TIME OF FIRE

ALL OVER PLANET EARTH PEOPLE ARE WAKING UP TO THE NATURAL WAY OF THE SOUL IN CONNECTION WITH NATURE, SPIRIT AND THE MOTHER DIVINE.  

All over the world people are feeling drawn to explore shamanic traditions that engage the spirit world, honour the sanctity and unity of life, that bring balance, healing and community through seasonal rituals and encourage the emergence of our own divinity as awakened human beings.

BUT THE WORLD IS STILL RUN BY CONTROLLING FORCES THAT STIFLE THE HUMAN SPIRIT AND ARE DESTROYING THE ECO-SYSTEM THAT ALL LIFE HERE DEPENDS ON, that put money before love, war before peace and consumerism before compassion.  And our collective spiritual life is dominated by religions that control access to the spirit, compete with each other, creating conflict and misery, and which stifle the free divine spirit within us.

The CHURCH AND PATRIARCHAL MILITARISED INDUSTRIALISED STATE HAVE BEEN RUNNING AND RUINING LIVES FOR A LONG TIME.  It is not easy to dismantle their grip.

BUT NATURE IS ROARING AT US….. THE TIME OF FIRE IS HERE.  WE HAVE TO CHANGE.

The recent awful fires in Australia at one point turned the sky into a vision of the Aboriginal flag (pic above), GIVING A LOUD AND CLEAR MESSAGE. 

Through fire, floods, earthquakes and hurricanes the elements are out of balance because humanity is out of balance.

The corrupt system is held in place by

GOVERNMENTS

MEDIA

MILITARY

BUSINESS

ACADEMIA

JUDICIAL SYSTEMS

and RELIGIONS.

These 7 institutions have a huge  vested interest in the rational paradigm of separation.  But the people of the world are changing, WE ARE BECOMING AWARE OF THE ONENESS OF LIFE AND THE CENTRALITY OF LOVE, so these institutions will have to change too.  This is the message of the Saturn-Pluto-Ceres conjunction in Capricorn, (Jan13th 2020), old structures must adapt, reform – or collapse.

“All SEVEN and we’ll watch them fall, they stand in the way of LOVE and we will SMOKE them all……  I AM YOURS NOW and YOU ARE MINE, And together we’ll love through all space and time, So don’t cry, One day all SEVEN will die….”  Prince, ‘Seven’

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All over the world people are remembering the OLD WAYS

and exploring what they offer and mean for us TODAY.

Common to all tribal, shamanic traditions on this planet is a 

VENERATION OF NATURE

REMEMBRANCE OF ANCESTORS

APPRECIATION OF NATURAL AND COSMIC CYCLES

CELEBRATION OF LIFE’S UNITY THROUGH DIVERSITY WITH COMMUNAL, SOMETIMES EROTIC AND ECSTATIC PRACTICES

The under appreciated spiritual story of the second half of the twentieth century is the revival of Celtic Paganism.  In Great Britain the practice of witchcraft was illegal for 500 years, but since the law changed in the 1950s the pagan revival has been continuous, through practices such as WICCA finding a way to bring magical awareness to large numbers of people and so awaken the indigenous core soul energies of the european and white-american races, our own natural shamanic religion having been usurped by the Father religions long ago.

The other huge shift that has been building for some decades is the return of the Divine Mother Goddess energy to the global spiritual picture.  It is Her presence, love and compassion that transcends all the various divisions and differences between faiths, that lifts us into the bigger picture and reveals all life is the dance of one consciousness.  

“Some call the Creator of this Universe God, but our earliest ancestors, when they looked in awe at the world around them and tried to understand where it came from, saw the ultimate creative force as Goddess, as Mother. The Father of our culture created the world by speaking it into existence. The Mother of our ancestors birthed the universe from her body. There was no separation between Creator and creation. And as we shift our thinking and come back to this ancient wisdom, we will find balance and healing for ourselves. Ultimately the Creator is neither male nor female, but Oneness. It is the Prime Vibration. It is Absolute Information. In Seeing It as Mother we honour own own capacity for connection, compassion, clarity and communion of the soul. In knowing It as Mother we cycle back to the beginning of this era so that we can step into the next in wholeness.

“The liturgies of the Father are spoken, as revelation comes the from the Father in words, for with words he created the universe. The universe itself is the revelation of the Mother, and her liturgies are of the body. As we open to seeing her and her creation, as we learn to feel our place in it and know that we are never separate from it, and cannot ever be separate from it, then everything we becomes a prayer. Anchored in love, our bodies filled with joy, reaching out in ecstasy to express our gratitude, we ground the Mother’s bliss in the world.

“In our Mother’s world we do not have to struggle for enlightenment, Her light is always with us. We do not have to be reborn, for each moment of our lives is a new creation in her infinite, eternal body, and we are always a part of it.” Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing: A Spiritual Journeybook for Gay Men.

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You Are The Universe

Hindu ‘Chandogya Upanishad’ c 1000BCE:

In the beginning was only Being

One without a second

Out of himself he brought forth the cosmos

And entered into everything in it.

There is nothing that did not come from him

Of everything he is the innermost Self.

He is the truth, he is the Self supreme

You are that… you are that.

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Buddhist ‘Hymn to Perfect Wisdom’ 2nd century CE:

Those in need of light considering,

The Tathagatas extol

Thee, the Single One, as many,

Multi-formed and many-named.

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Rabbinic teaching, C3:

Everything that God,

the source and substance of all,

creates in this world

flows naturally from the essence of God’s divine nature…

Creation is the extension of God

Creation is God encountered in time and space.

Creation is the infinite in the garb of the finite

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Christian mystic Gregory of Nyssa, C4:

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The distinction between the persons does not impair the oneness of nature, nor does the shared unity of essence lead to a confusion between the distinctive characteristics of the persons. Do not be surprised that we should speak of the Godhead as being at the same time both unified and differentiated. Using riddles, as it were, we envisage a strange and paradoxical diversity-in-unity and unity-in-diversity.

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Christian mystic, Dionysius the Areopagite, C6:

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Leave the senses and the workings of the intellect, and all that the sense and the intellect can perceive, and all that is not and that is, and through unknowing reach out, so far as this is possible, toward Oneness with him who is beyond all being and knowledge. In this way, through an uncompromising, absolute and pure detachment from yourself and all things and released from all, you will be lead upwards toward that radiance of the divine darkness which is beyond all being.

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Jewish mystic Moses de Leon, C13:

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God is unified Oneness.. one without two, inestimable. Genuine divine existence engenders the existence of all creation. The sublime, inner essences secretly constitute a chain linking everything from the highest to the lowest, extending from the upper pool to the edge of the universe.

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Sufi mystic Rumi, C13:

You hide me in your cloak of Nothingness

Reflect my ghost in your glass of Being

I am nothing, yet appear: transparent dream

Where your Eternity briefly trembles

No heaven or earth, just this mysterious place

We walk in dazedly, where being here

Or there, in time or not, are only

Two motions of the same ecstatic breathing.

“Though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.”

Christian mystic Catherine of Sienna, C14: Until Your Own Dawn

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Daybreak:
everything in this world is a luminous divine dream
I have spun.

I did not know life was a fabric woven by my soul.
Any form that can appear to you—should I confess this?—
it is something I made.
All roots nurse
from
me.

God’s art is mine. I did not want His divine talent.
It simply grew in my heart from
the way I
loved.

Existence is as a young child moving through
a lane at night;

it wanted to
hold my
hand.

Here, dear earth, hold me,
until your own
dawn.

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Christian Anchorite Julian of Norwich, C14:

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Therefore this is His thirst and love-longing, to have us altogether whole in Him, to His bliss,—as.
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Christian mystic Meister Eckhart, C14:

A master says whoever speaks of God in any likeness, speaks impurely of Him. But to speak of God with nothing is to speak of Him correctly. When the soul is unified and there enters into total abnegation, then she finds God as in Nothing. We must take God as mode without mode, and essence without essence, for He has no modes.

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Hindu mystic Ramakrishna, C19:

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No-one can say with finality that God is only “this” and nothing else. He is formless and again he has forms. For the bhakta (follower of path of devotion) he assumes forms. But he is formless for the jnani (follower of the path of knowledge), that is for him who looks upon the world as a mere dream… The jnani realises Brahman in his own consciousness. He cannot describe what Brahman is.

God can be realized through all paths. All religions are true. The important thing is to reach the roof. You can reach it by stone stairs or by wooden stairs or by bamboo steps or by a rope. You can also climb up by a bamboo pole.

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Gay mystic Edward Carpenter, C20:

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We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race. The Self is entering into relation with the Body. For, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not as a toy and chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manifestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities….

Hindu mystic Aurobindo, C20:

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Up till now what Nature has achieved was an enlarging of the bounds of our surface Knowledge-Ignorance, what it attempted in the spiritual endeavour is to abolish the Ignorance, to go inward and discover the soul and to become united in consciousness with God and with all existence.

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Christian mystic Bede Griffiths C20:

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The one Word has gone out of itself, has reflected itself in this ocean of matter, the one Spirit is at work with its infinite energy, building up this matter in time… Here all is one, united in a simple vision of being. All the long evolution of matter and man, all my own history from the first moment that I became a living cell, all the stages of my consciousness and that of all human beings, is here recapitulated, brought to a point, and I know myself as the Self of all, the one Word eternally spoken in time.

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                                             Ramana Maharshi:

 

 

Einstein:

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A human being is part of a whole, called by us ‘the Universe’, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest – a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few person nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening out circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

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Psychedelic mystic Terrence McKenna:

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You have to take seriously the notion that understanding the universe is your responsibility, because the only understanding of the universe that will be useful to you is your own understanding.

What we call history is the fall out of the dynamic here and now relationship with our environment and into this anticipation of the future, worry about the past – basically ego.

Western civilization is a loaded gun pointed at the head of this planet.

You are a divine being. You matter, you count. You come from realms of unimaginable power and light, and you will return to those realms

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Alan Watts, 60s mystic:

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“If you awaken from this illusion, and you understand that black implies white, self implies other, life implies death — or shall I say, death implies life — you can conceive yourself. Not conceive, but feel yourself, not as a stranger in the world, not as someone here on sufferance, on probation, not as something that has arrived here by fluke, but you can begin to feel your own existence as absolutely fundamental. What you are basically, deep, deep down, far, far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself. So, say in Hindu mythology, they say that the world is the drama of God. God is not something in Hindu mythology with a white beard that sits on a throne, that has royal prerogatives. God in Indian mythology is the self, Satcitananda. Which means sat, that which is, chit, that which is consciousness; that which is ananda is bliss. In other words, what exists, reality itself is gorgeous, it is the fullness of total joy.” 

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Ken Wilber:

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Evolution is best thought of as Spirit-in-Action, God-in-the-Making, where Spirit unfolds itself at every stage of development, thus manifesting more of itself and realising more of itself, at every unfolding.

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Amma, the Mother of Immortal Bliss:

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“God is Love”, said Jesus. “Love makes the world go round”, they sang in the 1960s. Rumi wrote that “Love is our Mother”. Love is certainly a ‘many splendoured thing’, and according to the world’s mystical seers, the force that makes the universe work. Everything in existence seems drawn instinctively to form union with something else. We can say that love is at work everywhere, driving our urge to reproduce, to have fun, to find companions on this life journey. It might be that the One split into the Many for Creation to happen and the mission of the Many is to return to the One. This is what the deep thinking, inner focussed, mystics from every religion, from every part of the globe, have been telling us for thousands of years. Humanity is slow to listen because of our investment in our own personal, individual egos. To switch to a view that recognises the Self in us is the Self in all beings changes everything – our egos dissolve into insignificance, our efforts to dominate or destroy each other are revealed as damage we our doing to ourselves.

Mystic voices throughout time in every culture have left us the signs we need to find the way home… and are still speaking in the world today:

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2020 VISION & PRAYER

Mine Eyes have seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord

My Heart has felt the Bliss of the Return of Mother Divine

My Body knows the Light of the Self in Ecstasy

My Mind has found these things are found through Simplicity

so can anybody tell me

o why can’t humanity open their Eyes to See

o why cant humanity open their Hearts to Bliss

and why cant humanity wake up to the fact that That gives rise to all this?

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Our telescopes discover just how vast is the eternal Creation –

our tiny planet alone, endangered, teetering towards a brink,

yet so divided is our species, and separate from the Oneness of Life,

so obsessed with our egos, since we learnt how to think –

that we are stumbling in Darkness even though in our essence we are Light

we listen to the scientists, but they haven’t got it right.

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The divine mystery has been studied, and consciousness explored

for all the ages of humanity’s past, and it’s revelations are at the core

of the civilisation we today were born into:

it’s time the shackles were taken off esoteric knowledge

and the mainstream cultural mockery of mysticism itself ridiculed:

ignorance is not attractive and the way home has been found many times

we really should be teaching maps of consciousness in our schools.

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2020 VISION

THE OPENING OF THE INNER EYE

not found within religion, not coming from the sky:

ENOUGH LIGHTWORKERS AWAKENED SINCE THE 60s

to bring us to the edge of dimensional shift

the 2020 LIFTING OF THE VEIL

SO THAT AT LAST SOME WISDOM,

SOME SANITY and SOME PEACE

MAY PREVAIL

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Generations pulling together

and shamans of all nations –

reconnecting the sacred webs,

the holy places with the divine

stream that flows through us all,

but is generally only found

by the few who answer the call

to pursue self-knowledge, transcendent truth,

yet also to be here now and serve the great Mother

in Her quest to bring her children

to Unity, Community and Compassion.

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May the 2020s be the decade

that mystical awareness, vision divine find its time

and ignorance no longer be in fashion.

Mine Eyes have seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord

My Heart has felt the Bliss of the Return of Mother Divine

My Body knows the Light of the Self in Ecstasy

My Mind has found these things are found through Simplicity.

In 2020 I celebrate 25 years since my awakening to creative, conscious living, to the multiverse and the mysteries of the Divine Plan. In January 1995, as I turned 30 years old, preparing myself for approaching illness and death as AIDS took hold of my body, I dropped my atheistic mindset and started to talk to the universe, to ask questions I had never concerned myself with before. The answers soon came flooding in. As the 2010s end humanity has entered a period of collective existential crisis, challenging us to wake up from the unconscious games we have been playing for so many lifetimes. Wake up and return to the Mother, the Source, the Divinity – found within, found in all things.

THE SPIRIT OF YULE 2019

The second decade of the 21st century is ending with a reflective and profound line up of cosmic energies. Winter Solstice moment occurs at 4:20am on Sunday 22nd December (guess for some that’s all I need to say :-)) – at that time the Sun enters Capricorn (joining the gang of the solar system’s big players Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto) and the Moon will be in Scorpio, the sign of endings, death and rebirth, and life’s mysteries. The underlying water elemental energy of the Autumn season gives way to the earth season Winter, when the land is still, nature rests, and we too are pulled more into our bodies, into an inner focus, healing, rest and hibernation.

At the Solstice we can affirm a positive mind-view within ourselves to welcome this inner Winter journey and the healing potential it offers. Just as the Sun appears to ‘stand still’ in the sky at Solstice (ie rise and set at same place each day as the earth’s axis tilts), we can take some time to be still, make personal retreat, reflect and meditate, to feel the seasonal shift, some stillness coming as a relief perhaps after all the emotional shedding of the Autumn. It’s also a good moment to come out of the hibernatory nest to see other people and together celebrate in some way the return of the light that the Solstice brings. Although the cold Winter starts here, the amount of sunlight we receive each day will start to increase again now. Raising some energy, or simply a glass, with others at this time, and acknowledging the greater mystery that holds and sustains us in this life is a powerful and effective way to feed the body, mind and soul with positive frequencies.

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For at least 7000 years humans have appreciated the cosmic importance of the Winter Solstice. The master builders of the Stone Age took great efforts to establish monuments aligned to the planetary cycle. From the Orkneys to Stonehenge, the inhabitants of Britain in the 4th millennium BCE were obsessed with building sacred burial sites, henges and stone circles. The entrance to the grand tomb at Newgrange in Ireland, which is older than Stonehenge and the Egyptian pyramids, was aligned so that the inner chamber would be flooded by the Winter Solstice morning sunlight. The building of stone monuments on the British islands was at its peak around 3000 BCE, a few centuries before the Epyptian pyramid building took off. These ancient ancestors were not dumb cave men, they had developed sophisticated cultures (as archaeological discoveries eg in the Orkney Islands continue to reveal). As the power and significance of the Solstices, and the healing benefits of attuning ourselves to Nature’s annual cycle, come more into our modern awareness, it seems to me these ancestors left us solid symbolic messages recorded in rock – letting us know that they, once, sensed their place in the cosmic whole and left these solid signs for us to read and understand again – so that we might rise out of the darkness and ignorance that has dominated the planet for so long, and regain our innate cosmic human soul awareness. Through attuning ourselves to the planet’s seasonal shifts we can, using our own individual consciousness, reconnect the sacred hoop of life on planet earth – reconnect us all to the invisible realms, the spirit dimensions and the higher purpose of our existence here. We raise the frequencies of life and this has a ripple-out effect, because all consciousness is interconnected.

Solstice leads us into a Dark Moon Christmas, making it a perfect time to get cosy, comfortable and quiet, enjoy the arriving Winter vibrations. 24-25th Moon in Sagittarius is ideal for the sacred and the social focus of the festival, then on Boxing Day the New Moon in Capricorn will start to kick in. This new moon brings an annular eclipse, visible in Asia – this kind of eclipse occurs when moon’s distance from the earth is such that it does not totally obscure the sun, but leaves a ring of light visible – called an annulus.

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“On a Solar Eclipse, a new doorway is opened that helps to push and advance us further on our soul path.

“Under the energy of the December Solar Eclipse, we are going to be shown a new path. A new way is going to unfold. This new way may appear subtle at first. Perhaps it will begin as a new thought or a new feeling, and then slowly it will shift into taking a new action.

“It’s almost like this Eclipse opens a new stream of energy which we can take and download into our lives.

“How we download it is up to us and where we are on our journey, but all of us are going to be changed, all of us are going to be awakened in some way.

“We may find that this new doorway changes what we desire or makes way for new intentions we wouldn’t have considered earlier.

“There is also strong energy around this Eclipse that is calling on us to transcend childhood patterns or unleash our inner child.

“We may experience a healing on an inner-child level, or we may discover that we no longer need to hold onto patterns or traumas that we have collected through our upbringing.

“Alternatively, we may discover that we need to stop taking everything so seriously, to lighten up, and to bring the energy of child-like play back into our lives.” https://foreverconscious.com/intuitive-astrology-december-solar-eclipse-2019

The solar eclipse and new moon open up an ideal time for intention and goal setting, with so much Capricorn energy in the atmosphere, they may well be pretty ambitious. We are preparing ourselves for a new decade, one in which CONSCIOUSNESS, LOVE, LIGHT and SPIRIT are going to continue to move towards the centre stage of our human cosmic drama.

The decade ends on 31st December under a Pisces Moon, waxing now and for some feeding nicely the urge to party or otherwise touch some form of self-transcendence, while others will be drawn more to the cosmic cave. Whenever the moon is in Pisces, compassion is the key to communication and community.  The Moon starts a new cycle of the zodiac on 2nd January when it reaches Aries, giving us a shot of independent, creative fire spirit to get moving into the new year and the 2020s.

2020 is a year of powerful cosmic alignments, starting with the Saturn-Pluto conjunction on January 12th. Astrologers are saying that this is bringing to light the startling awareness of the chaos humanity has created on the planet and the urgency of looking deeply at ourselves and changing some of our ways.

This Yule period as the 2010s end is the moment to get some rest and reflection, to take stock, release what has gone before and dream/vision and set goals for the future.

God in the Body

A few reminders from mystical ancestors that it is in the body that holiness happens:

MICHAELANGELO (1475-1564)

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“Earth is the meagre source of all that we

can know while still fleshbound. To those who see

in the right way it gives most copiously…”

“All that we have of wisdom and of faith

Derives from the earth, and if I love you with

Fervour, I shall reach god and find sweet death.”

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TERESA OF AVILA (1515-1582)

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“May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.”

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HENRY DAVID THOREAU (1817-1862)

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“Heaven is under our feet as well as over our heads.”

“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land; there is no other life but this.”

“Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life so. Aim above morality. Be not simply good, be good for something.”

“However mean your life is, meet and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man’s abode; the snow melts before its doors as early in the spring. Cultivate property like a garden herb, like sage. Do not trouble yourself much to get new things, whether clothes or friends. Turn the old; return to them. Things do not change; we change. Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts… Superfluous wealth can buy superfluities only. Money is not required to buy one necessary of the soul.”

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WALT WHITMAN (1819-1892)

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“Divine am I inside and out, and I make holy whatever I touch or am touch’d from, The scent of these armpits is aroma finer than prayer, This head more than churches, bibles and all the creeds… if I worship one thing more than another it shall be the spread of my own body”

“I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul.

“…the expression of a well-made man appears not only in his face,

It is in his limbs and joints also, it is curiously in the joints of his hips and wrists,
It is in his walk, the carriage of his neck, the flex of his waist and knees, dress does not hide him,
The strong sweet quality he has strikes through the cotton and broadcloth,
To see him pass conveys as much as the best poem, perhaps more,
You linger to see his back, and the back of his neck and shoulder-side….
“The man’s body is sacred and the woman’s body is sacred,
No matter who it is, it is sacred—is it the meanest one in the laborers’ gang?
Is it one of the dull-faced immigrants just landed on the wharf?
Each belongs here or anywhere just as much as the well-off, just as much as you,
Each has his or her place in the procession.
“(All is a procession,
The universe is a procession with measured and perfect motion.)”

“I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.”

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EDWARD CARPENTER (1844-1929)

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“We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race, the Self is entering into relation with the Body. for, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not a toy and a chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manifestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities….this transformation, whilst the greatest and most wonderful, is also of course the most difficult in Man’s evolution, for him to effect. it may roughly be said that the whole of the civilisation-period in Man’s history is the preparation for it.”

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ALLEN GINSBERG (1926-1997)

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“Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy!
The world is holy! The soul is holy! The skin is holy! The nose is holy! The tongue and cock and hand and asshole holy!
Everything is holy! everybody’s holy! everywhere is holy! everyday is in eternity! Everyman’s an angel!
The bum’s as holy as the seraphim! the madman is holy as you my soul are holy!
The typewriter is holy the poem is holy the voice is holy the hearers are holy the ecstasy is holy!”

JUMPING INTO THE 21ST CENTURY….

… here’s a sexual pioneer sharing how she discovered the truth of this for herself

World AIDS Day

In the early 1980s sex suddenly became scary – the sexual revolution that began in the 1960s took a very dark turn. At first known as Gay Cancer or GRID (gay-related-immune-defiency), the world eventually settled on HIV and AIDS as the terms for this deadly manifestation. A brief decade of sexual ‘innocence’, where play was plentiful for those who dared risk the social taboos, dissolved. It soon emerged that it was not only gay men affected – the hiv test revealed the virus to be widespread in Africa too, leading to notions that the virus had somehow spread to humans from monkeys. Some believed the virus had been cooked up in a laboratory specifically to target, and wipe out, black people and gay men. Others were sure there was no virus at all, that the whole thing was made up, perhaps thinking our immune systems were suffering the overload of toxic modern culture.

Mostly overlooked, there is a link between gay men and black Africans – it is that our very nature, our spirit and our self-expression, was denigrated and suppressed by the dominant straight, macho, white male culture of recent centuries. We are two groups carrying a dark and heavy ancestral load in our soul energy. Some ‘new age’ teachers have been much criticised for saying that AIDS is a manifestation of self-hatred, but what the critics are missing is that shame and guilt are deeply programmed into the subconscious culturally, historically and socially. AIDS was, in my direct experience, more than a physical illness – it was a soul crisis, resulting from lack of internal self-belief, balance and yes, self-love, from accumulated mental, emotional and spiritual injuries and blocks.

In the western world AIDS was a spur that got the lesbian and gay movement moving. Activism was stepped up, coming out became a big thing, our pride celebrations grew rapidly. We knew we had to fight for our rights or risk being pushed back into the millennium of relentless repression we were emerging from. The LGBT community gained a lot of political influence and social acceptance through its passionate and compassionate response to the AIDS crisis.

Those of us on the front line of the epidemic, the People With AIDS (PWAs), had to work out our own methods to cope with a terminal diagnosis and crippling infections. Community meeting points opened up such as the Lighthouse in west and the Landmark in south London. Here we could access complementary therapies and learn things from each other. We caught on to the notion of positive thinking, engaging the power of the mind to lighten the tough experience of encroaching sickness and impending death.

Some of us took this even further. I was 30 years old when AIDS started to hit me hard, and I was hit by a surge of anger at my fate. I had become an atheist at the age of 12 but now I needed somewhere to direct my anger, so I decided to ask the fundamental questions about life that the modern, rational, scientific, entertainment-driven world had kept me distracted from until this point.

Like many reasonable people I had looked at religion as a teenager and found it lacking. I rejected notions of God and just got on with my life. Now I needed answers – why are we born in the first place if just to die from disease? A graduate in History from Cambridge University, I knew how to tackle this subject. I went to the source materials – ancient teachings from all the world’s religions, magical paths and mystical teachers, plus modern new age writers and psychedelic gurus. I started to meditate and make my own simple rituals. As my mind opened up I saw that all the world’s holy teachings were basically saying the same thing, acknowledging an underlying reality of consciousness – unity – love and bliss that gives rise to all creation, a reality that most of the world is completely asleep to. I saw that giving this divine dimension a gender and a personality was not necessary at all, but that doing so might help us to form an emotional relationship with it. I discovered devotional practice, and through opening my heart to the spirit world I received massive waves of inspirational, healing, revelatory energies.

My understanding of life changed and through that my experience of it shifted too. My inner perspective moved from that of the little me-self, to a broader soul consciousness that embraces our eternal nature as manifestations of the divine Self in creation – just like the whole universe is. We humans are uniting the material, mental, emotional and energetic (spirit) dimensions of Creation – this is such an awesome, divine, undertaking, one that deserves some conscious attention, to be widely understood and discussed, yet I had been brought up to believe none of this.

Now the world is teetering like never before. Humanity and our planet are facing a crisis of apocalyptic proportions. As an AIDS survivor I know what that can feel like at times -as the encroaching dis-ease worsens and we scurry around for anything that might help, we may even find ourselves getting very angry at this horrifying road humans seem hell bent on pursuing. This could get very nasty – but it can also be a turning point in our civilisation, where we face the big questions of life head on.

AIDS triggered me to pursue the spiritual search – so intense was my longing that even in my darkest hours I was attuned to the love-presence of the divine within me – I went on to recover and to re-enter life as a transformed being, who now seeks to assist the growth of spiritual intelligence, compassion and liberation in the world. Like many who have a Near Death Experience (a slow motion one in my case, lasting a couple of years), I returned to life with a sense of purpose that was previously lacking.

AIDS brought me a Accelerated Individual Discovery of Self – looking at the crises rocking the world today it seems to me we are all being pushed to the edge of destruction, a place where we might finally face ourselves and heal our separation from the planet, from spirit and each other. We may be, one way or another, heading for an Accelerated Collective Discovery of Self – the underlying unity of life will eventually demand to be known and will push us kicking and screaming to that point –

OR WE COULD LISTEN TO THE MYSTICAL VOICES THROUGHOUT TIME THAT LEFT THEIR TEACHINGS OF UNITY

AND TO THE EXPERIENCES OF AIDS, CANCER, NDE AND OTHER SURVIVORS

WHO ARE GETTING ACCELERATED UPGRADES IN AWARENESS, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING IN THIS LIFETIME

AND CUT THE FIGHTING, CUT THE GREED, CUT THE ABUSE, CUT THE ALIENATION, CUT THE DESTRUCTION

AND CHANGE LIFE ON EARTH RIGHT NOW.

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In 2017 I published AIDS Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening, a collection of my mystical poetry and drawings plus quotations from gay ancestors and spiritual teachers.

And just published:

AIDS Shaman 2: Through the Veils is now also available, in print or e book from

http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/shokti

On the Path

For the first time in human history the teachings of all the religions, magical paths and spiritual practices of humankind are available to us to study and experience. As the planet shakes in ecological, economic and existential crises, there has never been a more urgent or rewarding time to dive in and discover what life is, who we are and why we are here. Of course we can leave that to others to do and simply become their followers or detractors. Better to take the journey for ourselves.

Each one of us is a unique manifestation of conscious human spirit, a self-aware being experiencing life. Our existence on this planet is basically miraculous, considering how vast and dangerous we know the universe to be, and the level of development humans have reached, overcoming the challenges nature gives us, is incredible. Our bodies are amazing, our emotional possibilities are vast, our intellectual capabilities awesome, and perhaps our spirits are infinite and our souls eternal. Why live as a limited being, constricted by logic and constructed by the norms of society. We are unique individuals with powers of intuition, empathy, imagination and insight. Only we can choose for ourselves to get out of our boxes and create the life we would like. And if there is to be positive change in how humanity acts and thinks, only individually can we contribute to the elevation of the collective consciousness.

The reward for making the choice to explore spirituality is knowing yourself as a free, untainted, pure and eternal soul. Or live in fear. Since we passed the cosmic threshold of 2012 the vibration of life on earth has been changing fast. Those who make the choice to grow as a conscious soul will find the times to come much more exciting – and easier to navigate – than those who continue to believe in fear and separation. The choice is going to become starker and clearer. Only our own negativities hold us back. We need each other for support on the path, but we need to choose for ourselves to get on the path in the first place.

Or we could of course just keep moaning that everything is going to hell – and thereby help it get there.

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‘Many things in your life matter, but only one thing matters absolutely… that is finding the essence of who you are beyond the short-lived entity, that personalised sense of self. You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.’  Eckhart Tolle

“To be human is to be born into a dance in which every animate or inanimate, visible or invisible being is also dancing. Every step of this dance is printed in light; its energy is adoration, its rhythm is praise. Pain, desolution, and destruction in this full and unified sacred vision are not separate from the dance, but are instead essential energies of its transformative unfolding. Death itself cannot shatter the dance, because death is the lifespring of its fertility, the mother of all its changing splendor. If we could bring ourselves to open to this vision, we would undergo a revolution of the heart.”  Andrew Harvey, The Return of the Mother

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Spiritual liberation is the missing element in the modern journey of LGBTIQ+ people around the world. Coming out about our sexuality or gender identity results from our need to be true to ourselves, we listen to our souls and from the soul comes the courage to be who we are. The same principle applies to spirituality – it comes from inside us.

External forms of spirituality, i.e. religions, are cultural manifestations of collective spirituality, but they are also controlling, often repressive forces, set up to bring order and cohesion to society, but often crippling creativity and spontaneity. The fact that certain religions have got so caught up in their dark fascination with hatred of our kind should tell us something – perhaps that we have some power, some magic, in our souls – that they are very afraid of.

Will Roscoe wrote in From ‘Priests of the Goddess: Gender Transgression in Ancient Religion (1996) “At the time of the birth of Christ, cults of men devoted to a Goddess flourished throughout the broad region extending from the Mediterranean to south Asia.”

Raven Kaldera: “Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.”

“The modern world was built by Christianity. They have taken the gods out of the earth sent them to heaven, wherever that is. And everyone who aspires to the gods must then negotiate with Christianity, so that the real priests and priestesses are out of a job.” Malidoma Some, Dagara Tribe

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Lesbians, Gay Men and Trans people are the natural priests of humanity. Our bodies are not only temples, they are holy shrines at which to make offerings, they are sacred rituals in action! This is what we sexual and gender outlaws all have in common – our persecution since the rise of the patriarchal, monotheistic religions is rooted in the suppression of pagan faiths, where the Goddess and queer deities such as Dionysus reigned supreme, where sexuality was understood as a divine, sacred force within us, and ecstatic rituals kept the spirit connected, alive and real.

“Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.” Harry Hay, Radical Faerie

Judith Grahn: “The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.”

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in the spiritual desert of the 21st century…..

WHAT DO WE DO WITH THIS KNOWLEDGE?

We bring healing…

Audre Lorde: “The sharing of joy, whether physical, emotional, psychic or intellectual, forms a bridge between the sharers which can be the basis for understanding much of what is not shared between them, and lessens the threat of their difference.”

“The work of the past, the work of the spiritual teachers of the past, has been about love. But as we evolve it is time for us to explore who we are as beings of joy. Joy is the name for the single energy that we have seen as two distinct ones, as spiritual energy and sexual energy. The sharing of joy will be the major healing tool of the future. Dolphins and whales understand this, that free-flowing joy is the balance to love, the cross-weave in the fabric of life, able to hold all our pain and sorrow in its embrace.  In our evolution as a species we have moved away from joy. In exploring our minds and the world we have divided, dissected, defined, and destroyed. But we are coming back to wholeness again, to Oneness, and to joy. Down through the dark ages of our history, it has been love that allowed us to survive. And in the next era of our history, it will be joy that heals us and renews us as a people.”  Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing (1997)

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“Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between two worlds—the world of the village and the world of spirit… . The gatekeepers stand on the threshold of the gender line. They are mediators between the two genders. They make sure that there is peace and balance between women and men.”  Sobonfu Some, Dagara Tribe

We seek understanding…

“When we fall in love with another man we’re getting in touch with an unconscious spirit-source, by evoking it in our beloved. We can follow this magic inside us back to its source, and use it to uncover our real nature.” Mitch Walker ‘Men Loving Men: Gay Sex Guide and Consciousness Book‘ 1977

“What if we smashed the mirrors
And saw our true face?
What if we left the Sacred Books to the worms
And found our True Mind?
What if we burned the wooden Buddhas?
Gave the stone Buddhas back to the mountains?
Dispersed the gurus with a great laugh
And discovered the path we had always been on?
” Elsa Gidlow (1898-1986)

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We look forward…

“…to regaining our ancient historical roles as medicine people, healers, prophets, shamans and sorcerers. We look forward to an endless and fathomless process of coming out – as gay people, as animals, as humans, as mysterious and powerful spirits that move through the life cycle of the cosmos….. Like butterflies we are emerging from the shells of our past restricted existence. We are re-discovering the ancient magic that was once the birth right of all human beings. We are re-learning how to talk to the worms and the stars. We are taking flight on the wings of self-determination. Come, blessed Lady of the Flowers, Queen of Heaven, creator and destroyer, Kali – we are dancing the dance of your coming.”  Witchcraft and the Gay Counter-Culture, Arthur Evans (1978)

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Conflicts that arise between the various identities in the LGBTIQ+ spectrum suit the patriarchal control system well – divide and rule has long been its way. How about we blast away that old pattern, and seek for the deeper reason that we find ourselves walking under one rainbow.

Mythologically, the rainbow was the bridge to Asgard, the realm of the Gods, to the Norse people. For the Greeks, Iris was the rainbow messenger connecting the worlds. Oxumare is the intersex rainbow serpent God in Yoruba religion. Ancient Japanese myth saw the rainbow as the path ancestors took to visit the planet. The Irish have long sought the pot of gold, guarded by a leprechaun, at the rainbow’s end. Bulgarians believed that walking under the rainbow would change your internal gender. For the Buddhists rainbow consciousness is the highest state attainable.

The role of myth is to remind us of the potential in the human soul.

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There are two rainbow movements in the world today – both serve the ultimate liberation of the human consciousness. One of them is the global movement for LGBTIQ+ rights, the other is an ongoing development of the ‘new age’ effort to give birth to a new human consciousness that began in the 1960s, and takes the form of ‘neo-pagan’ rainbow gatherings around the world. The two movements have the potential to learn a lot from and share much with each other.

The sexual and the spiritual coming together

in a way that honours all forms of love and connects us to the earth,

that places consent at the centre of all activities

and sets out to heal the human heart, mind and spirit

will begin the Revolutions we have been waiting for.

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“The first revolutions destroyed the great cultures of the women. Once the men triumphed, all that was other from them was considered inferior and therefore worthy only of abuse and contempt and extinction. Stories told of these times are of heroic action and terrifying defeat and silent waiting. Stories told of these times make the faggots and their friends weep. The second revolutions made many of the people less poor and a small group of men without color very rich. With craftiness and wit the faggots and their friends are able to live in this time, some in comfort and some in defiance. The men remain enchanted by plunder and destruction. The men are deceived easily and so the faggots and their friends have nearly enough to eat and more than enough time to think about what it means to be alive as the third revolutions are beginning.”

Larry Mitchell, The Faggots and their Friends Between Revolutions (1977)

Gender and Homosex: AFRICAN WISDOM

 

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“… among the Dagara people, gender has very little to do with anatomy. It is purely energetic. In that context, a male who is physically male can vibrate female energy, and vice versa. That is where the real gender is. Anatomic differences are simply there to determine who contributes what for the continuity of the tribe. It does not mean, necessarily, that there is a kind of line that divides people on that basis…

“The gay person is looked at primarily as a “gatekeeper.” The Earth is looked at, from my tribal perspective, as a very, very delicate machine or consciousness, with high vibrational points, which certain people must be guardians of in order for the tribe to keep its continuity with the gods and with the spirits that dwell there. Spirits of this world and spirits of the other worlds. Any person who is at this link between this world and the other world experiences a state of vibrational consciousness which is far higher, and far different, from the one that a normal person would experience. This is what makes a gay person gay. This kind of function is not one that society votes for certain people to fulfill. It is one that people are said to decide on prior to being born. You decide that you will be a gatekeeper before you are born. And it is that decision that provides you with the equipment (Malidoma gestures by circling waist area with hands) that you bring into this world. So when you arrive here you begin to vibrate in a way that Elders can detect as meaning that you are connected with a gateway somewhere. Then they watch you grow, and they watch you act and react, and sooner or later they will follow you to the gateway that you are connected with.

“So to then limit gay people to simple sexual orientation is really the worst harm that can be done to a person…  It is a terrible harm done to an energy that could save the world, that could save us. If, today, we are suffering from a gradual ecological waste, this is simply because the gatekeepers have been fired from their job. They have been fired!

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“Christianity stresses postponing living on earth, as of we are only here to pack up our baggage and prepare for a life somewhere else “out there.” Jesus Christ is right here, man! And of course anyone else who knows more, who knows better, will be suppressed.

“The modern world was built by Christianity. They have taken the gods out of the earth sent them to heaven, wherever that is. And everyone who aspires to the gods must then negotiate with Christianity, so that the real priests and priestesses are out of a job. 

“…you start with the gatekeepers. You take the gatekeeper and you confuse his mind. You threaten him and you throw him in the middle of nowhere. Then nobody knows where the gate is. As soon as you lose the whereabouts of the gate, then you have a culture going downhill. What keeps a village together is a handful of “gays and lesbians,” as they call them in the modern world. In my village, lesbians are called witches, and gay men are known as the gatekeepers… Unless they go out on their yearly symposium, the village cannot be granted another year of life. They have to go out to do what they do, in order for the village to feel safe enough to live the way it has lived before. This is why, to me, we’re playing with our lives.

“… the thing about it is that humans are going to be begetting gatekeepers, no matter what. This is the chance that we’ve got. So maybe that means that sooner or later we’re going to wake up to the horror of our own errors, and we’re going to reconsecrate our chosen people so that they can do their priestly work as they should… by the time we reach a certain level, all the gatekeepers are going to find their positions again. We cannot tell them where the gates are. They know. If we start to heal ourselves, they will remember. It will kick in. But as long as we continue in arrogance, in egotism, in God-knows-what form of violence on ourselves, no, there’s that veil of confusion that’s going to continue to prevail, and as a result it’s going to prevent great things from happening.”

From 1993 interview: http://www.menweb.org/somegay.htm

 

Victory to Venus!

The Goddess played a central role in religious life of Europe and the Middle East for thousand of years until the rise of Christianity and Islam. Even during the patriarchal Greek and Roman eras the Goddess was still held in the highest of esteem. Worship of the Great Mother Cybele was the official religion of the Roman Empire from 200 BC until Emperor Constantine converted to Christianity in the 4th century.  Cybele had been worshiped in Anatolia, Turkey since such ancient times that she had been considered the ‘Mother of the Gods’ by the Greeks. Cybele worship was led by women priestesses, known as Melissae – the Bees, and also by feminine or transgender men, called the Gallae, whose frenzied, erotic, bloody rituals outraged many Christian writers. Forbidden to own property, the Gallae wandered in bands, following the Roman army wherever it went, bringing their worship to the edges of the Empire- there is a Cybele alter on Hadrian’s Wall, and a Galli grave was found nearby.

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Melissae was also used as a term for priestesses of other pagan goddesses too. The Bees worked in the temples, serving the Mother Goddess, acting as healers, sacred sex workers, making ceremonies with song and dance, offering divination and blessings. Melissae served Diana, Goddess of the Hunt and the Moon, who had long been worshiped by all the Latin tribes and was listed as one of the 12 goddesses of Rome in the 3rd century BCE. Diana was also associated with the Greek Artemis, whose temple at Ephesus in Turkey was one of the seven wonders of the ancient world (it was believed to have been founded by the powerful female Amazons around 8th century BCE during the Bronze Age). At the Ephesian temple she was served by the Bees and as well by eunuch priests, known as the megabyzoi. She was the goddess of childbirth- but she was also a virgin. As with Cybele, everyone was welcome in her temples, including slaves and outcasts. Alexander the Great famously had a eunuch priest lover at Artemis’ Ephesian temple. Diana became (or always had been) well known across Europe and she never really went away – popping up in Chaucer’s Canterbury Tales, accused of leading witches on night flights – and as a more recent Princess of Hearts too.

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In Palestine, it took a centuries of persecution before the early Hebrew Kings could stop women setting up phallic poles in praise of the Goddess, known to them as Asherah, related to Ishtar/Inanna, whose worship in Mesopotamia also goes back many thousands of years. From 1000 to 600 BCE some of the Judaic rulers pursued periods of intense persecution of Goddess worship, and of the Qedesha – the sodomizing male or trans priests who served Her. The OT prohibitions against cross dressing and sex between men were designed to stop this ancient religious practice. Qedesha means ‘Holy’ or ‘Anointed Ones’ but was translated into the King James English bible as ‘sodomites’ and in modern bibles is usually rendered ‘male shrine prostitutes’.

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Another deity , popular with the masses, worshiped by all classes in society and notorious for breaking down the barriers between them – Dionysus, Bacchus to the Romans, god of ecstasy, wine and the theatre, was, like Cybele, known long before the rise of the patriarchal cultures. Transgendered Dionysus, like Jesus, was born of a God and a human woman (who got burnt to a crisp by the jealous Goddess, so Zeus himself brought the baby Dionysus to full term, then sent to him to Cybele to learn the mysteries of ecstasy). Dionysian worship was led by women, and his festival became the biggest of the Greek calendar as people sought the liberating effects of ecstatic revelry. Ecstasy was understood as state of being ‘outside oneself’, through which a bigger perspective on who we are, and what life is all about, could be found. Spreading into the Roman Empire the ever increasing numbers of people gathering for wild bacchanalia alarmed the authorities – the cult’s free sexuality was condemned, an attempt made to control the cult by limiting how many people might gather together to worship the ancient god. It was only partially successful – historian Randy P. Conner, in The Pagan Heart of the West, finds evidence of Bacchic worship in the 7th century, and in more recent times too of course.

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In those olden days Goddess festivals were a lot of fun. Cybele’s birthday celebrations during early Spring, lasting several weeks, were known as the Hilaria. Aphrodite was celebrated in Athens at the summer Aphrodisia. The Dionysia Spring festival was second in importance to the Greeks after the festival of Athena, their wise city goddess, during which the Olympic games occurred. Goddesses were associated with love, beauty, sexuality – Aphrodite was also the patron goddess of prostitutes – things that the dour religions of the father were to render meaningless, even name evil. Love between women was declared a sin, and sex between men was illegal from the 4th century onwards – prior to that most of the emperors of Rome had had male lovers.  Female sexuality was given less attention, but the laws were not needed – the holy power inherent in women’s love for women had already been taken away, wiped out in several massacres of Goddess worshipers undertaken by Christian emperors on the rampage, tearing down the temples, burning the ancient sacred trees. The early Muslim kings did the same thing, just as the Hebrew rulers had done a thousand years earlier.

Women came to be regarded as temptresses, as inferior to men; men who loved men were threatened with death by fire, a myth that sex was for procreation only crept in.  A long dark age of denying the potential in the pleasures of the flesh to open up the soul had begun.

The Roman Catholic Church reduced the once all-powerful Goddess to the role of the virgin mother, a truly twisted notion that was actually hiding the fact that since ancient times virginity was associated with Diana, whose (often lesbian) priestesses served the community as midwives. Protestantism pushed the divine feminine even further into the shadow, leading to puritanical extremes of anti-pleasure, anti-joy, body-phobic cultures. This paved the way for the scientific, materialist worldview to emerge, denying the sacred dimensions of life, and the reality of the spirit, all together. A very sick humanity, a world out of balance, mass extinction, climate change – are all the result.

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The feminine presence of the Divine is what connects us all. Through the goddess we can know our innate oneness with each other and all life – through the feeling body, through emotion, dance and the sharing of open hearts. Dionysian pleasures give us the chance to open inner gates, step out of our serious minds and into the dance of female and male within our own being – which opens the way to knowing the dance of spirit and matter, pulsating erotically, ecstatically in us and all things. This gateway is sometimes entered through drugs – humanity has always used substances as teachers – but in our modern times the divine purpose of ecstatic communion is not much remembered, so drugs tend to lead to breakdowns as much as breakthroughs! 

The Goddess was not forgotten by all the worlds faiths.  Western culture can learn a lot from Hinduism, which continues to celebrate the divine feminine, and understand that is her shakti that is divine presence in the world.  Hindu Goddesses hold great power and are celebrated in joyous festivals, such as Navratri in the early Autumn (when the western zodiac is in the Libran season, ruled by Venus).  In fact shakti is present in the abrahamic religions – in her most purest form in Judaism, where she is known as shekhinah, but also in Christianity, her gender hidden in the mystery of the Holy Spirit.

The best, the most ‘natural’, way to come into to the presence of the Goddess is to tune to the cycles of the seasons, the sun and the moon, the cosmos. Goddess worship was effectively illegal in the UK from the time Henry VIII brought in the Witchcraft Act, only repealed in the 1950s. Sex between men was illegal for almost exactly the same period. Decriminalisation of gay sex happened long after the ancient association of same-sex love and Goddess worship had been eradicated from human culture. In Goddess culture, all forms of pleasure, of consensual sexuality, of love, have a place. In Goddess culture the body is remembered as a vehicle designed for flights of consciousness, into spirit, outside the limitations of the ego and into the fullness of our divine souls.

Gradually the veils dissolve, the Goddess has been waking her people up since the 1960s. She wants in, back into the picture, back into our hearts, back into our parties, our lovemaking – and into our service, to the planet and each other.

She’s wants in.

Whether we are female, male, trans or non-binary: She is found within.

“The return of the Sacred Feminine that is everywhere trying to occur is, in part, a return of the uncanny, of those insights and aspects of ourselves that have banished from our awareness for too long, repressed or demonized.  The Mother is preparing a revolution of consciousness for the whole human race, but this revolution will be possible only when we invite the wisdom of the feminine, with its instinctual understanding of the sacredness of all life and all true love, back into our hearts and minds in its full radical splendour.”

(Andrew Harvey, The Essential Gay Mystics)

When we dance, when we sing She flows through, around and out of us as Love. She is the presence of Venus in us all.  She is the Bee in us all.  And as bees we urgently need to rebuild a home for the Queen.

This Venusian love is so strong it can move mountains, build huge circles of stone, pyramids and temples, on the earth and in the air, in which Her Spirit, Her Praise returns.  This truly can change the world.

Victory to the Mother! Victory to Venus! As the Hindus cry: JAI MA!

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The Autumn Goddess

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The New Moon in Libra kicks off the first moon month of Autumn, it is the point at which Nature completes the equinoctial gear shift out of Summer that began when the Sun entered the sign of the scales, bringing energy of balance as we move into the darker half of the year.  This period of balancing is so crucial, and so fundamental to our experience here on planet Earth that it has long been marked by religions via a 9-10 day period of rituals, remembrance, reflection and thanksgiving.

To the Hindus this is the time of Navratri, a 9 day festival of the great goddess Durga, a precursor and preparation for Diwali, the Festival of Light, soon to come.  For Judaism and Islam this new moon is such a potent turning point it is regarded as the New Year and is marked by 10 days of introspection, mourning, the ‘weighing up’ of the ‘good’ and ‘bad’ deeds of the year – for Jews this leads to Yom Kippur, the day of Atonement.  Christianity no longer adheres to the Moon cycles (except for the Easter festival), but enters into a time of thanksgiving for the harvest and the good things in life.

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This is a period when the sudden change in nature affects us deeply.  A time when many in the modern world will feel battered by life’s trials, weighed down by fatigue as they resist the inward pull, and the pull to balance the self on all levels.  This part of the spiritual process, which is as necessary for us to undergo as it is for nature herself in order to be ready for the winter and the renewal it will bring, is missing for most people.  The religious ceremonies of this time serve a purpose… they help to bind us together, to unite our hearts and minds with the divine streams of consciousness – and so guide us through this transition.

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We do not need to be part of established religion to access this grace and guidance.  The Goddess is easily found on the inner planes, and always waiting to hear our prayers and connect to us.

Good spiritual practice brings us to remembrance of our innate oneness with All That Is… we are invited by Nature at this time to let go of our fears, express our tears and prepare ourselves for rebirth into a greater, brighter and more miraculous version of Who We Are. Samhain is coming – time of the Ancestors, time when the veils are thin, time of death and rebirth – death of the little self, the frightened self and birth of the cosmic part of the soul, the eternal part of the Self, into our lives right here, right now.  The more fear and sorrow we can release from our energy bodies at this time the more LOVE can get in, the more we will grow and thrive during the months to come.

In Hinduism the start of both Spring and of Autumn are seen as auspicious times to worship the divine feminine, and the first New Moon of the later season kicks off a 9 day period of Goddess worship, dedicated to Durga, the Devi, Mother Goddess…. .  She is worshipped through dance, song and ceremony, but also by turning within – this can be a period of introspection, self-nurture and regeneration, which brings strength and vitality for the season ahead.  Durga is celebrated in 9 forms over the days.  The forms, as described on artoflving.org,  are:

Shailaputri. Shaila means stone, and putri means daughter. Praying to this aspect of Mother Divine brings strength (like a stone). It brings commitment. When the mind is wavering, chanting the name of this Devi Shailaputri helps the mind to be centered and committed. It gives us strength, courage, and composure.

Brahmacharya means celibacy. Celibacy brings a lot of strength. Brahmacharya also has a higher meaning than just celibacy. Brahma means infinity and charya means moving. Put together, Brahmacharya means moving in infinity, which signifies knowing your vast nature. You are not just the body, you are like a glow of light. When this truth comes to your awareness, then you are in Brahmacharya. When we recognize our true nature, we become vast and powerful with a lot of vigor, valor and strength.

Chandraghanta. This form of Devi is depicted as wearing a bell-like ornament in the shape of the moon. The moon is connected with the mind, and the Ghanta (or the bell) is an instrument connected with alertness. The ringing of the bell brings the mind to the present moment. Just as the moon waxes and wanes, the mind also wavers. Chanting the name of this Devi brings the mind in our control with increased alertness.

Kushmanda means pumpkin. A pumpkin has many seeds and each seed contains the potential for many more pumpkins. This is representative of the creative power and its eternal nature. The whole creation is like a pumpkin. As Kushmanda, the Devi contains the entire creation within her. She is the Devi who can give you the highest prana (creative energy).

Skandamata is the mother of Skanda or Subramanya (Lord Karthikeya). She is depicted as riding a lion with the baby Skanda on her lap. This signifies courage and compassion. The lion signifies courage, while Mother Divine is the embodiment of compassion.

Kathyayini represents the nurturing aspect of the Divine Mother. She embodies the values of sharing and caring. She signifies the finer qualities of being in a relationship. The ultimate relationship is the union with oneself (soul).

Kaala is time. Time consumes everything in creation, and time is a witness to everything as well. Ratri means deep rest, absolute rest at the level of the body, mind and soul. Without rest, how can you be bright? Kaalaratri represents the deepest rest so that you can attain dynamism.

Gaura varna means white color. White represents purity. Purity comes out of innocence. Maha Gauri is the combination of brilliance and innocence. Gau also means knowledge. When we pray to Maha Gauri, she gives you the wisdom that is the elixir of life.

Siddhidhatri is the one who gives all the siddhis. Siddhi means perfection. When you want something, and if before the want arises it is available to you, that is called Siddhi (when you receive before you even feel the need, and when you receive more than what you need). A sadhak or seeker will get many siddhis on the path. However, if you misuse or run behind them, they will be lost. Siddhidhatri fulfills all desires and bestows powers naturally. Perfection and enlightenment are the gifts of Siddhidhatri.

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In the western astrological, calendar we are now in the month of Libra, a sign ruled by the feminine energy of Venus, heading towards the deep, magical time of Samhain, when the Crone or Grandmother aspect of the Goddess moves into the centre of the picture.  As we move out of the heights of Summer nature is offering us a time to attune deeply to the divine feminine, as experienced through the moon and seasonal cycles, found within our own souls and, also, there to be shared with those we love.

In the Celtic Tree Calendar at New Moon we enter the month of the Ivy Moon….

LESSON OF THE IVY – from The Wisdom of Trees by Jane Gifford

Ivy reminds us of the movement of the heavens and the way this is reflected on earth. It has the ability to bind all things together. It can wander freely, linking tree to tree, or form dense thickets that block out the light and restrict passage. Ivy brings shelter or overwhelming darkness and reminds us that where there is life, there is also death. Ivy represents the wandering of the soul in its search for enlightenment and it carries a warning to be sure of the direction of your desires so that you avoid being ensnared by them.

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Autumn Equinox

Sun rises due east and sets due west

day and night at equal length

~ balance as the season turns ~

from summer’s fire to autumn’s water spirit

from Mercury ruled Virgo to Venus month Libra.

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Equinox calling us to

shift the centre out of mind into heart

resting, releasing, expressing through art,

make the internal shift and call spirit friends –

practice gratitude, forgiveness and tie up loose ends,

the rich season of Autumn magic is coming…

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Tune to the feeling body and let the past go,

as the more inward time of the year beckons

there are many dreams, secrets and visions waiting to flow.

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The Spirit longs to reunite with the Living

To hear the Songs of All Souls as the Rainbow Age rises,

all over the world people are remembering

we came here to heal this world and be whole.

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The Spirit longs to reunite with the Living

Shamans everywhere across planet Earth are at their Gates.

Preparing for a decade of shifts so amazing –

To walk the healing path is to walk in Grace.

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The festival of the Autumn Equinox is sometimes known as the Mabon – named after a figure in Welsh mythology, the Mabon is the Divine Child. At this point of the yearly cycle we can celebrate the magical child/soul within ourselves, review her/his progress during the year so far and give thanks for all we have received and achieved. By attuning ourselves to the powerful forces of creation in order to do this we align our souls with the cosmic energies leading us ever onwards in our evolution into fully empowered, awakened, divine beings. When we take some time to commune with spirit we bring positive forces into play in our lives, and we will feel the benefit of doing so over the coming months.

When the Goddess Returns

 

WHEN THE GODDESS RETURNS

people will fall to their knees

begging forgiveness for all our destructive deeds.

– Isis-

Humanity forgot how to love the Earth as Mother

forgot how to treat all living things as sister and brother.

We take our Mother’s blood in the form of oil

we pollute and abuse her air, waters and soil

not knowing we’re her children

initimately connected to her rhythms

we continue to struggle, fight, create more schisms.

– Astarte –

The Sun rises every day illuminating Who We Are

the Moon guides us along the way

the Stars tell us we will go far

when we rediscover how to pray

learn how our thoughts and intentions create our experiences

that we are all one interconnected being.

– Diana –

The men of war killed Her priestesses and queer priests

shut down her temples, destroyed her groves and holy trees

until the populace no longer even believe

in the presence of Spirit, of the other planes

labelling those who communicate with them deluded or insane.

– Hecate –

Through the Goddess

we know our ONENESS

we feel our ancestors

and nature’s sprites.

Through her rhythms

we repair our souls.

– Demeter –

By attuning to the sun and moon cycles

we can escape the delusion and confusion

of a society built on separation

and give birth to our healing nation.

– Kali –

The people of the Goddess are coming:

We’re remembering that we lived before.

We’re remembering a time before war

when sexuality was sacred

and all forms of love were honoured.

– Inanna –

We have to die to who we thought we are

to become who we’ve always been.

The Many Names of Queer

Some people like to claim there was no homosexual identity until the word was invented in the nineteenth century, yet this is a very limited way of thinking. Historians have certainly shown the emergence of a queer subculture in the form of molly houses in the 18th century, that grew out of the thriving theatre scene of the Elizabethan and Stuart eras, and shown the prevalence of homosexual relationships in Renaissance Italy. Yet we can look much further back and find plenty of examples of what we might call queer culture. In fact in the ancient world there were many words used to describe both queer sexual acts and queer people.

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Ancient Greek words for a woman who preferred sex with another woman include

hetairistria –from hetaira ‘courtesan’ or ‘companion’

tribas, plural tribades – a reference to rubbing bodies together (tribo = rub)

and amazon – reference to fierce women warriors of the northern Scythian peoples

Romans also used tribas, plus

fricatrice – from fricare, to rub

virago – a man-like woman

Lesbian itself is of course related to the Greek island of Lesbos, which has had a reputation for erotic energy since ancient times, though lesbian had a broader meaning through the ages of amatory/erotic – in Greek the verb ‘lesbiazein’ meant to ‘imitate the lesbians’ and inferred shamelessness and taking the sexual initiative, not only female homosexuality.

Similarly Sapphic/Sapphism refers to the great female poet of ancient Lesbos (late 7th-early 6th century BCE), and became used synonymously with lesbian from the 19th century, though it had certainly always implied female erotic love.

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It’s well known that the main form of same-sex relationship between males in ancient Greece was

paiderastia (pederasty), meaning “boy love”, between a sexually active older male and a passive adolescent youth. In Athens the older man was called erastes, who was expected to educate, protect, love, and be a role model for his eremenos whose brought in return his beauty, youth, and promise.

Ancient Rome was even more limited in its approval of same sex relationships between men, seeing them very much in terms of power. Yet Rome was a sex-obsessed culture, rich in phallic imagery and rich in words to describe homosexual acts and those doing them:

Terms for a man or boy taking the receptive role in sex included

concubinus – male bed mate

pathicus, deriving from Greek pathikos, equivalent to Roman passus, from which we get word passive.

puer delicatus – exquisite or dainty boy, a slave boy kept for sex

scultimidonus – asshole-bestower

pullus – chick

mollis – soft, a word which stuck around – becoming molly in the early modern english molly houses.

pusio – yep, pussy, related to puer, lad. Write Juvenal said the pusio was more desirable than women because he was less quarrelsome and would not demand gifts from his lover

Spintria – male prostitute

Exoletus – an old male prostitute past his best

impudicus – lustful, especially related to sodomy. “The abstract noun impudicitia (adjective impudicus) was the negation of pudicitia, “sexual morality, chastity”. As a characteristic of males, it often implies the willingness to be penetrated. Dancing was an expression of male impudicitia.” (wiki)

Some of the words that were used slip towards transgender territory, such as

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baptai – effeminate and licentious, originally the baptai were gender-variant, homo-erotically inclined priests of the Goddess Kotys, who originated in Phrygia, Turkey, and crossed into Greece 7th century BCE

cinaedus – homo-erotically inclined, gender-variant male. Originally, a cinaedus (Greek kinaidos) was a professional dancer, characterized as non-Roman or “Eastern”; the word itself may come from a language of Asia Minor. His performance featured tambourine–playing and movements of the buttocks that suggested anal intercourse.

gallus/galli/gallae – the name of the queer and outrageous trans priest/esses of Cybele became a general term for a queer, along with other terms that were used to describe the gallae – umbraticola (one who carries a parasol), cymbala pulsans (pulsating cymbals, one of the gallae’s instruments, and implying anal pleasure), tympanotriba (effeminate drummer like Cybele’s priests)

Pliny wrote that “there are even those who are born of both sexes, whom we call hermaphrodites, at one time androgyni“

Gender-variant priest/esses served many of the goddesses of the ancient world. Gender fluidity, and indeed homosexuality, were very much associated with spiritual service until the rise of Christianity during the later Roman Empire. As fear and suspicion of queer people, and our magical powers, spread, so queer sexuality became associated with dark magic, witchcraft and heresy.

The term sodomy for anal sex has 1st century roots, which is when Jewish philosopher Philo of Alexandria first proposed that interpretation of the Old Testament story (it then took a few centuries to become the official line of the Church), but has often being used over the centuries to refer to gay sex of all kinds, not simply anal. Buggery came into the picture because of the Bogomil sect, which originated in 10th century Bulgaria, and whose sex-positive heresy spread widely across Europe in the 14th century – the Catholic Church called them the Bougres, and the word stuck – so much so it was used by Henry VIII to make ‘unnatural’ sex a capital offence in the Buggery Act of 1533. ‘Bogomil’ means ‘kind and gentle people of God’ – I love that these kind, gentle folk gave us that great word.

Christian penitentials of the early Middle Ages use terms sodomita and mollis, and an Anglo-Saxon word of the time for an effeminate man was a baedling, possibly relating to an association with bath house.  12th century chronicler Richard of Devizes described the ‘great obscenities’ going on in London as ‘all sorts of men crowd together there from every country under the heavens’ – he mentions glabriones (pretty, smooth skinned boys), pusiones (hustlers), molles (effeminates) and mascularii.

Henry VIII brought in the Witchcraft Act just nine years after the prohibition of buggery. Four centuries of persecution of pagans and homosexuals was underway. The peak of the witch trials and executions came in the 17th century, but convicted gay men were still being hung, or sent to Australia, in the 19th.  The repeal of both acts happened in close succession too – witchcraft was no longer illegal from the 1950s, and homosexuality partially decriminalised in 1967, though by this point any association between the two was completely forgotten – the pagan movement that has developed since the 1950s emerged in a homophobic culture, and shows little awareness of the roles queers played in the nature religions. Nor do queers in general show much sign of being aware of the centrality of spirituality in our history.

Prior to homosexuality becoming adopted as the key word in the late nineteenth century, gay pioneers of that age had already come up with a range of new words for us – finding inspiration in ancient Greek philosophies that celebrate same-sex love.  In Germany, Karl Ulrichs adopted the term ‘Uranian’ (or Urning), inspired by the goddess Aphrodite Urania, the patron of spiritual love, choosing it to highlight the nobility and sacred potential of same sex love and distinguishing it from reproductive ‘Dionian’ love, named after Aphrodite Dionea. The term was taken up by English advocates of homosexual emancipation, such as Edward Carpenter and John Addington-Symonds, imagining a comradely love that would bring about true democracy by breaking down class and gender barriers. Oscar Wilde wrote in a letter in 1898,

“To have altered my life would have been to have admitted that Uranian love is ignoble. I hold it to be noble—more noble than other forms.”

Ulrichs expanded Urning to give these definitions:

  • Urning: A person assigned male at birth with a female psyche, whose main sexual attraction is to men.
  • Urningin (or occasionally the variants Uranierin, Urnin, and Urnigin): A person assigned female at birth with a male psyche, whose main sexual attraction is to women.
  • Dioning: A heterosexual, masculine man
  • Dioningin: A heterosexual, feminine woman
  • Uranodioning: A male bisexual
  • Uranodioningin: A female bisexual
  • Zwitter: Intersex

In the twentieth century, some of us started calling ourselves RADICAL FAERIES.

So when I hear people getting upset about the ever expanding alphabet soup of the queer universe, they need to open their minds perhaps a bit wider, to try to limit us to homosexual, bi-sexual, transexual is to curtail the discovery of who we are, for we are certainly more than the sex we have or the gender we love or the gender(s) we manifest! We are a portion of humanity whose natural sacred expression has been repressed for a very long time, we are still finding out who we are.

The words above are intended to help us reclaim ancient roots of queer nature, function and identity.  Similar surveys of other continents are possible.

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Turning to Africa:

“During precolonial times, the “mudoko dako,” or effeminate males among the Langi of northern Uganda were treated as women and could marry men. In Buganda, one of the largest traditional kingdoms in Uganda, it was an open secret that Kabaka (king) Mwanga II, who ruled in the latter half of the 19th century, was gay.

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“The vocabulary used to describe same-sex relations in traditional languages, predating colonialism, is further proof of the existence of such relations in precolonial Africa. To name but a few, the Shangaan of southern Africa referred to same-sex relations as “inkotshane” (male-wife); Basotho women in present-day Lesotho engage in socially sanctioned erotic relationships called “motsoalle” (special friend) and in the Wolof language, spoken in Senegal, homosexual men are known as “gor-digen” (men-women).” http://america.aljazeera.com/opinions/2014/4/homosexuality-africamuseveniugandanigeriaethiopia.html

“In early seventeenth-century Luanda (the capital of Portuguese Angola), Catholic priests Gaspar Azevereduc and Antonius Sequerius documented third-gender natives known as chibados. The chibados dressed like women, spoke effeminately and married other men “to unite in wrongful lust with them.” More shocking to the priests was the fact that such marriages were honored and even prized among the tribesmen. In a similar record, Portuguese Jesuit Joao dos Santos wrote in 1625 that the chibadosmof southwestern Africa were “attyred like women, and behave themselves womanly, ashamed to be called men; are also married to men, and esteeme that unnaturale damnation an honor.” In his writings about seventeenth-century Angola, historian Antonio Cardonega mentioned that sodomy was “rampant among the people of Angola. They pursue their impudent and filthy practices dressed as women.” He also stated that the sodomites often served as powerful shamans, were highly esteemed among most Angolan tribes and commonly called quimbanda.”  http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8

“In southeastern Africa, Bori cults—along with their crossdressing shamans and possession rituals—are still quite common among the Zulu. Shamans are known as inkosi ygbatfazi (“chief of the women”) while ordinary transgenders are called skesana and their masculine partners, iqgenge. Zulu warriors traditionally asserted their manhood by substituting boys for women and in the 1890s, Zulu chief Nongoloza Mathebula ordered his bandit-warriors to abstain from women and take on boy-wives instead. After his capture, Nongoloza insisted that the practice had been a longstanding custom among South Africans. Indeed, homosexual marriage was documented among the Zulu, Tsonga and Mpondo migrant workers of South Africa at least since the early nineteenth century. Boy-wives were known by various names such as inkotshane (Zulu),nkhonsthana (Tsonga), tinkonkana (Mpondo)” http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8

“The Meru tribes of Kenya have a religious leadership role known as mugawe, which involves priests wearing female clothing and hairstyles.  In 1973, British ethnologist Rodney Needham noted that the mugawe were often homosexual and sometimes married to other men… In 1987, anthropologist Gill Shepherd reported that homosexuality was relatively common in Kenya, even among Muslims (both male and female). Most Kenyans initially discourage transgender behavior among their children but gradually come to accept it as an inherent part of the child’s spirit (roho) or nature (umbo). Shepherd observed third-gender men, known in Swahili as shoga, who served as passive male prostitutes and wore female clothing, makeup, and flowers at social events such as weddings, where they typically mingled with the “other” women. At more serious events such as funerals and prayer meetings, the shoga would stay with the men and wear men’s attire. Other Swahili terms for homosexual men include basha(dominant male), hanithi (young male partner) and mumemke (man-woman).  Lesbians are known as msagaji or msago(“grinders”).” http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8
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The Soul is Trans

In a small town pub in Suffolk I spoke to a lad about the inner feminine – he took great offence to the idea that he might have a feminine part to himself, almost to the point of aggression. What in heaven’s name are they teaching kids at school?

The Soul is Trans, we manifest as bodies through the interplay of various spiritual energies, male and female being a key polarity through which our physical forms and personalities find expression. This basic fact of our human existence was obvious to all the indigenous, ancient peoples of the planet and led to those people who manifested both masculinity and femininity strongly often regarded as special, holy beings.  The Hijras of India are a surviving remnant of what was once a vibrant queer spiritual/magical culture that manifested in some form on every continent.

The early modern European explorers found cross-dressing, gender-fluid shamans, witches and monks in every corner of the globe. This is how it once was in Europe and the Middle East too, until the rise of the monotheistic religions, with their all-powerful, male god. Assinnu, Kurgurru, Qedesha, Gallae are among our ancient names. As religion gradually became a tool of the political state, its teachings adapted to bring structure and discipline to society (mainly through fear, though calling it love), in contrast to the liberating, anarchic, sexualised rituals of the ancient Goddess – so those who sought the teachings of soul liberation joined mystery schools, covens and heretical sects in which over the centuries, magical wisdom was passed on.

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Kabbalists, Astrologers, Alchemists all found insights into the nature of reality through their practices, which are now openly available for us in the modern world if we seek them. But we are still emerging from the spirit-denying 20th century, still stuck in the domination of consumerism, fame and finance. Since the 1960’s there have been many who have made or are making the shift to a different way of being, one of compassion, seeking, healing and loving, but the mainstream culture is very slow to catch up.

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Trans people are emerging in the world in ever greater numbers quite probably because their souls have decided to to do their bit to hasten the evolution of the species, as we move beyond the materialist paradigm into a multi-dimensional reality, where we learn to unite the genders within in order to enter the higher dimensions of spirit, called the kingdom of heaven by Jesus in the Gospel of Thomas:

“When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner as the outer, and the upper as the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male shall not be male, and the female shall not be female: . . . then you will enter [the kingdom].” Jesus in The Gnostic Apostle Thomas: Chapter 24, Saying 22

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Reincarnation featured in all the ancient worldviews, was pushed out of the Christian agenda to suit the Roman emperors, and of course is ridiculed by the scientifically minded cultural leaders of the modern secular world.  The mass cultural paradigm is stuck in a tragic ‘one lifetime’ paradigm, and the transcendental nature of the soul not generally discussed, it’s highly possible that a person who feels they ‘were born in the wrong body’ is remembering something of their previous incarnation.

….And since the mystical goal of realisation of the Self involves the unification and integration of the inner genders (and other aspects), it’s highly likely that many trans people are evolved souls who have come into their current body to attain that integration and gain higher understanding of consciousness.

Since the western culture does not teach trans people who they are, trans people will have to teach the culture.

In fact all the queer tribes – the lesbians, gay men, bi and non-binary folk are in the process of unpicking centuries of being hated and misunderstood, of being seen as evil, dirty, sick… as sinners, outcasts, or as criminals.  We all are on the path of redefining who we are, on our terms, in our own ways.  Radical Faeries have been doing this since 1979.  500 magical, bright and creative queers just gathered this summer for the third QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL in the UK, celebrating the emergence of queers as a healing tribe within the human whole. 

The call is building for a SECOND COMING OUT – this time reclaiming and proclaiming our magical nature, our soul nature, our holy queer spirit.

north american Trans Shaman RAVEN KALDERA:

“Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.”

Holy Queer Spirit

At certain times and in many places on planet earth, those people who bore both female and male spirit in one body, because they were rare and different, were regarded as holy beings. At certain times and in many places sexual union between people of the same visible gender, because it was only practised by certain people, was also regarded as having magical potential – or seen as the right/privilege of the priestly/shamanic people of the community.

In order to control the spiritual connection, and therefore the will, of the populace, gradually religion was turned into a tool to separate the flesh and spirit. But it was impossible to convince the queers that the body and sex are not divine, so the patriarchal powers turned against the queers, turned us from the Holy Ones to the lowest of the low.

Eg the Qedesha of the Old Testament, whose name ‘Anointed/Holy Ones’ became ‘sodomites’ in the King James Bible (and is generally translated as ‘male shrine prostitutes’ in modern bibles).

Some memory of our true calling stayed with us through the centuries – would arise when queers met to make love, or to create spaces where we could simply be ourselves (as we did increasingly in Europe from the 16th century onwards, despite the threat of the death penalty if we were caught) and of course found expression among the many artists that our queer nature produces.

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Michelangelo:

“And if the vulgar and malignant crowd

misunderstand the love with which we’re blessed

it’s worth is not affected in the least

our faith and honest love can still be proud.”

Oscar Wilde:  “We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”

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The separation of spirit and flesh has gone so far that it has produced a materialist civilisation that threatens the future of life on earth. We have lost touch with the presence of the divine in our bodies, in nature. Humanity URGENTLY needs to re-connect to the unity of life, to re-discover itself, and renew its contract with Nature. This starts right where we are, within each one of us. IN OUR BODIES.

For queer people, only so recently finding emancipation in some parts of the world, we need this renewal with nature as much as any other part of the human family. Cities have served us well as places to find each other, build strength in numbers and develop community, but cities are also where we lose balance, where life spins out of control, where drugs destroy our gay dreams. Nature can restore us, as many radical faeries the world over will testify. In our nature sanctuaries we find healing, love, sister and brotherhood; we recharge and find out more about who we are, bringing this light and power back into the world, becoming the change…

FOR WE ARE A PART OF HUMANITY THAT HAS NO PROBLEM CELEBRATING THE BODY, CELEBRATING SEX.

WE ARE READY FOR THE RECONNECTION, THE RECLAIMING, THE REUNION OF MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT.

harry11  Harry Hay, one of the Radical Faerie fathers: “Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.”

THIS IS ONE PLACE ARE DOING JUST THAT:

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QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL

15-19 AUGUST 2024

Bridwell Park, Devon, UK

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Queer Spirit(ualists) with Attitude!

Attitude magazine this month has a colourful, somewhat teasing and intriguing, feature about some of the team behind this summer’s Queer Spirit Festival.  The piece is appropriately enough entitled ‘Free Spirits’, making the point that here are queers finding our spiritual expression outside of formal religion. For some reason however the front page headline they chose to highlight the piece is ‘Meet the Queer Spiritualists’…..

Well spiritualism is generally associated with channelling the messages, wisdom and grace of the spirit world, with mediumship and sometimes trance possession. At first I was inclined to take some umbrage at the use of this word, after all a glance at the promotion for the festival will show that our focus is very much about this world – about healing, creativity, self-expression, love – about queer community, liberated from crippling religious structures, where our spirits can soar free.  But of course what makes this experience so powerful and liberating, I believe, is that we include the trees, plants, animals, insects and invisible worlds in our expansive queer community cosmos.

I remembered how much we love to invoke the ancestors into our circles, how important it is to us to call in the power of the elemental beings, how much we love to invoke the unifying presence of our shamanic forebears in the indigenous peoples of the whole planet,  and of the Goddess, of Pan.

Often we dance once the spirits are invoked, enjoying a space where it can come naturally to drop the chattering, questioning of the mind and move into synchronous rhythm with each other: rising gradually to peaks of ecstatic togetherness when the drumming takes off, when our dancing hits a frenzy, our voices open and the shouts reach to the heavens.

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Since the article was published, Attitude have amended the title of the article for the online version: https://attitude.co.uk/article/the-pursuit-of-happiness-meet-the-queer-spirits-chasing-higher-rainbows-1/21464/

Attitude also used the term ‘HIGHER RAINBOWS’ – which I consider a peculiar term for us queer free spirits:

To me queer spirituality is about dropping the old patriarchal ways of hierarchy, of higher and lower, inferior and superior – and entering instead into the holoarchy of life, where every aspect of being has an integral part to play in the whole cosmic jigsaw of life. Astrology is one tool I use to understand that every part of who we are, that all of life and creation, is holy and has its own purpose, from the carnal and the banal to the  cosmic and the blissful. Without one there cannot be the other, duality only exists to help us navigate the third dimension. So Queer Spirituality is not about getting to a higher, or better, place, than other parts of the lgbtq+ universe, it is about bringing in the missing element, the essential piece of the puzzle, that completes the whole. 

I have written many blogs about the lost, forgotten or overlooked links between queerness and the sacred dimensions.. some links below.

Early May 2019 we are between the calendar Beltane MayDay and the approaching Beltane Full Moon in Scorpio on May 17th. The veils are thin.

We are between the worlds.

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This morning the moon is in Cancer, water element, sign of the Divine Mother. So this queer spiritualist thought instead of being agitated by the label he would live up to it:

This is what I believe the energy of the Divine Mother that I feel within me is saying to us this Beltane:

From the heart of the Mother

from our ancestors enlightened

worlds connect and the message comes through

you are another me and I am another you:

we are not these bodies

not the ego-mind

not the turbulent emotions:

when we drop identification with form and thought and feeling

there’s much, much more to find

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the dance of spirit on the earth

is reflected in patterns in the sky

and once we get that we are the dance

we can stretch our wings and fly:

to attune to the seasons, moon and planets

IS to find the way home –

is the way out of delusion, disconnection, disaffection –

it’s time for humanity to renew the pact with life Herself

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love and spirit connect us all

through prayer and compassion

we answer the call, build webs of love, cones of power

invoking the return of Her magicians

bringing humanity back to the Way

in these dark 21st century days

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The truth is within and it’s out there too

Christian gnostics and heretics, Kabbalists and Sufi mystics have long taught the way

Buddhist and Hindu sages were bringing the light of non-duality to the west since the 19th century

but the last thing the desire-driven, power-hungry west wanted to hear

was that the ego was controlling the show and out of control –

our own european earth wisdom so long suppressed

we’d long forgotten our intrinsic belonging –

yet now as Mother Earth shakes and and fear spreads round the world

soon everyone on the planet may scream out to be whole

and the people of the Goddess

will step forward – and take up once again their roles.

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Queer Spiritualism WHY NOT?

To conclude, I offer this….

MAY THE SPIRIT RETURN TO THE PEOPLE

From whom She was ripped apart

May the Spirit return to the people

As the Queer Healers remember their Art

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The Warrior swords of the Crucified Christ from the 4th century CE

Closed down our temples and slaughtered

Trans priestesses, women witches, genderfluid shamans and male sodomites.

Persecution of gay men and women witches intensified from the 11th century.

The political state took over this persecution from the 16th century.

The death penalty was in place for sodomy in the UK until 1861.

But the climate of fear, of arrests and blackmail hit another peak for gay men in the 20th century

And while the change over the past 50 years has been incredible –

No wonder we are a segment of humanity with health issues

Of course we are a people with emotional baggage that needs to be addressed

the issues arising from both HIV and CHEMSEX are the clear symptom of this wound

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Still in the world today so many of our queerkind still have to live secret lives

have to live with fear, and the danger of arrest, violence, death

THE HISTORICAL PERSECUTION OF QUEER PEOPLE NEEDS TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND ADDRESSED.

OUR QUEER SPIRIT – REPRESSED FOR SO LONG – NEEDS ROOM TO BREATHE, ROOM TO HEAL, ROOM TO BECOME WHAT IT TRULY IS.

I applaud Attitude magazine for taking this important step in displaying through mainstream media that there are exciting developments going on in the world of queer spirituality.  Thanks Guys!

read more…

https://queerspirit.net/blog/211-the-queer-spiritual-frontier

https://queerspirit.net/blog/248-out-of-the-mists-of-our-long-oppression

https://shokti.blog/2019/04/28/gays-are-the-natural-priests-of-humanity/

https://rainbowmessengerblog.wordpress.com/2019/02/14/the-rites-of-queer-spirit/

Queer Resistance

THEY WILL NOT BULLY US ANY MORE

WILL NOT BEAT US WITH THEIR MACHO MANIA

WE QUEERS DEMAND RESPECT FOR OUR EXISTENCE

OR THE WORLD WILL MEET OUR RESISTANCE

This is what we are up against…

“Anti LGBT+ protesters descended on a hotel yesterday (April 11) in Kiev, Ukraine where the European Lesbian Conference (ELC) was due to kick off…. Dozens of protesters blocked the entrance to the hotel and held signs that said “homosexuality is a disease” and “go back to hell sodomites,” according to the Thomas Reuters Foundation…

“A number of protesters also allegedly tried to break into the hotel to throw tear gas canisters but were prevented by police, according to Olena Shevchenko of LGBT+ group Insight.”

Parents Protest As School Fails To Scrap LGBT Rights Teachingsschool antigay leaflet

“Leaflets attacking LGBT-inclusive education have been distributed outside a Birmingham primary school.”

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The rugby star, who is Christian, posted messages on Instagram and Twitter on Wednesday (April 10) telling “drunks, homosexuals, adulterers, liars, fornicators, thieves, atheists and idolaters” that “hell awaits” unless they “repent.”

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“A controversial new penal code in Brunei that punishes homosexuality with death has come into effect…. Despite facing international outcry, the Southeast Asian country’s new Sharia law-based penal code, which makes gay sex an offence punishable by stoning to death, comes into effect on Wednesday (April 3)…. The harsh new penal code requires death by stoning for gay sex or adultery, while lesbian sex is punished by 100 lashes with a whip.”

PINKNEWS REPORT 12/4/2019

“Reported hate crimes against LGBT+ people in the West Midlands rose by more than half in the last year, outstripping the rest of England and Wales…. There were 591 reported incidents of homophobic crimes in 2018 compared to 386 in 2017. In January and February 2019 some 86 crimes were committed—a 26 percent increase on the first two months of the previous year.

“The rise is significantly higher than that experienced by England and Wales as a whole, which saw a 27 per cent spike in hate crimes where sexual orientation was a factor in 2017/18. Crimes against transgender people, which are recorded separately, rose by 32 percent.”

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WHO OR WHAT IS TO BLAME FOR THIS WORSENING SITUATION?

RELIGION, GOVERNMENT, ACADEMIA

Religions continue to offer justification to homophobic bigots

Governments could do so much more to ensure our rights and safety

The education system continues to produce homophobes and transphobes

 THE SHIFT THAT IS NEEDED

To understand the roots of religious homophobia lie in the efforts of patriarchal faiths to eradicate pagan goddess worship, queerness was associated with the erotic energy of ancient temples and rituals.

70 countries still criminalise homosexuality, but the change of law in India recently hopefully opens the way for a domino effect for us to gain respect the world over.

The people of the world need to get that all consensual, adult forms of sexuality are entirely natural, that transsexuality has an ancient, honourable and holy history, that their phobic attitudes were placed into their subconscious, they are not natural!

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WHAT CAN WE DO?

“We need to be outside and not to keep our sexuality and genders hidden at home under the sheets.”  European Lesbian Conference chair Silvia Casalino

We can stick to the mantra that PRIDE IS A PROTEST and use our summer festivals as an opportunity to express our ANGER, our SOLIDARITY, our DETERMINATION to liberate queerkind across the planet

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At QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL in the UK, August 14-18 2019, 500+ queers from a vast range of spiritual and magical backgrounds gather to change the story of being queer.  Defining us by our sexuality or gender identity does not reveal who we are – to others or to ourselves.  In some parts of the world we have achieved a great deal of political, legal and social liberation over the last 5 decades, but in others we are still feared and persecuted.  Even in the liberal west, as some of the above reports make clear, the journey isn’t over.  Join us in Northamptonshire for a festival dedicated to the emergence of our global healing queer spirit. www.queerspirit.net

THE LOST QUEER STORY OF EASTER

It’s well known that Christian holy days were placed in the calendar to replace long established pagan festivals. Spring was a time when the pagan cultures of Europe and the Middle East celebrated the rising energy of nature with ceremonies relating to suffering and rebirth. In southern Europe the Goddess Persephone/Proserpina was said to return from the Underworld at the Spring Equinox, similarly with Freya in the North. The queer resurrected deity Dionysis was celebrated in ancient Greece around the Equinox. Eostre/Ostara was a Germanic Spring Goddess, and the name Easter comes from her name. Many websites and writers will explain how Easter replaced this Goddess festival, and how eggs and bunnies are pagan symbols, but that’s not the whole story.

On the first full moon after the Spring Equinox comes Easter, the only Christian holy day still calculated by the Moon (ie Goddess) calender – and the story of Easter – of suffering, death and resurrection – was also a variation on an ancient pagan story that can be traced back several millennia, part of the mythology and worship of Cybele, the Great Mother of the Roman Empire, whose original home was in the Anatolia, in the Asian part of modern Turkey.

Worship of the Magna Mater became Rome’s state religion around 200 BC, and spread around southern Europe and north Africa as the Empire’s power spread. She was served by genderbending, long-haired, make-up wearing, loud and flamboyant priest/esses known as the Gallae, whose sexual antics and bloody rituals greatly upset Greek, Roman and Christian writers.

“They wear effeminately nursed hair,” complained Firmicus Maternus (4th century) “and dress in soft clothes. They can barely hold their heads up on their limp necks. Then, having made themselves alien to masculinity, swept up by playing flutes, they call their Goddess to fill them with an unholy spirit so as to seemingly predict the future to idle men. What sort of monstrous and unnatural thing is this?”

The Gallae were not allowed to own property in the Roman Empire, which meant they formed travelling bands, following the army and bringing goddess rituals to the people wherever they went. They were not even allowed into the city of Rome except during the early Spring ceremonies in honour of the Goddess. These ceremonies were based on the death and resurrection story of Cybele’s lover Attis.

Stand by for some very queer mythology:

Attis, the youthful consort of Cybele, was linked to Ganymede and often compared to Adonis and Pan. There are striking resemblances to Jesus too. It seems that the proud Cybele spurned the amorous advances of Zeus, who in his frustration masturbated his seed onto a rock. The rock gave birth to Agidistis, a being so powerful the Gods sent the young new god Dionysis to castrate them at birth. The pomegranate grew from their blood and Nana, a water spirit daughter of the River God, ate the fruit and became pregnant, giving birth to the beautiful Attis. However the River God, Sangarios, would not accept that this was a virgin birth and he sent Attis away to be brought up by goatherders. Attis and Agidistis met in the woods one day and became lovers – a tale full of shock and significance to the ancient Greeks as it involved the reversal of the accepted homosexual relationships of the time. In Greek culture it was considered acceptable for the older male to penetrate the younger in the sexual act. As Agidistis was a eunuch he took the passive role with the young, virile Attis.

Attis, Agidistis and Cybele became a Trinity of queer lovers. But Attis, brought up in the goatherder family, was also due to marry a human girl. Tales tell of frenzied ritual magic in the run up to the wedding, the jealous Cybele sending Agidistis to wreak chaos on the event. The guests go crazy, the bride cuts off her own breasts and Attis castrates himself to avoid the marriage. The castration botched, Attis died and violets bloomed from his blood. Bereft, Cybele took her lover’s testicles, bathed them in holy water, wrapped them in his clothes and buried them in the earth. In the oldest versions of this tale Attis was reborn as the daughter of the goddess. As the Christian religion grew, and as the theme of death, resurrection and salvation took a more central place in religious thought, the Attis tales changed to depict him resurrected with a crown of stars, associating him with the Milky Way and calling him ‘the leader of the all the tribes of divine beings’ and the ‘servant and charioteer of the Mother’.

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The Attis legend was played out on the streets of the ancient Roman empire in the weeks following the Spring Equinox:

15 March Canna intrat . 9 days period of penitence and fasting began

22 March Arbor intrat. An effigy of Attis was tied to a pine tree felled in a sacred grove of Cybele, decorated with violets and ribbons, then carried in procession and set up for adoring crowds to see. The Gallae accompanied the fallen Attis, weeping, and the next day was dedicated to a day of mourning.

24 March Dies Sanguinis The Day of Blood. The Gallae led a frenzied dance around the pine tree, to the music of cymbals, flutes and drums. There was blood – self-flagellation with whips, or using knives to slash the body – and bloody offerings made to the tree. There was lots of screaming and shouting, spectators joined in, some even joining the Gallae initiates at the ritual climax moment of self-castration. Once initiated, Gallae priests would henceforth live as women. There was even a tradition that the newly castrated galli would run through the streets and throw his testicles into somebody’s garden. It was then the garden owner’s duty to take care of the new priestess.

“As the Gallae sing and celebrate their orgies, frenzy falls on many of them and many who had come as mere spectators afterwards are found to have committed the great act. I will narrate what they do. Any young man who has resolved on this action, strips off his clothes, and with a loud shout bursts into the midst of the crowd, and picks up a sword from a number of swords which I suppose have been kept ready for many years for this purpose. He takes it and castrates himself and then runs wild through the city, bearing in his hands what he has cut off. He casts it into any house at will, and from this house he receives women’s raiment and ornaments. Thus they act during their ceremonies of castration.” Lucian, De Dea Syria 2nd century CE

25 March.. Hilaria. The resurrection of Attis was proclaimed and three weeks of celebrating the birthday of Cybele began, including the anniversary of her arrival in Rome on April 4th, and the founding of her temple of April 10th.

(ref. https://ancient-gallae.livejournal.com/tag/rituals )

Easter is known as Pascha in Greek and Latin parts of the world, this name relates to the Jewish Festival of Passover, which the early Christians chose consciously as the time to celebrate the resurrection. As Christianity gained converts in the Roman Empire the timing of the resurrection ceremonies led to “violent conflict on Vatican Hill in the early days of Christianity between the Jesus worshippers and pagans who quarrelled over whose God was the true, and whose the imitation.” (historian Heather McDoughall, quoted in the Guardian)

In the 21st century we no longer need to have such arguments. With mystical vision we can see that death and resurrection stories exist for a purpose – to reveal to us the journey of the soul: they relate to the mysteries of ego surrender, devotion to spirit, and inner divinity awakening – as well as existing to attune us to the cycles of nature as the dormant period of winter ends and new life springs forth abundantly.

The shift into the fire spirit of the Aries month, the first month of Spring, can be a tough one. Just like nature, we experience a rush of growth, and it can feel uncomfortable. The longer days after the Equinox bring a sense of optimism, but we may soon find there is pain to express, old feelings to release in order to make way for new, rising stress to deal with as the pace picks up – putting it simply: growing pains. The pagan rituals of mourning and suffering in the early days of Spring shook off the dull energy of winter and cleared the way for a prolonged period of festivities in celebration of the divine feminine, leading towards the summer months. Arguably the Christian holy days of Easter perform the same function. Just as the Spring energy rises, there is a need for some inner reflection, and probably to release some grief and anger, in order to clear our soul energies, attune us to spirit and the goddess, ready for a glorious summer ahead. 

The pagan religions of the ancient Meditteranean and Europe embraced sexuality in its many forms as potentially sacred rites.  Christianity’s triumph from the 4th century ensured the eradication of the popular Goddess rites and stories, to such an extent that the modern LGBTQ+ movement has emerged with little knowledge, and less understanding, of the sacred roles played by same-sex loving and gender-fluid people for many thousands of years of earth history. 

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Canaries in the meth mine

the second sexual revolution has been building since the turn of the millennium

once AIDS had disappeared from our hospitals and gay bars.

dating websites were the start of the cyber game, which gay men embraced with gusto

where drug deals and dates started to become a normal combination in some quarters

gaydar – gay romeo dominated

recon held the fetish market

moving to the darker zones of bbrts – bareback realtime sex

and eventually nastykinkpigs where the doings got deviant and dirty

meth was a rarity at first

but the examples of sydney and the usa could have shown us in London

that meth is a manifest curse

the smoking ban in clubs had an effect

dance floor flow was disrupted

outdoor smoking changed the night out

many guys started to prefer to party at home

where they could also consume sacraments in peace

grindr, scruff, tindr and the ilk

suddenly made partying from home that much easier and more fun

dates could be arranged and deals could be done

shopping for sex, for satisfaction

for adventure or distraction

bodies on the screen

for free or for sale

no love involved

so drugs are what we need

to free the mind, feel the high and find the connection

but there are sacrifices that can follow

like a fucked mind and no erection

an addiction quickly acquired that makes no sense

sex sacrificed to a game of pretence

20 years ago very few gay men injected drugs

in the second decade of the 21st century ‘slamming’ has become common

no need to repeat the horror stories here

gay men are not listening to them anyway

meth high continues to draw men in to the tinaverse

perhaps meth is a manifest curse

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in the consumer age

use me, use you, take me, feed you

men use each other like commodities

and sex becomes a selfish fulfilling of need, a seeking of seed

to temporarily fulfill a deeply felt need:

a gay man ultimately seeks to feel and know the god inside him through the love of another man

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men forget how to love, how to make love without the chem

lose empathy and the ability to care about others

as their own inner unacknowledged pain becomes immense

this manifest curse is a reversal of our humanity

it makes no sense

but is this the future for the human race?

slaves to the machine, manifest in our hands

everyone an object to be utilized at will

the deadly threat of aids kept at bay by a pill:

canaries in the meth mine

obsessed with economics, politics and war

in the post AIDS era

humanity is walking blindly through the open door

of liberated sexual behaviour:

we need to talk about the second sexual revolution

understand the pandora’s box we’ve opened

the canaries in the meth mine

are dying because sexuality is still not understood

a man’s body is a miracle

his love is a gateway to heaven

as loving brothers gay men could be changing the world

welcoming young men into a healthy, respectful, conscious scene:

we need to face our demons to free our minds and hearts

meet each man with love if we wish our sexual activities to nourish our souls

the shame was imposed on us, the guilt and the fear

it’s time we shook off these wounds

that led us into aids and lead into addiction

for we have the power to create a world built on love of man for man

it’s a simple and divine plan

the manifest curse is decimating us

as the manifest disease did before

but healing comes when we embrace every aspect of life as divine play

and drop the constant craving for more

the healing comes when we find queer family, queer friends

with whom our heart aligns and we share the best times

the healing comes when we remember love

is what drove us to come out in the first place

the healing comes when we remember we are spirit

here to live out a dream

we weren’t born for suffering 

we are GAY, we are lovers of life Herself

but we need to urgently attend to our own spiritual, emotional and mental health

in 50 years since Stonewall we have manifested a global revolution

but our community contains suffering, abuse and pain

as we are celebrating our massive achievements in just 5 decades

we must seek to change the narrative told in the world, the narrative about who we are

no longer the outcasts, the perverted, the sick

we are the wounded healers, we are artists and seekers:

it’s time for us to truly claim our worth

and see an end to the manifest curse

canaries in the meth mine:

scouts on the extreme edge of the second sexual revolution

and all of us

need to remember

a gay man ultimately seeks to feel and know the god inside him through the love of another man
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Chiron and the Rainbow

CHIRON was discovered in October 1977, and was at first considered by astronomers to be an asteroid, then upgraded to a ‘minor planet’ or a ‘comet nucleus’.  Chiron orbits in the Solar System between Saturn and Uranus, and is regarded by astrologers to represent the spirit of the Wounded Healer, and act as the bridge between the serious, restricting, personal energy of Saturn and the revolutionary, liberating, collective spirit of Uranus.  Barbara Hand Clow called Chiron ‘the rainbow bridge’, and in this article I am going to look at the timing of Chiron’s transits in relation to the emergence of the global LGBTQ community – taking the view that we queers are wounded healers of the human soul.

“Chiron, named after the first centaur in Roman mythology, represents pain and healing. In a natal chart, the placement of Chiron describes where you are most wounded, and also where you bring healing to others. This primal wound is a source of soul evolution for you. Chiron’s transits bring times of accelerated healing, which are often accompanied by the resurgence of old pain. Chiron is also the bridge-builder and integrator. Chiron has an orbital period of 50 years, so it returns at age 50, making that year a time of old wounds surfacing, with the possibility of healing them—for good.”
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“Chiron bridges the conscious and the super-conscious mind allowing us to use what we know to expand into something beyond that which was previously possible. Chiron is known as the Wounded Healer. Everyone has some area of their life in which a pattern was initiated very early on, that left them feeling vulnerable and insecure. At age 50/51, Chiron circles back to its natal position in our birth chart, the Chiron Return, and those old wounds are revisited. At this point, we are able to see and understand the nature of our affliction/vulnerabilty/insecurity and realize its gifts that allowed us to function as a personal rainbow bridge of hope and understanding for others struggling with similar challenges.

“Aquarius, co-ruled by Saturn and Uranus which Chiron bridges, is the sign of revolution and technology. One example of something that occurred during the time Chiron moved through Aquarius (2006-2011) was the iPhone’s release to the mass market, which revolutionized the way Western culture functions and communicates. Since 2011, Chiron has been traveling through Pisces, opening us to greater spiritual knowing, unveiling long-held secrets that challenge our belief systems, shining a light on our addictive habits and dissolving the boundaries that keep us separate.”   https://lightinmotion.net/2014/02/18/the-rainbow-bridge-chiron/

“Chiron is often referred to as the ‘wounded healer,’ but upon closer inspection of his story, he can actually be seen to be a master healer teacher. His love for humanity moved him to take on the human condition him Self, complete with mortality and suffering. In this way he was able to teach the Truth about well being and healing: that in order to be fully functional and whole, we must be completely willing to take on our physicality.

“Once we consciously inhabit our body, a state so many of us are hesitant to take on, we can attain personal mastery, and undertake the journey from the lower self to the higher Self. It is for this reason that Chiron has become known as the Rainbow Bridge, the connection between Saturn, representing the outer edge of the physical (3D) realm and Uranus, the archetype that awakens us to our higher (5D) Self.”   https://www.thecosmicpath.com/cosmic-consciousness-corner/chiron-the-rainbow-bridge/

“Chiron in Aries awakens your inner warrior. It is the key that unlocks the power of Self. It teaches you to move forward; to stand alone; to be a pioneer; to do your own thing and not give a hoot what anyone else thinks. You have a right to be here, to be yourself, act on your impulses and go after what you want as much as anyone else on this planet! A repression of life force and sexuality can only bring about impotence and rage. Like a plant shoots up from the ground in spring, unashamedly and unapologetically seeking Life, you are filled with that very same life force. Time to honour it!

“Chiron in Aries is about personal empowerment. It is about coming to know that God-force lies with you. It’s about discovering your own potency, even if this initially comes through an experience of disempowerment that acts as a catalyst. Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac and Aries the first. Pisces the end of all things and Aries the beginning. Pisces is the infinite and Aries but a singular point. St. Augustine said: “God is a circle whose centre is everywhere and whose circumference is nowhere.” Everywhere is also here, where you stand! God’s centre is you. Embrace the power that is you-here-now. It’s no longer about what God can do for you but about what you can do for yourself.”   https://www.horoscopefriends.co.uk/Current-Astrology-Articles/chiron-in-aries

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The last time Chiron settled into Aries, January 20th 1969, was a few months before the gays of New York took a stand against police harassment at the Stonewall Riot. While Chiron was in Aries the first big wave of feminism spread through the west and the cause of gay liberation developed – Gay Prides began to emerge in North American and European countries. During those years also there were gay individuals who were attuning to a spiritual, magical, healing quality to queer nature. Arthur Evan’s important book ‘Witchcraft and the Gay Counter-Culture’ came out, connecting gay spirit to that of the lost European pagan past.

Chiron was actually discovered by astronomers in 1977 while in Taurus. His journey through the first earth sign of the zodiac 1976-84 was the period in which this pagan/spiritual/healing strand of the queer community took physical root in the form of Short Mountain Sanctuary, the first permanent home for of the Radical Faerie community, still operating today, standing as the mother sanctuary to the other faerie homes that have opened since in Europe and Australia as well as North America.

Taurus Chiron also saw the appearance and identification of HIV and AIDS, then it was during Chiron’s visit to Gemini (1983-88) that knowledge, and fear, of this disease spread around the world.

Due to his elliptical orbit, Chiron spent only three years in Cancer (1988-91), two in Leo (1991-3), two in Virgo (1993-5) and two in Libra (1995-7 with a first entry into Scorpio Dec 29, 1996 – April 4, 1997, before settling there from Sep 2nd for two years). These were the years of care and compassion, when the LGBT community pulled together to look after the men that were dying, to demand rights, recognition and accelerated medical research. This was a period when the doctors and the aids patients learnt to work together, and some of us that were sick grasped that healing was something we had to engage within and for ourselves – that healing is a larger project than addressing physical sickness – it is about recognising that physical symptoms are connected to the emotional, mental and spiritual aspects of our nature, that healing involves addressing all parts of our being, and reaching for a deeper understanding, and experience, of life.

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The new millennium began with the Wounded Healer in the sign of the Centaur, Sagittarius – in Greek mythology Chiron was the leader of the Centaurs, and so is deeply associated with this sign, which is ruled by the expansive, generous energy of Jupiter. 2001-5 Chiron was in Capricorn, then 2005 – 11 in Aquarius.

Aquarius is the queer sign of the zodiac – mythologically it is the story of shepherd boy Ganymede, abducted by Zeus, in the form of an eagle, and taken to heaven to be cup-bearer to the gods.  During the Chiron in Aquarius years we saw the spread of gay marriage rights in some parts of the world, and the anonymity of the internet facilitating easy access to homosexual imagery and looking for sex partners.

In former times the ruler of Aquarius was seen as Saturn and these days it is considered to be Uranus – Chiron navigates the solar system between these two planets: his emergence into our awareness since the 1970s can be seen as part of the enormous transition from the Age of Pisces to the new age of Aquarius that the planet is currently undergoing, and being that ‘rainbow bridge’ between the tough task master Saturn and the revolutionary spark of Uranus, restoring humanity’s link to the higher dimensions of spirit.

April 2010 Chiron entered Pisces, retrograded into Aquarius on July 20 and re-entered Pisces for a long stay from Feb 8, 2011 until April 17, 2018. He returned into Pisces September 25 2018 – February 18, 2019, to complete this circuit of the zodiac that began in the late 1960s, and now a new journey for humanity begins. His arrival in Aries in the 1960s, when he was still undiscovered, coincided with the birth of awareness of a new age, with its emphasis on alternative healing, love, spirit and rainbow consciousness.  What will his entry into the first sign bring this time?

While Chiron was in Aquarius we saw the rapid growth of the internet and social media – and during his stay in Pisces the world has become a lot more inter-connected thanks to this technology. The challenges and limitations of this brave new world have also become very apparent, and as we become more aware of our Oneness with each other and all life, we have also learnt much more about how out of balance the human relationship with our planet now is.
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I was born in 1965, when Chiron was last in Pisces. My studies have suggested that for my generation this Piscean wound manifested as a broken relationship with the spirit world, whether perceived as the religious God or in some other way.  I remember at school we were at first encouraged to be good Christians, but by the time I was a teenager I had given up on God and believed the rising creed that ‘science’ would provide all the answers to life’s questions. I learnt, aged 30, that in fact this was an opt-out, a way of ignoring those questions – in fact trusting the new priests of the modern age, scientists in white coats, instead of the black clad priests of the churches, and still not thinking for myself. But at 30 I was facing death from AIDS and I took the opportunity to get mad at ‘god’ and start pursuing my own knowledge of life’s deeper realities. A mystical multiverse opened up for me – I hovered at death’s door, between the worlds, for a few years, then recovered when new medications came along. I came to embrace HIV as the wound in me that can never be cured – but which gives me access to healing powers, to being a wounded healer in the world.

During Chiron’s time in Pisces my generation has had a chance to come to terms with the wounds we gained early in life and find a place of inner peace. Now in our 50s, we are a generation with a lot of experience and a lot to offer. We are as old as gay liberation, and as the fiftieth anniversary of Stonewall approaches I am one older queer who can see the journey is far from over for us – not only in terms of political, legal and social recognition around the world, but also in the sense of the global LGBTQ+ community finding its roles as bridges between the community and the spirit worlds, as mediators between genders, as teachers and healers of the human soul, perhaps even as peacemakers for the conflicted human species.

For the whole world, these Chiron in Pisces years have been a chance to wake up to the true spiritual nature of existence. The missing element in the modern global emergence of gay and trans people is the spiritual aspect – the history of our service in the pagan religions of the world as priest/esses of the Goddess, also in buddhist temples and christian monasteries and churches, and our place in nature based religions the world over.  Transsexuality and homosexuality have been historically associated with witchcraft, shamanism and monasticism across the planet – and as we re-emerge in a world recovering from patriarchal misogyny and homophobia this aspect of queer nature is what Chiron calls us to remember – to become healers for the planet and its people.

“The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.”    Judith Grahn, Another Mother Tongue 1984

“We enter a new era in our history. We enter an era when love and not pain will be our teacher, when joy and not sorrow will colour our lives. Never before on this planet have people lived this way. But after thousands and thousands of years of struggle and growth, we have come to the point in time when all of us fill be fully incarnate in our bodies, fully present as spirits manifesting in physical form. Without our wisdom and our power, humanity cannot make it to the next cycle. With our power and wisdom, shared freely with the tribe of all tribes, everything is possible.”  Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing 1997

The last few years have revealed a lot about what is wrong in the world right now, on so many levels, but also have given many people greater insight or understanding of their own spiritual connection to the universe.  Chiron moving into Aries will bring us an empowering energy and the way to address our own healing needs, connecting them to the ongoing spiritual awakening and evolution of the human race.  One astrologer advises, –

“For the next nine years, we must use the Aries traits of righteous anger, self-confidence and putting ourselves first in service of a bigger goal.” https://astrostyle.com/chiron-signs/

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“On a global level, Chiron in Aries is all about healing our ego and our sense of self. This is a time for all of us to learn how to embrace who we are and to allow our ego to work for us, not against us.  This is also a time of self-realization, and coming into a new understanding of our individual uniqueness and what our purpose here on earth is. The fundamental question- Who am I? Will be explored under this energy on a whole new level.
“Chiron in Aries is very physical, so our bodies may also be extra sensitive under this energy, and we may need to pay greater attention to our health. Any injuries or physical ailments may also come to the surface in order to be repaired and balanced once and for all. 
“While Chiron in Pisces was a very gentle and patient energy, Chiron in Aries is going to be a little more aggressive and quick moving.  Chiron in Pisces would have given us time to think, ponder, reflect, and dig a little deeper, whereas Chiron in Aries is all about taking care of things quickly and efficiently. We going to be encouraged to heal and resolve things swiftly and to not wallow in events that come our way.
“Under the influence of Aries energy, we are going to be continually encouraged to get back up and dust ourselves off whenever we get knocked down. This energy feels like a bit of tough love that the Universe is sending our way in order to progress us further and faster.  It is important to understand that healing, grief, pain and sadness, is all part of life, and all part of the experience of being human.
“Our souls are made of unconditional love and we will always return to this place, but here on Earth, we must allow ourselves to feel, and we must give ourselves permission to be who we are.  
“By the time Chiron has finished its journey in Aries in 2027, we are all going to have a greater acceptance of ourselves, and an understanding that our unique expression is important for not only finding our purpose, but for healing on both an individual and global level.”
“We are also going to have been able to clear and release any wounds regarding our self-worth and find the strength and courage to get back up, even when we feel battered and bruised.  Chiron in Aries is a strong and fierce placement that is going to help us all find our inner power and inner warrior. This energy is fiery, bold, and is going to help all of us to reach new levels of consciousness and awareness so we can heal on a whole new level.”                            https://foreverconscious.com/intuitive-astrology-chiron-in-aries-2018-2027

The Rites of Queer Spirit

in the temples of the gods and goddesses of the ancient world, all around the Meditteranean, the women, queer men and the in-between/non-binary folk, practiced our sex rituals

the rites of Dionysis , when women went to forest orgeia with their transsexual god, were built into the Greek calendar…. when men started to join in the rites were moved to night time and things got even wilder

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sometimes those rituals took place on the city streets, such as in ancient Rome during the Spring celebrations of the Great Mother Goddess, Cybele, when her long haired, crossdressing, publicly self-castrating priests brought their frenzied dance ceremonies to the people

in the forests of northern and eastern Europe we practised our sex rites, part of the craft of healing and community peace and protection, part of maintaining balance

they were finally stamped out during the witch trials of the 16-17th century, at the Europeans started exporting their homophobia to the rest of the world

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erotic, ecstatic, drumming ceremonies were crushed in Africa and America and Asia – the white men were terrified of the power of these rituals, so they attacked the power of the shamans by naming their sexual practices and gender fluidity shameful.  they called the noble American Two-Spirits berdache, a word for the passive partner in buggery, and the word stuck until the end of the 20th century.  they wiped out so much cultural memory in Africa – of the

                       mwammi, mugawe, quimbanda, okule, agule

                                       jo apele, korre, londo, tubele, isangoma, yan daudu….*

– that today African politicians can claim homosexuality was a European import.  only the Dagara people remember the true spiritual nature of men who love men, women who love women, men who are also women, women who are also men, and people who are neither man nor woman.

https://rainbowmessengerblog.wordpress.com/2018/06/23/gatekeepers-gays-in-the-dagara-tribe/

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throughout the Middle Ages ‘heretical’ Christian groups advocated free sexuality and the ability of the soul to find salvation/liberation in this life and become free from sin

occasionally in the medieval monasteries and convents same sex love flowered into bloom: with the 16th century Reformation protestantism and buggery acts put an end to that joy

though when the Jesuit explorers arrived in Japan they found that homosexual relations were rife in the buddhist monasteries – this was considered normal by the populace, who saw it as the monk’s privilege in return for their service to spirit

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in the molly houses of 18th century England the queens kept the spirit alive

so did the royal courts of James I, William III, Queen Anne

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19th century visionaries Edward Carpenter, Walt Whitman, Oscar Wilde understood that sexuality was holy, they claimed the inheritance of Socrates and Plato (Carpenter’s preferred name for queer folk was Uranian, after the Goddess Aphrodite Urania, patron of same-sex love and representing its divine nature).   they knew also that amongst the native americans and tribal peoples the world over, sodomy and sorcery/shamanism were as linked as they had once been in Europe

20th century brought men who desire men the political and social liberation to pursue our desires (but only after many of us were killed in nazi concentration camps, national hero Alan Turing in the UK chemically castrated, and vast numbers of men arrested, imprisoned for having pleasure).

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21st century in 74 countries gay sex is still illegal, and men are still executed for it in some.  certain religions poisoned the minds of the world against us.  they will not acknowledge the sacredness of male love, its potential to take us into holy communion.  they do not acknowledge that ancient faiths the world over worshipped the phallus and the cunt as holy symbols.  it is up to us today to reclaim the power, proclaim the power and liberate homosexuality to be enjoyed without shame, fear or guilt… so that men might enjoy the drive for male sexual bonding and take it out of the gutter and into the heavens, where it came from, that women can love each other without fear or shame, and people with non-binary/trans/genderqueer souls can freely be themselves.

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we are entering the Age of Aquarius:  the myth of Ganymede, the beautiful shepherd boy, who was whisked to heaven by Zeus flying by as an eagle, tells us this is the age of queer liberation, where all forms of love and sexuality will eventually be honoured as divine gifts, sexuality be remembered as a rite that opens the soul, giving glimpses into the great Mystery, and the unity of the human spirit be honoured once again, in all its forms.

“We have been a SEPARATE PEOPLE…. Drifting together in a parallel existence, not always conscious of each other.. yet recognising one another by eyelock when we did meet… here and there as outcasts… Spirit people… in service to the Great Mother.. Shamans.. mimes and rhapsodes, poets and playwrights, healers and nurturers… VISIONARIES… REBELS”

“Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.”

“Out of the mists of our long oppression,

We bring love for ourselves and each other,

And love for the gifts we bear,

So heavy and so painful the fashioning of them,

So long the road given us to travel them. A separate people,

We bring a gift to celebrate each other,

‘Tis a gift to be gay!

Feel the pride of it!”

quotes from Harry Hay, the first Radical Faerie – as a young man he read the books of Carpenter and met the Native American elders; he set up the first gay rights organisation in the USA and went on to be one of the men calling the Rad Fae community into being in the late 1970s.

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*recommended reading on African queer shamans: Blossom of Bone by Randy P. Connor, chapter 2 ‘Ancestors’

Faerie Freedom Fuckers

We fight the good fight

with lipstick and kisses

made for pleasure not for punishment

we know that’s what a fist is;

faeries fucking for freedom

and fighting for the light

we’re frolicking and fornicating

to bring an end to the longest… darkest night.

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Once, faerie menwomen opened

the gates to the cosmos

but power hungry straight men

became afraid of us…

they used their brawn

but we used our brains

hiding in temples, then theatres, monasteries, molly houses

we knew all along

our time would come again.

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In Mesopotamia, in the temples of Inanna

the God Enki created the Galla, the name means penis-anus,

priests made to serve the Great Goddess of Love and War

In Turkey we were Gallae, serving Great Mother Cybele for millennia,

spreading into Greece, Rome and around the Meditteranean

long haired, bejewelled, loud and outrageous queers

leading ecstatic, raucous celebrations for hundreds of years:

beloved of the people and feared by the elite

crushed to extinction by the Christians in the 4th century –

but the Jewish Kings were at it first – over 1000 years before…

in Palestine we were Qedesha, Anointed Ones, and sodomy was our service

in the temples of Asherah, we were rounded up and massacred.

Muslim leaders did the same, wiping out goddess worshipping people

and her genderqueer priest/esses as they spread the

dictatorship of the Father God.

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YET HERE’S THE THING…..

A sacred black meteorite was worshipped as Cybele’s symbol in her temple in Anatolia for thousands of years

and was brought to Rome in 200 BCE, installed with great fanfare in a new temple

as the Magna Mater was welcomed as the official deity of the Roman Empire.

When Rome collapsed the stone ‘disappeared’

But a sacred black stone, which “came down from Jannah (Paradise).” (At-Tirmidhi, Sunan, hadith no. 877) was installed by Mohammed at the Kaaba in Mecca in 605 AD –

this oldest mosque itself was placed on the site of an ancient pagan temple –

and to this day, Moslems flock to visit this stone

that may well be the meteorite held sacred to the Mother Goddess for many millennia.

Note too that in India the great god Shiva, who is both male and female, is worshipped as a black phallic rock, the shiva lingam.

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The men of war made sex taboo

held down the power of women

made the queers feel shame

that’s how they took control

cut us all off from the whole:

without a strong feminine

and the queers with no role

the magic of life was lost

the earth, once our mother, became a resource

we are now seeing on the planet

the tragic cost:

mass extinction, all life under threat

the biggest step in humanity’s evolution

the biggest challenge yet.

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Only by shifting our understanding of life

can humanity hope to change its ways and survive:

the good news on this terrifying journey is….

the Goddess and her Servants

are still alive…

and offering…

FREEDOM OF THE SPIRIT

Freedom of the Soul

FREEDOM OF THE BODY

and from any gendered roles

FREEDOM TO LOVE

and find out just Who We Are

FAGGOTS DYKES AND QUEERS

we unite the earth and stars

we’re coming out of the bars

to proclaim Who We Are

What we are, Why we are HERE

Why we are COSMIC AND QUEER.

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Ecstatic celebrations

of body, mind, heart and soul

Fucking for freedom, to be whole is the goal:

Love, compassion and community

Queer pioneers reclaiming our forgotten role.

Cybele, Attis and the Gallae

Magna Mater to the Romans, crazy Goddess to Greeks, beloved Mother Cybele to the common folk, the queers, outcasts and rebels. Worshipped from 600BC in Greece, 200 BC in Rome and then across northern Africa, southern Europe and up as far north as Britain for 700 years, her priest/esses were known as the Gallae. The Sufi sect of Islam also originated in the same place and are sometimes considered to be the last manifestation of her cultic devotees. In Spain she became associated with Santa Eulalia de Boveda, whose sacred day is February 12th.

“They wear effeminately nursed hair,” complained Firmicus Maternus (4th century) “and dress in soft clothes. They can barely hold their heads up on their limp necks. Then, having made themselves alien to masculinity, swept up by playing flutes, they call their Goddess to fill them with an unholy spirit so as to seemingly predict the future to idle men. What sort of monstrous and unnatural thing is this?”

WIth frenzied dancing, drumming, whipping and screaming, long haired genderqueer outsiders brought the spring blessings to the people. St Paul was outraged. “for even their females exchanged the natural use for that which is contrary to nature, and likewise also the males, having left the natural use of the female, were inflamed by their lust for one another, males with males.”

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“The Galli come: And hollow cymbals, tight-skinned tambourines Resound around to bangings of their hands; The fierce horns threaten with a raucous bray; The tubed pipe excites their maddened minds In Phrygian measures; they bear before them knives, Wild emblems of their frenzy.” Lucretius, On the Nature of Things, 1st century

Cybele worship originated in the Anatolian region of Turkey, on the Asian mainland of the country, several thousand years before Christ, where she was simply known as Matar (Mother), and was for several centuries a prominent feature of religious life across southern Europe. We know that her genderbending priests, the Gallae were operating in Phrygia from at least 3000 BCE, and the statue above is dated to 6000 BCE. Both the Greek and Roman civilisations feared and respected the power of this Goddess and her flamboyant, loud and effeminate genderbending priests. Of these Gallae priests Augustine said “They are the sons of the earth. The Earth is their mother”, but he also complainted virulently about their habits, calling them “castrated perverts….. madmen…. foully unmanned and corrupted.”

Cybele was a nature goddess, whose worshippers were often from the lower orders of society including outcasts, slaves etc. Her gender-bending priests shocked the conservative Greeks and Romans, and both empires denied them citizenship, or even the right to enter the Great Mother’s temples.  Instead they lived together in bands and travelled around bringing their popular, wild and exciting, ceremonies to the people.  The lions at Cybele’s side (leopards in the earliest iconography) represent her loyal queer male servants. Her female priestesses were known as the Melissae (the ‘bees’) and her gendervariant priests as the Gallae (term said to mean ‘cock’ or to refer to the river Gallus, which ran by Cybele’s temple in Phrygia, the waters of which were said to drive people mad if drunk; gallus was also used widely as term for eunuchs). 

The Gallae were known for their skills in divination, healing and the magical arts as well as for self-castration and flagrant sexuality. Worship of the Goddess through ecstatic and sexual rites was akin to the tradition of Goddess Ishtar/Inanna worship that had existed in the lands we call the Middle East for millennia, and when her religion arrived in Greece from the 8th century BCE she was associated with their Goddess Rhea, the Mother of the Gods, who gave birth to Zeus. The priests of the rational God Apollo warned the nervous Greeks that Cybele must be accepted into their pantheon or her wrath would be very destructive. The Greeks disliked the effeminacy, cross-dressing and sexual practices of the Gallae, so when temples to Cybele were erected the priests were forbidden from entering. So the Gallae became wandering, itinerant priests, bringing Goddess worship wherever they went. In due course, travelling widely with the armies of Rome, they spread their worship as far as Britain – one of their highly decorated tools used for the castration rite that formed a central part of their worship was found in the Thames at London Bridge, picture below, and a Gallus tomb has been found at Hadrian’s Wall in Northumberland.

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Cybele worship was brought to Rome with great fanfare at the start of the 2nd century BCE, with a temple dedicated to her in 191. Rome was losing against Hannibal of Carthage in the Punic Wars – a consultation with the Cybelline oracle produced an ancient prophecy from the time of Rome’s founding, stating that at this low point it would be necessary to bring the Goddess in to the republic’s rescue. The Gallae in Phrygia were contacted and a black meteorite, symbolising her power, was brought by ship to Italy. In due course the worship of Cybele, known in Rome as the Magna Mater, became Rome’s only official religion. Caesar Augustus (27BCE – 14CE) acknowledged her as the chief divinity of the Roman Empire.

CYBELE.. GALLI PRIEST

We know a lot about the Gallae from the complaints that Greek, Roman and Christian writers made about their clothes, jewellery, make up, pierced ears and tattoos, long hair dyed blond, habit of depilation and loud wailing cries. First century Greek rhetorician Dio Chrysostom railed against men shaving their genital area as coming from their desire to be women, saying the men of the day saw masculinity as defective (toxic?) and so wished to become “whole beings and natural epicenes”. (Epicene referred to having characteristics of both genders, or being of indeterminate sex). Firmicus Maternus, who live in the 4th century rein of Constantine, the first emperor to convert to Christianity said that in the Cybele temples “one may see scandalous performances… men letting themselves be handled as women.” We know less of the practices of the all-female Amazon warrior women of ancient Scythia, but they too were Cybele devotees: classicist Walter Tyrell wrote that “their rites were orgiastic, attended by frenzied dancing and music, their votaries were women and eunuchs”.

“As the Gallae sing and celebrate their orgies, frenzy falls on many of them and many who had come as mere spectators afterwards are found to have committed the great act. I will narrate what they do. Any young man who has resolved on this action, strips off his clothes, and with a loud shout bursts into the midst of the crowd, and picks up a sword from a number of swords which I suppose have been kept ready for many years for this purpose. He takes it and castrates himself and then runs wild through the city, bearing in his hands what he has cut off. He casts it into any house at will, and from this house he receives women’s raiment and ornaments. Thus they act during their ceremonies of castration.”  Lucian, De Dea Syria 2nd century CE

During the first century of Cybele’s time in Rome, Roman citizens were not allowed to undergo the ritual castration, but in 101 BCE the law was changed so that certain citizens might become Gallae, and Emperor Claudius (41-53CE) removed the remaining restrictions. This tolerance did not last long. Domitian (81-91CE) once more forbade Roman citizens from becoming Gallae, and although this was reversed again by 239 CE, this last freedom to self-castrate was soon removed for good as Christianity consolidated its power in the Empire.

This castration ceremony stems from the mythology of Cybele and her consort Attis. Different versions of their story exist of course, and actually most of the iconography and story of this Goddess and her lover is lost to us, as the Christians made a special effort to destroy all trace of her worship from the 4th century onwards.

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Attis, the youthful consort of Cybele, was linked to Ganymede and often compared to Adonis and Pan. There are striking resemblances to Jesus too. It seems that the proud Cybele spurned the amorous advances of Zeus, who in his frustration masturbated his seed onto a rock. The rock gave birth to Agidistis, a being so powerful the Gods sent the young new god Dionysis to castrate them at birth. The pomegranate grew from their blood. Nana, a water spirit daughter of the River God, ate the fruit and became pregnant, giving birth to the beautiful Attis. However the River God, Sangarios, would not accept that this was a virgin birth and he sent Attis away to be brought up by goatherders. Attis and Agidistis met in the woods one day and became lovers – a tale full of shock and significance to the ancient Greeks as it involved the reversal of the accepted homosexual relationships of the time. In Greek culture it was considered acceptable for the older male to penetrate the younger in the sexual act. As Agidistis was a eunuch he took the passive role with the young, virile Attis.

Attis, Agidistis and Cybele became a Trinity of queer lovers. But Attis, brought up in the goatherder family, was also due to marry a human girl. Tales tell of frenzied ritual magic in the run up to the wedding, Cybele sending Agidistis to wreak chaos on the event.  The guests go crazy, the bride cuts off her own breasts and Attis castrates himself to avoid the marriage. The castration botched, Attis died and violets bloomed from his blood. Bereft, Cybele took her lover’s testicles, bathed them in holy water, wrapped them in his clothes and buried them in the earth. In the oldest versions of this tale Attis was reborn as the daughter of the goddess. As the Christian religion grew, and as the theme of death, resurrection and salvation took a more central place in religious thought, the Attis tales changed to depict him resurrected with a crown of stars, associating him with the Milky Way and calling him ‘the leader of the all the tribes of divine beings’ and the ‘servant and charioteer of the Mother’.

This very queer faith was one of the main rivals to Christianity in the first centuries of the Common Era.  Christians hated the effeminacy and sexual profligacy of the Gallae – similarly the ecstatic rites of Dionysus/Bacchus upset them too, because of the wild, uncontrollable, lusts and behaviours that the bacchanalian rites inspired in women, as well as between men.  Roman historian Livy recorded that at first only women worshipped Dionysus, and by day – once men got involved the worship moved to the cover of darkness.  “When the license offered by darkness has been added, no sort of crime, no kind of immorality, was left unattempted.”  Dionysus was a queer deity, known to be gender fluid, who, like Jesus was born of a divine father and human mother, and who was also said to have been killed (by the Titans) and restored to life. He visited Cybele in Phrygia and there learnt about the Mysteries, going on to bring the gift of wine – of ecstatic intoxication – to the people. Worship of this popular wine drinking reveller was a serious competitor to Christianity, we might note that Jesus felt the need to state ‘I am the true vine’, recorded in John 15.

In the ancient European pagan world the arrival of Spring was the occasion for energetic revelry, aimed at shaking off the residue of winter and riding the rising energies in collective ecstatic communion.  Bacchic cults were banned in Rome from 186 BCE because of the scandals increasingly associated with them, but they continued underground for centuries, and also from that time the Spring revelries were led by the Gallae devotees of the Magna Mater Cybele and her beloved Attis.  

The main annual festival of Cybele, as with Bacchus/Dionysus, took place in the early Spring: the period March 15th to April 10th was known as the Megalensia. This period of celebration of Cybele and her consort Attis started with a period of fasting leading up to the mania of the Day of Blood on March 24th. On the Day of Blood frenzied ritual dancing took place, the Gallae working themselves into an ecstatic state, tearing their clothes, biting and flagellating themselves and each other. At the ceremony’s peak initiates castrated themselves, part of bringing themselves closer to the goddess and pursuing their spiritual growth. It seems that these frenzied Spring celebrations may have proven attractive to men in the crowds, who would be whisked up in the energy and leap forth to self-castrate. This may be why the Empire decided to ban this again so quickly. 

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On the 25th March Attis’ triumph over physical death was celebrated. The festivities continued with a period of games and entertainments leading to Cybele’s birthday feasts on April 10th. People loved these festivities, and so it is no surprise that the Christians chose this time of the year to mark Easter, the death and resurrection of their own deity.

St Paul‘s attacks on same-sexuality in the New Testament are entirely related to his dislike of the pagan practices going on around him. He said that in their idolatry, “God gave them up to passions of dishonor; for even their females exchanged the natural use for that which is contrary to nature, and likewise also the males, having left the natural use of the female, were inflamed by their lust for one another, males with males, committing what is shameful…”.  In fact Jesus was most certainly referring to the Gallae also when, quoted in Matthew 19:11-12 that “there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven.”  He then added, “Let anyone accept this who can.”

Apuleius (2nd century CE) tells an archetypical story of the Gallae, here meeting a travelling band Goddess servants:

“The eunuch, whose name was Philebus, led me off to his lodgings. When he reached the door he called out: “Look, girls, Look! I have brought you a lovely new man-servant!” The girls were a set of disgusting young eunuch priests who broke into falsetto screams and hysterical giggles of joy, thinking that Philebus really meant what he said, and that they would now have a fine time with me… This queer family included one real man, a great big slave, whom they had bought with money collected by begging. When they went out, leading the Goddess in procession, he would walk in front playing a horn–he played extremely well–and at home they used in him all sorts of ways, especially in bed.”

Apuleius also wrote that the devotees of Cybele, during rituals, 

 “went . . . forth, shouting and dancing . . . they bent down their necks and spun round so that their hair flew out in a circle; they hit their own flesh; finally, every one took his two-edged weapon and wounded himself in divers places. Meanwhile, there was one . . . who invented . . . a great lie, noisily . . . accusing himself, saying that he had displeased the divine majesty of the goddess . . . wherefore he prayed that vengeance might be done to himself. And therewithal he tools a whip . . . and scourged his own body . . . so that you might see the ground wet and defiled with the womanish blood that issued forth abundantly”
(The Golden Ass, VIII).

We also have a record left by Philostratus (end 2nd century CE), describing Gallae rituals where the priests embodied the deity Attis in order to have sex with worshippers who came to receive the essence and power of the God.  He said that “The tie between god and man cannot be thought of in closer or stronger terms, and they are joined by a feeling not only of lifelong gratitude but of personal love, which in its expression passes over into sensual terms.”  

Note too that the leader of the Gallae, the Archigallus, led the ceremonial processions wearing a tall mitred cap, which was adopted by the Roman Catholics and is still worn by the Pope today.

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Although conflicts between Christians and pagans built up from the 1st century onwards, the queerness of faith and worship in the ancient world was taken for granted until at least the 4th century and the eventual adoption of Christianity by the Roman emperors.  Many Greek and Roman deities were served by single sex cults which employed erotic energy in their acts of worship.  Emperor Hadrian (117-138 CE), a devotee of Earth Mother Demeter, had his own male lover, Antinous, raised to the level of a deity when he died in mysterious circumstances on a trip down the Nile, and within ten years this cult that honoured same sex-love had spread throughout the Roman world.

In the first centuries of the ‘Common Era’ it was by no means certain that Christianity would become the dominant religion. For one thing the Christians could not agree among themselves about their practice and belief. Some gnostic groups such as the Naasenes tied their faith in with Cybeline worship, and took the view that male-female sexual relations binds the soul to incarnation, due to reproduction, and that same sex love was much more pure and holy. This echoed ancient Greek views. Conflict around sexuality would continue to be an issue in the heretical movements that competed with the Roman church for the next ten to twelve centuries, several of which considered same sex activity more ‘pure’, or at least on a par with, heterosexuality.

The last record we have of Cybeline worship is from Aucun in France in the 5th century, after that the Church pretty much succeeded in wiping out all memory of her and her priests, to the extent that few queer people alive in the 21st century have any knowledge of this aspect of our ancestry.  She became absorbed into the legends of local Catholic saints in many places, which enabled the ordinary people to continue to celebrate her for many centuries. An example is Santa Eulalia de Boveda, in Allariz Spain, whose sacred day is February 12th, where the saint’s shrine was built on the site of a Cybele temple. 

In the pagan world, deities were the gateways to ecstatic experience through ceremony, which was for all people, was known for being led by genderqueer priest/esses and was particularly focussed on the arrival of Spring.  Queers today are drawn to ecstatic, intoxicated, sexual experiences but in a world that has forgotten Cybele, Attis and Dionysis.  Bliss is a soul state, not a chemical experience, but the modern world has lost touch with this.  Yet the ecstatic call of the Goddess, suppressed for centuries in Judaeo-Christian-Islamic cultures, is ringing out in the world once more.  Queer visibility in the world is a sign of her return.  Queer energy often seeks ecstatic expression: Every journey into ecstasy changes us, transforms us – ask Dionysis or Attis – and ultimately heals or destroys us and the world we think we live in.  

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SPRING IS COMING

THE PURPOSE OF ECSTATIC RITUAL IS TO REMIND US WE ARE HELD WITHIN A WHOLENESS

THAT OUR INDIVIDUALITY IS TEMPORARY AND ILLUSORY

THAT BLISS IS THE DESTINY FOR ALL

WHO RESPOND TO CYBELE THE GREAT MOTHER’S CALL

THE BEST TIME TO REACH FOR THE STARS IS AS THE WINTER FALLS AWAY

DIVINE LOVE

We are told that GOD is LOVE

and how delightfully simple that is…

for we know that LOVE is not a person,

LOVE is a PRESENCE

that we experience within ourselves

that we experience with others

one on one, or one with many.

So to know GOD, we should explore LOVE

love beyond fear, beyond labels, beyond boundaries

the ever expanding presence of divinity.

What do I mean by GOD? maybe i hear you ask…

I mean the conscious creative blissful intelligence

Generating, Operating, Destroying the many worlds,

the doorway to the multiverse

the infinite, eternal, Oneness

constantly dancing the dance

of Creation, Preservation and Transformation

in all things, in all beings, in the ether and the physical

in me and in you –

GOD IS NOT A PERSON, GOD IS A PRESENCE

WHOSE QUALITY IS LOVE/BLISS/ANANDA

…unconditional, ever-expanding, JOY

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GOD is the I AM

Awareness of Self is the nature of divine presence

and the gift the universe has given us:

to be Self-Aware is to be on the journey to Godhood

to be aware of that journey is to be AWAKE.

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Living Our Priesthood in the World

An excerpt from Two Flutes Playing….

To be gay is something that begins within ourselves. In begins in our hearts, in that place that is never separate from the living heart of Infinite Oneness. To be gay is something that begins with ourselves, that finds itself mirrored back, echoed back to us by the tribe of men who love men. This tribe, our people , is a scouting tribe, a Walks-Between people, bridge-making people, walking between men and women, between night and day, between matter and spirit, between the living and the dead.

There are many tribes in the global nation of all tribes. For so long we have defined ourselves in opposition to the great and slow moving body of the nation of all tribes itself. We have defined ourselves, and been defined, by that which seemed to be in us most different. But a tribe must define itself from within, not without. And it is not our sexual nature alone, nor its difference from the woman-and-man-loving sexual nature of the body of the global tribe that makes us different.

In this time of crisis, it is the scouting people who hold out, by our very natures, the deepest vision of healing and peace that is possible for the entire global nation. A scouting tribe gathers itself from every other tribe, ethnic, racial, religious, regional, from every age and location, and finds common ground to connect.

Imagine a time when we find our rightful place in the tribe of all tribes. Imagine a time when we will have – not our own states, our own nations, but everywhere on the globe – centres, retreats, encampments in the midst of all the other peoples, places where we can go to heal, commune, remember and create, places where we can do our scouting work, for ourselves and the whole people.

Imagine this world. This world where any boy growing into manhood, who knows that his heart is a heart tuned toward men, can travel freely to one of these centres, with the blessings of the family that brought him into the world, there to learn about himself, his tribe, his heritage. In safety, in beauty, in love, he will be taken in to the tribe. In his own time, his own way, whole and strong.

One day there will be thousands of these centres all over the Earth. There we will deepen into ourselves as the Walks-Between People, so that we can share what we have learned about the places between night and day, female and male, body and spirit, with all the world. Each of these centres will be connected both through an energetic web and a technological and informational one. Thus, the men in each will be attuned to the others, in harmony with each other, communicating with each other, working and networking, loving and healing and dreaming together. For in dreams, in dreaming together, a tribe renews itself and remembers its most ancient roots. And a people that does not know its roots cannot live, anymore than a tree can live without its roots.

Never before, all over the planet, so strongly and so freely, have men who love men been able to meet in such great numbers. In this time, in our time, when spirit is more firmly rooted into matter, men who love men can come together – to hold hands, touch, sing, love, dance, speak from the heart and do the work of global healing our Divine Parents created us to do.

There are many different clans within our tribe. In our encampments there will be room for all of the clans, for all of the clans are needed. Sit together, walk together, sit under the moon, walk among the trees. Dance together, talk together. Find within your hearts the way to embrace each other, not exclude each other. All of our centres will be healing spaces, sacred spaces, and yet each will have its own character. Some will be monastic retreat centres, some will become artist’s colonies. Some will be schools for the healing arts, including the arts of sexual healing. There will be places for people to go on shamanic journeys, and there will also be schools for gay shamans.

One of our ancient roles as as midwives to the dying. Just as young men will be able to come to our encampments, so, too, will the elders of our tribe, after a life in the world, be able to come for comfort, security, to share their wisdom and be nurtured into dying, so that no man of our tribe need ever die unloved, unwanted or alone.

Many of us look for healing within ourselves only. We forget that while the true healer is within, true healing cannot happen alone. True healing happens in community, for no man’s imbalance is his alone. Balance and imbalance are all reflections of community. Sometimes we think that healing can happen in the arms of another man. But while the eyes of flame that light the soul can always come from another’s heart, true healing happens in community. We can help our lovers and be helped by them. But we cannot heal our lovers, nor can they heal us. It is only in the safety of a tribe, because of the safety of a tribe, that we are able to go inward to the deepest places, in order to be made whole, to heal ourselves.

Just as we come from every people, our power comes from what we bind together of the world. We are not a scouting people for ourselves alone. We will not off to our retreat centres to become separate from the rest of the people. We will go off to our sacred lodgers to study, heal, deepen and make ourselves ready to do our sacred work. But that work will take us back to the world, to share with the world. For our healing comes in community, our power comes from community, and our purpose comes from living in the community of the world, as healers, shamans and transformational artists.

Sometimes you look inward and cannot find the answers. But every man carries a piece of his tribesman’s answers. Through coming together, dancing, touching, praying, travelling to other realms, and speaking from the heart, each man can give what he carries to his tribal brothers, and each man can receive from his tribal brothers that which they have been carrying for him. No man is alone in this. No man carries his own information only. It is a loving act to share your healing with others. Let us heal together! Heal each other! Heal in each other’s hearts and hands! Makes places in which to heal. This is doing the work of our sacred priesthood. This is becoming who we are.

We enter a new era in our history. We enter an era when love and not pain will be our teacher, when joy and not sorrow will colour our lives. Never before on this planet have people lived this way. But after thousands and thousands of years of struggle and growth, we have come to the point in time when all of us fill be fully incarnate in our bodies, fully present as spirits manifesting in physical form. Without our wisdom and our power, humanity cannot make it to the next cycle. With our power and wisdom, shared freely with the tribe of all tribes, everything is possible.

Let us bless the tribe of all tribes that brought us into the world, bless the people through whose sacred bodies other people come. Let us bless all the scouting peoples, whose ancient and forgotten wisdom is being remembered in this time. And let us bless each other and ourselves. It is for this that our ancestors worked, that we ourselves worked in other lives – so that all of humanity, and we the tribe of men who love men, can step into this new era, the time of love on Earth.

Awakening the Joy-Body

Joy is a natural vibration that permeates life

Along with love, will, desire and need.

Joy opens the gates to connection without fear

Joy has no shadow

Joy is the soul at ease

we can find it how we please

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From Two Flutes Playing by Andrew Ramer:

“There is a primal force, the Creator of all that is. Whether we call it God or Goddess, it is the same Oneness. From the heart of this Oneness, four forces flow that sustain the universe. Physicists call them gravity, electromagnetism, the strong force, and the weak force. I call them love, joy, ecstasy, and bliss. We human beings are a weaving together of these four forces. The work of the past, the work of the spiritual teachers of the past, has been about love. But as we evolve it is time for us to explore who we are as beings of joy.

“Joy is the name for the single energy that we have seen as two distinct ones, as spiritual energy and sexual energy. The sharing of joy will be the major healing tool of the future. Dolphins and whales understand this, that free-flowing joy is the balance to love, the cross-weave in the fabric of life, able to hold all our pain and sorrow in its embrace….

“In our evolution as a species we have moved away from joy. In exploring our minds and the world we have divided, dissected, defined, and destroyed. But we are coming back to wholeness again, to Oneness, and to joy. Down through the dark ages of our history, it has been love that allowed us to survive. And in the next era of our history, it will be joy that heals us and renews us as a people….

“Feel the flickering of joy in your heart. Feel the shimmering of joy in your body. Feel joy in the earth and the sky. Breathe in joy and breathe it out again. Joy is a frequency that permeates the universe. Joy is the breath of the Divine….”

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“We have been disconnected from joy for so long that it takes time for us to feel it in our bodies. The best technique I know for awakening joy is this. Each morning when you get up, touch yourself all over, massage yourself from head to toe. Joy is everywhere, and we have all been raised in a culture of fear and contraction. As you touch yourself, as you relax, speak softly to your skin, your muscles, your organs, your bones, your cells. As you massage yourself, say aloud to every part you touch, “This finger is holy. This elbow is sacred. These ribs are blessed. This stomach is sacred. This shin bone is holy. These balls, this cock, this asshole are blessed.” Say this out loud to every part of you, inner and outer. Touch every part of you, inside your ears and mouth, up into your armpits and under your balls. In blessing and naming every part of yourself, you will heal the separation between soul and body. Then joy will flow easily, in and out of every cell.

“Afterwards, you may want to pleasure yourself, to raise erotic energy. When this energy is strong, breathe it up into your abdomen and your chest, into your heart. Fill your heart with this energy. Feel it pulsing in your arteries and veins. If there is any part of your physical body that is tense, in pain, in need of healing, breathe this energy into that part. Use it to heal yourself. Breathe this energy into your hands. Feel it pouring out of your palms and your fingertips. Touch yourself with this energy, fill yourself with it, heal and bless yourself with it. Let the path grow familiar and strong from cock to heart to hands.

“If there are places in your neighborhood or anywhere on the planet that are troubled and in need of healing, beam the energy that fills your body out to them, from your heart, your hands or wherever feels right to you. Fill the airwaves with pleasure. Beam it out everywhere. Pleasure yourself and send this energy out into the heavens and down into the earth. Make love to everything this way, to clouds and rocks and planets and stars. Beam this energy into your food before you eat. This will both energize it and tune it to your body so that you can digest it fully and efficiently. If you are taking herbs or medications, beam it into them too, to tune them to your body the same way. When you connect with someone, remember that he is far more than just a physical body. Even when you are talking on the phone, he is touching you and you are touching him. The moment he walks in the door, even if you are 20 feet away, your subtle body is touching him and his subtle body is touching you. What do you feel? What do you see? Pay attention to all of this before you touch hands. When you are with someone, sense all the layers of his body. See how the energy flows in his body. Where does it flow smoothly and where does it get stuck? This is part of what our ancestors knew how to do. Subtle touch, the touch of energy before the touch of hands, is a part of love-making, too.

“Remember that you can overload someone’s circuits, give too much energy, or give it too quickly. A lover of men must know how to be intimate. Intimacy is a state in which energy flows freely from person to person, in and out of every organ, in and out of every cell. But many people are filled with love and still unhappy, because they do not know how to transmit it to others, or do not know how to receive it. Is your heart open? Can you give and receive love equally well? Can you give and receive love equally well—at the same time? Go back over your personal history. Explore all your relationships, with family, friends, and lovers. Where was there intimacy and where was there need? Where was there intimacy and where was there fear? If you are having difficulty being intimate, sit with a beautiful flower. Beam out energy from your heart to the flower, until it is filled with it. Then feel how the flower is beaming energy back to you with no reservations. Breathe in this joyous energy and be filled with it, in every part of you. When you are able to be intimate with flowers, go on to trees, to animals and then on to humans. To be able to do this, to be heart-centered, is what we came here for. Feel your heart spread out until it fills your entire body. Beam the energy of your heart out to the world, and let the world send it back to you.”

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A QUEER HOMAGE TO THE GREAT MOTHER

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“Here is a principal mythological role of the feminine principle: She gives birth to us physically, but She is the mother too of our second birth—our birth as spiritual entities. This is the basic meaning of the motif of the virgin birth, that our bodies are born naturally, but at a certain time there awakens in us our spiritual nature, which is the higher human nature, not that which simply duplicates the world of the animal urges, of erotic and power drives and sleep. Instead, there awakens in us the notion of a spiritual aim, a spiritual life: an essentially human, mystical life to be lived above the level of food, of sex, of economics, politics, and sociology.” Joseph Campbell, Goddesses.

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The flowing, glowing, loving, compassionate presence of Spirit has been known in many cultures as the divine feminine presence of the creator force of the universe: the Shakti or Shekhinah (the female Ruach (Breath of God) of the OT became the neutral (or male) Holy Spirit of the Christian Churches). We can commune with Her anywhere but we often do it most powerfully when we do it in union with others. That might be union of heart, mind, body, achieved through love, stillness, touch, dance, music – uniting the physical and the spirit through the heart and mind is what the divine feminine in us does.

So many names have come down through history to us, names that invoke her love and presence.

ISIS. ASTARTE. DIANA. HECATE, DEMETER. KALI. INANNA

are names known on a global scale, along with many more

DANU, RHIANNON, SULIS, BRIGIT, CERIDWEN, MORGAN, EPONA

are names that were once well known in the British Celtic lands

WORSHIP OF THE GREAT MOTHER, MAGNA MATER, CYBELE

was one of the three great religions of ancient Rome, but her roots go back millennia in Turkey, she was honoured in ancient Greece as Rhea, the Mother of Zeus and all the Gods, and her religion was brought to Rome with much more ceremony around 200 BC. Her worship lasted until around 400 AD and was then ruthlessly suppressed by Roman emperors seeking to use the rigorous Christian faith to impose order on society. The persecution of same sex love, of genderfluidity, and the witch trials of the 15-17th century were part of this ongoing suppression.

GREAT MOTHER WORSHIP HAS BEEN TRACED BACK ON THIS PLANET AT LEAST 10,000 YEARS, MAYBE MUCH LONGER

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The shift to patriarchal religious domination was gradual, and is associated with the rise of property ownership, developing militaristic dictatorships, and shift in kinship system from matrilineal to patrilineal descent. Goddess worship was frequently hedonistic, sexual and ecstatic. It was often led by gendervariant and same-sex loving people, serving in the temples of Ishtar throughout the Middle East, as the wandering Galli priests who brought ecstatic ceremonies to the people of the ancient Meditteranean, and indeed as witches, druids and shamans of the old nature religions across the planet.

The suppression of the Goddess cults went hand in hand with the repression of same sex love. Sodomy and sorcery were intimately connected in the minds of the people. The patriarchal religions waged a war on both, creating a global situation today where the presence of spirit as the goddess, known through magical practice, is forgotten by most people, where people are brainwashed to fear or ridicule pagan faiths, and the spirituality of the genderbending queer servants of the goddess is utterly denied.

But in the early 21st century the Goddess is returning, and her queer children are visible on a global level and claiming their rights as never before. Most of those lgbtq+ probably have little or no idea of this ancient association between us and the magical realms of the spirit.

After a thousand years of suppressing sexual freedom and pagan lore in Europe, as Christian men went out to explore the world they were horrified to find sodomy a common occurrence on every continent, generally considered normal and often associated with shamanic power and witchcraft. They found powerful lesbians too – such as in the Azanda tribe in Africa. The South American rainforest is named the Amazon in reference to the mighty female-led tribes found there. In China and Japan homosexuality was viewed as a privilege enjoyed by the buddhist monastic classes – indeed monasteries and convents had often served as safe zones of same sex love in Middle Ages Europe.

The missing element in the story of global LGBTQ+ liberation is our connection to the spirit, to Goddess worship and pagan practice. This can only be PROPERLY understood of course by those who EXPERIENCE the truth of it.

Across the world there are Queer Pagans, Radical Faeries, Queer Spirits finding each other and remembering our magical powers. The people of the Great Mother are returning.

OUR TASK IS TO BRING BALANCE.

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“The Mother of our ancestors birthed the universe from her body. There was no separation between Creator and creation. And as we shift our thinking and come back to this ancient wisdom, we will find balance and healing for ourselves. Ultimately the Creator is neither male nor female, but Oneness. It is the Prime Vibration. It is Absolute Information. In Seeing It as Mother we honour own own capacity for connection, compassion, clarity and communion of the soul. In knowing It as Mother we cycle back to the beginning of this era so that we can step into the next in wholeness.

“The liturgies of the Father are spoken, as revelation comes the from the Father in words, for with words he created the universe. The universe itself is the revelation of the Mother, and her liturgies are of the body. As we open to seeing her and her creation, as we learn to feel our place in it and know that we are never separate from it, and cannot ever be separate from it, then everything we becomes a prayer. Anchored in love, our bodies filled with joy, reaching out in ecstasy to express our gratitude, we ground the Mother’s bliss in the world.

“In our Mother’s world we do not have to struggle for enlightenment, Her light is always with us. We do not have to be reborn, for each moment of our lives is a new creation in her infinite, eternal body, and we are always a part of it.”

Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing

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Calling all Queers!

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“We look forward to creating a genuine Gay culture, one that is free from exploitation by bars, baths, and gay business owners. We look forward to re-establishing women’s mysteries and men’s mysteries as the highest expression of collective Gay culture and sexuality. We look forward to regaining our ancient historical roles as medicine people, healers, prophets, shamans and sorcerers. We look forward to an endless and fathomless process of coming out – as gay people, as animals, as humans, as mysterious and powerful spirits that move through the life cycle of the cosmos….. Like butterflies we are emerging from the shells of our past restricted existence. We are re-discovering the ancient magic that was once the birth right of all human beings. We are re-learning how to talk to the worms and the stars. We are taking flight on the wings of self-determination. Come, blessed Lady of the Flowers, Queen of Heaven, creator and destroyer, Kali – we are dancing the dance of your coming.”

Arthur Evans, Witchcraft and the Gay Counter-Culture

There are thousands of queers across the planet in Radical Faerie sanctuaries and other places remembering, discovering, exploring our connection to nature spirit, to the rhythms and cycles of the planet, to the flow of the divine feminine in creation, connecting – healing – uplifting us, and preparing us for the next steps, the incredible rediscovery and awakening of the gay wizards, witches, shamans, medicine people of all kinds.

Queers! We need to tune into nature. Cities are our playspaces, they are where we have found each other, in numbers, in strength, for the first time in human history over the past decades. We need our city spaces to find each other, but we need to get back to nature to find ourselves.

And to discover our natural powers.

The patriarchal, heternormative world wants to subsume us into its collective madness, to buy us off with marriage and civil rights.  It wants our pink pound.  But what do we want?  What are we bringing to the global story of humanity’s evolution?

We bring the magic, the queer eye that exposes hypocrisy, greed and ignorance.  We bring an age of love for all people of the planet.  But we first we go to find that love in ourselves, for ourselves and each other.

WALT WITH WINGS

“I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.”

Walt Whitman, Song of Myself

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“Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.”

Harry Hay, one of the Radical Faerie founding motherfathers

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“The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.”

Judith Grahn, Author ‘Another Mother Tongue’

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“Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.”

Raven Kaldera, Trans Shaman and Author

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“To be gay is something that begins within ourselves. In begins in our hearts, in that place that is never separate from the living heart of Infinite Oneness. To be gay is something that begins with ourselves, that finds itself mirrored back, echoed back to us by the tribe of men who love men. This tribe, our people , is a scouting tribe, a Walks-Between people, bridge-making people, walking between men and women, between night and day, between matter and spirit, between the living and the dead….

“When purposeful, spiritual connection is forgotten, the depth of sexual connection often takes it place. Sex points one in the right direction, deep into the self, into the mystery. But sex alone is not the answer to the gay dilemma of the present, the sense of meaninglessness. A sense of spiritual participation in the community of the planet is the answer. For no one else will tell us our purpose. Its discovery must come from ourselves.”

Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing

EUROPE IS AN ANCIENT FAERIELAND

We tend to think of the ancient Greek and Roman civilisations as being relatively accepting of homosexual acts and relationships in comparison to the Christian culture that superceded them in Europe. But we have been misled. The Greeks and Romans tolerated same sex activities only in certain circumstances, most famously that between adult and younger men, the erastes and the eromenos. This relationship was seen as one of the foundations of the stability of society, but other forms of gay love were not applauded, and the passive partner in the sex act was looked down on.

Plato is sometimes quoted as praising the spiritual potential in homosexual love, but he went on to have a change of heart and spoke against it. Aristotle dismissed his ideas, and pointed out that the Celtic peoples of the north accorded it a special honour. Aristotle’s word for the passionate friendship between men was synousia. Among the Celts the passive partner in homosexual intercourse was respected.

The Greek philosopher Posidonius, 1ST century BC, traveled into Gaul to investigate the truth of the stories told about the Celtic tribes, and put it very simply: “The Gaulish men prefer to have sex with each other.”

“Although they have good-looking women, they pay very little attention to them, but are really crazy about having sex with men. They are accustomed to sleeping on the ground on animal skins and roll around naked with male bed-mates on both sides. Heedless of their own dignity, they abandon without qualm the bloom of their bodies to others. And the most incredible thing is that they do not find this shameful. When they proposition someone, they consider it dishonourable if he doesn’t accept the offer!” —Diodorus Siculus, a Greek historian living in Roman Empire, 1st century BCE, writing about the Celtic Europeans.

Eusebius of Caesarea, wrote that “Among the Gauls, the young men marry each other (gamountai) with complete freedom. In doing this, they do not incur any reproach or blame, since this is done according to custom amongst them.” (4th centtury CE)

Bardaisan of Edessa wrote that “In the countries of the north — in the lands of the Germans and those of their neighbors, handsome [noble] young men assume the role of wives [women] towards other men, and they celebrate marriage feasts.” (2nd century CE)

“Celtic mythology is riddled with deities who do not fit neatly into rigid, stereotypical gender roles. There are Goddesses of war and battle and Gods of love and poetry. There is also a tradition of male praise-poets who wrote about the kings they served as a lover writes of their beloved. Many historical commentaries on warriors and monastics speak of devoted companions who shared a bed and often the love between these companions is celebrated in poetry and songs.” http://veryjoeandbullish.blogspot.com/2012/07/the-celtic-brotherhood-homosexuality.html

Legends say the Celts fought their battles naked and had no fear of death. Even Julius Caesar commented on this, and recorded that the Celts were quite confident of the existence of ‘the otherworld’, a fairy land type parallel reality that souls return to at death.

If you look up History of Homosexuality on the net you will likely find the starting point to be commentary about ancient Greece, perhaps with some references to Egypt and the ancient Middle East. But the truth about Celtic Northern Europe is hidden away from sight. It’s time to raise the veil and reveal that old Europe was a very queer place.

As the hidden history of the queer people of planet Earth gradually becomes more known, we are learning that when European explorers set foot in the Americas, north and south, same sex love and transexuality were often considered quite normal.  What’s more these attributes were often associated with the shamans, the medicine people, the priests and wizards of the tribes.  In Buddhist China and Japan homosexuality was considered a privilege enjoyed by the monastic classes.

The Dagara tribe of west Africa has retained their ancient understanding of the gatekeeper role to this very day – in her book, The Spirit of Intimacy, Dagara teacher Sobonfu Some writes, –

“The words gay and lesbian do not exist in the village, but there is the word gatekeeper. Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between the worlds – the world of the village and the world of spirit. Though they do not marry in this world, they say they have partners in other dimensions.

“What they do, they don’t like to communicate to anyone. It is their right to keep it to themselves. Everybody in the village respects that because without gatekeepers, there is no access to other worlds. Most people in the West define themselves and others by sexual orientation. This way of looking at gatekeepers will kill the spirit of the gatekeeper. Gatekeepers in the village are able to do their job simply because of strong spiritual connection, and also their ability to direct their sexual energy not to other people but to spirit.

“The gatekeepers stand on the threshold of the gender line. They are mediators between the two genders. They make sure there is peace and balance between women and men. If the two genders are in conflict and the whole village is caught in it, the gatekeepers are the ones to bring peace. Gatekeepers do not take sides. They simply act as “the sword of truth and integrity.”

“In the village homosexuality is seen very differently that it is seen in the West, in part because all sexuality is spiritually based. Taken away from its spiritual context, it becomes a source of controversy, and can be exploited. In the village, you never see gatekeepers, or anybody for that matter, displaying their sexuality or commenting on the sexuality of others.

“Gatekeepers hold keys to other dimensions. They maintain a certain alignment between the spirit world and the world of the village. Without them, the gates to the other world would be shut.

“Gays and lesbians in the West are often very spiritual, but they have been taken away from their connection with spirit. My feeling is that without that outlet or that role in the culture, they have to find other ways of defining themselves. This could be one of the reasons why they would want to get married or make themselves look as though they do not have a unique purpose.”

Passing

The Soul decides when it’s time to go

the Body knows and it lets it show

We can resist, we can assist

Dying is inevitable but it’s not the end

As the portals open

We can see, we can listen

Between the Worlds

To the Ancestors’ songs

We might speak of what we see and hear

This will help release the fear

From all those at our side

We might remember why we came here

See the many gifts of being queer

Understand our connection to the invisible worlds

And bring through the blessings, the love unfurled

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From Two Flutes Playing:

“Life does not begin at birth or end at death. Life extends beyond body and time, into and out of a spaciousness like the most powerful of dreams. Words alone cannot describe it. Perhaps 3-D film might one day do it, reveal the fluid vastness that life is. But one aspect of life is creating a body to focus yourself in. To do this is holy, to do this is a gift. You live in many bodies, as a painter paints many canvasses. Death is not the destruction of the artist. Death is the beginning of another phase in your timeless creativity.

“Gayness is the coming together of certain strands of humanness. This particular arrangement, particular frequency, resonates well with certain functions in the human community. It is a nurturing frequency, a strong and caring one, that expresses itself in every possible way, yet excels at certain ones. To make art, to dance, to make beauty of body, food, home, all of these can be gifts of this energy. But working with those who are dying, working with death, is one of the skills that have been forgotten, not only by your community, but by the world itself. And many have died without the comforting hand of son, cousin, friend. But time brings all powers back to themselves. Time makes you remember this….

“You as soul create many bodies to express yourself through, in different times, in different places, as female and male, as straight and gay. You are born many times and you die many times. Death is that part of the soul’s process of recreating itself. The work of gay midwives to the dying is not easy. But you can tap into the place where you have done it before. You can tap into your guides, you can tap into the source of love, which permeates the universe. Love binds all together. No one is separate from love, from spirit. And death is not a separation. It is only a change in frequency.”

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Life and Death having a conversation where Life asks, “How come people love me yet hate you?” and Death replies, “Because you are a beautiful lie and I’m a painful truth.” Life is called Maya by the Hindus and Samsara by the Buddhists, an illusion of separation and suffering to be seen through, understood and transcended. Finding peace with death is the fastest way to do that. It’s not generally that we choose when we face our feelings and fears about death – it is quite usual that life deals us a card at a certain point on our journey which brings our mortality into focus.

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Day is balanced by night. Summer is balanced by winter. Female by male. Right by left.

Life is balanced by death.

Modern culture in the west has cut us off from our own deep inner understanding of death and the spirit realms. The process started under the monotheistic religious hegemony as the priests made entry into heaven dependent on obeying the rules set down for life, but modern generations are afraid of death also because the rationalist atheistic worldview denies that there is any possibility that our core substance, our sense of self, survives the demise of the body.

Yet the world is still full of believers in the spirit, whose hearts just cannot let go of faith entirely just because the rational modern culture tells them to. The heart knows through feelings, which are deeper than words, more ancient and more in touch with the profound and the sacred. And increasingly there are believers who have removed themselves from the philosophical grip of mainstream religion and prefer to think for themselves, respecting and learning from all the mystical pathways of planet earth rather than making one right and the others all wrong, and from direct interaction with spirit.

Belief in a divine source and presence within creation leads to experience of that blessed sacred being, which can come in many many ways. It can manifest as inner peace or ecstatic joy, as a powerful compassionate love for all beings, creative outbursts, or direct communication, in words, pictures or feelings, with other levels of consciousness. Experience leads to faith and the realisation that the spirit is alive in all beings, giving life to all beings and knowing itself through all beings. Humans really are incredible creatures, but to discover our potential we need to face our fears, the biggest of which are usually related to ‘god’ and death. The good news is that god really is love, and not an overbearing patriarch: god, as the shaman says, is life itself. To get to know god-ness, focus on that, not on myths designed to scare the populace into obedience, and we can move on from the age of patriarchal control via religion and the sword, and from the confusion and disrespect for life and the planet that comes from an spirit-denying attitude to life.

If we open ourselves to the flow of spirit through life and feel the existence of eternity within our own being, it gets easier to drop the fear of death. Then we really can become more alive, in the moment, open to what the universe offers us. We can drop the emotional loads we carry and forgive ourselves and others for the mistakes we have made due to fear or ignorance. We can literally enter into a new life, reborn to be miracle workers and help humanity stop fighting over beliefs and GROW UP in time to take care of our ailing planet.

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From Earth Ancestors, Two Flutes Playing:

“What began with a planetary threat of death by ice now ends with your threat of death to the planet itself. But you survived the ice. You can survive your own inventions if enough of you are able to reconnect to the love in yourselves and begin to share it in the world. There are many, many thousands of us here, Earth Ancestors. Some of us are connected to places on the planet itself, while others are bound to activities, actions, crafts, to groups of people. We are guides and teachers, pattern-carriers. We are woven into human consciousness. Many of us are the particular guides of the gay tribe, sharing our ancient wisdom with you, for we are planetary archivists. But above all—we are Friends. As you evolve, we evolve also. As this next cycle of human history begins, we shall move on and some of you shall take our places, woven into human consciousness, as sign posts for the next cycle of incarnational history. You shall become the guardians of love and work and exploration. You shall join the flow of human sentient Earth energy, as it takes its rightful place in the universal web of consciousness, linking planet to planet, incarnate and discarnate, physical and non-physical. Joyfully. For the soul.

“There are thousands and thousands of us, discarnate Earth Ancestors. We are with you all the time. All that is needed for us to reconnect is your turning toward us in stillness and speaking, your turning toward us in dream and allowing us to come through. Anyone can talk with us. Once, all human beings did it, and one day soon all human beings may be doing it again. For some, it will be easiest to begin by reaching out to someone you have known and loved who has left the physical realm. Talk to them, call on them. Feel their presence, remembering that not everyone will communicate in words. Some will see pictures, some will feel energy, others will simply move from a place of inspiration. Some will sense light, others will be filled with sound or with vibration. All of this is connection. Not words alone, but feeling, love. Turn to us. We are waiting. Trust that the doors between incarnate and discarnate can be opened again. Move through that door from a place of love and wisdom in yourself, and expanded love and wisdom will meet you. Some will see us, some will hear our names. Many will find it easiest to sit quietly with paper and ask for words to be given through you. It may take time to tell the difference between what you write and what is written through you. But we are all one, and it doesn’t matter who said what you write, if it is loving, practical, spiritual and useful.

We are all one, all connected. Let love come through, and it will guide you. Call on us in love. Call on us when you sit alone and in your tribal circles. Call on the scouting ancestors of the East, the flute playing ancestors of the South, your shaman ancestors from the West, and your hunter ancestors from the North. Ancestors, grandfathers of the gay people, call on us in your meditations, and we will be with you to inspire, heal and guide you.

“We are ancient. Our wisdom predates all religions on your world today, although what we taught your physical ancestors remains in the heart of all your faiths. We can step in and out of linear time, although that is not the only time there is. And as your history carries you to the end of this current era and the beginning of the next one, we who have been with you since its beginning make ourselves known to you again. In the past, people turned directly to us for advice. But as information was codified, in story, song, memorized or written down, the connections between incarnate and discarnate humans were largely forgotten. Not lost, but obscured. Not discarded, but misunderstood. People forgot how to make those connections, except through trance or mind-altering substances or accident induced by trauma. People at the end of the Ice Age could all talk to us as easily as you now talk to someone on a phone. Then in a period of less than two thousand years, as the ice withdrew and humans turned their attention to other matters, the close, intimate, constant connections between all incarnate and discarnate human beings changed.

“We did not go away, the Earth Ancestors. But you only opened up to us in trance, in vision, in dream. We sustained unconscious connections as you learned to live in the world in a different way. Till you came to the point in your history when you could both live in a world of technology and communicate with the discarnates. You needed to do this, in order to evolve in consciousness. But now it is time to own your skills and function out of a new wholeness.”

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We are all everyone and everything, change the perception change the experience

Let’s rename Death. Let’s call it Passing.

Let’s reunite with the other side of the veil

And drink the blessings of the Holy Grail.

Challenges of Spiritual Manifestation

An excerpt from Two Flutes Playing by Andrew Ramer……

Very early in its history an asteroid came crashing into the planet Earth, knocking it off its course, causing physical damage, and tilting it on it axis. This event disrupted the inner and outer layers of the planet, creating an instability that in order to balance itself out, ultimately resulted in the birth of what you recognize as life. Earth is still unstable at its core, it still wobbles on its axis—in fact everything that lives upon it wobbles. To some, that is an awful tragedy, the cause of their difficulties, the source of their inability to successfully manifest spiritual intentions. For there are planets that do not wobble on their axes, do not have unstable cores. And certain individuals have lived before on such worlds, or visited them between incarnations. And when they get to Earth they often complain about the way that things are here. It does no good to tell such individuals that they have chosen to incarnate here, that no one forced them to do it. It does no good to remind such individuals that this world is one of the most varied and beautiful in this galaxy. The best that one can say to make life a bit easier is that the very factors that make Earth life difficult also make it challenging, creative and exciting.

If you have lived on a planet with a stable core whose axis does not wobble you will know what I am talking about. On such worlds, spiritual life is not difficult, one does not have to struggle to learn, remember and manifest spiritual intentions on the physical plane. But worlds like that are boring. They may not have war. But try and imagine a world where people whistle the same song for ten thousand years, and styles of clothes never change, and the same chants recited over and over again for millennia echo in the courtyards of their sacred places. That kind of life suits certain individuals. But if you are here, you can be certain that you left such a planet or checked it out and decided against it. For with all its faults, life upon the living, breathing being you call Earth is challenging and infinitely creative. The soul is stretched to its fullest capacities. And ultimately, the great difficulty is more than balanced out by the joy of Earth’s diversity and infinite creative possibilities. In a single Earth year in a single city, more songs can be written and performed than on certain planets in their entire history. Please remember that.

Some people would like to stabilize the core and right the planet’s axis. No matter that the planet enjoys its dance, its tilt. Some people, indeed some cultures, have set themselves up in the business of generating planetary stability. To this endeavor the Earth keeps saying, “No, just learn to dance with me.” It shimmies its surface, it drums at the core. It sings and it chants. Energy lines flow and spiral and weave themselves around the planet’s body in strange ways. Its continents are unsymmetrical. It storms and it rages. Such is its essence. Such is its nature. It shifts and it changes. Too fast for some, too often for many. But in its changing is growth and transformation. And those who have come knew this when they arrived here, emerged here. It is time to remember that. Time to move with it.

This planet is a pearl of great price. Its irregularities are what make it so valuable. So you can resist the Earth’s changing, get angry at it, or you can deepen yourself into its flesh and dance with it. Pain, suffering, are not the result of this instability at the core. Fear of the instability is the cause of those conditions. There are more unstable worlds. Worlds with many suns and moons all tugging at them. Worlds with earthquakes and volcanos in constant motion. Worlds whose surfaces bubble endlessly like oatmeal. The beings there adjust to them eventually, move with them. It may take life after physical life. But they do it. As you shall, on your dancing planet. If your ideal of perfection is changeless, if you imagine an Earth where things stay the same generation after generation—imagine again, for that will never happen. So too, if your goal for yourself is a state of static beingness, you need to change it. All life wobbles on this planet. Wobbles, or dances. As sometimes, when someone bumps into you on the dance floor, you turn to them with anger in your eyes. And sometimes, you turn to them and love stares back, and the bruise on your thigh was all worth it. So with Earth. It smiles, and rubs its hip.

When you understand fire, you no longer stick your hand in it, you contain it and cook with it. When you understand the wobble, you no longer fear it or hate it, you move with it, use it. And sometimes, when your life is a mess, when you’ve been in therapy for 57 years and you’re still falling in love with the wrong person—stop blaming your parents or yourself. Stop and take a deep breath and say to yourself—“I’m living on a world that wobbles on its axis. It has seasons and changes. And sometimes, what seems to be going wrong in my life isn’t really a flaw in my nature. It’s just that I haven’t learned to wobble with the world yet.” The Earth laughs at itself. Can you? Can you feel it laughing?

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Gatekeepers: Gays in The Dagara Tribe

I feel very fortunate to have met Sobonfu Some in 2016 at the Summer Solstice.  I asked her a question about the Dagara tribal attitude to gay people and the room was suddenly engulfed in a huge smile and laugh from the lovely Sobonfu.   “We don’t call them gay” she said, “they are the special ones, they are the gatekeepers, without them nothing can happen.”  The open mouthed shock on the faces of the white middle class audience was a treat.

Sobonfu left her body in 2017.  I had asked her to speak more about the gatekeepers, to come to LGBT spiritual events and give talks, but she insisted that it was not her place to speak on behalf of the gatekeepers, that the elders did not want her to, and said she had already written all that she could share in her book, ‘The Spirit of Intimacy’.

Below is the chapter about the gatekeepers from that book, shared here because this should be found and read by as many people as possible.  I observe I am not the only one to think this, and have included below a couple of Youtube links where the chapter is read out loud.

First, here is a quotation from THE ASCENSION GATEWAYS: Entering the Realm of the Otherworlds — Part 5 by GW Hardin

“Humans are living gateways. For millennia, indigenous peoples have known of these gateways in nature, used in secret ceremonies that gave them access to the otherworlds… There is a reason why humans have the ability to become gateways. We stand at the great threshold, which some would call a great divide, between the vastness of the macrocosmic universe and the breathtaking microcosm of the subatomic underworlds…

“From the ancient ways of the Dagara tribe of Burkina Faso, we learn that these different dimensions had different purposes and different vibrations that Mother Earth herself needed in her own growth, her own Ascension. Without the gatekeepers, Mother Earth, left to herself without the higher vibrations, would have to grow in ways that created violent change. From the ancient teachings, we learn that two gatekeepers are needed for any gateway to open, one on each side of the dimensional opening. Once these gateways were open, not only were energy and vibrational harmonics exchanged, but, depending on the spiritual advancement of the gatekeeper, information, etheric travel, and even in rare occasions, physical travel were possible. The gatekeepers were so revered by the Dagara, that spying on a gatekeeper in ritual was punishable by death.”

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SOBONFU SOME: THE SPIRIT OF INTIMACY

‘African teachings in the ways of relationships’ (2000)

CHAPTER 13

HOMOSEXUALITY: THE GATEKEEPERS

The words gay and lesbian do not exist in the village, but there is the word gatekeeper. Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between the worlds – the world of the village and the world of spirit. Though they do not marry in this world, they say they have partners in other dimensions.

What they do, they don’t like to communicate to anyone. It is their right to keep it to themselves. Everybody in the village respects that because without gatekeepers, there is no access to other worlds. Most people in the West define themselves and others by sexual orientation. This way of looking at gatekeepers will kill the spirit of the gatekeeper. Gatekeepers in the village are able to do their job simply because of strong spiritual connection, and also their ability to direct their sexual energy not to other people but to spirit.

The gatekeepers stand on the threshold of the gender line. They are mediators between the two genders. They make sure there is peace and balance between women and men. If the two genders are in conflict and the whole village is caught in it, the gatekeepers are the ones to bring peace. Gatekeepers do not take sides. They simply act as “the sword of truth and integrity.”

There are many gates that link a village to other worlds. The only people who have access to all these gates are the gatekeepers. I should mention here that there are two different kinds of gatekeeper.

The first group has the ability to guard a limited number of gates to the other world, specifically,those that correspond to the Dagara cosmology – water, earth, fire, minerals, and nature – because they vibrate the energies of those gates.

The second group of gatekeepers, which is our focus here, has the responsibility of overseeing all the gates. They are in contact not only with the elemental gates but also with many others. They have one foot in all the other worlds and other foot here. This is why the vibration of their body is totally different from others. They also have access to other-dimensional entities such as Kontombile, small beings who are very magical and knowledgeable. They are known as leprechauns in the Irish tradition.

Now what would happen if you’re dealing with a culture that doesn’t care about these gateways? What happens is that a gay person cannot do his job. Gatekeepers are left unable to accomplish their purpose. This is one of the most distinguishing factors about gays in the village. Now, as to their sexual orientation, nobody cares about this questions: they care only about their performance as gatekeepers. I figure if they want people in the village to know about their sexuality, they will share it with them. I once heard that one of the reasons why gatekeepers are able to open gates to other dimensions is in the way they use their sexual energy. Their ability to focus their sexual energy is a particular way allows them to open and close different gates.

The life of gay people in the West is in many ways a reaction to pressure from a society that rejects them. This is partly because a culture that has forgotten so much about itself will displace certain groups of people, such as the gay community, from their true roles.

In the village they are not seen as the other. They are not forced to create a separate community in order to survive. People do not put a negative label on them, they are regarded no differently than any other child of the village. They are born gatekeepers, with specific purposes, and are encouraged to fulfill the role they’re born to in the interests of the community.

In the village, gatekeepers have an eye of both genders. They can help the genders to understand each other better than usual in their daily life. That’s why a group of women, for example, might gather and bring a male gatekeeper to help them understand certain village issues. The same things happens on the other side, with a female gatekeeper coming into the middle of the men’s circle.

In the village homosexuality is seen very differently that it is seen in the West, in part because all sexuality is spiritually based. Taken away from its spiritual context, it becomes a source of controversy, and can be exploited. In the village, you never see gatekeepers, or anybody for that matter, displaying their sexuality or commenting on the sexuality of others.

Gatekeepers hold keys to other dimensions. They maintain a certain alignment between the spirit world and the world of the village. Without them, the gates to the other world would be shut.

On the other side of these gates lies the spirit world or other dimensions. Gatekeepers are in constant communication with beings who live there, who have the ability to teach us how to deal with ritual. And gatekeepers have the capacity to take other people to those places.

A gatekeeper’s knowledge is different from the knowledge of mentors and elders. This is because elders do not necessarily have access to all the gateways. The gatekeepers on the other hand, have access to all the dimensions. They can open any gate. Although their knowledge is very broad, elders will call upon gatekeepers to help them open a particular gate or help them better understand what the spirit world is about.

Gays and lesbians in the West are often very spiritual, but they have been taken away from their connection with spirit. My feeling is that without that outlet or that role in the culture, they have to find other ways of defining themselves. This could be one of the reasons why they would want to get married or make themselves look as though they do not have a unique purpose.

I have seen people in the West who have lost their identity try to usurp the role of gatekeeper once they learn about the power it involves. They do this for their own benefit, without really knowing what it means to be a gatekeeper. Being a false gatekeeper is not helpful to anyone. It can only be harmful to the usurper.

These people need to understand that in the village a person doesn’t become a gatekeeper out of a desire for power or even because of sexual orientation. No. Gatekeeping is part of one’s life purpose, announced before birth and developed through rigorous initiatory training to ensure that its power is not misused. A gatekeeper is responsible for a whole village, a whole tribe. Gatekeeping is not a game.

READ ALSO MALIDOMA SOME INTERVIEW FROM 1993 ON THE GATEKEEPERS:

http://www.menweb.org/somegay.htm

URANUS: Queer Planet

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URANUS has shifted sign from fire Aries to earth Taurus. Astrologers are excited, for Uranus is the planet of inspiration, awakening, revolution and liberation. Beginning a new traversal of the zodiac from the first sign Aries since 2010, Uranus has spent 7 years subtly changing our very understanding of who we are. This shift can be observed in the rise of social media to a central place in modern life, with every generation getting on board. We are busy defining ourselves through our online presence – the self has taken the centre of our attention, but is often appearing in very superficial ways – looks, likes, selfies, followers etc. During Uranus’ time in Taurus we can expect that things will get more meaningful. Taurus energy is interested in what we are worth, which can relate to money and status but which has much deeper levels going on too.

Astrologer Sarah Coughlin (on Refinery29) says “Aries compels us to define who we are, Taurus nudges us to consider what we’re worth”. She says Uranus moving into the sign of the Bull for a “nice, long, script-flipping stay.”

Brianne Hogan writes (on Hellogiggles) “Uranus may mean freedom, but Taurus keeps us grounded…… We will experience many changes and shifts in the aforementioned areas for the next eight years, but these changes will also stem from a place of authenticity and practicality. We’re getting honest with ourselves and our future, while also being smart and informed about the choices and changes we make. We can expect the unexpected for the next few years, but we can also count on our ability to handle it.”

Kate Rose (on Yourtango) says “Uranus is nicknamed the great awakener; a force of sudden change and innovation… During the Aries era, we saw ourselves change how we viewed ourselves, our relationships and love in general … now is the time to ground ourselves, our plans and our dreams so that we can grow them with a stable foundation.” Perhaps we might add that due to the surprises that Uranian energy can deliver, those plans and dreams may be in for some radical changes and unanticipated developments.

Yasmin Boland in the Daily Mail says the Uranus move is “triggering a period of worldwide upheaval…. The key here is to work with the energies of change, and not against them. Uranus is the planet that causes us to evolve and pushes us to our limits…. harness the Uranian energy to write an exciting new chapter of your life . . .  Be yourself! Uranus is very much the planet of individuality, so if you want to embrace the changes Uranus is offering, then you need to be true to your highest self — the best part of you…. This is a wonderful time to override any fear you have about change. So tune in to what you really want — the Uranian energy will push you along. There will be disruption, but harness the energy and enjoy the ride.”

Colin Bedell (on QueerCosmos) says this energy shift will “revolutionise our lives….This. Is. Huge. Whether we like it or not, the Universe will make sure we set ourselves free a la Uranus from values that prevent from accessing the deepest, most meaningful experiences of our life. Where and with whom we place our value will forever change. Especially on the personal, relational, political, and international arenas. This Uranus in Taurus transit has the potential to change the entire foundation of our lives.”

 

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URANUS IS THE QUEER PLANET OF THE SOLAR SYSTEM

Corina (Satellite of Love: Queer Horoscopes for May 2018) says:

“There is no planet of being gay, just like there’s no planet linked to heterosexuality, but there is a planet of queerness! Uranus, also the planet of revolutions and inventions, correlates to the part of each of us that needs to go against the grain of social norms. Uranus helps us live more defiantly, more bravely — and with an awareness of how we’re intertwined with everyone else, and how getting more free personally is linked to collective freedom. Strongly Uranian people are at the forefront of all liberation movements and utopian social experiments.”

Corina offers more on Uranus in Taurus as he arrives for the long stay in Taurus, March 2019:

“If Uranus is the tech-savvy queer who writes speculative fiction about a world of cyborgs with endlessly multiplying genders, Taurus is the Goddess-worshipping lesbian who lives in a yurt and gathers wild herbs. Uranus and Taurus are unlikely companions. With Uranus in Taurus, we’re seeing an electrifying change jolting through the parts of our psyches that prefer a slow and easy pace. This can feel jarring, especially at first, but it can also bring unexpected kinds of growth and healing. One thing that is true about Uranus is that it transforms whatever it touches, like a bolt of lightning. Uranus in Taurus will be a time when our relationship to security, our bodies, and the earth will undergo unexpected transformations.”  https://www.autostraddle.com/queer-horoscopes-for-march-2019-considering-wild-new-possibilities/

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URANUS IS THE RULER OF AQUARIUS

This planet and sign represent the queer energies of the cosmos we inhabit:

Uranus is unique as the only planet in our solar system that rotates on its horizontal axis. He literally rolls through the universe, and at an amazing speed – for while the planet is 47 times the size of the earth, a day lasts only 10 earth hours. Mythologically, Uranus was the original male principle, the Sky God, who was castrated by his son Chronos (Saturn), after which his sexual energies were channelled into the creation of art and beauty. The first Uranian moons that were discovered were named after the faeries of Midsummer Nights Dream – Titania, Oberon, Umbriel, Miranda, and Puck.

The mythology of Aquarius is the story of Zeus, king of the gods, falling for shepherd boy Ganymede, transforming himself into an eagle to swoop down and whisk the boy to the heavens where he became cup-bearer to the gods. When the goddess Hera became jealous Ganymede was forced to move on, but Zeus placed him in the sky forever as the water bearer constellation Aquarius. Planet Earth is currently on the zodiacal cusp transitioning from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius. The rise of human rights, gender equality, gay liberation, digital technology are all signs of this shift occurring. By tracing the passage of Uranus, the ruling planet of Aquarius, through the zodiac over the last century we can detect how the r-evolutionary Uranian energy is influencing the progress of lgbtq rights.

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Some astrologers have been pointing out, usually with a frown, that the last time Uranus was traversing Taurus was 1934-1942, which saw the outbreak of horrific worldwide war. But as the energy of Uranus is anti-authoritarian I like to observe that this period saw the rise of resistance to fascism, leading to its downfall a few years later.

The first group campaigning for gay rights, the Mattachine Society, was formed in the USA in1950. Uranus had just began its journey through the sign of the Divine Mother energy, Cancer. This was the moment, I suggest, when some significant number of the gay people of the world started to listen to her call to us to come home to ourselves, to reclaim our place on the planet after so many centuries of it being denied us.

The practical work of legislation relating to gay rights happened in the UK in the 1960s, leading to the Sexual Offences Act of 1967, while Uranus was in Virgo.

The spark moment for gay rights, however, came with the Stonewall Riots, June 28- July 1st, 1969. Uranus had just completed its journey through Virgo four days earlier and was settling into its long stay in Libra, the sign of balance and justice. The rise of gay rights is part of the drive towards balancing the overbearing patriarchal energies of the modern world. The revolutionary Uranian energy burst forth, anger manifesting. The conciliatory, assimilationist, approach of the Mattachine Society was not producing results, but from 1969 onwards gay visibility, activism and pride spread through the western world.

During the incubation years of the HIV virus spreading quietly among gay men, the late 70s, Uranus was in Scorpio, with the first case later recognised as AIDS coming in 1980. While Uranus was in Sagittarius (1981-88) the search for ways to treat HIV was underway, as was the rise of a politicised and self-conscious queer community. Those of us coming out in the 1980s entered a gay scene in which a sense of community, of the need to work together for our very survival, was strong. This community sense was catalysed through adversity – AIDS deaths and political apathy or outright hostility. The Conservative government’s introduction of Clause 28 in 1988, outlawing the ‘promotion’ of homosexuality in education, galvanised us in the UK further. Gay Pride events swelled in numbers and determination. While Uranus was traversing Capricorn (1988-1996) many efforts were made to raise our game, and once our queer planet settled for the long haul through its home sign Aquarius in 1996, things really began to speed up for lgbtq visibility, rights and acceptance.
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Croatian astrologer Branko Zivotin says: “The entry of Uranus in the sign of Aquarius led to an increase in the same sex love and bisexuality among young people. Uranus impact gave full force with a strong radical changes because Uranus is the ruling planet of Aquarius. In 1996 Uranus entered Aquarius and than started an active story about gay population, as something completely normal. Uranus cycle of seven years brought turnarounds among young people to find sexual partners more freely and easily through electronics, the Internet, at parties, to organize gay parties.”

Zivotin also points out that Neptune’s presence in Aquarius from 1998-2011 brought a powerful escapist energy into the picture, indicating a vast expansion of alcohol and drug use, which certainly happened for the gay scene at that time. In fact for gay men, during that period sex became more thoroughly associated with heavy drug use, with associated casualties lost to addiction or overdose. Neptune moved into its home sign Pisces in 2011, which energy is related to both intoxication and spirituality, and is traversing there until 1925. Drug use among gay men is not abating, despite the horror stories of dependency, delirium and death we’ve been hearing for some years now. The message of Neptune in Pisces for gay men is that spirituality is the solution to addiction, and that in fact spirituality can lead us to all the heights and blissful experiences we seek through drug use. Spirituality is about opening the doors to bliss, and keeping them open – while drugs just give us a temporary, ultimately destructive, experience.

In the UK, an equal age of consent was finally enacted in 2001, while Uranus was still in Aquarius. Wikipedia reports that in the USA, “In four landmark rulings between the years 1996 and 2015, the Supreme Court invalidated a state law banning protected class recognition based upon homosexuality, struck down sodomy laws nationwide, struck down Section of the Defense of Marriage Act, and made same-sex marriage legal nationwide.”  The moves to recognise same sex relationships, through civil partnerships and marriage, spread around the world while Uranus was in the emotional, universal, compassionate energy of Pisces 2003-2010.

During the period of Uranus in Aries 2010 – 2018 we saw the Arab Spring, Occupy, and the growth of the women’s movement and blacklivesmatter, and also the huge disparity in rights and conditions for LGBTQ people around the world has come very much into focus, forcing some of us queers to think more deeply about who we are and what is really going on.  The answers are still emerging. In the UK these years have seen a rapid expansion of Radical Faerie activity – it might be said, in response to those who lament the loss of community spirit on the commercial gay scene, that it is amongst the Rad Fae that the possibilities of queer community are currently being explored, and from a positive angle of discovering the magic of who we are, not the defensive energy that catalysed queer community in the 1980s. Radical Faeries remove the capitalist element from the community equation, offering the potential to create real, lasting bonds built on connections made in the heart, made in nature, and made in relationship to a still largely unknown spiritual history of queer people as the magical folk, the shamans, priestesses and healers of the ancient pagan religions. Uranus in Aries also saw the birth of QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL, a 5 day event bringing together a few hundred spiritually inclined queers from the whole LGBTQ spectrum, in a space where we dared to declare not only our love for each other but also our deep love for the planet, for nature, for humanity, and prepare ourselves to emerge as the Healing Tribe within the human race.

As Uranus moves now into the second sign of this new traversal of the zodiac, the energy is coming to bring the mystical awareness of who we are home to the body, home to the planet: Queers as planetary healers, soul doctors, channels of spirit (and also midwives to those leaving the body).

The Uranian revelation waiting to hit the world is that the religious hatred of homo- and trans-sexuality has its roots in the time when first Judaism, then later Christianity, were putting their efforts into eradicating the sex-positive, ecstatic earth-loving, goddess honouring religions of the ancient world. The Old Testament tells of the presence, and destruction, of the Qedesha – the male prostitutes who worked in the goddess temples: the name means ‘The Anointed’ or ‘The Holy Ones’ but was translated in the St James Bible into English as simply ‘sodomites’. A principal rival to Christianity in its first centuries was the worship of Cybele, known in Rome as the Magna Mater (Great Mother), but whose worship goes back at least 1000 years BC in Turkey. She was served by female and trans priests, who were known as the Gallae. They travelled the land conducting ecstatic rituals, and were a prime target of Christian vitriol. After the Roman Empire officially adopted Christianity as its religion, huge efforts were made to wipe out all traces and memory of Cybele worship.

In ancient texts, sodomy is often listed alongside other taboo practices such as divination and astrology because same sex activity was associated with magical practices of the goddess religions that the new domineering energies of patriarchy sought to suppress. Those practices included communal danced rituals where people ‘lost their minds’, became filled with the ecstatic spirit of the gods and so had direct experience of themselves as part of an interconnected multiverse of many layers. The suppression of the feminine impulse, of the homo-erotic impulse and of ecstatic, communal celebration all went hand in hand. It took until the rise of Protestantism in the 1500s and the Calvinist/Puritan fundamentalism of the 1600s for these powerful forces to be brought fully under patriarchal control. Instead of engaging in direct ecstatic connection with the spirit world, people were now supposed to simply ‘have faith’ and bow to the wisdom of the priestly class.  From that time on, European explorers, finding sodomy, cross-dressing, unrestricted gender roles, communal ecstatic rituals and same sex-loving magical workers on every other continent of the world, set out to spread their anti-joy, anti-love, anti-freedom views far and wide.

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The planet Uranus was discovered in 1781, a time of revolution and upheaval. Although we think of this as the peak of the period known as the Western Enlightenment, when rational thought became dominant, this was the time of the birth of the Romantic period in culture, when celebration of nature, art, beauty and imagination came forward in a reaction against the rational drive. Romanticism included a mistrust of organised religions, and a longing for the Arcadian days when Pan the Horned God ran free in the forests and the Great Mother was honoured, so we might claim it as a Uranian manifestation.

Certainly the discovery of Uranus must have been in the mind of 19th century homosexual pioneers Edward Carpenter of the UK and Karl Ulrichs of Germany. They both inclined to use the word URANIAN to describe same sex-attracted individuals, relating the name to the goddess Aphrodite Urania, the patron of spiritual, same-sex love. These early pioneers saw great possibilities in the emancipation of the homosexual and transsexual spirit. Carpenter’s works include 1908’s ‘The Intermediate Sex’ in which he says, “The Uranian people may be destined to form the advance guard of that great movement which will one day transform the common life by substituting the bond of personal affection and compassion for the monetary, legal and other external ties which now control and confine society”. In ‘Intermediate Types Among Primitive Folk’, 1911, he identifies roles that many cultures reserve for homo- or transsexual people: ‘the priest, medicine-man or shaman, the prophet and the diviner, the artist and craftsperson and the true scientist, successor to the tribal observer of the stars and seasons, medicine and the herbs’.

The only African tribe to have kept its ancient wisdom about the role of gay and trans people is the Dagara Tribe of Burkino Faso. Malidoma and Sobonfu Some were two teachers that the tribe sent to the west – and both shared the message that gay men are gatekeepers (and lesbians witches), with a specific role that involves energy points on the physical planet. By cutting gay people off from this knowledge and defining us merely by our sexual expression, the patriarchal culture has effectively castrated us from our power, and our purpose, which is to serve the Great Mother, manifest as the planet and as the animals, plants and people on it.

Astrologer Sarah Varcas points out that Uranus’ arrival in the first earth sign of the zodiac will remind us that the earth is a living goddess, our Great Mother, who is likely to push back like never before as humans continue to abuse and destroy her. To attempt to fix our mistakes is not enough, it is the very way that we think as a species that needs to evolve. She says that “By honoring an enduring commitment to caring for Our Mother and all her children of every form we dismantle, piece by piece, the patriarchal mind-set that equates aggression and domination with power, and love, compassion and generosity with weakness.”

Queers are the children of Uranus, here to wake up to our power, remember our hidden history and claim our r-evolutionary part in human destiny. While Uranus is in Taurus, the sign of the Goddess Venus, we are going to get much more in touch with what we are capable of, what we are here to do, and who we really are.

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THE ECSTATIC RITES OF SPRING

Equinox is the turning point – the inward pull of the Winter energies gives way to the growing, vital, impulse of the rising Spring. We can see in nature just how dramatic this shift is, and as humans we can learn from nature – to bring human minds, hearts and bodies in tune with the seasonal shift the ancient pagan religions used to make energetic, ecstatic Spring celebrations, which shook people out of the slumber of winter. Ecstasy was understood as a state of divine possession – where, through dance, intoxication, sex and even pain, celebrants got “out of their minds” to experience themselves as part of the Great Mystery, the dance of the gods and spirits.

Ecstatic wisdom is lacking in modern society. The benefits of transcendental journeys are appreciated by few, and rarely included in the discussion about and search for mental health and general well-being. But the simple thing is – if we humans don’t get to spend time ‘out of our heads’, we get stuck in them. Mental illness is the result. The need for transcendence is in-built in us, so many people end up seeking it unconsciously – even compulsively – leading so easily to drug, alcohol and sexual addictions, which result, I would say, because of a lack of a viable spiritual/mystical framework within which to hold the experience. Modern rational thought has released us from the chains of religion, but left us in freefall as individuals unaware of the intrinsic unity of life that is manifesting through us.

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In ancient Greece and Rome the first weeks of Spring saw the wild and ecstatic rituals of Dionysus/Bacchus and of the Great Mother Cybele and her consort Attis. Much of what we know about these rituals comes from outraged and disturbed Apollonian Greeks (who sought to bring order in the universe above all things) and appalled early Christian writers (who saw the body and sex as sinful). Both Dionysus and Attis are gender-fluid, queer characters, whose worship was serious competition to Christianity until around the 4th century CE. Dionysus and Attis, like Jesus, were ‘divine children’ born of the union of a deity and a human. Both have death and resurrection stories as part of their mythology, both were seen as ‘saviours’.

At the turn of the first millennium death, resurrection and salvation were the big theme in religious circles. A process was underway in which the secret sacraments of the Mystery Schools were becoming ‘solidified’ in religious form – and increasingly taken literally, seen as something happening externally, instead of understood as mystical symbolism teaching about the pathway of the soul through incarnation. One of the oldest Mystery Schools was that of Cybele, the Great Mother, that had a long and respected history in the Turkish area of Phrygia in Anatolia. The Greeks equated Cybele with Rhea, the Mother of the King of the Gods, Zeus, and the Romans held her power in such awe that, when threatened with defeat in the Punic Wars against Hannibal of Carthage, they consulted ancient Cybelline oracles and followed their guidance to invite the Great Mother to become Rome’s official deity. A black meteor stone was brought from Phrygia to Rome with great fanfare and a temple inaugurated.

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The arrival of Cybelline worship in Greece, around the 6th century BCE, and in Rome from 200 BCE, was controversial for some. Cybele’s worship centred on the story of her lover Attis, who castrated himself to avoid marriage to a human woman. (The castration botched, Attis died – violets sprang from his blood – the Goddess bathed his testicles in holy water, wrapped them in his clothes and buried them. In the most ancient legends he was reborn as her daughter. In Christian times his followers depicted him as a Christ-like god surrounded by stars in heaven). The wild and effeminate looks and behaviours, the brazen sexuality and wild rituals of the wandering Gallae priests of Cybele were shocking to many. Their Spring rituals involved frenzied dancing, flagellation and self-mutilation in order to achieve ecstatic states of union with their beloved deities, Cybele and Attis. To be like Attis, and become closer to Cybele, at the peak of the wild Spring rituals, on the Day of Blood (March 24th), initiates, while in a frenzied state, would castrate themselves. They would then run through the city and throw the testes at random into somebody’s house – that person then became responsible for taking care of the new priestess. This continues a tradition, by that time many thousands of years old, in which transgender priests were seen as the holy servants of the Goddess. These priests are mentioned in the Old Testament – named the Qedesha, this word was translated in the King James Bible as ‘sodomites’ (removing all link to the sacred), and in modern Bibles is usually put as ‘male shrine prostitutes’ – but the original meaning was actually ‘The Anointed Ones’, or ‘The Holy Ones’. Jesus speaks of eunuchs in the Gospel of Matthew, saying that some are born that way, some are made so by others, but others choose to be so, ‘for the sake of the kingdom of heaven’. Jesus also points out that only some will understand this.

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Bacchanalian rituals celebrating the start of Spring were similarly wild and orgiastic. Dionysus to the Greeks and Bacchus to the Romans, the rituals of this young transgendered god were a highlight of the ancient year. Dionysus was the child of Zeus and a human woman, Semele. The Goddess Hera was so jealous of him that she had the Titans rip him apart. But Rhea (Cybele) brought him back to life. His rituals, held in the forests, were popular, but notorious for their effect on women, who would become sexually wild and abandoned under his influence. Through imbibing his precious gift to humanity, wine, people became possessed by the god and experienced his direct presence amongst them.

The Spring rituals were a time when order gave way to ecstasy and chaos for a while. The echoes today are the festivals of Purim in Judaism and Mardi Gras in Catholic countries, where cross-dressing features strongly. By embracing the ecstatic, people got some relief from the pressures and trials of regular life, received boosts from the deities to shake off the winter sluggishness and attune to the surging spirit of Spring.

In northern Europe, where the Spring is slower to take hold, the ecstatic peak of the year was (and for some of us IS) celebrated at Beltane, May 1st, with comparable rituals of raising energies through music, dance and sex. Fire is central to the Beltane rituals, burning away of the old and bringing heat and passion to engage the new season. The deities of Beltane are the Goddess and the Green Man, also the Horned God Cernunnos, a northern European version of Pan, another forest deity like Dionysus, also associated with free sexual expression of all kinds.

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A prime difference between the emerging new religion and the old pagan faiths was the attitude to the body and sexuality. The Christian church sought to limit, control, contain and suppress the sexual urge. The persecution of homosexual and transexual people and behaviours began as a direct part of the suppression of pagan practices. Anal sex between men, lascivious wild women, orgiastic rituals were all seen as threats to the emerging order of patriarchal control. Spring rituals had to go, as part of the destruction of even the memory of the holiness to be found through same sex eroticism and gender-fluidity.

The principle rivals to the emerging Christ figure were holy queer beings – Dionysus, god of wine and ecstasy, and Attis, gender shifting son/daughter (and lover) of the primordial Goddess. But of course the Christ story is queer also – he was accompanied by a circle of male disciples, one of whom is singled out in the Gospel of John as the ‘disciple whom Jesus loved’, he was taught about love and ecstasy by the sacred sexworker Mary Magdalene, and Mark tells us that in the Garden of Gethsemane he was met by a partially dressed young man carrying water (the symbol of Aquarius, in a culture where women did that work) who fled, losing his cloth, once the guards came. But this queerness is denied and still largely unclaimed even by gay Christians.

Of course the Jesus story is queer. The very roots of religion come from a long tradition of genderfluidity and knowledge of the self through same sex love, whether expressed sexually or not. The suppression of the feminine, the ecstatic and the queer have all gone hand in hand in a patriarchal drive to control and bring order to life’s chaotic energies.

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The overall culture will take a long time to shift, but in the 21st century shift is happening. Individually we can make the internal changes we need to bring ourselves into alignment with the cycles and transitions of nature and the cosmos by letting go of all belief in our isolation, by entering into a relationship with the spirit that flow through us and all things and escaping the solitude of the mind-bound egoic sense of self.

Giving ourselves some ecstatic release helps to shift the body and mind into the new season and to new levels of understanding. Dancing, sex, even intoxicants can help. Every trip into ecstasy is an invitation to transformation. Taken with awareness, those trips can helpfully accelerate our evolution, our journey to self knowledge and discovery.

HAIL DIONYSUS!  HAIL PAN!

HAIL CERNUNNOS!  HAIL CYBELE!

BELTANE IS COMING!

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