “It is your desire to instruct me, more than other reason, that decides me. See, I prepare myself for you.”

So saying, he lifted his robe and modestly adopted the posture appropriate to the circumstances. The master, assisting him, soon saw revealed such glorious treasures of love as made heaven and all the stars blush with shame; even the sun, vanquished by more celestial splendours, could only hide his face. Who could ever detail the incredible marvels spread out in profusion in this little Paradise; the two rounded hemispheres like celestial globes, coloured with warm blood, a garden planted with lilies and narcissi. At the slightest touch of the hand there trembled therein a thousand rubies, exploding on a background of milk and amber. All was flowering gardens, white radiance, and twinkling stars. The regular, amorous movements, such as could be expected from this glorious child, would have given an erection to a marble statue…

Very soon, overflowing with immense joy and getting ready for a higher enterprise, the master broke into a hymn of joy:

If wise men name as Paradise the place where we enjoy celestial happiness, you would be the Paradise of Athens, you in whom living men find their happiness, and, since man is a creation more complete than the soul alone, you would be a paradise far more glorious because in one only the soul is happy, while in you the body is also happy. Since you are the seat of happiness where the true god of love resides, and gives true happiness, I consecrate myself to you with total devotion, and, if there are any other paradises, I renounce them all for yours. What is the glory of heaven in comparison to such a prize?

While thus speaking, the passionate master, multiplying his sweet caresses, continued to play with the adorable child. Which he did with such skill that, from then onwards, Alcibiades knew no greater pleasure than to have his master’s prick in his asshole, nor did he believe it possible to attain perfection by any other path. Happy preceptor who knew how, by making himself the slave of such beauty, to satisfy his desires to their uttermost limit!”

Translation by J C Rawnsley, taken from

The Goddess in Europe

The People of Europe once worshipped the Goddess

in forests, at lakes, on mountains and in caves –

that instinct still manifests today, at carnivals, festivals and raves…

Her worship was led by women and queer gender-bending servants,

Hers were the powers of nature, the animals, the body and the moon,

But men turned the healing snake into the evil serpent

cast the body as unclean and made people ashamed,

and for humanity’s miseries women and queers given the blame.

Her worship was erotic, ecstatic, intoxicating

Her love is healing, revealing, liberating.

With Her out of the picture God becomes something separate

a presence to shake before in fear

but bring Her into your heart, mind and body

you will shake with pleasure, excitement and joy:

The Time of Return is Near.

The People of Europe still worshipped the Goddess through the dark age of Christianity

in secret as Diana of the Moon, Lady of the Beasts, and many other names,

meeting at night to dance and commune

to make love in nature as their ancestors had –

but the Church was determined to name their worship bad

and these days much of the world think to praise Her is mad.

The worship of the Goddess was transferred to the Christ Mother,

the Blessed Virgin, Sacre Coeur, her shrines filled the land

until dour, joy hating Protestants had even her banned –

ejected from the people’s hearts – this in turn playing its part

in preparing the way for an even colder age

of atheism, industry and abuse of the earth:

but as the darkness peaks there will come a rebirth.

Now the Earth is sick and the elementals gone crazy,

on an overpopulated planet where the people are lazy,

used to their comforts, feeding their greed

failing to address the ailing earth’s needs:

We must repair our relationship with the water, air, fire and earth

purify and renew and appreciate their sacred worth.

But as the darkness peaks a dawning appears

an awakening, a revelation of mysteries long concealed

it’s time for the forgotten Goddess to once more be revealed.

Pisces Full Moon

FULL MOON is a time of culmination and emotional release, each month creating a tension, and opportunity for growth, in a certain area of our lives. At full moon there is always a polarity at play within us, one that can reveal to us more about who we are.

The Virgo-Pisces axis combines earth and water elements and is one of the more inward, gentle full moons of the year, but also the most sensitive of the six polarities of our lives as revealed through the noble and ancient art of astrology. Virgo is focussed on structure, manifestation, analysis – while its opposite sign Pisces is all about dissolution, about accepting what is and merging with it. Virgo wants to make things better, Pisces accepts things can’t always be as we want them, and meets that fact with compassion. Virgo is material reality, Pisces is heavenly spirit – working in harmony together these two polarities can give us much power and joy, and give us the ability to bring the light vibrations of spirit to earth. This polarity is here to teach us how to ground our spirituality in practical ways, and to remind us to make sure we are not over absorbed in either the material or immaterial realities, to find balance between them.

“Pisces represents the sum total of everything while Virgo represents that part you are aware of and are actively working on. Virgo keeps accurate track of which karma, how much and when to be repaid. Pisces feels his way through. In this axis, when Pisces acts, he feels the joy of liberation as Virgo guides where to act. Pisces is abstract while Virgo is his rational pragmatic mate. A Virgo acts with precision, Pisces goes with the flow. Together they work beautifully, the iron fist in a velvet glove, completing karma, experiencing the understanding and joy of completion.”

Virgo is the sixth sign of the zodiac, ending the first half of the astrological year where the energetic focus is on the self. At Virgo we get to see clearly what kind of reality we have created for ourselves since the start of the cycle in Spring, and the problems or issues that have arisen to be addressed as we enter the second half of the year, where the focus is about self and others from Libra through to Pisces, before the cycle starts again with individuated Aries.

“This Virgo-Pisces axis represents karmic balance, completion, realisation of the Ultimate Experience and dissolution of the self-ego.”

No wonder it’s the most supremely sensitive of all the full moon polarities! If we can balance the needs and wishes of our individuated self with the awareness (and the feeling, because Pisces reveals through the emotional and spiritual bodies) of our place in and oneness with the Whole, we can seize the opportunity for healing, to release old patterns and problems while opening to the wonders and mysteries the cosmos longs to bring us when we are able and open to receive.

The first week of each moon month is the best time for setting intentions and goals. When the first quarter moon arrives it is time to take action, get things moving. As the moon waxes to fullness the energy supports refining and adapting whatever we are developing, and there can be a gradual increase in tension, or emotional pressure as the challenge and opportunity of the incoming polarity kicks in. Then at the full moon we reach an energetic peak, a time of release and start to receive the rewards for the efforts put in.

In 2021 the full moon is followed immediately by the Autumn Equinox – a time of balance and reflection as the Sun moves into Venus-ruled Libra and summer gives way to autumn. The spirit will calm and we will harvest the results of the efforts we have put into our own growth during the year as spirit takes us deeper into the journey of relationship with others for the second half of the zodiac wheel – our lovers, our community and our connection to the cosmos: the stars and planets will invite and guide our human consciousness to explore, travel and discover during the autumn and winter.

At Pisces Full Moon and the Equinox the cosmos offers us the chance to see more clearly who we are, what we are creating in our lives and how to move forwards confidently.



Modern society seems to have got itself into a place of utter confusion about gender identity – and this will likely not clear until the fundamental flaw in the culturally dominant scientific material paradigm is corrected. This flaw, from which so many failures of understanding stem, is that we live in a physical universe, in which our inner experience is regarded as secondary, a product of the outer. The inner self is not given equality with the outer being, science has not given anything like as much energy to exploring subjective experience as it has objective. Luckily, for thousands of years, pioneering mystics and spiritual seekers have, so there are other ways of understanding our lives, if we choose to engage them.

In a materialist paradigm, we are each given a gender label at birth, and are expected to experience life as that gender, completely overlooking profound wisdom about human nature gained over millennia: this wisdom teaches us that on the inside, in our hearts, minds and spirits, we are all a combination of male AND female.

Science is gradually finding its own way to this truth, however reluctantly…

On the BIGTHINK website Paul Ratner reports on scientists using Virtual Reality to give people an experience of being in the body of another gender. He asks:

“Is associating with a certain gender more of a flexible sense than hardwired biological fact? A new study shows that people who were put under the illusion of having an opposite-sex body developed a more equal understanding, with fewer stereotypes, of both male and female aspects.

“In their paper, the scientists defined gender identity as “a collection of thoughts and feelings about one’s own gender, which may or may not correspond to the sex assigned at birth.” To probe this, they designed three experiments using virtual reality that allowed people to experience what it’s like to have a body they weren’t born with.”

The results led the scientists to conclude: “The fluidity of gender identity that we report here extends previous knowledge by demonstrating that the link between own body perception and the sense of own gender is dynamic, robust, and direct.”

( Gender identity shifts: Experiencing opposite-sex body in VR – Big Think )

The above article reports that

“Current gender theories, as outlined in the study, have moved away from positioning gender identity as a strict “male-female dichotomy.” Instead, the scientists say, the prevailing view is that gender is derived individually from a variety of associations with both genders, as well as from personal genetics, hormones, patterns of behavior and social life. There is also the understanding that the sense of your own gender is determined by your beliefs about males and females overall.”

This is at least a positive development, but note that the inner experience is still not given the level of respect it really deserves. Spiritual teachers have long pointed out that reality starts in the mind, that our beliefs create our life experiences. By ignoring this, modern science, either by design or default, is keeping us all dumbed down – left ignorant, being told what is what by our clever masters, which has led society into the nightmare phenomenon known as ‘Gender Wars’, where outspoken Trans activists and Radical Trans Exclusionary Feminists fight it out, generating headlines and media debate that fuel more division and confusion.

The dictates about how things are and should be from materialist viewpoints is no different to the religious dominance that science is supposed to have liberated us from. By default, and we presume not by design, science is actually using the metaphysical principle that Mind creates to convince everyone to believe we are just atoms randomly colliding in a meaningless, disconnected universe – if that is what you believe, it is how you will experience your life – the result is an increasingly divided, soulless world in which we are simply workers and consumers. Mystics know that there is much more to our presence here on the Earth, and they have long been trying to tell us to wake up and see through the lies imposed on society by people in power.

In mystical circles it has also long been taught that the soul is both male and female. For many centuries this knowledge had to be kept hidden, taught in secret in mystery schools only to initiates, because the Church would not tolerate such a view. The Holy Bible is actually a set of books written and chosen to firmly underpin the patriarchal system that developed to dominate the planet in the past few thousand years, following millennia when the feminine was at the centre of life in matrifocal cultures where God was worshipped in female forms, predominantly by female or gay/transgender priests.

In the Bible the prohibition on cross-dressing is clear –

“A woman shall not be clothed with man’s apparel, neither shall a man use woman’ s apparel: for he that doeth these things is abominable before God.” (Deuteronomy 22:5)

Note the abomination word which also gets applied in the Old Testament to same sex relations – the original Aramaic word that is so translated was in fact a reference to ritual practices of non-Hebrew peoples. Indeed, cross-dressing and same sex-loving priests/priestesses serving the Goddess in ways that united the sensual and the spiritual, the erotic and the ecstatic, were the norm in ancient times among the tribal peoples in Europe and the Middle East through to India and beyond, and that is really why the Hebrews, and later the Christians, took so against trans and gay people. The Church wished to control people’s minds and sex lives (making reproduction the only reason for having sex was in order to give birth to more Christians, as well as to control leisure activities so that people would be more available for work, and wars).

Much of the mystical knowledge taught in the mystery schools of the ancient world and in the secret societies of medieval and early modern Europe had its source in Egyptian magical teachings. The Emerald Tablet of Thoth is believed by some to be thousands of years old – from it were derived the 7 Hermetic Principles, number 7 of which is the Principle of Gender. This teaches that everything contains both masculine and feminine energy, everything has in it both yin and yang:

The Hermetic Principle teaches that on the physical plane each person has a male or female physical body, however on the spirit and mind planes each person is androgynous with male and female qualities.

It is from this principle that our discussions around gender should begin.

Judith Butler in Gender Trouble: ‘‘In as much as ‘identity’ is assured through the stabilizing concepts of sex, gender, and sexuality, the very notion of the ‘person’ is called into question by the cultural emergence of those ‘incoherent’ or ‘discontinuous’ gendered beings who appear to be persons but who fail to conform to the gendered norms of cultural intelligibility by which persons are defined’’

“Mythological images imply that holiness is hermaphroditic, for it holiness is wholeness the complete human being is at once male and female – the man who has developed his feminine aspect, and the woman her masculine. In Buddhist icongraphy, therefore, the Bodhisvatta is very frequently a hermaphrodite… the Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara, who, though masculine in name, is always feminine or near-feminine in form, especially in the Far East, where he appears as Kwan-yin, or Kannon – the ‘goddess’ of mercy…. it is not uncommon to find ardhanari or ‘half-woman’ images of Shiva, in which the body is female on the left and male on the right.”

Alan Watts, The Two Hands of God

In Buddhism, anatta is the teaching of no self: it states that nothing conditional can be pointed to as being who or what you are. It accepts that no aspect of being can be identified with in any kind of continuous, independent sense, so gender itself is a veil through which our deeper nature manifests.

Hindu sages have long taught that the soul is genderless, but everything in creation results from the interplay of masculine and feminine energies, and everything is in fact birthed by shakti, the feminine power of the universe, including gender itself. Hinduism views the mind and body as the energy of Prakriti, the female spirit, and the soul as Purusha, the male aspect. Deep inside, we are all seen to be the same indivisible, indistinguishable, imperishable and eternal Brahman, who is extolled in the Vedas as the One without a second. Hindu teachings recognise that gender is not permanent, that we all incarnate over time as male, female or transgender due to karmic and cosmic reasons.

Institutional Christianity has been the most effective totalitarian mind control system ever invented. It has poisoned human minds, setting barriers on sexual and gender expression, turning the body into something evil, along with women and queers, the people most attuned to the sacredness of the flesh and of sensual connection. It did not have to be this way. From the 1st century through to the late Middle Ages there were rival Christian movements that considered personal spiritual revelation more than important than orthodox dogmas. They tended to accepted forms of sexuality, gave power to women as well as men and resisted the authoritarianism of the established Church. Some of these became so powerful – such as the Cathars – that the Church, in league with the political state, sent armies to crush them and their free spirited beliefs.

One way to ensure their faithful followers approved of the actions against the heretics was to focus on their approval of homosexual acts. So associated were gay sex and heresy that slang words for queer derive from their names – Ketzer in German after the Cathars and Bugger in English from the Bulgarian Bogomil sect that spread across Europe in the 12th and 13th centuries. In fact the first use of buggery in English in 1330 was a reference to ‘abominable heresy’ and it was only from the 16th century references to it start to relate simply to sexual activity.

In fact the very basis of Christian prejudice is blown away by a correct reading of the line in the first book of the Old Testament that tells us that God created humans ‘male and female in his image’ – this is generally taken to mean two separate sexes, whereas it is actually a reference of the Principle of Gender, that all things contain both male and female energy, that is how creation works. If this is grasped, the idea on which Christian discrimination against trans people is based is immediately washed away. In the ancient pre-Christian world trans people were considered to be closer to god and therefore often served in temples.

Science has tried to make Creation fit into neat, tidy, boundaried boxes. But life is more fluid and flexible than that. Science seeks understanding by examination of the material. Spirituality, which is way, way older than science, teaches us how to examine the immaterial, for that is where life begins. Resulting from the mix of religious and scientific prejudice over such a long time, there is now a ‘war’ underway over gender definition, but this war is a false war, keeping firmly in place the paradigm of separation and division, whereas the explosion in trans exposure, confidence and awareness happening in the world is really a sign that we as a species are ready to move on, to grow in understanding, as well as in acceptance and celebration of the magnificent diversity of the human race.

Things will change when we each grasp and the world accepts the Hermetic Principle – that on the physical plane each person has a male or female physical body, however on the spirit and mind planes each person is androgynous with male and female qualities.

It is from this principle that our discussions around gender should begin.

The Elements of Oneness

Many people on planet Earth are waking up to the realisation that human consciousness is undergoing a vast and profound shift. The roots of this change happening to us go way back into our history and have long been predicted, but in the last 50 years humanity has not just had a rapid evolution in science and technology, it has also been changing in other ways. The outer change mirrors the rapid growth also going within us, individually and collectively.

Now in the 2020s more of us than ever before are getting the picture that humans are spirit having a material experience, not material beings that have developed mind and spirit through a physical evolution. Spirit and Mind come first. More people than ever before are grasping the idea of Oneness, that life is a unity. Our bodies give us an individual experience of something that is actually collective. While in these bodies we can enjoy separation but we also crave reconnection, which we can find through physical, mental, emotional and spiritual acts.

Having got the idea that we are spirits in material form, the next step towards manifesting a joyful experience of that is to grasp that spirit manifests through the elements. The five pointed star, the pentagram, symbolises this with points for fire, earth, air, water and spirit/consciousness.

As beings of fire we possess potent creative energy. The fire element in us manifests in our passions and joys, in our sexuality and in our search for identity, our urge to shine our individual, personal light in the world. This powerful inner fire can ignite when we are ready to reach for higher truths about who we are, connecting us to spirit, to the higher self, to the divine. Fire tended well takes us into ecstatic states of being. It can also get out of control, can burn and destroy, but a well kept inner fire has the power to nurture, warm, protect – us and those around us.

As beings of earth we experience ourselves in bodies, we share ourselves through touching the world around us. Our bodies are created by a physical act that brings together the fire of sexuality with the earth of the flesh. The body is our vehicle while on earth for pleasure, love and joy. It is designed for labour, but also to play, to feel and channel the bliss of the divine, for, contrary to what religion or science might tell you, the body is holy, created by love making. To start worshipping our own (and others’) bodies as sacred in themselves is to hasten the journey to the realisation of our soul’s true divine nature.

As beings of air we share in the universal Mind, our portion largely veiled so that we can’t see the full picture. We can lift the veils and let in the light of consciousness, in order to grow in awareness and attain wisdom, but we are not generally encouraged to. Sometimes our veils are leaky and unwanted mental energies can enter us, though sometimes we can control the leaks and speak to beings in the universal state of being. Our thoughts direct energy, energy creates emotion – to enjoy good feelings in the body we need to generate them first with thought. Mind is the creative driver, telling the fire where and how hot to burn.

As beings of water we share in the universal love of the divine creation. The water element gives and sustains life, and also exists in us as our feeling bodies, which shift in shape and quality constantly, connecting and disconnecting us from each other and the world around us, and reaching to the depths and the heavens. When we pass emotions between us the spiritual quality of the water element is at play. Water holds presence, including divine presence, something that is usually at first felt rather than seen or heard. Beings in spirit dimensions can connect to us in the physical through feelings, through love.

As conscious beings we are individuals having an experience on planet Earth in which our innate and eternal relationship with the Source of all existence is cut off from our awareness. We may seek to reconnect to the Source, or we may be quite happy enjoying being separate for a lifetime. The universe doesn’t mind which we choose.

But Gaia, the Earth herself, needs us to choose to remember Source, and honour it by honouring her and all other living beings. She does not need us to bow down to gods in the sky, nor to obey the man made restrictions on our freedom set in place by religions, but she does need, and want, us to know that we are always part of everything, always held, always loved and always, ultimately, safe. We need not fear, that is simply the shadow of love.

A quick way to SOURCE is through each other. LOVE is the experience of Oneness.

“You can develop the right attitude toward others if you have kindness, love and respect for them, and a clear realization of the oneness of all human beings.” Dalai Lama

We are in world of shadows that is becoming a world of love.

We each get to play a part, we each get to make this happen.

In us the union of heaven and earth,

in us the dance of the elements of nature

in us the birth of divine light.

Imagine if every problem were solved appropriately, if every relationship evolved appropriately, if every act were an appropriate one. That alone would be the kingdom of heaven. And that is, I think, what we’re pushing toward. Not cosmic fireworks or the descent of alien beings in flying saucers, but simply appropriate activity – empowered, felt experience – and the abandonment of the illusion of separateness.” Terence McKenna, The Archaic Revival.

The Faery Star


The seven points of the FAERY star

reveal and connect us to all that we are.

In bodies we unite spirit and matter,

through the elements we weave our ways,

our consciousness stretches between the worlds:

gates to other dimensions exist in our hearts and minds,

for each person is actually a star

come to earth to shine their light.

The first point is the Gate of Earth:

our bodies of mortal flesh

are destined to become bearers

of immortal light,

are designed for pleasure as well as toil

and to take us on ecstatic flights.

The second point is the Gate of Water:

feeling, flowing, emotional energy

that brings us together or pulls us apart,

can unite, bond and soften our hearts

bring us to heaven and the creation of arts.

The third point is the Gate of Air:

the mind, that can travel anywhere

on earth or in the cosmos, it’s our most powerful tool

but to use it well we need to learn some rules.

Energy follows thought, our beliefs create our experience

reality is flexible, it bends to our will

so best use the mind to create good, not ill.

Dark stories in the head do not reflect reality

they call more pain to us, they encourage insanity.

We generate emotions in our bodies by how we think –

a positive mind becomes gentle and kind,

seeing itself in others, all are its sisters and brothers.

The fourth point is the Gate of Fire:

the passion and drive to lift life higher.

“He who knows the fire within himself

shall ascend into the eternal fire and dwell in it eternally.

Fire, the inner fire, is the most potent of all forces.” (Thoth)

The fifth point is the Gate to Below:

the underworld of spirit wherein all things grow,

the subconscious layer, the fears and inner foes

the shadows to be befriended

the lost parts of our souls.

The sixth point is the Gate to Above:

the upperworld of spirit where all things glow

in the glory of light, in the power of knowing

we reach to the Worlds Above to hasten our growing.

The seventh point is the Gate to WITHIN:





Spirit and Matter are One

in us united so we can become

divine conscious beings

on a planet of love

united with the elements

and the worlds below and above.

Change the belief, change the experience

be sure in your core –

humans are ready for a rapid evolution,

to get out of our little ego minds

and discover there’s SO MUCH MORE.

What the World needs Now is: KNOWLEDGE

In the mid 90s I underwent a dramatic awakening to the subtle realms of reality, to the sacred dimension of life, to the great mystery of our existence – and to the fact that for thousands of years these aspects of creation had been at the centre of human research and enquiry, while in the 20th century the external search for answers to life’s questions through science had largely become the focus of our seeking, pursued by professionals, while the mass population was persuaded to not question things, to simply work, marry, breed, consume and die.

It was hard to find people on my new found wavelength at the time, but I was in London and able to visit esoteric bookshops like Watkins and Mysteries, and libraries such as at the College of Psychic Studies. In those places I at least did not feel so alone in my quest. But in general to talk to people about the unity and evolution of consciousness, about astrology, chakras or witchcraft, was to be considered very weird.

And how right they were… for weird comes from Anglo-Saxon WYRD, and relates to much more than strangeness. It relates to our involvement and interdependence with the invisible energies of creation, the practices and practitioners of which were eventually viewed as strange and dangerous due to Christian propaganda.

In 2021 I simply have to sit home and browse the internet to find thousands – millions????- of voices declaring the realities of UNITY, LOVE, COMPASSION that I felt so alone waking up to just two and a half decades ago. In the 90s I sought connections in the physical world, and found some – discovering the somewhat hidden, underground networks of groups, festivals, new age teachers and intentional communities that had been developing since the 1960s. I saw my generation as a bridge between the 60s awakeners and those to come in the new millennium.

The new generation is now waking up. Many more people in their 20s now are questioning the underlying assumptions on which society, law and government is based than did in the 1980s/90s. But where do they, or people of any age opening their minds to the bigger picture, find clear answers and direction in an age where esoteric information and spiritual teachings are suddenly available everywhere. From hard to find just 2 decades ago to overkill and overwhelm. You won’t hear about it in the mainstream media, but check YouTube and spiritual/consciousness related material is everywhere. This is what humanity is ready for. The 2020s is going to bring the massive shift in understanding, in human consciousness, that many of us have been preparing for since decades.

















“Let he who would be free from the bonds of darkness first divine the material from the immaterial, the fire from the earth. For know ye that as earth descends to earth so also fire ascends to fire and becomes one with fire. He who knows the fire within himself shall ascend into the eternal fire and dwell in it eternally. Fire, the inner fire, is the most potent of all force, for it overcometh all things and penetrates into all things of the earth….

“Man is a fire burning bright through the night, never is quenched through the veil of darkness, never is quenched by the veil of night. ….. Man is a star bound to a body, until he is freed through his strife…only by struggling and toiling to the utmost shall the star within thee bloom out in new life. He who knows the commencement of all things shall free his star from the realms of night.”

EMERALD TABLET 4, THOTH (A’an communications translation)





The Emerald Tablet from ancient Egypt is a foundation stone of the collective path humanity is on. Studied throughout the Ages in philosophical and mystery schools in a collection of teachings known as the Kybalian, its principles are easily available to all today. Grasping these can accelerate your evolution, and make the process easier.

The principles of truth are seven; He who knows these, understandingly, possesses the magic key before whose touch all the doors of the temple fly open.

The Principle of Mentalism

The all is mind; the universe is mental. – The Kybalion

The Principle of Mentalism embodies the idea that “All is Mind.” Everything that happens has to be a result of a mental state which precedes it. For anything to exist, thoughts had to form first, which then form physical reality or manifestation. “Your thoughts are seeds, plant positive seeds in your mind garden.”

The Principle of Correspondence

As above so below: as below, so above. – The Kybalion

The Principle of Correspondence expresses the idea that there is always a correspondence between the laws of phenomena of the various “planes” of being and life. As above, so below; as below, so above. This principle states that there is a harmony which can be made, agreement and correspondence between these planes:

  • The Great Physical Plane
  • The Great Mental Plane
  • The Great Spiritual Plane

The outer world is a mirror of our inner world

The thoughts and images we hold in our mind will attract their physical likeness to us in our external circumstance. This law works unceasingly for the good or the bad. By understanding this law, we can use it for our benefit instead of our detriment.

Earth is a school for practising these laws of mind and spiritual control.

 The Principle of Vibration

Nothing rests; Everything moves; Everything vibrates. – The Kybalion

Motion is manifest in everything in the Universe, nothing rests, and everything moves, vibrates and circles. This principle explains that the distinction between manifestations of Matter, Energy, Mind, and even Spirit, are the result of only different “vibrations”.

Mental Transmutation is described as the practical application of this principle. To change one’s mental state is to change vibration.

The Principle of Polarity

 Everything is dual; Everything has poles; Everything has its pair of opposites; Like and unlike are the same; Opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; Extremes meet; All truths, are but half-truths; All paradoxes may be reconciled. – The Kybalion

 Take, for example, hot and cold. Though they are opposites they are really the same thing. It is merely a matter of degree. The same could be said of spirit and matter. They are really the same thing.

The same principle also applies on the mental plane of reality. Take, for example, love and hate. They are the same thing but different degrees. The importance of this law comes in the understanding of one’s ability to transmute and change the vibrations from one extreme to another. This in reality is the study of alchemy.

Hate can be transformed by the power of your mind into love (gold). Your lower self can be transformed into your higher self. Your physical body can be transformed into your light body (ascension). Separation can be turned into oneness. Guidance by your negative ego can be turned into guidance by your soul, using the art of polarization.

The Principle of Rhythm

 Everything flows, out and in; Everything has its tides; All things rise and fall; The pendulum swing manifests in everything; The measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; Rhythm compensates. – The Kybalion

 The Principle of Rhythm expresses the idea that in everything there is manifested a measured motion, a to and from, a flow and inflow, a swing backward and forward, a pendulum-like movement. There is rhythm between every pair of opposites, or poles, and is closely related to the Principle of Polarity. It can be seen that this Principle enables transition from one pole to the other, and not necessarily poles of extreme opposites.

The Principle of Cause and Effect

Every cause has its effect; Every effect has its cause; Everything happens according to law’ Chance is but a name for law not recognized’ There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law. – The Kybalion

 This explains that there is no such thing as chance, there are no accidents in the universe. Everything in the universe is governed by laws. There are physical laws, emotional laws, mental laws, and spiritual laws. By understanding these laws, we can learn to operate in grace instead of karma. Many times, we don’t know the cause for the reason things happen to us. This is because there are seven dimensions of reality in which causation can occur.

The basic cause of your life are the thoughts and images you hold in your conscious and subconscious mind. By learning to be absolutely vigilant and only allowing into your mind thoughts of God, love, perfection, perfect health, prosperity, joy, oneness, and equanimity, then this is all you will create both inwardly and outwardly. For your thoughts cause your reality.

The Principle of Gender

Gender is in everything; Everything has its masculine and feminine principles; Gender manifests on all planes.” – The Kybalion

 This does not relate to the commonly understood notion of sex, but rather “… to procreate, to generate, to create, or to produce…” in general.

Mental Gender is described as a Hermetic concept which relates to the feminine and masculine principles. It does not refer to someone’s physical sex, nor does it suggest that someone of a certain sex necessarily has a matching mental gender. Ideally, one wants to have a balanced mental gender.

The Kybalion states that gender exists on all planes of existence (Physical, Mental and Spiritual), and represents different aspects on different planes. Everything and everyone contains these two elements or principles.

 Everything has a yin and yang. On the physical plane each person has a male or female physical body, however psychologically each person is androgynous with male and female qualities. Each person has a left brain and right brain.

The spiritual path is the path of balance and integration. Buddha called this the middle way.

It is the path of balancing the male and female aspects within self and also balancing the heavenly and earthly aspects within self.

Quoted from The 7 Hermetic Principles for Self-Mastery – The Teachings of Hermes-Thoth (