Desire, Disease and Death

DESIRE, DISEASE AND DEATH

are part of the DIVINE CREATION PLAN

We have to learn to embrace them

to become the DIVINE HUMAN

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Desire was once a Goddess

honoured as Aphrodite, Diana, Venus…

Desire was also a God

symbolised in the ithyphalllic penis.

This was because in the days before the Cross

people knew that desire dissolves

the boundaries between us

and can lift us into the heavenly dimensions,

it all comes down to setting the intention

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Disease

THE TEACHER

THE DOOR

Yes there is disease on the Earth

It pushes us to further scientific research,

it leads us to discover ways to heal

it points to the door of discovery

if we search for what’s really real

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Death

is the greatest, fastest teacher

when it comes to facing THAT dilemma…

Disease can be a teacher

it can also take us home.

Death is inevitable

but it seems that faith in the afterlife

that confidence in reincarnation

was lost in the European world

some time ago in ancient Rome.

Ancient peoples had their rites of death

built elaborate burial tombs,

Tibet and Egypt left us books of the dead, maps of the way home.

Julius Caesar remarked how unafraid of dying the painted British tribes were:

They were confident of returning to the faerie lands,

which made them the fiercest opponents in battle

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In complicated, confusing times

as ancient certainties fell away,

Christianity offered firm reassurance

“the after life will be ok

if you do what you’re told

if you do what we say”

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SO WHAT IS DEATH?

It’s been said Death is a REVOLVING DOOR

When modern guru Maharishi died,

at his last breath his eyes opened wide

he declared with a huge great smile

“THERE IS SO MUCH MORE!”

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Men Loving Men

Men have always enjoyed erotic encounters with men

on heaths, in woods, on beaches, in parks, cottages, saunas and secret sex dens

this has been going on since humans walked the earth –

communing with Pan, Eros, Priapus, Dionysus,

we recall we came seeking ecstasy, union, bliss

when we chose to undertake birth

into human form, into bodies made for divinity –

there’s few things more sacred than naked bodies in proximity.

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Taboos against our lovemaking, built up over centuries

mean we less likely today to realise the power we are creating

with our hands, with our bodies, with our hearts and souls:

power to heal, power to reveal, power to become whole.

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Men loving men in body and heart

is an ancient erotic holy art.

And even today, in our age of profanity

with a gay world suffering from drug use and vanity,

men meeting men is a radical act, a rite of friendship, brotherhood, humanity

sharing pleasure and joy, not looking for trouble, not looking to fight

reclaiming the act of men loving men as a simple human right.

We Are the Old Ones

Human beings how lucky we are

to be on this earth around this star

in a solar system divinely designed to keep us blind

to the rest of the cosmos and life on other worlds –

until we are ready to accept what’s there to find;

designed to keep us blind, as we evolve the human mind

beyond conflict to a place compassionate and kind,

and weave a planetary story that prepares us to take our place

in the universal family as the Divine Human Race.

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Long ago there were humans who saw through it all

felt the Presence of Spirit and answered its call;

mind was uncluttered, there had been no Fall:

but the darkness was coming, they knew memories would fail

so they built great stone monuments that would ever prevail,

that would withstand the Elements, the storms and the gales

and keep their Great Secrets, their Holy Grail

until a time in the future when the Old Ways would once again rise –

after centuries in which magic had been ridiculed, her practitioners despised –

the Old Ways returning, the Great Wheel moving on,

a brand new humanity, singing new songs.

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Life brings us to CRISIS POINTS

because we are here to HEAL

our wounds of disconnection

from the one thing that’s really real.

Life hits us with emotions

Because we’re here to FEEL

the nice stuff and the tough stuff

to build a powerful psychic field

that can channel higher vibrations

in the service of a RENEWED CREATION.

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Life is sensual, erotic,

with a quiet mind there is little but delight,

body and heart connect us to spirit

but the mind can trap us in fright, fight and flight.

The Human Soul seeks to know

its greatest reach, its brightest show,

to soar through the Universe

and know itself at home on the Earth

to feel its Freedom and realise its Bliss –

to dance in Love and know the Spirit’s kiss. 

Pleasure is a Goddess, the Ancients knew

Pleasure dissolves the boundaries between Me and You.

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Once the Peoples of Europe danced with Dionysus

Saw Love as a Goddess and Pleasure as her Worship

Knew that mysteries of Sex, Gender and Intoxication

were routes to Holy Transcendence, Ecstasy, Elation.

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The Peoples of Europe once spoke with the Trees

Danced and Made Love in Sacred Groves.

The Armies of the Cross destroyed all these

and nowadays few people know

the Dryads, the Sprites of Water and Fire

the Spirits in the Breeze.

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The People in Europe once danced around Fires

Communed, told stories and saw pictures in the flames:

This healed Souls and brought Wonderment, Joy and Grace

Brought touch with the deep nature of the Human Race.

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The Peoples of Europe once built Stone Circles

Aligned to the Stars and the Sun,

They honoured the Old Ones and danced with Faerie

and this Journey we’re still on was begun.

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The Old People of Europe danced with the Goddess

calling her Diana, Aphrodite, Venus, Danu, Sulis, Cybele, Freya, Frigga…

Her Temples were Ancient and Holy

but the Christians named her the Devil

and attempted to wipe out Her worship and memory

by murdering her priestesses, desecrating her holy places

and burning heretics, sodomites and witches.

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The Old People of Europe were Nature folk

In Nature which they met Divine Presence

But the Swords of the Cross came to impose another way

The Goddess retreated:

She permitted their wars, their corrupt ways

Permitted separation from Her bosom

Until the human journey to Selfhood is completed

until the final days of HISstory

and the Triumphant Coming of Hers.

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We ARE the OLD ONES, We never went away

As we remember the soul’s truth, we reconnect to the Way

The Cycles of Eternity are bringing us Home

To a World full of Wonder and Light

We each have within us the Power and the Glory

We can bring this world out of its long dark night.

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ONENESS

The Universe Is.

Created by Oneness.

Oneness becomes All That Is

It becomes spirit, soul, mind, life.

Oneness incarnates in individual living beings

each having their own experience,

each experience also that of the Oneness.

On most worlds beings never lose touch with the Oneness,

with the Source Of Life, Awareness and Love inside themselves.

Only certain worlds and some souls undertake the journey of separation,

on planets where the innate connection to Source is dropped

– for a while – and perhaps only by one species –

giving rise to a journey of creativity, emotion, suffering and exaltation

in a paradigm of binaries, polarities and mystery,

where the search for reunification with Source becomes the planetary history

and the breaking of binaries becomes part of the journey to glory.

On the Earth while individuated we experience separation

but within us we carry the ability to know ourselves as the Oneness,

to know our existence is the Eternal Infinite Compassionate Consciousness:

being That we are not created or destroyed,

We Are.

Whatever form our journey, whatever we experience

The Oneness is holding us, loving us, enjoying us.

It never loses faith, only our minds can do that

Tell the mind it is safe, and find the peace it can generate.

In Two Flutes Playing (by Andrew Ramer) the earthly phenomenon of separation is depicted like this…

Earth is still unstable at its core, it still wobbles on its axis—in fact everything that lives upon it wobbles. To some, that is an awful tragedy, the cause of their difficulties, the source of their inability to successfully manifest spiritual intentions. For there are planets that do not wobble on their axes, do not have unstable cores. And certain individuals have lived before on such worlds, or visited them between incarnations. And when they get to Earth they often complain about the way that things are here. It does no good to tell such individuals that they have chosen to incarnate here, that no one forced them to do it. It does no good to remind such individuals that this world is one of the most varied and beautiful in this galaxy. The best that one can say to make life a bit easier is that the very factors that make Earth life difficult also make it challenging, creative and exciting.

If you have lived on a planet with a stable core whose axis does not wobble you will know what I am talking about. On such worlds, spiritual life is not difficult, one does not have to struggle to learn, remember and manifest spiritual intentions on the physical plane. But worlds like that are boring. They may not have war. But try and imagine a world where people whistle the same song for ten thousand years, and styles of clothes never change, and the same chants recited over and over again for millennia echo in the courtyards of their sacred places. That kind of life suits certain individuals. But if you are here, you can be certain that you left such a planet or checked it out and decided against it. For with all its faults, life upon the living, breathing being you call Earth is challenging and infinitely creative. The soul is stretched to its fullest capacities. And ultimately, the great difficulty is more than balanced out by the joy of Earth’s diversity and infinite creative possibilities. In a single Earth year in a single city, more songs can be written and performed than on certain planets in their entire history. Please remember that.”

On the Earth Humanity is on a journey to discover Oneness, but the journey is at the same time a return to Home, a remembrance. We can each contribute greatly to the next stages of this journey by offering, dedicating our lives as a divine service.

The conscious offering of our individual experiences to the overall fulfilment of the journey of the Oneness on this planet connects us to the infinite energy and potential of the universe, gives us the tools to make the changes we require and seek in our lives, and increases the harmonious potential in all our interactions with other beings, whom we now recognise and respect as utterly equal manifestations of the Oneness.

The recognition and remembrance that all life is the same as us, is what we are, including animal, vegetable and even mineral, leads us to a path of growth, to a form of love that embraces all beings and all existence. This movement out of darkness (ie pain and ignorance) and into light (peace and joy) is fuelled by our love and dedication. Everything we do can be filled with love, joy and creative energy – it’s as simple as directing the mind to make it so, and casting out all mental energy that suggests life is anything other than the perfect dance of the Divine Holy Spirit in Form. Think this is hard? That’s why humans have deities, to anchor us into the higher purpose. That’s why we have meditation, to build mental muscle. That’s why we religions teach compassion, to treat other as self, to love and to be kind, for each one of us is holy in our own right.

The Hindus speak of Sat – Existence/Life, Chit – Consciousness/Awareness, Ananda – Bliss/Love. This is describing the core sacred nature within us, which is also the doorway to the multi-dimensional reality, the multiverse of light and serenity. The more we find this inner place of simple, sweet BEING – this place which needs no gendered godhead, no religion or rules, no action or debate – the more at home in the universe we can know and feel ourselves to be, and so the more enthusiastically we can embrace the game of life on a planet with a built in wobble. For Fear is the stalker on this world of separation and duality, preventing our happiness, our joy, our light from blooming forth, fear is the mind killer and the emotion strangler too. The antidote to fear is to know and feel the love of Oneness, in ourselves and with others – as we find this out and live this truth, ultimately we will make this world a happier place.

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A rather more celebratory description of life on worlds without wobble, where the Oneness is not forgotten, and the experience of individuation does not lead to extremes of suffering and bliss here from Sri Aurobindo’s Savitri (Book 2 “The Book of the Traveller of the Worlds” Canto 9, ‘The Paradise of the Life-Gods’)….

The shining Edens of the vital gods…

All things were perfect there that flower in Time:

Beauty was there creation’s native mould,

Peace was a thrilled voluptuous purity.

There Love fulfilled her gold and roseate dreams

And Strength her crowned and mighty reveries;

Desire climbed up, a swift omnipotent flame,

And Pleasure had the stature of the gods;

Dreams walked along the highways to the stars;

Sweet common things turned into miracles:

Overtaken by the spirit’s sudden spell,

Smitten by a divine passions’s alchemy,

Pain’s self completed transformed to potent joy

Curing the antithesis twixt heaven and hell.

All life’s high visions are embodied there….”

We can use this vision to create a new dance of Shiva,

to visualise a new world to come, but also remember:

We came to the Earth for a different experience,

one with filled with danger, challenge but huge potential

for acts of love, compassion, creativity and sheer delight.

The Earth wobbles.

We will never now ideal harmony here

but we can recognise that in the chaos and mystery

there is divine purpose, pattern and presence

there is joy to be had, love to relish

and new experience ours to create

as we give birth to a divine human race.

Sir George Trevelyan 1906-1966

“Man can decide to throw off the fetters of his own self-bound egoistic thinking, which, when taken in mass, makes the stuff of cruder materialism. As each individual allows the rock to split and rises to the incorruptible, the fabric of the old will change and perforce a new world will appear, consecrated to glory, unity and all-encompassing Oneness.” Sir George Trevelyan

The 7 Headed Beast

Ever growing numbers of people in the world
are understanding and feeling that life is a unity:
a cosmic dance of matter, mind, emotion and spirit,
a journey of the soul with divinity the goal…
…but they don’t work in the governments
and they don’t work in the media,
they don’t work in business
… and they rarely show up in churches…
they don’t show their heads in academia or the law
and there’s no sign of them in the military …
no wonder our modern world is ever so poor
in wisdom, equality and peace
for the system in which we operate
is a seven headed, rapacious, violent beast
– destroying the earth –
as it has destroyed so many of her creatures,
pillaged and ravaged her cultures,
a 7 headed beast whose reign of terror will one day cease.
Rising from the core of who we are
the innate presence of oneness, wonder and bliss
the knowledge that life is a journey to Self
to the Love within that is our true wealth.
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Acknowledging difference –
it’s through diversity we realise unity –
hearing the call across the world
to healing and community.
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COVID 19:
When we realise it’s not simply a virus
Not spread through drops in the air,
But a manifestation of our collective longing
To come home to Who We Really Are,
Of the longing in our souls for us to evolve
beyond confusion, separation and despair…
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What a joyful celebration that will be,
Crown chakras opened to let in Infinity
Life and death united as two sides of one coin
And the whole world coming to see
That I Am Another You
And You Are Another Me

UNION

Sex is an act of worship
Love is a game of mirrors…
The ultimate destiny is union
Of the genders we find within us.

When we see ‘other’
We engage fear and distance
To see all as ‘sisterbrother’
Is to lose our own resistance.

The way to becoming one united conscious species,
Involves dissolving the many delusions
Around gender, sexuality and race
That the Caucasian patriarchy have so firmly put in place.

I am me, you are you
In essence the same
Nothing more is true.

We came here to help each other through
The Shift of the Ages
The 5th dimensional Awakening:
Old paradigms are shaking
And the New World will come through.

Living Without Fear of the Future

The mental attitudes and beliefs we have in place in the mind frame and colour our experience of life, and in fact are calling those experiences to us.  This is what the Law of Attraction is all about – our mental energies emit frequencies which draw similar frequencies to them, good or bad, simply based on what we are putting our deep thought and faith into.

Therefore every now and again it pays dividends to look at the core beliefs we have running in our subconscious minds.  If we don’t do this we risk ‘old programmes’ running the show of our lives today.  Especially during times of rapid change in life circumstances, or big shifts in our emotional lives, it is a good time to go within and check that we have positive core beliefs operating that support our well being and are calling good experiences into our lives.

The future is not written.  However, our imagination is often busy writing it rather than experiencing the current moment.  This is, I suggest, usually caused by an emotional reaction to a notion of something in the future arising in our stream of thought, a reaction which is actually a suppressed emotion from the past trying to make itself known by preventing us experiencing the present.  If we imagine our happiness lies in the future we are denying the possibility of it existing here and how, and also setting ourselves up for a fall if that future arrives but doesn’t deliver what we expected.  But when we imagine a dark future of trouble, issues and angst we are being influenced by something in our past that we haven’t healed yet – we can remind ourselves when we spot this happening that the future is not written, is in fact ours to create – that in fact we are invoking a future all the time through our mental and emotional bodies – so envisioning dark futures is not a great idea (such thoughts also produce immediate chemical and emotional reactions in our bodies as if the dark thing were happening right now) – but of course often it can be hard not to imagine a dark future because we tend to base our assumptions about what is to come on our experience of the past.  We tend to believe in this pattern –

EXPERIENCE – CONCEIVE – CREATE

but the universe is running on this pattern, that, when engaged consciously, will bring us what we actually want in life

CONCEIVE – CREATE -EXPERIENCE

Ie to change an experience that you do not want or like, change the belief that conjured it into being, choose a different thoughtform that will lead you towards what you do want.   The fullest explanation of this  can be found in the series of Conversations with God books by Neale Donald Walsch.

We can surrender all our thoughts, fears and expectations about the future, release them from our energy field – perhaps to the Dark Goddess or the Void or our deity of choice –  simply refuse to believe in them – and please note we do not need to judge them for existing, they are what they are, but we do not have to listen to them nor hold on to them.  We can accept that the future is in the hand of the Universe, of the Divine, of Creation… and it works wonders to also believe that the Universe/Divine/Creation is poised at every moment to move into alignment on the many levels of Being that exist, to bring you into a state of bliss filled connection with yourself, with the people around you, with nature – BECAUSE IN FACT IT IS!  The cosmic consciousness is always on the verge of union, or shifting like night and day in and out of unity – we humans are the meeting points of the maya/illusion of separation/suffering with the yoga/union of joyful, playful. loving oneness.  In our minds we create pathways to unity or crisis, all the time – the law of attraction is always in play, trying to manifest the vibrations emanating from our mental frequencies, and the emotionally charged beliefs we put behind them.

Once we realise we may be creating potential unhappiness in our own future, simply by imagining it there, and get that we actually have some power over that – then it is time to practise the art of surrender to the higher self.  The higher self  can absolutely handle the future, maybe even has it planned out already – the higher self (perhaps approached through a deity) is always creating pathways to a future of unity, love and concord.  We can give all our hopes, fears, dreams about the future to the higher self – yes tell it what you DO want, be clear on the positives, but then stop thinking about them and live in the now and at the same time surrender to it, and invite it to transform, every single dark thought that arises in the imagination about the future.  There is really no need to hold anything about the future in the emotional field except hope, faith and trust!

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For all of us born in the 20th century it’s likely we were indoctrinated from birth into believing in ourselves as separate beings, told that our self-awareness that is the product of our physical form, whose thoughts are powerless, but who have to compete and struggle to make our way in the world.  It’s fairly unlikely we grow into adulthood believing and feeling we are held, from the inside, by the all-loving, generous source of creation, who gives their own precious, divine gift of self awareness to us, that we might evolve into divinely conscious beings in our own right. This is not what we generally were told, except in some religious versions, sometimes very twisted ones. 

Good religion exists too of course, and during the 20th century there have been many teachers and prophets both within and outside established faiths who have brought forth the wisdom of unity and love.  The established forces of governments, academia, global corporations, finance – the military-industrial complex that runs the world at the moment holds on tightly to a materialistic paradigm that serves it well, but does not serve the planet nor her inhabitants, that does not connect us to the All-Being.

The Core Beliefs that have infected the world with viral poison and are holding back the evolution of our species are

THAT WE ARE ALL SEPARATE BEINGS

THAT THE BODY AND SEXUALITY ARE ANYTHING LESS THAN DIVINE COSMIC VEHICLES FOR OUR CONSCIOUSNESS

THAT ALL FORMS OF LOVE ARE NOT EQUAL

THAT LIFE IS A  RANDOM ACCIDENT IN A HEARTLESS UNIVERSE

As we each individually work out the truth about these things for ourselves – and it seems to me a lot of people have already done so – the collective consciousness shifts and the great institutions that run our lives will either adapt or collapse.

Shifting to or strengthening our own personal core beliefs to an

ACCEPTANCE OF UNITY OF ALL LIFE AND EXISTENCE

THAT THE BODY AND SEXUALITY ARE SACRED

AND SO ARE ALL FORMS OF LOVE

THAT LIFE IS AN ETERNAL JOURNEY, ON WHICH WE ARE DESTINED TO AWAKEN TO COSMIC BLISS

and by making sure that all other beliefs we are permitting in our mind space are in accord with these life-enhancing, light-bringing, core values, we rapidly accelerate our individual contribution to the holistic and healthy evolution of the whole.  We bring wellness into our own lives, as our souls relax and our hearts, minds and spirits expand.

With these core beliefs in place, the future becomes a much less frightening place.

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CORE BELIEFS MATTER.

ENERGY FOLLOWS THOUGHT.

CONCEIVE. CREATE. EXPERIENCE.

The Emotional Waters of Life

THE EMOTIONAL PLANE OF REALITY IS AS VAST AND MYSTERIOUS AS THE PHYSICAL.

The elemental model of our human nature teaches us to give attention to, and to seek balance between, four aspects of our being. The four elements ‘manifest’ in us as body (earth), mind (air), spirit (fire) and emotion (water).

We live in confusing times. The predominant mainstream culture preaches a scientific, materialist, rational take on the world, with spiritual and religious perspectives sidelined. The internet reveals that many people the world over are involved in the alternative subculture of mystical, new age, astrological exploration. Amidst the melee of voices and offerings, it stands out to me that the physical, mental and spiritual aspects of being are widely explored and discussed but the emotional level of existence is under appreciated and poorly understood. I see people who have pursued and found rewards from spirituality and self-development but who do not appreciate the very real, visceral, effect of the ever shifting waters of the emotional field of reality and who do not seem to get that the Goddess has given us a great big barometer to use in order to understand the emotional plane – the Moon.

Through pagan practices we can shift ourselves away from the soul-denying mainstream culture and from the often body-denying, sex and pleasure-phobic religions, towards a reconnection with the natural world and the eternal cycles of the cosmos, We can re-engage ourselves physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally with the Creation of which we are both a product and an integral part. We are not separate from it, but our minds have in general been so conditioned to believe that we are isolated individuals, that separation is all we usually experience.  Through the emotional body we can have the most direct experience of interconnectedness.

Through understanding the nature of the element of water we can gain insight into the emotional reality. The planet’s oceans and tides are under the influence of the Moon and so it is with the emotional body. At Full Moon emotions are strong and demand expression, at Dark Moon there is a strong inward pull, and we can feel emotionally, and energetically, low. When the emotions are heavy or very inward, it reduces the amount of physical energy available to us. While the Moon is waning there is a gradual inward shift, then an outward move again after the New Moon.

The Moon moves each month through the 12 signs of the zodiac, reflecting back to us the various aspects of being as it does so. Spending 2.5 days in each sign, the Moon – and the emotional field – moves through a repeating pattern of FIRE – EARTH – AIR – WATER. If we follow the path of the moon in our awareness, eg using a moon diary to know in which sign the moon is each day, and to deepen our knowledge of the qualities associated with that sign and its element, we will soon get to notice the repeating patterns in our own energy bodies.

Fire and Air Moons are more expansive and outgoing than Earth and Water Moons, for example. Fire Moons can get us energised, creative and active, Water Moons often call us to rest, dream and take care of ourselves, they give us chance to deepen relationships and also to release old or stuck emotions from our energy field. Earth moons are very focussed and practical in their spirit, while Air Moons can call us to share our feelings, our hopes and visions.

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The key to happiness or suffering about this ebb and flow of the emotional field lies in the mind. The stories we tell ourselves in our head are heard by the subconscious, which then feeds back an emotional reaction. If we frame our experiences in dark tales of suffering and self-judgement we create more dark feelings in our own being. Of course the inner being knows that we are in reality not these dark tales, it knows we are in fact bright light and divine love and nothing else, so it is also holding on in there and waiting for us to turn our thoughts around and bring ourselves into alignment and inner harmony.

Attuning to the Pagan Wheel of the Year and knowledge of the Moon and other cosmic cycles re-integrates us into the divine plan, gives us the tools to drop the fear that the belief in separation engenders in our subconscious. Astrology as a practice is not necessarily about knowing what’s coming in the future – though once we have an understanding of the powerful underlying elemental energies that are constantly influencing our feelings we can hope to navigate life’s seas more effectively and joyfully – it exists to help us know our part in the vast unified play of consciousness, it helps us explore archetypal energies, the interrelation of physical, emotional, spiritual and mental energies, revealing that we are all reflections of each other and of the cosmos, weaving patterns in our lives just as the planets dance through the constellations in the sky.

The most direct way to know and experience ourselves as an interconnected being, part of a collective consciousness, is through our feelings, through the emotional body. It helps to take on board that on all levels of reality – physical, spiritual, mental and emotional – we are partakers of a greater unity. Our body-minds are equipped not simply to know ourselves as individuals, but as the Whole also, if we choose to access that part of our nature. Psychedelic and sacred medicinal drugs can be a fast route to understanding this, but applying that knowledge practically and effectively in our lives requires dedication and self-awareness on our part. The Pagan Path attunes us to the greater whole and gives us the tools to do this in very practical ways.

A great challenge on the spiritual path is to become the master of our own emotional body. Energetic waves – energy in motion – rise and fall, hitting our consciousness, threatening our balance and equanimity, taking us on emotional roller coasters. The very linear focus of many spiritual paths tell us we should be aiming for a goal of enlightenment and awareness that is usually presented as a static state. But we do not live on a stable, static planet – it wobbles on its axis – and we should not expect our emotions, or our lives, to be any different. Water is the element of emotion, and the amount of water vs land on this earth should tell us that the emotional level of being is very real, very important and central to our experience here.  Paganism reveals to us the cycles of life and how to align with them for maximum benefit, for oneself and the whole.

We are challenged while here on Earth to grow in all four parts of our Being – to grow physically and discover what we can do with these bodies; to develop our minds, our intellect and understanding; to expand spiritually on the journey of self-discovery and self-realisation; and to build a strong emotional body. The soul in us wants experiences that make it grow – it treats all life’s events with an equanimity our minds can usually only aspire to – because through emotional experiences, both dark and light, we grow in strength, character, wisdom, passion and the ability to channel the powerful vibrations that the soul seeks to bring into this world.

The emotional plane is a level of reality in which we all partake. Eventually we reach a point in ourselves where old emotions from our past no longer bother us, and the ebb and flow of happiness, sadness, anger, emptiness and love are accepted, even enjoyed. At that point we are free to raise emotional energy consciously, to connect ourselves body-mind-emotion in order to positively and generously add to the abundance of joy, love and bliss in the world, also to add tears of compassion. We can connect our own emotional field to the collective field, to the universal emotional plane, which is as vast, as complex, as fascinating and as divine as the physical universe, and is awaiting our explorations and our offerings of love, compassion and joy as we each help to raise the frequencies of the collective human emotional and spiritual planes.

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THE GENDER SPECTRUM

The idea that male and female are two distinct and separate genders, into one or other of which everybody is supposed to fit, is a very modern, patriarchal model that, although now widely spread through the world, has no basis or grounding in history, or in biological nor spiritual fact. It is high time we decolonised gender and sexuality from the crippling notions imposed on both in the names of both religion and science in recent centuries.

I will leave the biology to others, here are some observations on the spiritual nature of humanity:

Christians sometimes justify their transphobia by utilising the verse in the first chapter of the book of Genesis that says,

God created Adam in His image, in the image of God He created him; male and female God created them”.

Yet while this is interpreted today to mean men and women are separate genders, the ancient Jewish sages taught something quite different. They knew that this was a declaration that humans are androgynous in their core nature, that male and female are expressions of the soul, and rather than a clear line between the two there existed a spectrum of possibilities of genderfluid combinations.  In fact at least one ancient Greek translation of Genesis reads “male and female created He him” not “them” (gnosis.org)

Ancient Hebrew teachings gave consideration to those who fell outside the gender polarity – teachings handed down through oral tradition but eventually being written down in the third century. The androgynos was someone with both male and female characteristics, the tumtum, one whose biology is unclear, the aylonit, who identified as female at birth, but at puberty, develops male characteristics, and the saris, who appears as male at birth, but later takes on more typically female biology. Rabbinical text the Bikkurim starts a discussion thus

An androgynous, who presents both male and female physical traits, is in some ways like men and in some ways like women. In some ways, they are like both men and women, and in other ways, like neither men nor women.” (Bikkurim 4:1)

(source : https://rac.org/blog/2018/09/20/what-torah-teaches-us-about-gender-fluidity-and-transgender-justice)

The Old Testament prophet Isaiah said:

“To the eunuchs who keep my Sabbaths,
who choose what pleases me
and hold fast to my covenant—
to them I will give within my temple and its walls
a memorial and a name
better than sons and daughters;
I will give them an everlasting name
that will endure forever.”   (Isaiah 56:12)

Jesus was schooled in the rabbinical tradition and he too let us know that he understood the spiritual power of transsexuality.  Discussing eunuchs in the Gospel of Matthew he tells us,

“For there are eunuchs who were born that way, others were made that way by men, and still others live like eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven.”  (Matthew 19:12).  Aware of the potential controversy perhaps, he went on to say “The one who can accept (also translated as ‘receive’) this should accept it.”

Ancient mythologies from the Middle East and Europe, like those from other parts of the world, contain many tales of gender transformation, and for millennia people who themselves embodied gender fluidity were regarded as having special powers. For this reason trans people often took up holy roles in the community. In the story of Ishtar, the form of the Goddess worshiped for at least 10000 years in the Mesopotamian empires, transgender priest/esses, the kurgurru and galatur, were created especially to be her servants. Similarly, Goddess Cybele, whose worship was centred in Anatolia in modern Turkey but went on to spread around the Mediterranean and as far as Britain once the Romans adopted her as their Magna Mater, Great Goddess, was served by the transgender Gallae priest/esses. Their flamboyant, loud, sexual and sometimes bloody ways were much hated by the early Christians. Augustine recognised the Gallae as “the sons of the earth. The Earth is their mother” but called them also “castrated perverts….. madmen…. foully unmanned and corrupted.”

Inscribed pottery shards from the Middle Kingdom of Egypt (2000–1800 BCE), found near ancient Thebes, list three human genders: tai (male), sḫt (“sekhet”) and hmt (female). (Sethe, Kurt, (1926), Die Aechtung feindlicher Fürsten, Völker und Dinge auf altägyptischen Tongefäßscherben des mittleren Reiche, quoted on Wikipedia)

From ancient languages we can tell that a gender was viewed as fluid, as a spectrum: Latin had the word virago, for a masculine woman and mollis for a feminine man (this word stuck around for a long time, eg the Molly Houses of 18th century London. Other ancient Greek/Roman words for effeminate males included cinaedus (originally the word for an exotic dancer from Asia Minor), baptai (effeminate and licentious, originally the baptai were gender-variant, homo-erotically inclined priests of the Goddess Kotys, who originated in Phrygia, Turkey, and crossed into Greece 7th century BCE), and effeminatus.

Pliny (1st century CE) wrote that “there are even those who are born of both sexes, whom we call hermaphrodites, at one time androgyni

For one thousand years in Europe Christian teachings gradually reduced and removed all memory of ancient knowledge about the spiritual power of both homosexuality and transsexuality. The idea that both these naturally occurring features of the human soul were ‘against nature’ took hold. But when European Christians set out to explore the world they found that in most cultures same sex relationships were not considered taboo, and that cross-dressing, gender-bending shamans served as spiritual functionaries in tribal peoples on every continent.

The Native American tribes often recognised 3,4 or 5 genders, and each had their own special words for the gendervariant, magical servants of the spirit.

Examples include, for male bodied Two-Spirits, winkte (Lakota tribe), lhamana (Zuni ), nádleehí (Navajo), boté (Crow), . There were words for female bodied two spirit shamans including hwame (Mohave), hetaneman (Cheyenne) and tayagigux (Aleut). Terms used for both male and female two spirits included t‘übás (Northern Paiute), and tangowaip (western Shoshone). Some of these terms can be translated as “manwoman” but there are other meanings too – Nádleehí, for example, literally means “one who is changing.”

The Europeans called the gender-bending shamans berdache, a French word for a passive homosexual, and this word stuck for centuries until the Native Americans themselves chose to replace it with the term ‘Two-Spirit’, which is a suitable translation for the many words the tribes used to use, it referring to the presence of both male and female spirit in one person.

In Zapotece communities of Mexico a third gender is recognised, called the Muxe.   In a 1551 letter sent from Brazil Father Pero Correia wrote about women who “carry weapons like men and marry other women.  Being called ‘women’ was perceived as a major insult.”  The Amazon was given that name by Europeans because of women like these, who reminded them of legends of ancient European warrior women.

Crossing into the Pacific Ocean, in Polynesian and Hawaiian societies the Mahu were men who lived as women and served the community as healers, caretakers and teachers of the hula dance traditions.

African cultures also saw gender in a holistic rather than binary way:

mudoko dako” were effeminate males among the Langi of northern Uganda, they were treated as women and could marry men.

gor-digen were men-women of Senegal

chibados” a third gender in south western Africa: Portuguese Jesuit Joao dos Santos wrote in 1625 that the chibados were “attyred like women, and behave themselves womanly, ashamed to be called men; are also married to men, and esteeme that unnaturale damnation an honor.”

skesana” and “iqgenge” – Zulu terms for trans-gender people

mumemke” and shoga” – Swahili terms for trans-gender

“tsecats” were a third gender class of dancers and ceremonial magicians in Madagascar.

among the Dagara people [of Burkino Faso], gender has very little to do with anatomy. It is purely energetic. In that context, a male who is physically male can vibrate female energy, and vice versa. That is where the real gender is. Anatomic differences are simply there to determine who contributes what for the continuity of the tribe. It does not mean, necessarily, that there is a kind of line that divides people on that basis.” Dagara Teacher Malidoma Some quoted from http://www.menweb.org/somegay.htm

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In Asia trans or third-gender people appear in many cultures.  The Hijra of India today are a surviving remnant of what was once a proud tradition of spiritual community.  They have survived the attacks of Muslims and Christians to be a living link to the queer shamanic servants of the ancient world.   The Kathoey of Thailand have a long, rich history too, but not one universally recognised by Buddhism, which in this respect can act like the Abrahamic religions, viewing homosexuality and transsexuality as lower vibrational.  Buddhism is after all also a patriarchal system, but Hinduism has long recognised a third gender and its sacred nature.  It is referred to in the Vedas, in the Kama Sutra and in ancient medical, legal and astrological texts.  The Supreme God Shiva is considered to be transgender in their Ardhinashvara aspect, which brings us back to where we started.

GOD IS TRANSGENDER 

THE SOUL IS TRANSGENDER  

ULTIMATELY WE ARE ALL TRANSGENDER

BUT SOME SOULS ARE HERE TO EMBODY THAT NATURE DIRECTLY

AND RECLAIM ITS SACRED PURPOSE, POWER AND PRESENCE

CHANGING THE STORY OF QUEER, TRANS AND GAY

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Everything Changes: LIGHTWORK

EVERYTHING CHANGES

when you ACCEPT you are a Soul not a body

EVERYTHING CHANGES

when the fear inside turns to Love

EVERYTHING CHANGES

when you ATTUNE to the MUSIC of CREATION

the Divine the Singer, the Universe the Stage

and Us the Song.

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Politics, Scandal, Economics and Crime

Keep most of the world asleep most of the time

But compared to two decades ago, many more have awakened

to the MYSTERY, the MAGICAL, the MYSTICAL….

and are finding the natural, sacred flow.

2020 Pandemic brings change and transformation

A portal to life lived in a new vibration:

With the soul at the centre, what’s important redefined,

humanity recalling how to be gentle and kind.

Nature restored as our Divine Mother

The Goddess returns to show the way home.

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Many are finding the WAY, AWAKENING to NEW POSSIBILITIES

yet can so easily get distracted into fantasy or conspiracy

forgetting the goal is simply to REMEMBER

that I AM YOU and YOU ARE ME –

when we reach this knowing, we birth a new humanity

and can build a new world, built on compassion and equality.

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LIGHTWORKERS OF THE WORLD

yes speak to the aliens but don’t expect them to save us

and yes many are already here in disguise –

but hey they too are human this time

and have to master THIS game.

No matter where we’re from

all we really have to do

is to REMEMBER

that YOU ARE ME and I AM YOU.

Look each other in the eye

feel how souls merge with earth and sky

re-unite the worlds through the human form

arrive in the HERE AND NOW

with NATURE in all her GLORY:

it’s we ourselves, not aliens

who will rewrite humanity’s story.

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LIGHTWORKERS OF THE WORLD

no don’t obsess with 5G and vaccines

these things are perhaps indeed not what they seem

for NOR ARE YOU, let it be known,

IT’S TIME TO AWAKEN FROM THE DREAM.

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Humanity is now outgrowing old models mechanical

as it is also outgrowing old religions puritanical.

We are masters of our own fate

It’s all about the FREQUENCY we vibrate.

Engage the high vibration of wonder

  • of the magical child at play in the cosmic universe –

to keep your head above the delusions:

in the 5th dimension there are no enemies

no viral attacks or toxic throwbacks –

the universal field of LOVE

is accessible to all, it answers to your call.

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LIGHTWORKERS OF THE WORLD

remember, that there are many DEATH WORKERS here amongst you too

Some of you here to help passing souls make it back on through

the veils to the spirit dimensions with joy, peace and grace

it’s time to heal the mental fears of the human race.

TELL YOUR FRIENDS THERE IS NO DEATH

SHOW THEM HOW TO REACH HEAVEN WITH RHYTHM AND BREATH.

SHOW THEM IT’S SAFE TO OPEN THEIR MINDS, HEARTS AND INNER VISION

SPREAD THIS WONDER, THIS LIGHT, THIS JOY

TRULY THIS IS OUR MISSION.

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“If you realize that all things change, there is nothing you will try to hold on to. If you are not afraid of dying, there is nothing you cannot achieve.”
― Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching

LOVE OF ALL KINDS

Between adult Humans, various kinds of erotic love are possible

love of woman and woman

love of man and man

love of woman and man

sometimes the sex of the body does not reflect the active gender of the person

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all forms of gender and love deserve respect and honour

all deserve room to grow and thrive

in a balanced world all forms of love will be seen to have their role and purpose

all are required to bring harmony and peace to the collective human soul.

There are some people who embody both genders, and even other gender identities – these souls have a special spiritual message for us that I cover in other blogs.

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From Two Flutes Playing, by Andrew Ramer:

Love is genderless. Love is an energy that freely flows. In the end it does not matter who loves who. For the energy that fills the space between them is what matters.”

The male body vibrates differently than a female body. Their patterns of energy are different. So a male and a female body create a different pattern of combined energy in their meetings than the union of man and man, or of woman and woman. Once all religions knew this. The energy of those exploring the male-female path emerges in spirals. Woman to woman energy expands outward in rippling circles. The energy of man-to-man love creates a pillar, a column, a tree of living light, of liquid fire rising. So the spiral, the circle, the line. The differing faces of oneness. The bowl, the jug, the plate shaped out of clay. The ancients knew this. And this knowledge surfaces and resurfaces through time. Sometimes hidden, sometimes secret, still it lives on in the heart of humanity. Surfacing, going into hiding, waiting for the time when it can flow freely again.”

It is not the same for two men to be joined together as it is for two women or a man and a woman. It is not the same, nor is it different. In love being shared, it is identical. In bodies and frequencies being different, that which rises up from it is not the same. And the human community needs all the colors of loving that its genders allow. The human fabric needs all the colors woven in. The spiritual heart needs all colors, in order to transform human life on this planet, in order to begin the era of universal connection.”

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The work of love between men is holy, the work in community and the work of two together. The brain is made for two-together loving. And through that kind of loving, love is spun out to the world. For too long love has been denied to men together, love, tenderness, caring. For too long the love between men has been unspoken, and only the outer form, the dance of sex, has remained. Sex is sex when only bodies dance it. But when the heart joins in, then sex is sacred. Sex made holy is that through which two can channel love out to the world. Sex made holy is that through which two connect to the origin of the world itself…

For any two men who come together in a loving relationship create and generate an energy that can be used to heal the world and move it through the coming changes to a time of light and love and spiritual freedom. In touch, in loving, a vibration is created, a song, a chant. This is the sound of two flutes playing. And the power of that song is two together moving through consciousness, two together pursuing the essence of life, two together healing. Any two can heal. Every two men together bound by love can use their energy to be gay healers…

It is time for men to gather together in communities and celebrate the love that two can share together. To make public this love is to establish loving strands to the community, so that the love two generate can be woven outward. Each public celebration is a blessing to lovers and to community.”

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In the love of man for man, the unity of the cosmos affirms itself. And in a world of two sexes, were it not for that sacred bonding, your species would unhinge itself into warring halves. A mystery. That men and women can come together in their loving because men love men, because women love women. Same-sex love affirms unity. Without that affirmation, men and women could not meet. Their polarities would unhinge them, each from each. In a world of two sexes, however different they are from each other, each sex bears within it the fullness of humanity. Where there is one human, female or male, in their heart, all of humanity lives. This is a paradox, that part is the same as the whole. But it is true. In a world of two sexes, where woman is, man is suggested. Where man is, woman is remembered. So that whosoever pulls away, man to man or woman to woman, from the mainstream of woman to man communing, in their closeness the fullness of humanity will flower, if they cast away fear, if they allow twoness to happen. For in their love, in their oneness, they are reminders to everyone of the fullness that every man and every woman carries. Sometimes it is easier to see the whole when part is not present, as men and women may forget when they dance their dance of bodies. Love between men can remind the world of that.”

The Great Maypole of London

“Depriv’d of Root, and Branch, and Rind,

Yet Flow’rs I bear of ev’ry Kind:

My Head, with Giddiness, goes round;

And yet I firmly stand my Ground:

All over naked I am seen,

and Painted like and Indian Queen.”

(Jonathon Swift, ‘The Maypole‘)

The British quite naturally come in for plenty of criticism for the way they imposed Christianity on the many peoples of the largest empire the world has ever known, but we Brits should remember that Christianity was also a foreign religion once to us, which was imposed on us from the 7th century onwards. Very few of us Brits today are aware that 1000 years after that effort began, the Old Religion, our native faith, which was sometimes erotic, ecstatic and practised while intoxicated, was still very much alive and widespread among the populace, despite the efforts of church councils, parliamentary laws and the bloodthirsty activities of witchfinders to eradicate it.

In 1660 a 134 feet tall Cedar Maypole was erected on the Strand in London to celebrate the return of the King – the Restoration of the monarchy after 18 years of strict Puritan rule under Oliver Cromwell was for most a huge cause for celebration. Historian Catherine Arnold writes in ‘City of Sin’ that as Charles II took the throne “the city erupted into one giant party which was to last for the rest of his life.”

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For 18 years in the middle of the 17th Century the theatres and fun palaces had been closed, pubs were raided, fig leaves placed on naked statues, heavy fines imposed for swearing, and maypoles across the country were felled, considered by Puritans “a heathenish vanity” and a “stynkynge idoll”. For almost two decades the government made a concerted effort to control the worship, behaviour and to reform the morality of the British nations, until the people got utterly sick of it. The Puritan Commonwealth led by Oliver Cromwell was one of the first attempts to impose a rigorous fundamentalist religious culture on a populace. It failed spectacularly.

The English Civil War began in 1642, King Charles I was deposed then executed a few years later. Puritans took over the reins of government and enacted many laws to control public behaviour. This included the death penalty for incest or adultery. Brothels had been big business in London for centuries, a source of income (through rented properties) for both church and state, and just prior to the upheaval, in 1641 parliament had decided prostitution should be regarded not as a crime, but as a public nuisance. But under the Commonwealth headed up by Oliver Cromwell the whorehouses, known as ‘stews’, of south London became warehouses for trade, with only one or two high class brothels remaining, such as ‘Oxford Kate’s’ in Bow Street.

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The Maypole is one of the most powerful symbols of pagan magic – it represents the union of earth and heaven. It is decorated and danced around to invoke that experience of cosmic connection in the revellers. To the Puritans of the 17th century, who were determined to complete the Protestant conversion of the country begun a century earlier under Henry VIII, the Maypole was a “stynkynge idoll” because it was associated with drunken and sexualised goings on. In 1644 Maypoles were outlawed, and poles around the country torn down, including London’s central pole on the Strand, which stood at 100 feet tall and had stood there since at least the end of the previous century, possibly at a site long regarded as a pagan centre of worship. For sure Maypoles had been erected in London since centuries (millennia?), with permanent sites appearing from at least the Middle Ages.  Other famous London Maypoles included those at Cornhill and Aldgate Wards. The resurrection of the Strand Maypole in 1660 was a grand occasion with the King in attendance. The new pole was taken in procession with much drumming, morris dancing and festivity from Scotland Yard to the site on the Strand. It took a crew of seaman four hours to erect the pole, and the merriment continued, as Catherine Arnold said, for 25 years until the death of the King.

Diarist Samuel Pepys (1633-1703) was delighted when the May rites returned, recording in 1661 that he and his wife and friends going to Woolwich to spend the night in the countryside in preparation ‘to ‘gather May-dew’ in the morning.

It was not only in central London that the downfall of fundamentalist religious control was met with an upsurge of pagan sentiment, as evidenced by the reappearance of maypoles around the country. Philosopher and amateur archaeologist (he discovered the Avebury stone circle!) John Aubrey (1626-97) wrote that poles “were set up at every crossway”. A pamphlet entitled “The Cities Loyalty Displayed” celebrated the return of the Maypole to London.

The huge Strand Maypole was severely damaged by strong winds in 1672, and only a stump remained until 1713, when it was rebuilt again – this time it only survived until 1717. The Maypole site was taken over to build the Church of St Mary le Strand, which still stands, and the pole itself was bought by Isaac Newton, who used it in the building of an aerial telescope. So the last London pagan ritual pole, representative of our ancient search for spiritual answers, became part of the search for a new scientific explanation of our existence here on Earth.

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Even so, this was not the end of Maypole celebrations! Historian Randy P Connor in ‘The Pagan Heart of the West’ looks for signs of continuing May celebrations, and relates that in 1708 the British Apollo reported that it was commonly accepted that the Maypole rite was an ancient, pre-Christian, ceremony.  Gullivers Travels author Jonathan Swift (1667-1745), a devout Anglican, celebrated the Maypole, personifying it and giving us its view on the Puritans, –

“And once a Weaver in our Town,

A damn’d Cromwellian, knock’d me down.

I lay a prisoner twenty Years;

And then the Jovial Cavaliers

To their old Posts retor’d all Three,

I mean the Church, the King and Me.”

He was not shy about referring to what went on there either…

No couple-beggar in the land
E’er joined such numbers hand in hand.
I joined them fairly with a ring;
Nor can our parson blame the thing.
And though no marriage words are spoke,
They part not till the ring is broke”

Beltane was still celebrated in many places around the UK in the late 18th century, often in the vicinity of ancient stone circles. Brady’s Claris Calendaria recorded that “not only the common people, but those of every rank in the vicinity of the place, joined in the tumultuous dissipations of the day… gave a free indulgence to… riotous and disorderly practice, dancing through the streets in wanton attitudes… Even the priests, joining with the people, in procession to some adjoining wood on the May morning.” The French revolution gave a political air to Beltane rituals, with Maypoles becoming known as ‘liberty trees’ in France, and revolutionary Henri Gregoire (1750-1831) wrote that during the American revolution against the British, “on the banks of the Delaware… maypoles became the citizens’ rallying signal in every community.” This surely fed into the eventual adoption of May 1st as a socialist day. Maypoles, and May celebrations, were historically always times when conventional behaviour and morality broke down, the hierarchical order felt threatened by the libidinous freedom displayed by the common people, May Day has always belonged to the people, and the hugely popular Maypole on the Strand in central London was a powerful statement that, whatever the rulers and churches were saying, the people were still in touch with the free-spirited, pagan roots of the British nation.

Cross-dressing gender-bending was a significant feature of May festivities, the roots of which can be found in ancient Dionysian ecstatic worship that used to take place in the Spring season, and also in shamanic pre-religious cultures globally.  The ancient, and perhaps also not-so-ancient, peoples of the planet possibly understood more about the interplay of gender energies within one’s own being than most of the world seems to today.  Ancient cultures had many words for gender-variant people – the fluidity of gender and the magical power given by that fluidity was once quite universally recognised, and eventually feared. Cross-dressing in ritualised celebration was known as a way to unite the inner genders and access ecstatic states.  In much earlier times the genderfluid priest/esses of the pagan deities, such as the Gallae servants of Cybele, the priestesses of Isis, Diana, Hecate and many others, had set the example of erotic, ecstatic worship that opens up the inner world to the divine realms, and this knowledge has always been present somewhere in the human psyche.  Even though it has been thoroughly repressed first by sex-phobic religions then by a materialist, scientific paradigm that divides Creation into separate parts and leaves us feeling alone in the universe, the erotic, ecstatic call to transcendence exists in us all and will one day find its way back into our understanding.  The urgent need in the world today is to reunite humanity with its spiritual nature, which is exactly what a Maypole is there to do.

How about we reclaim the Maypole for London? Resurrect it as symbol of the British people waking up from the dream of separation, of being both oppressed and oppressor and renewing our pacts with the planet and with the spirit worlds. In the late Stone and Bronze Age 4-7000 years ago the people of Britain developed a highly sophisticated mystical culture, perhaps leaving behind the many stone circles on these islands as a reminder to the people of the future that this journey here in human incarnation began  in communion with both cosmos and nature, and will end that way.  Those ancient people understood the natural rhythms of creation, and the magical tool and symbol that is the Maypole was very probably bequeathed to us by them.

When i was at Kingsmead Primary School in Stowmarket, Suffolk in the 1970s, we used to dance around a maypole every Spring.  Only decades later did I learn about the subversive and erotic/ecstatic nature of maypole rituals, as part of the Radical Faerie tribe.  The Faeries, perhaps more than most pagan groups, have embraced the sexual and subversive power of the Maypole, but of course it’s not just Faerie queers who feel the call of the Old Religion.  Paganism was illegal in the UK from the reign of Henry VIII until the 1950s, not that that stopped the Beltane revelries, and the return of our own ancient British magical traditions has been gradually spreading through the nation and beyond since repeal of the Witchcraft Act.  Wicca, a British religion, invented in the 1950s as a way of structuring the pagan path, is hugely popular in the USA, where it is recognised by the military as an official religion.

The Maypole could have a big future, as it has had a long past.  There is no more joyful symbol or community ritual, nothing quite so powerful and dramatic.  As humanity, and as the Brits, deal with the existential challenges coming our way in the third decade of the 21st century, the Maypole represents our connection to both the physical and spiritual realms, and our role as human beings to unite the two.

ASTROLOGY OF THE COVID-19 PANDEMIC

LOCKDOWN in the UK was announced by Prime Minister Boris Johnson on the evening of Monday 23rd March, at Equinox Dark Moon. The Spring equinox usually brings a burst of activity, as Aries month delivers fire energy and sense of independence after the Winter journey, but in 2020 the activity is turned inwards. Much of the world is under instruction to STAY HOME, we are forbidden from mixing with friends and family outside of our immediate household, and when in public we have to engage social distancing protocols.

Just prior to the Equinox, Saturn made the shift from Capricorn to Aquarius – the water bearer is the sign of group consciousness, but Saturn is the planet of restriction, teaching and structure. Just as the teacher and restrainer arrives in Aquarius we are all told to avoid our social connections. This is leading to an expansion of online interaction (which is very Aquarian) and it is likely that through this pandemic crisis humanity will learn to make much better use of the technology it has recently developed.

Back in January, the conjunction of Saturn with Pluto in Capricorn had been long anticipated by astrologers as a crunch moment in our collective evolution, a dangerous and challenging conjunction last seen as the Reformation split Christendom in the 16th century. Pluto represents the Dark Lord, the mysterious forces in consciousness that invisibly affect and even direct our experience here on the Earth. During the past 2+ years while Saturn has been in Capricorn, our species has become acutely aware of the harm we are doing to our planet, its eco-system and its inhabitants. The desire for change has grown, but our ability to make the necessary changes was questionable. Then as Saturn joined the Dark Lord Pluto in the sky the Coronavirus epidemic hit hard in China, and a few weeks later the whole world is thinking of little else but COVID-19. Commerce has all but stopped, so has international travel – pollution levels are falling, CO2 emissions dropping – and humanity is getting a hard and fast lesson in community over commercialism, in compassion vs capitalism.

As we enter Spring, Mars energy comes to the fore – he is the ruler of fire sign Aries. But this year Mars is also part of this Plutonian shutdown – he travelled through Capricorn from February 16th until March 30th and was in CONJUNCTION WITH PLUTO on MARCH 23rd, THE DAY THE UK LOCKDOWN WAS ANNOUNCED. The Dark Lord has Mars in his grip and is directing his energy internally rather than the usual external, expressive, active spirit of Spring. Mars arrived in Aquarius on March 30th, bringing fresh air into the mix, and will now stimulate our mental and spiritual faculties until May 13th, encouraging us to find novel and creative ways of dealing with, and sharing about, the new experience humanity is having.

Lockdown began in the UK at Aries Dark Moon – ie at the start of the new astrological year, as the planet’s annual journey pushes us to experience our individual, independent energy.  This is often a tricky transition for many people, but Aries New Moon offered a helpful mindset here, ie the ability both mentally and practically to engage and adapt to a brand new reality. In the first week of Lockdown, the moon moved through fire, earth and air – through Aries, Taurus and Gemini. The Taurus moon (Thursday afternoon to Saturday night) gave a practical, earthed spirit which could help us accept the shift in circumstances and slow down as we adapt to it. Gemini moon brings a communicative spirit – people are sharing more about their experiences during this crisis, and views about it that are ‘alternative’ to the mainstream media reports are starting to spread.

During the second week of Lockdown the Moon will progress from air Gemini through the watery, and naturally home-loving, family focussed Cancer and the generous, playful, summer energy of Leo. The moon energy is waxing, ie building towards an emotional peak at Full Moon in Libra on the 8th April. This means that we feel more emotionally connected and aware as the days go by – and yes that could be challenging if our mental attitudes and practical circumstances are not supporting our well-being. If we can find our inner peace within this strangest of storms then the moon’s vibrational input to our emotional experience of our existence during this second week of Lockdown could be rather enjoyable.

However, on March 31st Mars will be conjunct with Saturn in Aquarius, and we are warned this is one of the most destructive alignments of the year, and could bring the darkest moment of the pandemic. On April 4th Jupiter and Pluto will be conjunct for the first of three times this year. Jupiter is the planet of joy and generosity, but Pluto of death and destruction. Let’s brace ourselves.

However, supporting the chances of JOY, even in this time of restriction and adversity, is the Goddess of Love and Money, VENUS. From March 4th Venus has been in her home sign Taurus, where she (and the feminine in all of us) feels very sensual and pleasure-focused. Venus in Taurus supports tangible expressions of love and romance – this is an area of life that is well aspected right now, so it is likely to be where many of us are finding happiness at this time. For those self-isolating, this love force still applies, both in how we interact with others through the internet and in how we choose to give pleasure to ourselves. A positive mindset is one of the greatest tools we have to get through these crisis times, and pleasure is a key tool we can use in creating positivity. This isolation experience may teach many people that the pursuit of pleasure can be a much more simple, and less expensive, activity than we have been accustomed to. Focused on our homes, our bodies, our loved ones, this time of retreat for humanity will bring about a realignment in how we relate to each other, to ourselves and to the planet.

The Spring will see the big players in this drama losing some of their dramatic power as their retrogrades begin – Pluto from April 25th, Saturn from May 10th and Jupiter May 14th. Astrologers are suggesting this is when the pandemic will become less deadly and less disrupting to our lives, but also warning of frustration and gloom in the Autumn as Pluto goes direct again (October 4th) and his returning power reminds us this virus has not finished with us yet.

Astrologers were extremely concerned about the effects of January’s Saturn-Pluto conjunction, and it seems they had good reason. Equally they are very excited about the conjunction in Aquarius of Saturn and Jupiter at the Winter Solstice 2020, seeing this as a a huge reset for our species and our world. We have known for years that Pluto’s task while in Capricorn is to shake up and destroy political, commercial and industrial institutions that are not serving the well-being of planet and people, but it was not clear really how this would come about.

2020 is reminding us that humans do not get to set the agenda on this planet after all. There are greater forces at work, even if they appear invisible, subtle and small to us. We as a species can survive by adapting and attuning ourselves to the planet and her natural rhythms. Many astrologers have for a long time been anticipating a huge change for human consciousness and in the way we live. It has been hard at times to imagine how that might come about – but in the first few months of the third decade of the third millennium we are learning LIFE CAN CHANGE VERY QUICKLY.

Astrology gives us tools with which to analyse and interpret the vicissitudes of life, it reminds us that we are part of a whole, and that existence is an eternal cycle of patterns and rhythms.  Finding our place in the whole removes much of the existential fear of being a human alone in the universe.  In this time of social isolation humanity may well discover just how fundamentally connected we really are.

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TIME OF FIRE

ALL OVER PLANET EARTH PEOPLE ARE WAKING UP TO THE NATURAL WAY OF THE SOUL IN CONNECTION WITH NATURE, SPIRIT AND THE MOTHER DIVINE.  

All over the world people are feeling drawn to explore shamanic traditions that engage the spirit world, honour the sanctity and unity of life, that bring balance, healing and community through seasonal rituals and encourage the emergence of our own divinity as awakened human beings.

BUT THE WORLD IS STILL RUN BY CONTROLLING FORCES THAT STIFLE THE HUMAN SPIRIT AND ARE DESTROYING THE ECO-SYSTEM THAT ALL LIFE HERE DEPENDS ON, that put money before love, war before peace and consumerism before compassion.  And our collective spiritual life is dominated by religions that control access to the spirit, compete with each other, creating conflict and misery, and which stifle the free divine spirit within us.

The CHURCH AND PATRIARCHAL MILITARISED INDUSTRIALISED STATE HAVE BEEN RUNNING AND RUINING LIVES FOR A LONG TIME.  It is not easy to dismantle their grip.

BUT NATURE IS ROARING AT US….. THE TIME OF FIRE IS HERE.  WE HAVE TO CHANGE.

The recent awful fires in Australia at one point turned the sky into a vision of the Aboriginal flag (pic above), GIVING A LOUD AND CLEAR MESSAGE. 

Through fire, floods, earthquakes and hurricanes the elements are out of balance because humanity is out of balance.

The corrupt system is held in place by

GOVERNMENTS

MEDIA

MILITARY

BUSINESS

ACADEMIA

JUDICIAL SYSTEMS

and RELIGIONS.

These 7 institutions have a huge  vested interest in the rational paradigm of separation.  But the people of the world are changing, WE ARE BECOMING AWARE OF THE ONENESS OF LIFE AND THE CENTRALITY OF LOVE, so these institutions will have to change too.  This is the message of the Saturn-Pluto-Ceres conjunction in Capricorn, (Jan13th 2020), old structures must adapt, reform – or collapse.

“All SEVEN and we’ll watch them fall, they stand in the way of LOVE and we will SMOKE them all……  I AM YOURS NOW and YOU ARE MINE, And together we’ll love through all space and time, So don’t cry, One day all SEVEN will die….”  Prince, ‘Seven’

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All over the world people are remembering the OLD WAYS

and exploring what they offer and mean for us TODAY.

Common to all tribal, shamanic traditions on this planet is a 

VENERATION OF NATURE

REMEMBRANCE OF ANCESTORS

APPRECIATION OF NATURAL AND COSMIC CYCLES

CELEBRATION OF LIFE’S UNITY THROUGH DIVERSITY WITH COMMUNAL, SOMETIMES EROTIC AND ECSTATIC PRACTICES

The under appreciated spiritual story of the second half of the twentieth century is the revival of Celtic Paganism.  In Great Britain the practice of witchcraft was illegal for 500 years, but since the law changed in the 1950s the pagan revival has been continuous, through practices such as WICCA finding a way to bring magical awareness to large numbers of people and so awaken the indigenous core soul energies of the european and white-american races, our own natural shamanic religion having been usurped by the Father religions long ago.

The other huge shift that has been building for some decades is the return of the Divine Mother Goddess energy to the global spiritual picture.  It is Her presence, love and compassion that transcends all the various divisions and differences between faiths, that lifts us into the bigger picture and reveals all life is the dance of one consciousness.  

“Some call the Creator of this Universe God, but our earliest ancestors, when they looked in awe at the world around them and tried to understand where it came from, saw the ultimate creative force as Goddess, as Mother. The Father of our culture created the world by speaking it into existence. The Mother of our ancestors birthed the universe from her body. There was no separation between Creator and creation. And as we shift our thinking and come back to this ancient wisdom, we will find balance and healing for ourselves. Ultimately the Creator is neither male nor female, but Oneness. It is the Prime Vibration. It is Absolute Information. In Seeing It as Mother we honour own own capacity for connection, compassion, clarity and communion of the soul. In knowing It as Mother we cycle back to the beginning of this era so that we can step into the next in wholeness.

“The liturgies of the Father are spoken, as revelation comes the from the Father in words, for with words he created the universe. The universe itself is the revelation of the Mother, and her liturgies are of the body. As we open to seeing her and her creation, as we learn to feel our place in it and know that we are never separate from it, and cannot ever be separate from it, then everything we becomes a prayer. Anchored in love, our bodies filled with joy, reaching out in ecstasy to express our gratitude, we ground the Mother’s bliss in the world.

“In our Mother’s world we do not have to struggle for enlightenment, Her light is always with us. We do not have to be reborn, for each moment of our lives is a new creation in her infinite, eternal body, and we are always a part of it.” Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing: A Spiritual Journeybook for Gay Men.

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You Are The Universe

Hindu ‘Chandogya Upanishad’ c 1000BCE:

In the beginning was only Being

One without a second

Out of himself he brought forth the cosmos

And entered into everything in it.

There is nothing that did not come from him

Of everything he is the innermost Self.

He is the truth, he is the Self supreme

You are that… you are that.

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Buddhist ‘Hymn to Perfect Wisdom’ 2nd century CE:

Those in need of light considering,

The Tathagatas extol

Thee, the Single One, as many,

Multi-formed and many-named.

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Rabbinic teaching, C3:

Everything that God,

the source and substance of all,

creates in this world

flows naturally from the essence of God’s divine nature…

Creation is the extension of God

Creation is God encountered in time and space.

Creation is the infinite in the garb of the finite

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Christian mystic Gregory of Nyssa, C4:

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The distinction between the persons does not impair the oneness of nature, nor does the shared unity of essence lead to a confusion between the distinctive characteristics of the persons. Do not be surprised that we should speak of the Godhead as being at the same time both unified and differentiated. Using riddles, as it were, we envisage a strange and paradoxical diversity-in-unity and unity-in-diversity.

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Christian mystic, Dionysius the Areopagite, C6:

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Leave the senses and the workings of the intellect, and all that the sense and the intellect can perceive, and all that is not and that is, and through unknowing reach out, so far as this is possible, toward Oneness with him who is beyond all being and knowledge. In this way, through an uncompromising, absolute and pure detachment from yourself and all things and released from all, you will be lead upwards toward that radiance of the divine darkness which is beyond all being.

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Jewish mystic Moses de Leon, C13:

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God is unified Oneness.. one without two, inestimable. Genuine divine existence engenders the existence of all creation. The sublime, inner essences secretly constitute a chain linking everything from the highest to the lowest, extending from the upper pool to the edge of the universe.

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Sufi mystic Rumi, C13:

You hide me in your cloak of Nothingness

Reflect my ghost in your glass of Being

I am nothing, yet appear: transparent dream

Where your Eternity briefly trembles

No heaven or earth, just this mysterious place

We walk in dazedly, where being here

Or there, in time or not, are only

Two motions of the same ecstatic breathing.

“Though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.”

Christian mystic Catherine of Sienna, C14: Until Your Own Dawn

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Daybreak:
everything in this world is a luminous divine dream
I have spun.

I did not know life was a fabric woven by my soul.
Any form that can appear to you—should I confess this?—
it is something I made.
All roots nurse
from
me.

God’s art is mine. I did not want His divine talent.
It simply grew in my heart from
the way I
loved.

Existence is as a young child moving through
a lane at night;

it wanted to
hold my
hand.

Here, dear earth, hold me,
until your own
dawn.

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Christian Anchorite Julian of Norwich, C14:

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Therefore this is His thirst and love-longing, to have us altogether whole in Him, to His bliss,—as.
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Christian mystic Meister Eckhart, C14:

A master says whoever speaks of God in any likeness, speaks impurely of Him. But to speak of God with nothing is to speak of Him correctly. When the soul is unified and there enters into total abnegation, then she finds God as in Nothing. We must take God as mode without mode, and essence without essence, for He has no modes.

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Hindu mystic Ramakrishna, C19:

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No-one can say with finality that God is only “this” and nothing else. He is formless and again he has forms. For the bhakta (follower of path of devotion) he assumes forms. But he is formless for the jnani (follower of the path of knowledge), that is for him who looks upon the world as a mere dream… The jnani realises Brahman in his own consciousness. He cannot describe what Brahman is.

God can be realized through all paths. All religions are true. The important thing is to reach the roof. You can reach it by stone stairs or by wooden stairs or by bamboo steps or by a rope. You can also climb up by a bamboo pole.

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Gay mystic Edward Carpenter, C20:

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We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race. The Self is entering into relation with the Body. For, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not as a toy and chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manifestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities….

Hindu mystic Aurobindo, C20:

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Up till now what Nature has achieved was an enlarging of the bounds of our surface Knowledge-Ignorance, what it attempted in the spiritual endeavour is to abolish the Ignorance, to go inward and discover the soul and to become united in consciousness with God and with all existence.

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Christian mystic Bede Griffiths C20:

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The one Word has gone out of itself, has reflected itself in this ocean of matter, the one Spirit is at work with its infinite energy, building up this matter in time… Here all is one, united in a simple vision of being. All the long evolution of matter and man, all my own history from the first moment that I became a living cell, all the stages of my consciousness and that of all human beings, is here recapitulated, brought to a point, and I know myself as the Self of all, the one Word eternally spoken in time.

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                                             Ramana Maharshi:

 

 

Einstein:

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A human being is part of a whole, called by us ‘the Universe’, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest – a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few person nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening out circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

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Psychedelic mystic Terrence McKenna:

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You have to take seriously the notion that understanding the universe is your responsibility, because the only understanding of the universe that will be useful to you is your own understanding.

What we call history is the fall out of the dynamic here and now relationship with our environment and into this anticipation of the future, worry about the past – basically ego.

Western civilization is a loaded gun pointed at the head of this planet.

You are a divine being. You matter, you count. You come from realms of unimaginable power and light, and you will return to those realms

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Alan Watts, 60s mystic:

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“If you awaken from this illusion, and you understand that black implies white, self implies other, life implies death — or shall I say, death implies life — you can conceive yourself. Not conceive, but feel yourself, not as a stranger in the world, not as someone here on sufferance, on probation, not as something that has arrived here by fluke, but you can begin to feel your own existence as absolutely fundamental. What you are basically, deep, deep down, far, far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself. So, say in Hindu mythology, they say that the world is the drama of God. God is not something in Hindu mythology with a white beard that sits on a throne, that has royal prerogatives. God in Indian mythology is the self, Satcitananda. Which means sat, that which is, chit, that which is consciousness; that which is ananda is bliss. In other words, what exists, reality itself is gorgeous, it is the fullness of total joy.” 

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Ken Wilber:

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Evolution is best thought of as Spirit-in-Action, God-in-the-Making, where Spirit unfolds itself at every stage of development, thus manifesting more of itself and realising more of itself, at every unfolding.

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Amma, the Mother of Immortal Bliss:

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“God is Love”, said Jesus. “Love makes the world go round”, they sang in the 1960s. Rumi wrote that “Love is our Mother”. Love is certainly a ‘many splendoured thing’, and according to the world’s mystical seers, the force that makes the universe work. Everything in existence seems drawn instinctively to form union with something else. We can say that love is at work everywhere, driving our urge to reproduce, to have fun, to find companions on this life journey. It might be that the One split into the Many for Creation to happen and the mission of the Many is to return to the One. This is what the deep thinking, inner focussed, mystics from every religion, from every part of the globe, have been telling us for thousands of years. Humanity is slow to listen because of our investment in our own personal, individual egos. To switch to a view that recognises the Self in us is the Self in all beings changes everything – our egos dissolve into insignificance, our efforts to dominate or destroy each other are revealed as damage we our doing to ourselves.

Mystic voices throughout time in every culture have left us the signs we need to find the way home… and are still speaking in the world today:

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2020 VISION & PRAYER

Mine Eyes have seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord

My Heart has felt the Bliss of the Return of Mother Divine

My Body knows the Light of the Self in Ecstasy

My Mind has found these things are found through Simplicity

so can anybody tell me

o why can’t humanity open their Eyes to See

o why cant humanity open their Hearts to Bliss

and why cant humanity wake up to the fact that That gives rise to all this?

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Our telescopes discover just how vast is the eternal Creation –

our tiny planet alone, endangered, teetering towards a brink,

yet so divided is our species, and separate from the Oneness of Life,

so obsessed with our egos, since we learnt how to think –

that we are stumbling in Darkness even though in our essence we are Light

we listen to the scientists, but they haven’t got it right.

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The divine mystery has been studied, and consciousness explored

for all the ages of humanity’s past, and it’s revelations are at the core

of the civilisation we today were born into:

it’s time the shackles were taken off esoteric knowledge

and the mainstream cultural mockery of mysticism itself ridiculed:

ignorance is not attractive and the way home has been found many times

we really should be teaching maps of consciousness in our schools.

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2020 VISION

THE OPENING OF THE INNER EYE

not found within religion, not coming from the sky:

ENOUGH LIGHTWORKERS AWAKENED SINCE THE 60s

to bring us to the edge of dimensional shift

the 2020 LIFTING OF THE VEIL

SO THAT AT LAST SOME WISDOM,

SOME SANITY and SOME PEACE

MAY PREVAIL

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Generations pulling together

and shamans of all nations –

reconnecting the sacred webs,

the holy places with the divine

stream that flows through us all,

but is generally only found

by the few who answer the call

to pursue self-knowledge, transcendent truth,

yet also to be here now and serve the great Mother

in Her quest to bring her children

to Unity, Community and Compassion.

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May the 2020s be the decade

that mystical awareness, vision divine find its time

and ignorance no longer be in fashion.

Mine Eyes have seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord

My Heart has felt the Bliss of the Return of Mother Divine

My Body knows the Light of the Self in Ecstasy

My Mind has found these things are found through Simplicity.

In 2020 I celebrate 25 years since my awakening to creative, conscious living, to the multiverse and the mysteries of the Divine Plan. In January 1995, as I turned 30 years old, preparing myself for approaching illness and death as AIDS took hold of my body, I dropped my atheistic mindset and started to talk to the universe, to ask questions I had never concerned myself with before. The answers soon came flooding in. As the 2010s end humanity has entered a period of collective existential crisis, challenging us to wake up from the unconscious games we have been playing for so many lifetimes. Wake up and return to the Mother, the Source, the Divinity – found within, found in all things.

THE SPIRIT OF YULE 2019

The second decade of the 21st century is ending with a reflective and profound line up of cosmic energies. Winter Solstice moment occurs at 4:20am on Sunday 22nd December (guess for some that’s all I need to say :-)) – at that time the Sun enters Capricorn (joining the gang of the solar system’s big players Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto) and the Moon will be in Scorpio, the sign of endings, death and rebirth, and life’s mysteries. The underlying water elemental energy of the Autumn season gives way to the earth season Winter, when the land is still, nature rests, and we too are pulled more into our bodies, into an inner focus, healing, rest and hibernation.

At the Solstice we can affirm a positive mind-view within ourselves to welcome this inner Winter journey and the healing potential it offers. Just as the Sun appears to ‘stand still’ in the sky at Solstice (ie rise and set at same place each day as the earth’s axis tilts), we can take some time to be still, make personal retreat, reflect and meditate, to feel the seasonal shift, some stillness coming as a relief perhaps after all the emotional shedding of the Autumn. It’s also a good moment to come out of the hibernatory nest to see other people and together celebrate in some way the return of the light that the Solstice brings. Although the cold Winter starts here, the amount of sunlight we receive each day will start to increase again now. Raising some energy, or simply a glass, with others at this time, and acknowledging the greater mystery that holds and sustains us in this life is a powerful and effective way to feed the body, mind and soul with positive frequencies.

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For at least 7000 years humans have appreciated the cosmic importance of the Winter Solstice. The master builders of the Stone Age took great efforts to establish monuments aligned to the planetary cycle. From the Orkneys to Stonehenge, the inhabitants of Britain in the 4th millennium BCE were obsessed with building sacred burial sites, henges and stone circles. The entrance to the grand tomb at Newgrange in Ireland, which is older than Stonehenge and the Egyptian pyramids, was aligned so that the inner chamber would be flooded by the Winter Solstice morning sunlight. The building of stone monuments on the British islands was at its peak around 3000 BCE, a few centuries before the Epyptian pyramid building took off. These ancient ancestors were not dumb cave men, they had developed sophisticated cultures (as archaeological discoveries eg in the Orkney Islands continue to reveal). As the power and significance of the Solstices, and the healing benefits of attuning ourselves to Nature’s annual cycle, come more into our modern awareness, it seems to me these ancestors left us solid symbolic messages recorded in rock – letting us know that they, once, sensed their place in the cosmic whole and left these solid signs for us to read and understand again – so that we might rise out of the darkness and ignorance that has dominated the planet for so long, and regain our innate cosmic human soul awareness. Through attuning ourselves to the planet’s seasonal shifts we can, using our own individual consciousness, reconnect the sacred hoop of life on planet earth – reconnect us all to the invisible realms, the spirit dimensions and the higher purpose of our existence here. We raise the frequencies of life and this has a ripple-out effect, because all consciousness is interconnected.

Solstice leads us into a Dark Moon Christmas, making it a perfect time to get cosy, comfortable and quiet, enjoy the arriving Winter vibrations. 24-25th Moon in Sagittarius is ideal for the sacred and the social focus of the festival, then on Boxing Day the New Moon in Capricorn will start to kick in. This new moon brings an annular eclipse, visible in Asia – this kind of eclipse occurs when moon’s distance from the earth is such that it does not totally obscure the sun, but leaves a ring of light visible – called an annulus.

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“On a Solar Eclipse, a new doorway is opened that helps to push and advance us further on our soul path.

“Under the energy of the December Solar Eclipse, we are going to be shown a new path. A new way is going to unfold. This new way may appear subtle at first. Perhaps it will begin as a new thought or a new feeling, and then slowly it will shift into taking a new action.

“It’s almost like this Eclipse opens a new stream of energy which we can take and download into our lives.

“How we download it is up to us and where we are on our journey, but all of us are going to be changed, all of us are going to be awakened in some way.

“We may find that this new doorway changes what we desire or makes way for new intentions we wouldn’t have considered earlier.

“There is also strong energy around this Eclipse that is calling on us to transcend childhood patterns or unleash our inner child.

“We may experience a healing on an inner-child level, or we may discover that we no longer need to hold onto patterns or traumas that we have collected through our upbringing.

“Alternatively, we may discover that we need to stop taking everything so seriously, to lighten up, and to bring the energy of child-like play back into our lives.” https://foreverconscious.com/intuitive-astrology-december-solar-eclipse-2019

The solar eclipse and new moon open up an ideal time for intention and goal setting, with so much Capricorn energy in the atmosphere, they may well be pretty ambitious. We are preparing ourselves for a new decade, one in which CONSCIOUSNESS, LOVE, LIGHT and SPIRIT are going to continue to move towards the centre stage of our human cosmic drama.

The decade ends on 31st December under a Pisces Moon, waxing now and for some feeding nicely the urge to party or otherwise touch some form of self-transcendence, while others will be drawn more to the cosmic cave. Whenever the moon is in Pisces, compassion is the key to communication and community.  The Moon starts a new cycle of the zodiac on 2nd January when it reaches Aries, giving us a shot of independent, creative fire spirit to get moving into the new year and the 2020s.

2020 is a year of powerful cosmic alignments, starting with the Saturn-Pluto conjunction on January 12th. Astrologers are saying that this is bringing to light the startling awareness of the chaos humanity has created on the planet and the urgency of looking deeply at ourselves and changing some of our ways.

This Yule period as the 2010s end is the moment to get some rest and reflection, to take stock, release what has gone before and dream/vision and set goals for the future.

God in the Body

A few reminders from mystical ancestors that it is in the body that holiness happens:

MICHAELANGELO (1475-1564)

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“Earth is the meagre source of all that we

can know while still fleshbound. To those who see

in the right way it gives most copiously…”

“All that we have of wisdom and of faith

Derives from the earth, and if I love you with

Fervour, I shall reach god and find sweet death.”

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TERESA OF AVILA (1515-1582)

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“May you be content knowing you are a child of God.
Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.”

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HENRY DAVID THOREAU (1817-1862)

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“Heaven is under our feet as well as over our heads.”

“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island of opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land; there is no other life but this.”

“Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life so. Aim above morality. Be not simply good, be good for something.”

“However mean your life is, meet and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man’s abode; the snow melts before its doors as early in the spring. Cultivate property like a garden herb, like sage. Do not trouble yourself much to get new things, whether clothes or friends. Turn the old; return to them. Things do not change; we change. Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts… Superfluous wealth can buy superfluities only. Money is not required to buy one necessary of the soul.”

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WALT WHITMAN (1819-1892)

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“Divine am I inside and out, and I make holy whatever I touch or am touch’d from, The scent of these armpits is aroma finer than prayer, This head more than churches, bibles and all the creeds… if I worship one thing more than another it shall be the spread of my own body”

“I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul.

“…the expression of a well-made man appears not only in his face,

It is in his limbs and joints also, it is curiously in the joints of his hips and wrists,
It is in his walk, the carriage of his neck, the flex of his waist and knees, dress does not hide him,
The strong sweet quality he has strikes through the cotton and broadcloth,
To see him pass conveys as much as the best poem, perhaps more,
You linger to see his back, and the back of his neck and shoulder-side….
“The man’s body is sacred and the woman’s body is sacred,
No matter who it is, it is sacred—is it the meanest one in the laborers’ gang?
Is it one of the dull-faced immigrants just landed on the wharf?
Each belongs here or anywhere just as much as the well-off, just as much as you,
Each has his or her place in the procession.
“(All is a procession,
The universe is a procession with measured and perfect motion.)”

“I celebrate myself, and sing myself,
And what I assume you shall assume,
For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you.”

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EDWARD CARPENTER (1844-1929)

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“We are arriving at one of the most fruitful and important turning points in the history of the race, the Self is entering into relation with the Body. for, that the individual should conceive and know himself, not a toy and a chance-product of his own bodily heredity, but as identified and continuous with the Eternal Self of which his body is a manifestation, is indeed to begin a new life and to enter a hitherto undreamed world of possibilities….this transformation, whilst the greatest and most wonderful, is also of course the most difficult in Man’s evolution, for him to effect. it may roughly be said that the whole of the civilisation-period in Man’s history is the preparation for it.”

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ALLEN GINSBERG (1926-1997)

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“Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy!
The world is holy! The soul is holy! The skin is holy! The nose is holy! The tongue and cock and hand and asshole holy!
Everything is holy! everybody’s holy! everywhere is holy! everyday is in eternity! Everyman’s an angel!
The bum’s as holy as the seraphim! the madman is holy as you my soul are holy!
The typewriter is holy the poem is holy the voice is holy the hearers are holy the ecstasy is holy!”

JUMPING INTO THE 21ST CENTURY….

… here’s a sexual pioneer sharing how she discovered the truth of this for herself

World AIDS Day

In the early 1980s sex suddenly became scary – the sexual revolution that began in the 1960s took a very dark turn. At first known as Gay Cancer or GRID (gay-related-immune-defiency), the world eventually settled on HIV and AIDS as the terms for this deadly manifestation. A brief decade of sexual ‘innocence’, where play was plentiful for those who dared risk the social taboos, dissolved. It soon emerged that it was not only gay men affected – the hiv test revealed the virus to be widespread in Africa too, leading to notions that the virus had somehow spread to humans from monkeys. Some believed the virus had been cooked up in a laboratory specifically to target, and wipe out, black people and gay men. Others were sure there was no virus at all, that the whole thing was made up, perhaps thinking our immune systems were suffering the overload of toxic modern culture.

Mostly overlooked, there is a link between gay men and black Africans – it is that our very nature, our spirit and our self-expression, was denigrated and suppressed by the dominant straight, macho, white male culture of recent centuries. We are two groups carrying a dark and heavy ancestral load in our soul energy. Some ‘new age’ teachers have been much criticised for saying that AIDS is a manifestation of self-hatred, but what the critics are missing is that shame and guilt are deeply programmed into the subconscious culturally, historically and socially. AIDS was, in my direct experience, more than a physical illness – it was a soul crisis, resulting from lack of internal self-belief, balance and yes, self-love, from accumulated mental, emotional and spiritual injuries and blocks.

In the western world AIDS was a spur that got the lesbian and gay movement moving. Activism was stepped up, coming out became a big thing, our pride celebrations grew rapidly. We knew we had to fight for our rights or risk being pushed back into the millennium of relentless repression we were emerging from. The LGBT community gained a lot of political influence and social acceptance through its passionate and compassionate response to the AIDS crisis.

Those of us on the front line of the epidemic, the People With AIDS (PWAs), had to work out our own methods to cope with a terminal diagnosis and crippling infections. Community meeting points opened up such as the Lighthouse in west and the Landmark in south London. Here we could access complementary therapies and learn things from each other. We caught on to the notion of positive thinking, engaging the power of the mind to lighten the tough experience of encroaching sickness and impending death.

Some of us took this even further. I was 30 years old when AIDS started to hit me hard, and I was hit by a surge of anger at my fate. I had become an atheist at the age of 12 but now I needed somewhere to direct my anger, so I decided to ask the fundamental questions about life that the modern, rational, scientific, entertainment-driven world had kept me distracted from until this point.

Like many reasonable people I had looked at religion as a teenager and found it lacking. I rejected notions of God and just got on with my life. Now I needed answers – why are we born in the first place if just to die from disease? A graduate in History from Cambridge University, I knew how to tackle this subject. I went to the source materials – ancient teachings from all the world’s religions, magical paths and mystical teachers, plus modern new age writers and psychedelic gurus. I started to meditate and make my own simple rituals. As my mind opened up I saw that all the world’s holy teachings were basically saying the same thing, acknowledging an underlying reality of consciousness – unity – love and bliss that gives rise to all creation, a reality that most of the world is completely asleep to. I saw that giving this divine dimension a gender and a personality was not necessary at all, but that doing so might help us to form an emotional relationship with it. I discovered devotional practice, and through opening my heart to the spirit world I received massive waves of inspirational, healing, revelatory energies.

My understanding of life changed and through that my experience of it shifted too. My inner perspective moved from that of the little me-self, to a broader soul consciousness that embraces our eternal nature as manifestations of the divine Self in creation – just like the whole universe is. We humans are uniting the material, mental, emotional and energetic (spirit) dimensions of Creation – this is such an awesome, divine, undertaking, one that deserves some conscious attention, to be widely understood and discussed, yet I had been brought up to believe none of this.

Now the world is teetering like never before. Humanity and our planet are facing a crisis of apocalyptic proportions. As an AIDS survivor I know what that can feel like at times -as the encroaching dis-ease worsens and we scurry around for anything that might help, we may even find ourselves getting very angry at this horrifying road humans seem hell bent on pursuing. This could get very nasty – but it can also be a turning point in our civilisation, where we face the big questions of life head on.

AIDS triggered me to pursue the spiritual search – so intense was my longing that even in my darkest hours I was attuned to the love-presence of the divine within me – I went on to recover and to re-enter life as a transformed being, who now seeks to assist the growth of spiritual intelligence, compassion and liberation in the world. Like many who have a Near Death Experience (a slow motion one in my case, lasting a couple of years), I returned to life with a sense of purpose that was previously lacking.

AIDS brought me a Accelerated Individual Discovery of Self – looking at the crises rocking the world today it seems to me we are all being pushed to the edge of destruction, a place where we might finally face ourselves and heal our separation from the planet, from spirit and each other. We may be, one way or another, heading for an Accelerated Collective Discovery of Self – the underlying unity of life will eventually demand to be known and will push us kicking and screaming to that point –

OR WE COULD LISTEN TO THE MYSTICAL VOICES THROUGHOUT TIME THAT LEFT THEIR TEACHINGS OF UNITY

AND TO THE EXPERIENCES OF AIDS, CANCER, NDE AND OTHER SURVIVORS

WHO ARE GETTING ACCELERATED UPGRADES IN AWARENESS, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING IN THIS LIFETIME

AND CUT THE FIGHTING, CUT THE GREED, CUT THE ABUSE, CUT THE ALIENATION, CUT THE DESTRUCTION

AND CHANGE LIFE ON EARTH RIGHT NOW.

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In 2017 I published AIDS Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening, a collection of my mystical poetry and drawings plus quotations from gay ancestors and spiritual teachers.

And just published:

AIDS Shaman 2: Through the Veils is now also available, in print or e book from

http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/shokti

On the Path

For the first time in human history the teachings of all the religions, magical paths and spiritual practices of humankind are available to us to study and experience. As the planet shakes in ecological, economic and existential crises, there has never been a more urgent or rewarding time to dive in and discover what life is, who we are and why we are here. Of course we can leave that to others to do and simply become their followers or detractors. Better to take the journey for ourselves.

Each one of us is a unique manifestation of conscious human spirit, a self-aware being experiencing life. Our existence on this planet is basically miraculous, considering how vast and dangerous we know the universe to be, and the level of development humans have reached, overcoming the challenges nature gives us, is incredible. Our bodies are amazing, our emotional possibilities are vast, our intellectual capabilities awesome, and perhaps our spirits are infinite and our souls eternal. Why live as a limited being, constricted by logic and constructed by the norms of society. We are unique individuals with powers of intuition, empathy, imagination and insight. Only we can choose for ourselves to get out of our boxes and create the life we would like. And if there is to be positive change in how humanity acts and thinks, only individually can we contribute to the elevation of the collective consciousness.

The reward for making the choice to explore spirituality is knowing yourself as a free, untainted, pure and eternal soul. Or live in fear. Since we passed the cosmic threshold of 2012 the vibration of life on earth has been changing fast. Those who make the choice to grow as a conscious soul will find the times to come much more exciting – and easier to navigate – than those who continue to believe in fear and separation. The choice is going to become starker and clearer. Only our own negativities hold us back. We need each other for support on the path, but we need to choose for ourselves to get on the path in the first place.

Or we could of course just keep moaning that everything is going to hell – and thereby help it get there.

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‘Many things in your life matter, but only one thing matters absolutely… that is finding the essence of who you are beyond the short-lived entity, that personalised sense of self. You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.’  Eckhart Tolle

To be human is to be born into a dance in which every animate or inanimate, visible or invisible being is also dancing. Every step of this dance is printed in light; its energy is adoration, its rhythm is praise. Pain, desolution, and destruction in this full and unified sacred vision are not separate from the dance, but are instead essential energies of its transformative unfolding. Death itself cannot shatter the dance, because death is the lifespring of its fertility, the mother of all its changing splendor. If we could bring ourselves to open to this vision, we would undergo a revolution of the heart.”  Andrew Harvey, The Return of the Mother

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Spiritual liberation is the missing element in the modern journey of LGBTIQ+ people around the world. Coming out about our sexuality or gender identity results from our need to be true to ourselves, we listen to our souls and from the soul comes the courage to be who we are. The same principle applies to spirituality – it comes from inside us.

External forms of spirituality, i.e. religions, are cultural manifestations of collective spirituality, but they are also controlling, often repressive forces, set up to bring order and cohesion to society, but often crippling creativity and spontaneity. The fact that certain religions have got so caught up in their dark fascination with hatred of our kind should tell us something – perhaps that we have some power, some magic, in our souls – that they are very afraid of.

Will Roscoe wrote in From ‘Priests of the Goddess: Gender Transgression in Ancient Religion (1996) “At the time of the birth of Christ, cults of men devoted to a Goddess flourished throughout the broad region extending from the Mediterranean to south Asia.”

Raven Kaldera: “Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.”

The modern world was built by Christianity. They have taken the gods out of the earth sent them to heaven, wherever that is. And everyone who aspires to the gods must then negotiate with Christianity, so that the real priests and priestesses are out of a job.” Malidoma Some, Dagara Tribe

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Lesbians, Gay Men and Trans people are the natural priests of humanity. Our bodies are not only temples, they are holy shrines at which to make offerings, they are sacred rituals in action! This is what we sexual and gender outlaws all have in common – our persecution since the rise of the patriarchal, monotheistic religions is rooted in the suppression of pagan faiths, where the Goddess and queer deities such as Dionysus reigned supreme, where sexuality was understood as a divine, sacred force within us, and ecstatic rituals kept the spirit connected, alive and real.

Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.” Harry Hay, Radical Faerie

Judith Grahn: “The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.”

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in the spiritual desert of the 21st century…..

WHAT DO WE DO WITH THIS KNOWLEDGE?

We bring healing…

Audre Lorde: “The sharing of joy, whether physical, emotional, psychic or intellectual, forms a bridge between the sharers which can be the basis for understanding much of what is not shared between them, and lessens the threat of their difference.

The work of the past, the work of the spiritual teachers of the past, has been about love. But as we evolve it is time for us to explore who we are as beings of joy. Joy is the name for the single energy that we have seen as two distinct ones, as spiritual energy and sexual energy. The sharing of joy will be the major healing tool of the future. Dolphins and whales understand this, that free-flowing joy is the balance to love, the cross-weave in the fabric of life, able to hold all our pain and sorrow in its embrace.  In our evolution as a species we have moved away from joy. In exploring our minds and the world we have divided, dissected, defined, and destroyed. But we are coming back to wholeness again, to Oneness, and to joy. Down through the dark ages of our history, it has been love that allowed us to survive. And in the next era of our history, it will be joy that heals us and renews us as a people.”  Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing (1997)

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Gatekeepers are people who live a life at the edge between two worlds—the world of the village and the world of spirit… . The gatekeepers stand on the threshold of the gender line. They are mediators between the two genders. They make sure that there is peace and balance between women and men.”  Sobonfu Some, Dagara Tribe

We seek understanding…

When we fall in love with another man we’re getting in touch with an unconscious spirit-source, by evoking it in our beloved. We can follow this magic inside us back to its source, and use it to uncover our real nature.” Mitch Walker ‘Men Loving Men: Gay Sex Guide and Consciousness Book‘ 1977

What if we smashed the mirrors
And saw our true face?
What if we left the Sacred Books to the worms
And found our True Mind?
What if we burned the wooden Buddhas?
Gave the stone Buddhas back to the mountains?
Dispersed the gurus with a great laugh
And discovered the path we had always been on?
Elsa Gidlow (1898-1986)

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We look forward…

to regaining our ancient historical roles as medicine people, healers, prophets, shamans and sorcerers. We look forward to an endless and fathomless process of coming out – as gay people, as animals, as humans, as mysterious and powerful spirits that move through the life cycle of the cosmos….. Like butterflies we are emerging from the shells of our past restricted existence. We are re-discovering the ancient magic that was once the birth right of all human beings. We are re-learning how to talk to the worms and the stars. We are taking flight on the wings of self-determination. Come, blessed Lady of the Flowers, Queen of Heaven, creator and destroyer, Kali – we are dancing the dance of your coming.”  Witchcraft and the Gay Counter-Culture, Arthur Evans (1978)

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Conflicts that arise between the various identities in the LGBTIQ+ spectrum suit the patriarchal control system well – divide and rule has long been its way. How about we blast away that old pattern, and seek for the deeper reason that we find ourselves walking under one rainbow.

Mythologically, the rainbow was the bridge to Asgard, the realm of the Gods, to the Norse people. For the Greeks, Iris was the rainbow messenger connecting the worlds. Oxumare is the intersex rainbow serpent God in Yoruba religion. Ancient Japanese myth saw the rainbow as the path ancestors took to visit the planet. The Irish have long sought the pot of gold, guarded by a leprechaun, at the rainbow’s end. Bulgarians believed that walking under the rainbow would change your internal gender. For the Buddhists rainbow consciousness is the highest state attainable.

The role of myth is to remind us of the potential in the human soul.

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There are two rainbow movements in the world today – both serve the ultimate liberation of the human consciousness. One of them is the global movement for LGBTIQ+ rights, the other is an ongoing development of the ‘new age’ effort to give birth to a new human consciousness that began in the 1960s, and takes the form of ‘neo-pagan’ rainbow gatherings around the world. The two movements have the potential to learn a lot from and share much with each other.

The sexual and the spiritual coming together

in a way that honours all forms of love and connects us to the earth,

that places consent at the centre of all activities

and sets out to heal the human heart, mind and spirit

will begin the Revolutions we have been waiting for.

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The first revolutions destroyed the great cultures of the women. Once the men triumphed, all that was other from them was considered inferior and therefore worthy only of abuse and contempt and extinction. Stories told of these times are of heroic action and terrifying defeat and silent waiting. Stories told of these times make the faggots and their friends weep. The second revolutions made many of the people less poor and a small group of men without color very rich. With craftiness and wit the faggots and their friends are able to live in this time, some in comfort and some in defiance. The men remain enchanted by plunder and destruction. The men are deceived easily and so the faggots and their friends have nearly enough to eat and more than enough time to think about what it means to be alive as the third revolutions are beginning.”

Larry Mitchell, The Faggots and their Friends Between Revolutions (1977)

Gender and Homosex: AFRICAN WISDOM

 

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“… among the Dagara people, gender has very little to do with anatomy. It is purely energetic. In that context, a male who is physically male can vibrate female energy, and vice versa. That is where the real gender is. Anatomic differences are simply there to determine who contributes what for the continuity of the tribe. It does not mean, necessarily, that there is a kind of line that divides people on that basis…

“The gay person is looked at primarily as a “gatekeeper.” The Earth is looked at, from my tribal perspective, as a very, very delicate machine or consciousness, with high vibrational points, which certain people must be guardians of in order for the tribe to keep its continuity with the gods and with the spirits that dwell there. Spirits of this world and spirits of the other worlds. Any person who is at this link between this world and the other world experiences a state of vibrational consciousness which is far higher, and far different, from the one that a normal person would experience. This is what makes a gay person gay. This kind of function is not one that society votes for certain people to fulfill. It is one that people are said to decide on prior to being born. You decide that you will be a gatekeeper before you are born. And it is that decision that provides you with the equipment (Malidoma gestures by circling waist area with hands) that you bring into this world. So when you arrive here you begin to vibrate in a way that Elders can detect as meaning that you are connected with a gateway somewhere. Then they watch you grow, and they watch you act and react, and sooner or later they will follow you to the gateway that you are connected with.

“So to then limit gay people to simple sexual orientation is really the worst harm that can be done to a person…  It is a terrible harm done to an energy that could save the world, that could save us. If, today, we are suffering from a gradual ecological waste, this is simply because the gatekeepers have been fired from their job. They have been fired!

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“Christianity stresses postponing living on earth, as of we are only here to pack up our baggage and prepare for a life somewhere else “out there.” Jesus Christ is right here, man! And of course anyone else who knows more, who knows better, will be suppressed.

“The modern world was built by Christianity. They have taken the gods out of the earth sent them to heaven, wherever that is. And everyone who aspires to the gods must then negotiate with Christianity, so that the real priests and priestesses are out of a job. 

“…you start with the gatekeepers. You take the gatekeeper and you confuse his mind. You threaten him and you throw him in the middle of nowhere. Then nobody knows where the gate is. As soon as you lose the whereabouts of the gate, then you have a culture going downhill. What keeps a village together is a handful of “gays and lesbians,” as they call them in the modern world. In my village, lesbians are called witches, and gay men are known as the gatekeepers… Unless they go out on their yearly symposium, the village cannot be granted another year of life. They have to go out to do what they do, in order for the village to feel safe enough to live the way it has lived before. This is why, to me, we’re playing with our lives.

“… the thing about it is that humans are going to be begetting gatekeepers, no matter what. This is the chance that we’ve got. So maybe that means that sooner or later we’re going to wake up to the horror of our own errors, and we’re going to reconsecrate our chosen people so that they can do their priestly work as they should… by the time we reach a certain level, all the gatekeepers are going to find their positions again. We cannot tell them where the gates are. They know. If we start to heal ourselves, they will remember. It will kick in. But as long as we continue in arrogance, in egotism, in God-knows-what form of violence on ourselves, no, there’s that veil of confusion that’s going to continue to prevail, and as a result it’s going to prevent great things from happening.”

From 1993 interview: http://www.menweb.org/somegay.htm

 

Victory to Venus!

The Goddess played a central role in religious life of Europe and the Middle East for thousand of years until the rise of Christianity and Islam. Even during the patriarchal Greek and Roman eras the Goddess was still held in the highest of esteem. Worship of the Great Mother Cybele was the official religion of the Roman Empire from 200 BC until Emperor Constantine converted to Christianity in the 4th century.  Cybele had been worshiped in Anatolia, Turkey since such ancient times that she had been considered the ‘Mother of the Gods’ by the Greeks. Cybele worship was led by women priestesses, known as Melissae – the Bees, and also by feminine or transgender men, called the Gallae, whose frenzied, erotic, bloody rituals outraged many Christian writers. Forbidden to own property, the Gallae wandered in bands, following the Roman army wherever it went, bringing their worship to the edges of the Empire- there is a Cybele alter on Hadrian’s Wall, and a Galli grave was found nearby.

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Melissae was also used as a term for priestesses of other pagan goddesses too. The Bees worked in the temples, serving the Mother Goddess, acting as healers, sacred sex workers, making ceremonies with song and dance, offering divination and blessings. Melissae served Diana, Goddess of the Hunt and the Moon, who had long been worshiped by all the Latin tribes and was listed as one of the 12 goddesses of Rome in the 3rd century BCE. Diana was also associated with the Greek Artemis, whose temple at Ephesus in Turkey was one of the seven wonders of the ancient world (it was believed to have been founded by the powerful female Amazons around 8th century BCE during the Bronze Age). At the Ephesian temple she was served by the Bees and as well by eunuch priests, known as the megabyzoi. She was the goddess of childbirth- but she was also a virgin. As with Cybele, everyone was welcome in her temples, including slaves and outcasts. Alexander the Great famously had a eunuch priest lover at Artemis’ Ephesian temple. Diana became (or always had been) well known across Europe and she never really went away – popping up in Chaucer’s Canterbury Tales, accused of leading witches on night flights – and as a more recent Princess of Hearts too.

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In Palestine, it took a centuries of persecution before the early Hebrew Kings could stop women setting up phallic poles in praise of the Goddess, known to them as Asherah, related to Ishtar/Inanna, whose worship in Mesopotamia also goes back many thousands of years. From 1000 to 600 BCE some of the Judaic rulers pursued periods of intense persecution of Goddess worship, and of the Qedesha – the sodomizing male or trans priests who served Her. The OT prohibitions against cross dressing and sex between men were designed to stop this ancient religious practice. Qedesha means ‘Holy’ or ‘Anointed Ones’ but was translated into the King James English bible as ‘sodomites’ and in modern bibles is usually rendered ‘male shrine prostitutes’.

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Another deity , popular with the masses, worshiped by all classes in society and notorious for breaking down the barriers between them – Dionysus, Bacchus to the Romans, god of ecstasy, wine and the theatre, was, like Cybele, known long before the rise of the patriarchal cultures. Transgendered Dionysus, like Jesus, was born of a God and a human woman (who got burnt to a crisp by the jealous Goddess, so Zeus himself brought the baby Dionysus to full term, then sent to him to Cybele to learn the mysteries of ecstasy). Dionysian worship was led by women, and his festival became the biggest of the Greek calendar as people sought the liberating effects of ecstatic revelry. Ecstasy was understood as state of being ‘outside oneself’, through which a bigger perspective on who we are, and what life is all about, could be found. Spreading into the Roman Empire the ever increasing numbers of people gathering for wild bacchanalia alarmed the authorities – the cult’s free sexuality was condemned, an attempt made to control the cult by limiting how many people might gather together to worship the ancient god. It was only partially successful – historian Randy P. Conner, in The Pagan Heart of the West, finds evidence of Bacchic worship in the 7th century, and in more recent times too of course.

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In those olden days Goddess festivals were a lot of fun. Cybele’s birthday celebrations during early Spring, lasting several weeks, were known as the Hilaria. Aphrodite was celebrated in Athens at the summer Aphrodisia. The Dionysia Spring festival was second in importance to the Greeks after the festival of Athena, their wise city goddess, during which the Olympic games occurred. Goddesses were associated with love, beauty, sexuality – Aphrodite was also the patron goddess of prostitutes – things that the dour religions of the father were to render meaningless, even name evil. Love between women was declared a sin, and sex between men was illegal from the 4th century onwards – prior to that most of the emperors of Rome had had male lovers.  Female sexuality was given less attention, but the laws were not needed – the holy power inherent in women’s love for women had already been taken away, wiped out in several massacres of Goddess worshipers undertaken by Christian emperors on the rampage, tearing down the temples, burning the ancient sacred trees. The early Muslim kings did the same thing, just as the Hebrew rulers had done a thousand years earlier.

Women came to be regarded as temptresses, as inferior to men; men who loved men were threatened with death by fire, a myth that sex was for procreation only crept in.  A long dark age of denying the potential in the pleasures of the flesh to open up the soul had begun.

The Roman Catholic Church reduced the once all-powerful Goddess to the role of the virgin mother, a truly twisted notion that was actually hiding the fact that since ancient times virginity was associated with Diana, whose (often lesbian) priestesses served the community as midwives. Protestantism pushed the divine feminine even further into the shadow, leading to puritanical extremes of anti-pleasure, anti-joy, body-phobic cultures. This paved the way for the scientific, materialist worldview to emerge, denying the sacred dimensions of life, and the reality of the spirit, all together. A very sick humanity, a world out of balance, mass extinction, climate change – are all the result.

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The feminine presence of the Divine is what connects us all. Through the goddess we can know our innate oneness with each other and all life – through the feeling body, through emotion, dance and the sharing of open hearts. Dionysian pleasures give us the chance to open inner gates, step out of our serious minds and into the dance of female and male within our own being – which opens the way to knowing the dance of spirit and matter, pulsating erotically, ecstatically in us and all things. This gateway is sometimes entered through drugs – humanity has always used substances as teachers – but in our modern times the divine purpose of ecstatic communion is not much remembered, so drugs tend to lead to breakdowns as much as breakthroughs! 

The Goddess was not forgotten by all the worlds faiths.  Western culture can learn a lot from Hinduism, which continues to celebrate the divine feminine, and understand that is her shakti that is divine presence in the world.  Hindu Goddesses hold great power and are celebrated in joyous festivals, such as Navratri in the early Autumn (when the western zodiac is in the Libran season, ruled by Venus).  In fact shakti is present in the abrahamic religions – in her most purest form in Judaism, where she is known as shekhinah, but also in Christianity, her gender hidden in the mystery of the Holy Spirit.

The best, the most ‘natural’, way to come into to the presence of the Goddess is to tune to the cycles of the seasons, the sun and the moon, the cosmos. Goddess worship was effectively illegal in the UK from the time Henry VIII brought in the Witchcraft Act, only repealed in the 1950s. Sex between men was illegal for almost exactly the same period. Decriminalisation of gay sex happened long after the ancient association of same-sex love and Goddess worship had been eradicated from human culture. In Goddess culture, all forms of pleasure, of consensual sexuality, of love, have a place. In Goddess culture the body is remembered as a vehicle designed for flights of consciousness, into spirit, outside the limitations of the ego and into the fullness of our divine souls.

Gradually the veils dissolve, the Goddess has been waking her people up since the 1960s. She wants in, back into the picture, back into our hearts, back into our parties, our lovemaking – and into our service, to the planet and each other.

She’s wants in.

Whether we are female, male, trans or non-binary: She is found within.

“The return of the Sacred Feminine that is everywhere trying to occur is, in part, a return of the uncanny, of those insights and aspects of ourselves that have banished from our awareness for too long, repressed or demonized.  The Mother is preparing a revolution of consciousness for the whole human race, but this revolution will be possible only when we invite the wisdom of the feminine, with its instinctual understanding of the sacredness of all life and all true love, back into our hearts and minds in its full radical splendour.”

(Andrew Harvey, The Essential Gay Mystics)

When we dance, when we sing She flows through, around and out of us as Love. She is the presence of Venus in us all.  She is the Bee in us all.  And as bees we urgently need to rebuild a home for the Queen.

This Venusian love is so strong it can move mountains, build huge circles of stone, pyramids and temples, on the earth and in the air, in which Her Spirit, Her Praise returns.  This truly can change the world.

Victory to the Mother! Victory to Venus! As the Hindus cry: JAI MA!

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The Autumn Goddess

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The New Moon in Libra kicks off the first moon month of Autumn, it is the point at which Nature completes the equinoctial gear shift out of Summer that began when the Sun entered the sign of the scales, bringing energy of balance as we move into the darker half of the year.  This period of balancing is so crucial, and so fundamental to our experience here on planet Earth that it has long been marked by religions via a 9-10 day period of rituals, remembrance, reflection and thanksgiving.

To the Hindus this is the time of Navratri, a 9 day festival of the great goddess Durga, a precursor and preparation for Diwali, the Festival of Light, soon to come.  For Judaism and Islam this new moon is such a potent turning point it is regarded as the New Year and is marked by 10 days of introspection, mourning, the ‘weighing up’ of the ‘good’ and ‘bad’ deeds of the year – for Jews this leads to Yom Kippur, the day of Atonement.  Christianity no longer adheres to the Moon cycles (except for the Easter festival), but enters into a time of thanksgiving for the harvest and the good things in life.

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This is a period when the sudden change in nature affects us deeply.  A time when many in the modern world will feel battered by life’s trials, weighed down by fatigue as they resist the inward pull, and the pull to balance the self on all levels.  This part of the spiritual process, which is as necessary for us to undergo as it is for nature herself in order to be ready for the winter and the renewal it will bring, is missing for most people.  The religious ceremonies of this time serve a purpose… they help to bind us together, to unite our hearts and minds with the divine streams of consciousness – and so guide us through this transition.

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We do not need to be part of established religion to access this grace and guidance.  The Goddess is easily found on the inner planes, and always waiting to hear our prayers and connect to us.

Good spiritual practice brings us to remembrance of our innate oneness with All That Is… we are invited by Nature at this time to let go of our fears, express our tears and prepare ourselves for rebirth into a greater, brighter and more miraculous version of Who We Are. Samhain is coming – time of the Ancestors, time when the veils are thin, time of death and rebirth – death of the little self, the frightened self and birth of the cosmic part of the soul, the eternal part of the Self, into our lives right here, right now.  The more fear and sorrow we can release from our energy bodies at this time the more LOVE can get in, the more we will grow and thrive during the months to come.

In Hinduism the start of both Spring and of Autumn are seen as auspicious times to worship the divine feminine, and the first New Moon of the later season kicks off a 9 day period of Goddess worship, dedicated to Durga, the Devi, Mother Goddess…. .  She is worshipped through dance, song and ceremony, but also by turning within – this can be a period of introspection, self-nurture and regeneration, which brings strength and vitality for the season ahead.  Durga is celebrated in 9 forms over the days.  The forms, as described on artoflving.org,  are:

Shailaputri. Shaila means stone, and putri means daughter. Praying to this aspect of Mother Divine brings strength (like a stone). It brings commitment. When the mind is wavering, chanting the name of this Devi Shailaputri helps the mind to be centered and committed. It gives us strength, courage, and composure.

Brahmacharya means celibacy. Celibacy brings a lot of strength. Brahmacharya also has a higher meaning than just celibacy. Brahma means infinity and charya means moving. Put together, Brahmacharya means moving in infinity, which signifies knowing your vast nature. You are not just the body, you are like a glow of light. When this truth comes to your awareness, then you are in Brahmacharya. When we recognize our true nature, we become vast and powerful with a lot of vigor, valor and strength.

Chandraghanta. This form of Devi is depicted as wearing a bell-like ornament in the shape of the moon. The moon is connected with the mind, and the Ghanta (or the bell) is an instrument connected with alertness. The ringing of the bell brings the mind to the present moment. Just as the moon waxes and wanes, the mind also wavers. Chanting the name of this Devi brings the mind in our control with increased alertness.

Kushmanda means pumpkin. A pumpkin has many seeds and each seed contains the potential for many more pumpkins. This is representative of the creative power and its eternal nature. The whole creation is like a pumpkin. As Kushmanda, the Devi contains the entire creation within her. She is the Devi who can give you the highest prana (creative energy).

Skandamata is the mother of Skanda or Subramanya (Lord Karthikeya). She is depicted as riding a lion with the baby Skanda on her lap. This signifies courage and compassion. The lion signifies courage, while Mother Divine is the embodiment of compassion.

Kathyayini represents the nurturing aspect of the Divine Mother. She embodies the values of sharing and caring. She signifies the finer qualities of being in a relationship. The ultimate relationship is the union with oneself (soul).

Kaala is time. Time consumes everything in creation, and time is a witness to everything as well. Ratri means deep rest, absolute rest at the level of the body, mind and soul. Without rest, how can you be bright? Kaalaratri represents the deepest rest so that you can attain dynamism.

Gaura varna means white color. White represents purity. Purity comes out of innocence. Maha Gauri is the combination of brilliance and innocence. Gau also means knowledge. When we pray to Maha Gauri, she gives you the wisdom that is the elixir of life.

Siddhidhatri is the one who gives all the siddhis. Siddhi means perfection. When you want something, and if before the want arises it is available to you, that is called Siddhi (when you receive before you even feel the need, and when you receive more than what you need). A sadhak or seeker will get many siddhis on the path. However, if you misuse or run behind them, they will be lost. Siddhidhatri fulfills all desires and bestows powers naturally. Perfection and enlightenment are the gifts of Siddhidhatri.

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In the western astrological, calendar we are now in the month of Libra, a sign ruled by the feminine energy of Venus, heading towards the deep, magical time of Samhain, when the Crone or Grandmother aspect of the Goddess moves into the centre of the picture.  As we move out of the heights of Summer nature is offering us a time to attune deeply to the divine feminine, as experienced through the moon and seasonal cycles, found within our own souls and, also, there to be shared with those we love.

In the Celtic Tree Calendar at New Moon we enter the month of the Ivy Moon….

LESSON OF THE IVY – from The Wisdom of Trees by Jane Gifford

Ivy reminds us of the movement of the heavens and the way this is reflected on earth. It has the ability to bind all things together. It can wander freely, linking tree to tree, or form dense thickets that block out the light and restrict passage. Ivy brings shelter or overwhelming darkness and reminds us that where there is life, there is also death. Ivy represents the wandering of the soul in its search for enlightenment and it carries a warning to be sure of the direction of your desires so that you avoid being ensnared by them.

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Autumn Equinox

Sun rises due east and sets due west

day and night at equal length

~ balance as the season turns ~

from summer’s fire to autumn’s water spirit

from Mercury ruled Virgo to Venus month Libra.

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Equinox calling us to

shift the centre out of mind into heart

resting, releasing, expressing through art,

make the internal shift and call spirit friends –

practice gratitude, forgiveness and tie up loose ends,

the rich season of Autumn magic is coming…

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Tune to the feeling body and let the past go,

as the more inward time of the year beckons

there are many dreams, secrets and visions waiting to flow.

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The Spirit longs to reunite with the Living

To hear the Songs of All Souls as the Rainbow Age rises,

all over the world people are remembering

we came here to heal this world and be whole.

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The Spirit longs to reunite with the Living

Shamans everywhere across planet Earth are at their Gates.

Preparing for a decade of shifts so amazing –

To walk the healing path is to walk in Grace.

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The festival of the Autumn Equinox is sometimes known as the Mabon – named after a figure in Welsh mythology, the Mabon is the Divine Child. At this point of the yearly cycle we can celebrate the magical child/soul within ourselves, review her/his progress during the year so far and give thanks for all we have received and achieved. By attuning ourselves to the powerful forces of creation in order to do this we align our souls with the cosmic energies leading us ever onwards in our evolution into fully empowered, awakened, divine beings. When we take some time to commune with spirit we bring positive forces into play in our lives, and we will feel the benefit of doing so over the coming months.

When the Goddess Returns

 

WHEN THE GODDESS RETURNS

people will fall to their knees

begging forgiveness for all our destructive deeds.

– Isis-

Humanity forgot how to love the Earth as Mother

forgot how to treat all living things as sister and brother.

We take our Mother’s blood in the form of oil

we pollute and abuse her air, waters and soil

not knowing we’re her children

initimately connected to her rhythms

we continue to struggle, fight, create more schisms.

– Astarte –

The Sun rises every day illuminating Who We Are

the Moon guides us along the way

the Stars tell us we will go far

when we rediscover how to pray

learn how our thoughts and intentions create our experiences

that we are all one interconnected being.

– Diana –

The men of war killed Her priestesses and queer priests

shut down her temples, destroyed her groves and holy trees

until the populace no longer even believe

in the presence of Spirit, of the other planes

labelling those who communicate with them deluded or insane.

– Hecate –

Through the Goddess

we know our ONENESS

we feel our ancestors

and nature’s sprites.

Through her rhythms

we repair our souls.

– Demeter –

By attuning to the sun and moon cycles

we can escape the delusion and confusion

of a society built on separation

and give birth to our healing nation.

– Kali –

The people of the Goddess are coming:

We’re remembering that we lived before.

We’re remembering a time before war

when sexuality was sacred

and all forms of love were honoured.

– Inanna –

We have to die to who we thought we are

to become who we’ve always been.

The Many Names of Queer

Some people like to claim there was no homosexual identity until the word was invented in the nineteenth century, yet this is a very limited way of thinking. Historians have certainly shown the emergence of a queer subculture in the form of molly houses in the 18th century, that grew out of the thriving theatre scene of the Elizabethan and Stuart eras, and shown the prevalence of homosexual relationships in Renaissance Italy. Yet we can look much further back and find plenty of examples of what we might call queer culture. In fact in the ancient world there were many words used to describe both queer sexual acts and queer people.

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Ancient Greek words for a woman who preferred sex with another woman include

hetairistriafrom hetaira ‘courtesan’ or ‘companion’

tribas, plural tribadesa reference to rubbing bodies together (tribo = rub)

and amazon – reference to fierce women warriors of the northern Scythian peoples

Romans also used tribas, plus

fricatricefrom fricare, to rub

virago – a man-like woman

Lesbian itself is of course related to the Greek island of Lesbos, which has had a reputation for erotic energy since ancient times, though lesbian had a broader meaning through the ages of amatory/erotic – in Greek the verb ‘lesbiazein’ meant to ‘imitate the lesbians’ and inferred shamelessness and taking the sexual initiative, not only female homosexuality.

Similarly Sapphic/Sapphism refers to the great female poet of ancient Lesbos (late 7th-early 6th century BCE), and became used synonymously with lesbian from the 19th century, though it had certainly always implied female erotic love.

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It’s well known that the main form of same-sex relationship between males in ancient Greece was

paiderastia (pederasty), meaning “boy love”, between a sexually active older male and a passive adolescent youth. In Athens the older man was called erastes, who was expected to educate, protect, love, and be a role model for his eremenos whose brought in return his beauty, youth, and promise.

Ancient Rome was even more limited in its approval of same sex relationships between men, seeing them very much in terms of power. Yet Rome was a sex-obsessed culture, rich in phallic imagery and rich in words to describe homosexual acts and those doing them:

Terms for a man or boy taking the receptive role in sex included

concubinusmale bed mate

pathicus, deriving from Greek pathikos, equivalent to Roman passus, from which we get word passive.

puer delicatus – exquisite or dainty boy, a slave boy kept for sex

scultimidonusasshole-bestower

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mollissoft, a word which stuck around – becoming molly in the early modern english molly houses.

pusioyep, pussy, related to puer, lad. Write Juvenal said the pusio was more desirable than women because he was less quarrelsome and would not demand gifts from his lover

Spintriamale prostitute

Exoletusan old male prostitute past his best

impudicus – lustful, especially related to sodomy. “The abstract noun impudicitia (adjective impudicus) was the negation of pudicitia, “sexual morality, chastity”. As a characteristic of males, it often implies the willingness to be penetrated. Dancing was an expression of male impudicitia.” (wiki)

Some of the words that were used slip towards transgender territory, such as

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baptaieffeminate and licentious, originally the baptai were gender-variant, homo-erotically inclined priests of the Goddess Kotys, who originated in Phrygia, Turkey, and crossed into Greece 7th century BCE

cinaedus – homo-erotically inclined, gender-variant male. Originally, a cinaedus (Greek kinaidos) was a professional dancer, characterized as non-Roman or “Eastern”; the word itself may come from a language of Asia Minor. His performance featured tambourineplaying and movements of the buttocks that suggested anal intercourse.

gallus/galli/gallae – the name of the queer and outrageous trans priest/esses of Cybele became a general term for a queer, along with other terms that were used to describe the gallae – umbraticola (one who carries a parasol), cymbala pulsans (pulsating cymbals, one of the gallae’s instruments, and implying anal pleasure), tympanotriba (effeminate drummer like Cybele’s priests)

Pliny wrote that there are even those who are born of both sexes, whom we call hermaphrodites, at one time androgyni

Gender-variant priest/esses served many of the goddesses of the ancient world. Gender fluidity, and indeed homosexuality, were very much associated with spiritual service until the rise of Christianity during the later Roman Empire. As fear and suspicion of queer people, and our magical powers, spread, so queer sexuality became associated with dark magic, witchcraft and heresy.

The term sodomy for anal sex has 1st century roots, which is when Jewish philosopher Philo of Alexandria first proposed that interpretation of the Old Testament story (it then took a few centuries to become the official line of the Church), but has often being used over the centuries to refer to gay sex of all kinds, not simply anal. Buggery came into the picture because of the Bogomil sect, which originated in 10th century Bulgaria, and whose sex-positive heresy spread widely across Europe in the 14th century – the Catholic Church called them the Bougres, and the word stuck – so much so it was used by Henry VIII to make ‘unnatural’ sex a capital offence in the Buggery Act of 1533. ‘Bogomil’ means ‘kind and gentle people of God’ – I love that these kind, gentle folk gave us that great word.

Christian penitentials of the early Middle Ages use terms sodomita and mollis, and an Anglo-Saxon word of the time for an effeminate man was a baedling, possibly relating to an association with bath house.  12th century chronicler Richard of Devizes described the ‘great obscenities’ going on in London as ‘all sorts of men crowd together there from every country under the heavens’ – he mentions glabriones (pretty, smooth skinned boys), pusiones (hustlers), molles (effeminates) and mascularii.

Henry VIII brought in the Witchcraft Act just nine years after the prohibition of buggery. Four centuries of persecution of pagans and homosexuals was underway. The peak of the witch trials and executions came in the 17th century, but convicted gay men were still being hung, or sent to Australia, in the 19th.  The repeal of both acts happened in close succession too – witchcraft was no longer illegal from the 1950s, and homosexuality partially decriminalised in 1967, though by this point any association between the two was completely forgotten – the pagan movement that has developed since the 1950s emerged in a homophobic culture, and shows little awareness of the roles queers played in the nature religions. Nor do queers in general show much sign of being aware of the centrality of spirituality in our history.

Prior to homosexuality becoming adopted as the key word in the late nineteenth century, gay pioneers of that age had already come up with a range of new words for us – finding inspiration in ancient Greek philosophies that celebrate same-sex love.  In Germany, Karl Ulrichs adopted the term ‘Uranian’ (or Urning), inspired by the goddess Aphrodite Urania, the patron of spiritual love, choosing it to highlight the nobility and sacred potential of same sex love and distinguishing it from reproductive ‘Dionian’ love, named after Aphrodite Dionea. The term was taken up by English advocates of homosexual emancipation, such as Edward Carpenter and John Addington-Symonds, imagining a comradely love that would bring about true democracy by breaking down class and gender barriers. Oscar Wilde wrote in a letter in 1898,

To have altered my life would have been to have admitted that Uranian love is ignoble. I hold it to be noble—more noble than other forms.”

Ulrichs expanded Urning to give these definitions:

  • Urning: A person assigned male at birth with a female psyche, whose main sexual attraction is to men.
  • Urningin (or occasionally the variants Uranierin, Urnin, and Urnigin): A person assigned female at birth with a male psyche, whose main sexual attraction is to women.
  • Dioning: A heterosexual, masculine man
  • Dioningin: A heterosexual, feminine woman
  • Uranodioning: A male bisexual
  • Uranodioningin: A female bisexual
  • Zwitter: Intersex

In the twentieth century, some of us started calling ourselves RADICAL FAERIES.

So when I hear people getting upset about the ever expanding alphabet soup of the queer universe, they need to open their minds perhaps a bit wider, to try to limit us to homosexual, bi-sexual, transexual is to curtail the discovery of who we are, for we are certainly more than the sex we have or the gender we love or the gender(s) we manifest! We are a portion of humanity whose natural sacred expression has been repressed for a very long time, we are still finding out who we are.

The words above are intended to help us reclaim ancient roots of queer nature, function and identity.  Similar surveys of other continents are possible.

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Turning to Africa:

“During precolonial times, the “mudoko dako,” or effeminate males among the Langi of northern Uganda were treated as women and could marry men. In Buganda, one of the largest traditional kingdoms in Uganda, it was an open secret that Kabaka (king) Mwanga II, who ruled in the latter half of the 19th century, was gay.

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“The vocabulary used to describe same-sex relations in traditional languages, predating colonialism, is further proof of the existence of such relations in precolonial Africa. To name but a few, the Shangaan of southern Africa referred to same-sex relations as “inkotshane” (male-wife); Basotho women in present-day Lesotho engage in socially sanctioned erotic relationships called “motsoalle” (special friend) and in the Wolof language, spoken in Senegal, homosexual men are known as “gor-digen” (men-women).” http://america.aljazeera.com/opinions/2014/4/homosexuality-africamuseveniugandanigeriaethiopia.html

“In early seventeenth-century Luanda (the capital of Portuguese Angola), Catholic priests Gaspar Azevereduc and Antonius Sequerius documented third-gender natives known as chibados. The chibados dressed like women, spoke effeminately and married other men “to unite in wrongful lust with them.” More shocking to the priests was the fact that such marriages were honored and even prized among the tribesmen. In a similar record, Portuguese Jesuit Joao dos Santos wrote in 1625 that the chibadosmof southwestern Africa were “attyred like women, and behave themselves womanly, ashamed to be called men; are also married to men, and esteeme that unnaturale damnation an honor.” In his writings about seventeenth-century Angola, historian Antonio Cardonega mentioned that sodomy was “rampant among the people of Angola. They pursue their impudent and filthy practices dressed as women.” He also stated that the sodomites often served as powerful shamans, were highly esteemed among most Angolan tribes and commonly called quimbanda.”  http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8

In southeastern Africa, Bori cults—along with their crossdressing shamans and possession rituals—are still quite common among the Zulu. Shamans are known as inkosi ygbatfazi (“chief of the women”) while ordinary transgenders are called skesana and their masculine partners, iqgenge. Zulu warriors traditionally asserted their manhood by substituting boys for women and in the 1890s, Zulu chief Nongoloza Mathebula ordered his bandit-warriors to abstain from women and take on boy-wives instead. After his capture, Nongoloza insisted that the practice had been a longstanding custom among South Africans. Indeed, homosexual marriage was documented among the Zulu, Tsonga and Mpondo migrant workers of South Africa at least since the early nineteenth century. Boy-wives were known by various names such as inkotshane (Zulu),nkhonsthana (Tsonga), tinkonkana (Mpondo)” http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8

“The Meru tribes of Kenya have a religious leadership role known as mugawe, which involves priests wearing female clothing and hairstyles.  In 1973, British ethnologist Rodney Needham noted that the mugawe were often homosexual and sometimes married to other menIn 1987, anthropologist Gill Shepherd reported that homosexuality was relatively common in Kenya, even among Muslims (both male and female). Most Kenyans initially discourage transgender behavior among their children but gradually come to accept it as an inherent part of the child’s spirit (roho) or nature (umbo). Shepherd observed third-gender men, known in Swahili as shoga, who served as passive male prostitutes and wore female clothing, makeup, and flowers at social events such as weddings, where they typically mingled with the “other” women. At more serious events such as funerals and prayer meetings, the shoga would stay with the men and wear men’s attire. Other Swahili terms for homosexual men include basha(dominant male), hanithi (young male partner) and mumemke (man-woman).  Lesbians are known as msagaji or msago(“grinders”).” http://amarawilhelm.wixsite.com/around-the-world/part-8
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The Soul is Trans

In a small town pub in Suffolk I spoke to a lad about the inner feminine – he took great offence to the idea that he might have a feminine part to himself, almost to the point of aggression. What in heaven’s name are they teaching kids at school?

The Soul is Trans, we manifest as bodies through the interplay of various spiritual energies, male and female being a key polarity through which our physical forms and personalities find expression. This basic fact of our human existence was obvious to all the indigenous, ancient peoples of the planet and led to those people who manifested both masculinity and femininity strongly often regarded as special, holy beings.  The Hijras of India are a surviving remnant of what was once a vibrant queer spiritual/magical culture that manifested in some form on every continent.

The early modern European explorers found cross-dressing, gender-fluid shamans, witches and monks in every corner of the globe. This is how it once was in Europe and the Middle East too, until the rise of the monotheistic religions, with their all-powerful, male god. Assinnu, Kurgurru, Qedesha, Gallae are among our ancient names. As religion gradually became a tool of the political state, its teachings adapted to bring structure and discipline to society (mainly through fear, though calling it love), in contrast to the liberating, anarchic, sexualised rituals of the ancient Goddess – so those who sought the teachings of soul liberation joined mystery schools, covens and heretical sects in which over the centuries, magical wisdom was passed on.

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Kabbalists, Astrologers, Alchemists all found insights into the nature of reality through their practices, which are now openly available for us in the modern world if we seek them. But we are still emerging from the spirit-denying 20th century, still stuck in the domination of consumerism, fame and finance. Since the 1960’s there have been many who have made or are making the shift to a different way of being, one of compassion, seeking, healing and loving, but the mainstream culture is very slow to catch up.

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Trans people are emerging in the world in ever greater numbers quite probably because their souls have decided to to do their bit to hasten the evolution of the species, as we move beyond the materialist paradigm into a multi-dimensional reality, where we learn to unite the genders within in order to enter the higher dimensions of spirit, called the kingdom of heaven by Jesus in the Gospel of Thomas:

“When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner as the outer, and the upper as the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male shall not be male, and the female shall not be female: . . . then you will enter [the kingdom].” Jesus in The Gnostic Apostle Thomas: Chapter 24, Saying 22

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Reincarnation featured in all the ancient worldviews, was pushed out of the Christian agenda to suit the Roman emperors, and of course is ridiculed by the scientifically minded cultural leaders of the modern secular world.  The mass cultural paradigm is stuck in a tragic ‘one lifetime’ paradigm, and the transcendental nature of the soul not generally discussed, it’s highly possible that a person who feels they ‘were born in the wrong body’ is remembering something of their previous incarnation.

….And since the mystical goal of realisation of the Self involves the unification and integration of the inner genders (and other aspects), it’s highly likely that many trans people are evolved souls who have come into their current body to attain that integration and gain higher understanding of consciousness.

Since the western culture does not teach trans people who they are, trans people will have to teach the culture.

In fact all the queer tribes – the lesbians, gay men, bi and non-binary folk are in the process of unpicking centuries of being hated and misunderstood, of being seen as evil, dirty, sick… as sinners, outcasts, or as criminals.  We all are on the path of redefining who we are, on our terms, in our own ways.  Radical Faeries have been doing this since 1979.  500 magical, bright and creative queers just gathered this summer for the third QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL in the UK, celebrating the emergence of queers as a healing tribe within the human whole. 

The call is building for a SECOND COMING OUT – this time reclaiming and proclaiming our magical nature, our soul nature, our holy queer spirit.

north american Trans Shaman RAVEN KALDERA:

“Transgendered people have long been robbed of their own spiritual history, not knowing that there were once times and places where ours was considered a spiritual path in and of itself… We are all sacred and it is time that the world knew it.”

Holy Queer Spirit

At certain times and in many places on planet earth, those people who bore both female and male spirit in one body, because they were rare and different, were regarded as holy beings. At certain times and in many places sexual union between people of the same visible gender, because it was only practised by certain people, was also regarded as having magical potential – or seen as the right/privilege of the priestly/shamanic people of the community.

In order to control the spiritual connection, and therefore the will, of the populace, gradually religion was turned into a tool to separate the flesh and spirit. But it was impossible to convince the queers that the body and sex are not divine, so the patriarchal powers turned against the queers, turned us from the Holy Ones to the lowest of the low.

Eg the Qedesha of the Old Testament, whose name ‘Anointed/Holy Ones’ became ‘sodomites’ in the King James Bible (and is generally translated as ‘male shrine prostitutes’ in modern bibles).

Some memory of our true calling stayed with us through the centuries – would arise when queers met to make love, or to create spaces where we could simply be ourselves (as we did increasingly in Europe from the 16th century onwards, despite the threat of the death penalty if we were caught) and of course found expression among the many artists that our queer nature produces.

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Michelangelo:

“And if the vulgar and malignant crowd

misunderstand the love with which we’re blessed

it’s worth is not affected in the least

our faith and honest love can still be proud.”

Oscar Wilde:  “We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”

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The separation of spirit and flesh has gone so far that it has produced a materialist civilisation that threatens the future of life on earth. We have lost touch with the presence of the divine in our bodies, in nature. Humanity URGENTLY needs to re-connect to the unity of life, to re-discover itself, and renew its contract with Nature. This starts right where we are, within each one of us. IN OUR BODIES.

For queer people, only so recently finding emancipation in some parts of the world, we need this renewal with nature as much as any other part of the human family. Cities have served us well as places to find each other, build strength in numbers and develop community, but cities are also where we lose balance, where life spins out of control, where drugs destroy our gay dreams. Nature can restore us, as many radical faeries the world over will testify. In our nature sanctuaries we find healing, love, sister and brotherhood; we recharge and find out more about who we are, bringing this light and power back into the world, becoming the change…

FOR WE ARE A PART OF HUMANITY THAT HAS NO PROBLEM CELEBRATING THE BODY, CELEBRATING SEX.

WE ARE READY FOR THE RECONNECTION, THE RECLAIMING, THE REUNION OF MIND, BODY AND SPIRIT.

harry11  Harry Hay, one of the Radical Faerie fathers: “Our beautiful lovely sexuality is the gateway to spirit. Under all organised religions of the past, Judaism, Christianity, Islam, there has been a separation of carnality, or shall we say of flesh or earth or sex, and spirituality. As far as I am concerned they are all the same thing, and what we need to do as faeries is to tie it all back together again.”

THIS IS ONE PLACE ARE DOING JUST THAT:

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QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL

15-19 AUGUST 2024

Bridwell Park, Devon, UK

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Queer Spirit(ualists) with Attitude!

Attitude magazine this month has a colourful, somewhat teasing and intriguing, feature about some of the team behind this summer’s Queer Spirit Festival.  The piece is appropriately enough entitled ‘Free Spirits’, making the point that here are queers finding our spiritual expression outside of formal religion. For some reason however the front page headline they chose to highlight the piece is ‘Meet the Queer Spiritualists’…..

Well spiritualism is generally associated with channelling the messages, wisdom and grace of the spirit world, with mediumship and sometimes trance possession. At first I was inclined to take some umbrage at the use of this word, after all a glance at the promotion for the festival will show that our focus is very much about this world – about healing, creativity, self-expression, love – about queer community, liberated from crippling religious structures, where our spirits can soar free.  But of course what makes this experience so powerful and liberating, I believe, is that we include the trees, plants, animals, insects and invisible worlds in our expansive queer community cosmos.

I remembered how much we love to invoke the ancestors into our circles, how important it is to us to call in the power of the elemental beings, how much we love to invoke the unifying presence of our shamanic forebears in the indigenous peoples of the whole planet,  and of the Goddess, of Pan.

Often we dance once the spirits are invoked, enjoying a space where it can come naturally to drop the chattering, questioning of the mind and move into synchronous rhythm with each other: rising gradually to peaks of ecstatic togetherness when the drumming takes off, when our dancing hits a frenzy, our voices open and the shouts reach to the heavens.

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Since the article was published, Attitude have amended the title of the article for the online version: https://attitude.co.uk/article/the-pursuit-of-happiness-meet-the-queer-spirits-chasing-higher-rainbows-1/21464/

Attitude also used the term ‘HIGHER RAINBOWS’ – which I consider a peculiar term for us queer free spirits:

To me queer spirituality is about dropping the old patriarchal ways of hierarchy, of higher and lower, inferior and superior – and entering instead into the holoarchy of life, where every aspect of being has an integral part to play in the whole cosmic jigsaw of life. Astrology is one tool I use to understand that every part of who we are, that all of life and creation, is holy and has its own purpose, from the carnal and the banal to the  cosmic and the blissful. Without one there cannot be the other, duality only exists to help us navigate the third dimension. So Queer Spirituality is not about getting to a higher, or better, place, than other parts of the lgbtq+ universe, it is about bringing in the missing element, the essential piece of the puzzle, that completes the whole. 

I have written many blogs about the lost, forgotten or overlooked links between queerness and the sacred dimensions.. some links below.

Early May 2019 we are between the calendar Beltane MayDay and the approaching Beltane Full Moon in Scorpio on May 17th. The veils are thin.

We are between the worlds.

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This morning the moon is in Cancer, water element, sign of the Divine Mother. So this queer spiritualist thought instead of being agitated by the label he would live up to it:

This is what I believe the energy of the Divine Mother that I feel within me is saying to us this Beltane:

From the heart of the Mother

from our ancestors enlightened

worlds connect and the message comes through

you are another me and I am another you:

we are not these bodies

not the ego-mind

not the turbulent emotions:

when we drop identification with form and thought and feeling

there’s much, much more to find

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the dance of spirit on the earth

is reflected in patterns in the sky

and once we get that we are the dance

we can stretch our wings and fly:

to attune to the seasons, moon and planets

IS to find the way home –

is the way out of delusion, disconnection, disaffection –

it’s time for humanity to renew the pact with life Herself

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love and spirit connect us all

through prayer and compassion

we answer the call, build webs of love, cones of power

invoking the return of Her magicians

bringing humanity back to the Way

in these dark 21st century days

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The truth is within and it’s out there too

Christian gnostics and heretics, Kabbalists and Sufi mystics have long taught the way

Buddhist and Hindu sages were bringing the light of non-duality to the west since the 19th century

but the last thing the desire-driven, power-hungry west wanted to hear

was that the ego was controlling the show and out of control –

our own european earth wisdom so long suppressed

we’d long forgotten our intrinsic belonging –

yet now as Mother Earth shakes and and fear spreads round the world

soon everyone on the planet may scream out to be whole

and the people of the Goddess

will step forward – and take up once again their roles.

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Queer Spiritualism WHY NOT?

To conclude, I offer this….

MAY THE SPIRIT RETURN TO THE PEOPLE

From whom She was ripped apart

May the Spirit return to the people

As the Queer Healers remember their Art

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The Warrior swords of the Crucified Christ from the 4th century CE

Closed down our temples and slaughtered

Trans priestesses, women witches, genderfluid shamans and male sodomites.

Persecution of gay men and women witches intensified from the 11th century.

The political state took over this persecution from the 16th century.

The death penalty was in place for sodomy in the UK until 1861.

But the climate of fear, of arrests and blackmail hit another peak for gay men in the 20th century

And while the change over the past 50 years has been incredible –

No wonder we are a segment of humanity with health issues

Of course we are a people with emotional baggage that needs to be addressed

the issues arising from both HIV and CHEMSEX are the clear symptom of this wound

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Still in the world today so many of our queerkind still have to live secret lives

have to live with fear, and the danger of arrest, violence, death

THE HISTORICAL PERSECUTION OF QUEER PEOPLE NEEDS TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND ADDRESSED.

OUR QUEER SPIRIT – REPRESSED FOR SO LONG – NEEDS ROOM TO BREATHE, ROOM TO HEAL, ROOM TO BECOME WHAT IT TRULY IS.

I applaud Attitude magazine for taking this important step in displaying through mainstream media that there are exciting developments going on in the world of queer spirituality.  Thanks Guys!

read more…

https://queerspirit.net/blog/211-the-queer-spiritual-frontier

https://queerspirit.net/blog/248-out-of-the-mists-of-our-long-oppression

https://shokti.blog/2019/04/28/gays-are-the-natural-priests-of-humanity/

https://rainbowmessengerblog.wordpress.com/2019/02/14/the-rites-of-queer-spirit/

Queer Resistance

THEY WILL NOT BULLY US ANY MORE

WILL NOT BEAT US WITH THEIR MACHO MANIA

WE QUEERS DEMAND RESPECT FOR OUR EXISTENCE

OR THE WORLD WILL MEET OUR RESISTANCE

This is what we are up against…

“Anti LGBT+ protesters descended on a hotel yesterday (April 11) in Kiev, Ukraine where the European Lesbian Conference (ELC) was due to kick off…. Dozens of protesters blocked the entrance to the hotel and held signs that said “homosexuality is a disease” and “go back to hell sodomites,” according to the Thomas Reuters Foundation…

“A number of protesters also allegedly tried to break into the hotel to throw tear gas canisters but were prevented by police, according to Olena Shevchenko of LGBT+ group Insight.”

Parents Protest As School Fails To Scrap LGBT Rights Teachingsschool antigay leaflet

“Leaflets attacking LGBT-inclusive education have been distributed outside a Birmingham primary school.”

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The rugby star, who is Christian, posted messages on Instagram and Twitter on Wednesday (April 10) telling “drunks, homosexuals, adulterers, liars, fornicators, thieves, atheists and idolaters” that “hell awaits” unless they “repent.”

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“A controversial new penal code in Brunei that punishes homosexuality with death has come into effect…. Despite facing international outcry, the Southeast Asian country’s new Sharia law-based penal code, which makes gay sex an offence punishable by stoning to death, comes into effect on Wednesday (April 3)…. The harsh new penal code requires death by stoning for gay sex or adultery, while lesbian sex is punished by 100 lashes with a whip.”

PINKNEWS REPORT 12/4/2019

“Reported hate crimes against LGBT+ people in the West Midlands rose by more than half in the last year, outstripping the rest of England and Wales…. There were 591 reported incidents of homophobic crimes in 2018 compared to 386 in 2017. In January and February 2019 some 86 crimes were committed—a 26 percent increase on the first two months of the previous year.

“The rise is significantly higher than that experienced by England and Wales as a whole, which saw a 27 per cent spike in hate crimes where sexual orientation was a factor in 2017/18. Crimes against transgender people, which are recorded separately, rose by 32 percent.”

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WHO OR WHAT IS TO BLAME FOR THIS WORSENING SITUATION?

RELIGION, GOVERNMENT, ACADEMIA

Religions continue to offer justification to homophobic bigots

Governments could do so much more to ensure our rights and safety

The education system continues to produce homophobes and transphobes

 THE SHIFT THAT IS NEEDED

To understand the roots of religious homophobia lie in the efforts of patriarchal faiths to eradicate pagan goddess worship, queerness was associated with the erotic energy of ancient temples and rituals.

70 countries still criminalise homosexuality, but the change of law in India recently hopefully opens the way for a domino effect for us to gain respect the world over.

The people of the world need to get that all consensual, adult forms of sexuality are entirely natural, that transsexuality has an ancient, honourable and holy history, that their phobic attitudes were placed into their subconscious, they are not natural!

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WHAT CAN WE DO?

“We need to be outside and not to keep our sexuality and genders hidden at home under the sheets.”  European Lesbian Conference chair Silvia Casalino

We can stick to the mantra that PRIDE IS A PROTEST and use our summer festivals as an opportunity to express our ANGER, our SOLIDARITY, our DETERMINATION to liberate queerkind across the planet

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At QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL in the UK, August 14-18 2019, 500+ queers from a vast range of spiritual and magical backgrounds gather to change the story of being queer.  Defining us by our sexuality or gender identity does not reveal who we are – to others or to ourselves.  In some parts of the world we have achieved a great deal of political, legal and social liberation over the last 5 decades, but in others we are still feared and persecuted.  Even in the liberal west, as some of the above reports make clear, the journey isn’t over.  Join us in Northamptonshire for a festival dedicated to the emergence of our global healing queer spirit. www.queerspirit.net

THE LOST QUEER STORY OF EASTER

It’s well known that Christian holy days were placed in the calendar to replace long established pagan festivals. Spring was a time when the pagan cultures of Europe and the Middle East celebrated the rising energy of nature with ceremonies relating to suffering and rebirth. In southern Europe the Goddess Persephone/Proserpina was said to return from the Underworld at the Spring Equinox, similarly with Freya in the North. The queer resurrected deity Dionysis was celebrated in ancient Greece around the Equinox. Eostre/Ostara was a Germanic Spring Goddess, and the name Easter comes from her name. Many websites and writers will explain how Easter replaced this Goddess festival, and how eggs and bunnies are pagan symbols, but that’s not the whole story.

On the first full moon after the Spring Equinox comes Easter, the only Christian holy day still calculated by the Moon (ie Goddess) calender – and the story of Easter – of suffering, death and resurrection – was also a variation on an ancient pagan story that can be traced back several millennia, part of the mythology and worship of Cybele, the Great Mother of the Roman Empire, whose original home was in the Anatolia, in the Asian part of modern Turkey.

Worship of the Magna Mater became Rome’s state religion around 200 BC, and spread around southern Europe and north Africa as the Empire’s power spread. She was served by genderbending, long-haired, make-up wearing, loud and flamboyant priest/esses known as the Gallae, whose sexual antics and bloody rituals greatly upset Greek, Roman and Christian writers.

They wear effeminately nursed hair,” complained Firmicus Maternus (4th century) “and dress in soft clothes. They can barely hold their heads up on their limp necks. Then, having made themselves alien to masculinity, swept up by playing flutes, they call their Goddess to fill them with an unholy spirit so as to seemingly predict the future to idle men. What sort of monstrous and unnatural thing is this?”

The Gallae were not allowed to own property in the Roman Empire, which meant they formed travelling bands, following the army and bringing goddess rituals to the people wherever they went. They were not even allowed into the city of Rome except during the early Spring ceremonies in honour of the Goddess. These ceremonies were based on the death and resurrection story of Cybele’s lover Attis.

Stand by for some very queer mythology:

Attis, the youthful consort of Cybele, was linked to Ganymede and often compared to Adonis and Pan. There are striking resemblances to Jesus too. It seems that the proud Cybele spurned the amorous advances of Zeus, who in his frustration masturbated his seed onto a rock. The rock gave birth to Agidistis, a being so powerful the Gods sent the young new god Dionysis to castrate them at birth. The pomegranate grew from their blood and Nana, a water spirit daughter of the River God, ate the fruit and became pregnant, giving birth to the beautiful Attis. However the River God, Sangarios, would not accept that this was a virgin birth and he sent Attis away to be brought up by goatherders. Attis and Agidistis met in the woods one day and became lovers – a tale full of shock and significance to the ancient Greeks as it involved the reversal of the accepted homosexual relationships of the time. In Greek culture it was considered acceptable for the older male to penetrate the younger in the sexual act. As Agidistis was a eunuch he took the passive role with the young, virile Attis.

Attis, Agidistis and Cybele became a Trinity of queer lovers. But Attis, brought up in the goatherder family, was also due to marry a human girl. Tales tell of frenzied ritual magic in the run up to the wedding, the jealous Cybele sending Agidistis to wreak chaos on the event. The guests go crazy, the bride cuts off her own breasts and Attis castrates himself to avoid the marriage. The castration botched, Attis died and violets bloomed from his blood. Bereft, Cybele took her lover’s testicles, bathed them in holy water, wrapped them in his clothes and buried them in the earth. In the oldest versions of this tale Attis was reborn as the daughter of the goddess. As the Christian religion grew, and as the theme of death, resurrection and salvation took a more central place in religious thought, the Attis tales changed to depict him resurrected with a crown of stars, associating him with the Milky Way and calling him ‘the leader of the all the tribes of divine beings’ and the ‘servant and charioteer of the Mother’.

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The Attis legend was played out on the streets of the ancient Roman empire in the weeks following the Spring Equinox:

15 March Canna intrat . 9 days period of penitence and fasting began

22 March Arbor intrat. An effigy of Attis was tied to a pine tree felled in a sacred grove of Cybele, decorated with violets and ribbons, then carried in procession and set up for adoring crowds to see. The Gallae accompanied the fallen Attis, weeping, and the next day was dedicated to a day of mourning.

24 March Dies Sanguinis The Day of Blood. The Gallae led a frenzied dance around the pine tree, to the music of cymbals, flutes and drums. There was blood – self-flagellation with whips, or using knives to slash the body – and bloody offerings made to the tree. There was lots of screaming and shouting, spectators joined in, some even joining the Gallae initiates at the ritual climax moment of self-castration. Once initiated, Gallae priests would henceforth live as women. There was even a tradition that the newly castrated galli would run through the streets and throw his testicles into somebody’s garden. It was then the garden owner’s duty to take care of the new priestess.

As the Gallae sing and celebrate their orgies, frenzy falls on many of them and many who had come as mere spectators afterwards are found to have committed the great act. I will narrate what they do. Any young man who has resolved on this action, strips off his clothes, and with a loud shout bursts into the midst of the crowd, and picks up a sword from a number of swords which I suppose have been kept ready for many years for this purpose. He takes it and castrates himself and then runs wild through the city, bearing in his hands what he has cut off. He casts it into any house at will, and from this house he receives women’s raiment and ornaments. Thus they act during their ceremonies of castration.” Lucian, De Dea Syria 2nd century CE

25 March.. Hilaria. The resurrection of Attis was proclaimed and three weeks of celebrating the birthday of Cybele began, including the anniversary of her arrival in Rome on April 4th, and the founding of her temple of April 10th.

(ref. https://ancient-gallae.livejournal.com/tag/rituals )

Easter is known as Pascha in Greek and Latin parts of the world, this name relates to the Jewish Festival of Passover, which the early Christians chose consciously as the time to celebrate the resurrection. As Christianity gained converts in the Roman Empire the timing of the resurrection ceremonies led to “violent conflict on Vatican Hill in the early days of Christianity between the Jesus worshippers and pagans who quarrelled over whose God was the true, and whose the imitation.” (historian Heather McDoughall, quoted in the Guardian)

In the 21st century we no longer need to have such arguments. With mystical vision we can see that death and resurrection stories exist for a purpose – to reveal to us the journey of the soul: they relate to the mysteries of ego surrender, devotion to spirit, and inner divinity awakening – as well as existing to attune us to the cycles of nature as the dormant period of winter ends and new life springs forth abundantly.

The shift into the fire spirit of the Aries month, the first month of Spring, can be a tough one. Just like nature, we experience a rush of growth, and it can feel uncomfortable. The longer days after the Equinox bring a sense of optimism, but we may soon find there is pain to express, old feelings to release in order to make way for new, rising stress to deal with as the pace picks up – putting it simply: growing pains. The pagan rituals of mourning and suffering in the early days of Spring shook off the dull energy of winter and cleared the way for a prolonged period of festivities in celebration of the divine feminine, leading towards the summer months. Arguably the Christian holy days of Easter perform the same function. Just as the Spring energy rises, there is a need for some inner reflection, and probably to release some grief and anger, in order to clear our soul energies, attune us to spirit and the goddess, ready for a glorious summer ahead. 

The pagan religions of the ancient Meditteranean and Europe embraced sexuality in its many forms as potentially sacred rites.  Christianity’s triumph from the 4th century ensured the eradication of the popular Goddess rites and stories, to such an extent that the modern LGBTQ+ movement has emerged with little knowledge, and less understanding, of the sacred roles played by same-sex loving and gender-fluid people for many thousands of years of earth history. 

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Canaries in the meth mine

the second sexual revolution has been building since the turn of the millennium

once AIDS had disappeared from our hospitals and gay bars.

dating websites were the start of the cyber game, which gay men embraced with gusto

where drug deals and dates started to become a normal combination in some quarters

gaydar – gay romeo dominated

recon held the fetish market

moving to the darker zones of bbrts – bareback realtime sex

and eventually nastykinkpigs where the doings got deviant and dirty

meth was a rarity at first

but the examples of sydney and the usa could have shown us in London

that meth is a manifest curse

the smoking ban in clubs had an effect

dance floor flow was disrupted

outdoor smoking changed the night out

many guys started to prefer to party at home

where they could also consume sacraments in peace

grindr, scruff, tindr and the ilk

suddenly made partying from home that much easier and more fun

dates could be arranged and deals could be done

shopping for sex, for satisfaction

for adventure or distraction

bodies on the screen

for free or for sale

no love involved

so drugs are what we need

to free the mind, feel the high and find the connection

but there are sacrifices that can follow

like a fucked mind and no erection

an addiction quickly acquired that makes no sense

sex sacrificed to a game of pretence

20 years ago very few gay men injected drugs

in the second decade of the 21st century ‘slamming’ has become common

no need to repeat the horror stories here

gay men are not listening to them anyway

meth high continues to draw men in to the tinaverse

perhaps meth is a manifest curse

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in the consumer age

use me, use you, take me, feed you

men use each other like commodities

and sex becomes a selfish fulfilling of need, a seeking of seed

to temporarily fulfill a deeply felt need:

a gay man ultimately seeks to feel and know the god inside him through the love of another man

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men forget how to love, how to make love without the chem

lose empathy and the ability to care about others

as their own inner unacknowledged pain becomes immense

this manifest curse is a reversal of our humanity

it makes no sense

but is this the future for the human race?

slaves to the machine, manifest in our hands

everyone an object to be utilized at will

the deadly threat of aids kept at bay by a pill:

canaries in the meth mine

obsessed with economics, politics and war

in the post AIDS era

humanity is walking blindly through the open door

of liberated sexual behaviour:

we need to talk about the second sexual revolution

understand the pandora’s box we’ve opened

the canaries in the meth mine

are dying because sexuality is still not understood

a man’s body is a miracle

his love is a gateway to heaven

as loving brothers gay men could be changing the world

welcoming young men into a healthy, respectful, conscious scene:

we need to face our demons to free our minds and hearts

meet each man with love if we wish our sexual activities to nourish our souls

the shame was imposed on us, the guilt and the fear

it’s time we shook off these wounds

that led us into aids and lead into addiction

for we have the power to create a world built on love of man for man

it’s a simple and divine plan

the manifest curse is decimating us

as the manifest disease did before

but healing comes when we embrace every aspect of life as divine play

and drop the constant craving for more

the healing comes when we find queer family, queer friends

with whom our heart aligns and we share the best times

the healing comes when we remember love

is what drove us to come out in the first place

the healing comes when we remember we are spirit

here to live out a dream

we weren’t born for suffering 

we are GAY, we are lovers of life Herself

but we need to urgently attend to our own spiritual, emotional and mental health

in 50 years since Stonewall we have manifested a global revolution

but our community contains suffering, abuse and pain

as we are celebrating our massive achievements in just 5 decades

we must seek to change the narrative told in the world, the narrative about who we are

no longer the outcasts, the perverted, the sick

we are the wounded healers, we are artists and seekers:

it’s time for us to truly claim our worth

and see an end to the manifest curse

canaries in the meth mine:

scouts on the extreme edge of the second sexual revolution

and all of us

need to remember

a gay man ultimately seeks to feel and know the god inside him through the love of another man
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Chiron and the Rainbow

CHIRON was discovered in October 1977, and was at first considered by astronomers to be an asteroid, then upgraded to a ‘minor planet’ or a ‘comet nucleus’.  Chiron orbits in the Solar System between Saturn and Uranus, and is regarded by astrologers to represent the spirit of the Wounded Healer, and act as the bridge between the serious, restricting, personal energy of Saturn and the revolutionary, liberating, collective spirit of Uranus.  Barbara Hand Clow called Chiron ‘the rainbow bridge’, and in this article I am going to look at the timing of Chiron’s transits in relation to the emergence of the global LGBTQ community – taking the view that we queers are wounded healers of the human soul.

“Chiron, named after the first centaur in Roman mythology, represents pain and healing. In a natal chart, the placement of Chiron describes where you are most wounded, and also where you bring healing to others. This primal wound is a source of soul evolution for you. Chiron’s transits bring times of accelerated healing, which are often accompanied by the resurgence of old pain. Chiron is also the bridge-builder and integrator. Chiron has an orbital period of 50 years, so it returns at age 50, making that year a time of old wounds surfacing, with the possibility of healing them—for good.”
https://www.pandoraastrology.com/planet/

Chiron bridges the conscious and the super-conscious mind allowing us to use what we know to expand into something beyond that which was previously possible. Chiron is known as the Wounded Healer. Everyone has some area of their life in which a pattern was initiated very early on, that left them feeling vulnerable and insecure. At age 50/51, Chiron circles back to its natal position in our birth chart, the Chiron Return, and those old wounds are revisited. At this point, we are able to see and understand the nature of our affliction/vulnerabilty/insecurity and realize its gifts that allowed us to function as a personal rainbow bridge of hope and understanding for others struggling with similar challenges.

Aquarius, co-ruled by Saturn and Uranus which Chiron bridges, is the sign of revolution and technology. One example of something that occurred during the time Chiron moved through Aquarius (2006-2011) was the iPhone’s release to the mass market, which revolutionized the way Western culture functions and communicates. Since 2011, Chiron has been traveling through Pisces, opening us to greater spiritual knowing, unveiling long-held secrets that challenge our belief systems, shining a light on our addictive habits and dissolving the boundaries that keep us separate.”   https://lightinmotion.net/2014/02/18/the-rainbow-bridge-chiron/

Chiron is often referred to as the ‘wounded healer,’ but upon closer inspection of his story, he can actually be seen to be a master healer teacher. His love for humanity moved him to take on the human condition him Self, complete with mortality and suffering. In this way he was able to teach the Truth about well being and healing: that in order to be fully functional and whole, we must be completely willing to take on our physicality.

Once we consciously inhabit our body, a state so many of us are hesitant to take on, we can attain personal mastery, and undertake the journey from the lower self to the higher Self. It is for this reason that Chiron has become known as the Rainbow Bridge, the connection between Saturn, representing the outer edge of the physical (3D) realm and Uranus, the archetype that awakens us to our higher (5D) Self.”   https://www.thecosmicpath.com/cosmic-consciousness-corner/chiron-the-rainbow-bridge/

Chiron in Aries awakens your inner warrior. It is the key that unlocks the power of Self. It teaches you to move forward; to stand alone; to be a pioneer; to do your own thing and not give a hoot what anyone else thinks. You have a right to be here, to be yourself, act on your impulses and go after what you want as much as anyone else on this planet! A repression of life force and sexuality can only bring about impotence and rage. Like a plant shoots up from the ground in spring, unashamedly and unapologetically seeking Life, you are filled with that very same life force. Time to honour it!

Chiron in Aries is about personal empowerment. It is about coming to know that God-force lies with you. It’s about discovering your own potency, even if this initially comes through an experience of disempowerment that acts as a catalyst. Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac and Aries the first. Pisces the end of all things and Aries the beginning. Pisces is the infinite and Aries but a singular point. St. Augustine said: “God is a circle whose centre is everywhere and whose circumference is nowhere.” Everywhere is also here, where you stand! God’s centre is you. Embrace the power that is you-here-now. It’s no longer about what God can do for you but about what you can do for yourself.”   https://www.horoscopefriends.co.uk/Current-Astrology-Articles/chiron-in-aries

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The last time Chiron settled into Aries, January 20th 1969, was a few months before the gays of New York took a stand against police harassment at the Stonewall Riot. While Chiron was in Aries the first big wave of feminism spread through the west and the cause of gay liberation developed – Gay Prides began to emerge in North American and European countries. During those years also there were gay individuals who were attuning to a spiritual, magical, healing quality to queer nature. Arthur Evan’s important book ‘Witchcraft and the Gay Counter-Culture’ came out, connecting gay spirit to that of the lost European pagan past.

Chiron was actually discovered by astronomers in 1977 while in Taurus. His journey through the first earth sign of the zodiac 1976-84 was the period in which this pagan/spiritual/healing strand of the queer community took physical root in the form of Short Mountain Sanctuary, the first permanent home for of the Radical Faerie community, still operating today, standing as the mother sanctuary to the other faerie homes that have opened since in Europe and Australia as well as North America.

Taurus Chiron also saw the appearance and identification of HIV and AIDS, then it was during Chiron’s visit to Gemini (1983-88) that knowledge, and fear, of this disease spread around the world.

Due to his elliptical orbit, Chiron spent only three years in Cancer (1988-91), two in Leo (1991-3), two in Virgo (1993-5) and two in Libra (1995-7 with a first entry into Scorpio Dec 29, 1996 – April 4, 1997, before settling there from Sep 2nd for two years). These were the years of care and compassion, when the LGBT community pulled together to look after the men that were dying, to demand rights, recognition and accelerated medical research. This was a period when the doctors and the aids patients learnt to work together, and some of us that were sick grasped that healing was something we had to engage within and for ourselves – that healing is a larger project than addressing physical sickness – it is about recognising that physical symptoms are connected to the emotional, mental and spiritual aspects of our nature, that healing involves addressing all parts of our being, and reaching for a deeper understanding, and experience, of life.

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The new millennium began with the Wounded Healer in the sign of the Centaur, Sagittarius – in Greek mythology Chiron was the leader of the Centaurs, and so is deeply associated with this sign, which is ruled by the expansive, generous energy of Jupiter. 2001-5 Chiron was in Capricorn, then 2005 – 11 in Aquarius.

Aquarius is the queer sign of the zodiac – mythologically it is the story of shepherd boy Ganymede, abducted by Zeus, in the form of an eagle, and taken to heaven to be cup-bearer to the gods.  During the Chiron in Aquarius years we saw the spread of gay marriage rights in some parts of the world, and the anonymity of the internet facilitating easy access to homosexual imagery and looking for sex partners.

In former times the ruler of Aquarius was seen as Saturn and these days it is considered to be Uranus – Chiron navigates the solar system between these two planets: his emergence into our awareness since the 1970s can be seen as part of the enormous transition from the Age of Pisces to the new age of Aquarius that the planet is currently undergoing, and being that ‘rainbow bridge’ between the tough task master Saturn and the revolutionary spark of Uranus, restoring humanity’s link to the higher dimensions of spirit.

April 2010 Chiron entered Pisces, retrograded into Aquarius on July 20 and re-entered Pisces for a long stay from Feb 8, 2011 until April 17, 2018. He returned into Pisces September 25 2018 – February 18, 2019, to complete this circuit of the zodiac that began in the late 1960s, and now a new journey for humanity begins. His arrival in Aries in the 1960s, when he was still undiscovered, coincided with the birth of awareness of a new age, with its emphasis on alternative healing, love, spirit and rainbow consciousness.  What will his entry into the first sign bring this time?

While Chiron was in Aquarius we saw the rapid growth of the internet and social media – and during his stay in Pisces the world has become a lot more inter-connected thanks to this technology. The challenges and limitations of this brave new world have also become very apparent, and as we become more aware of our Oneness with each other and all life, we have also learnt much more about how out of balance the human relationship with our planet now is.
Chiron-The-Wounded-Healer

I was born in 1965, when Chiron was last in Pisces. My studies have suggested that for my generation this Piscean wound manifested as a broken relationship with the spirit world, whether perceived as the religious God or in some other way.  I remember at school we were at first encouraged to be good Christians, but by the time I was a teenager I had given up on God and believed the rising creed that ‘science’ would provide all the answers to life’s questions. I learnt, aged 30, that in fact this was an opt-out, a way of ignoring those questions – in fact trusting the new priests of the modern age, scientists in white coats, instead of the black clad priests of the churches, and still not thinking for myself. But at 30 I was facing death from AIDS and I took the opportunity to get mad at ‘god’ and start pursuing my own knowledge of life’s deeper realities. A mystical multiverse opened up for me – I hovered at death’s door, between the worlds, for a few years, then recovered when new medications came along. I came to embrace HIV as the wound in me that can never be cured – but which gives me access to healing powers, to being a wounded healer in the world.

During Chiron’s time in Pisces my generation has had a chance to come to terms with the wounds we gained early in life and find a place of inner peace. Now in our 50s, we are a generation with a lot of experience and a lot to offer. We are as old as gay liberation, and as the fiftieth anniversary of Stonewall approaches I am one older queer who can see the journey is far from over for us – not only in terms of political, legal and social recognition around the world, but also in the sense of the global LGBTQ+ community finding its roles as bridges between the community and the spirit worlds, as mediators between genders, as teachers and healers of the human soul, perhaps even as peacemakers for the conflicted human species.

For the whole world, these Chiron in Pisces years have been a chance to wake up to the true spiritual nature of existence. The missing element in the modern global emergence of gay and trans people is the spiritual aspect – the history of our service in the pagan religions of the world as priest/esses of the Goddess, also in buddhist temples and christian monasteries and churches, and our place in nature based religions the world over.  Transsexuality and homosexuality have been historically associated with witchcraft, shamanism and monasticism across the planet – and as we re-emerge in a world recovering from patriarchal misogyny and homophobia this aspect of queer nature is what Chiron calls us to remember – to become healers for the planet and its people.

The tribal attitude said, and continues to say, that Gay people are especially empowered because we are able to identify with both sexes and can see into more than one world at once, having the capacity to see from more than one point of view at a time.”    Judith Grahn, Another Mother Tongue 1984

We enter a new era in our history. We enter an era when love and not pain will be our teacher, when joy and not sorrow will colour our lives. Never before on this planet have people lived this way. But after thousands and thousands of years of struggle and growth, we have come to the point in time when all of us fill be fully incarnate in our bodies, fully present as spirits manifesting in physical form. Without our wisdom and our power, humanity cannot make it to the next cycle. With our power and wisdom, shared freely with the tribe of all tribes, everything is possible.”  Andrew Ramer, Two Flutes Playing 1997

The last few years have revealed a lot about what is wrong in the world right now, on so many levels, but also have given many people greater insight or understanding of their own spiritual connection to the universe.  Chiron moving into Aries will bring us an empowering energy and the way to address our own healing needs, connecting them to the ongoing spiritual awakening and evolution of the human race.  One astrologer advises, –

For the next nine years, we must use the Aries traits of righteous anger, self-confidence and putting ourselves first in service of a bigger goal.” https://astrostyle.com/chiron-signs/

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“On a global level, Chiron in Aries is all about healing our ego and our sense of self. This is a time for all of us to learn how to embrace who we are and to allow our ego to work for us, not against us.  This is also a time of self-realization, and coming into a new understanding of our individual uniqueness and what our purpose here on earth is. The fundamental question- Who am I? Will be explored under this energy on a whole new level.
“Chiron in Aries is very physical, so our bodies may also be extra sensitive under this energy, and we may need to pay greater attention to our health. Any injuries or physical ailments may also come to the surface in order to be repaired and balanced once and for all. 
“While Chiron in Pisces was a very gentle and patient energy, Chiron in Aries is going to be a little more aggressive and quick moving.  Chiron in Pisces would have given us time to think, ponder, reflect, and dig a little deeper, whereas Chiron in Aries is all about taking care of things quickly and efficiently. We going to be encouraged to heal and resolve things swiftly and to not wallow in events that come our way.
“Under the influence of Aries energy, we are going to be continually encouraged to get back up and dust ourselves off whenever we get knocked down. This energy feels like a bit of tough love that the Universe is sending our way in order to progress us further and faster.  It is important to understand that healing, grief, pain and sadness, is all part of life, and all part of the experience of being human.
“Our souls are made of unconditional love and we will always return to this place, but here on Earth, we must allow ourselves to feel, and we must give ourselves permission to be who we are.  
“By the time Chiron has finished its journey in Aries in 2027, we are all going to have a greater acceptance of ourselves, and an understanding that our unique expression is important for not only finding our purpose, but for healing on both an individual and global level.”
“We are also going to have been able to clear and release any wounds regarding our self-worth and find the strength and courage to get back up, even when we feel battered and bruised.  Chiron in Aries is a strong and fierce placement that is going to help us all find our inner power and inner warrior. This energy is fiery, bold, and is going to help all of us to reach new levels of consciousness and awareness so we can heal on a whole new level.”                            https://foreverconscious.com/intuitive-astrology-chiron-in-aries-2018-2027